[...]. Every day I would sit there, until I finally saw a ship. I attached a piece of cloth to a stick and waved it, until the ship came close and took me and my ="trms">children aboard. They also asked me the same ="trms">question ='lgc'>[i. e. why my ="trms">children had heads like horses='lgc'>], I told them my ="trms">story, and they delivered me to my country. I had many more ="trms">children with that woman. This is the ="trms">story of my ="trms">children and their ="trms">ancestry.”


moral ="trms">obligation of contemporary ="trms">society
...the king would use the slave girl as muslim men would do='lgc'> = for entertainment of all kinds (in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluding sexual ="trms">intercourse, but not eating them)


relief after hardship فرج بعد از شدت

urdu romance bagh o bahar باغ و بهار

="large lg2" stl="font-size:110%"> (the considerably older) misogynous motif of the unfaithful wife
husband and sife being buried together

='lgc'>='lgc'>--> part and parcel of the ='strcls'>**="trms">narrative stock='strcls'>** talented ="trms">storytellers would exploit to construct their tales

="trms">intertextual references
="lsts lst1">•cannibal black men
="lsts lst1">•the one-eyed person whose one eye had been picked out by a ="trms">bird (a well-known ="trms">narrative from pre="trms">modern arabic and persian tradition, a one-eyed character is taken as an ill omen, whereas here he figures as a friendly advisor and helper)
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>***stock characters='strcls'>*** of pre="trms">modern middle eastern ="trms">literature

Marzolph ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> concider texts as artful creations ="trms">composed by a talented ="trms">narrator ='lgc'>=/= taking texts as the products of an anonymous popular “="trms">fold” tradition that would indiscriminately غيرمشخص lump together all kinds of ="trms">material ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> belittling the creative act of a single individual

='strcls'>*="trms">intertextual allusions (to themes, motifs, concepts familiar to the audience) ='lgc'>: a highly effective narative ="trms">technique for linking new and unknown tales to a web of tradition the audience shares='strcls'>*

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='strcls'>*='lgc'>~._

all the familiar landmarks of your thoughts that you find in somebody else's


عجایب نامه ="nms">ajayeb (doing it here in europe)='lgc'>: the exotic charm of another ="trms">system of thought (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= its limitation)

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">zoo='lgc'>: terrible grounds that the ="trms">child ='lgc'>[= us='lgc'>] enjoys='lgc'> = primal s="trms">cene of conquest (of nation building, of state power) ='lgc'>--carceral='lgc'>='lgc'>--> s="trms">cene of sadistic pleasure, where bodies become “flesh” ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- telegram is all of this='lgc'>]
(="ppl">="ppl">Hayward ='lgc'>+ Borges)

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">child='lgc'>: a primal s="trms">cene='lgc'> = the promise of the ="trms">social, the human, and the future ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>***="trms">child is necessary for the ="trms">ongoingness of colonialism='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>[='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to the ="trms">children in The 100 TV series ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ='strcls'>*white ="trms">child='lgc'>: an explorer of terrible grounds='strcls'>*='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•conscripted labor
="lsts lst1">•enslavement
="lsts lst1">•necropolitical economy
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>--elaborating-proliferating='lgc'>='lgc'>--> productive engines of empire

='lgc'>}='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> how might the effects of colonialism always find ="trms">children enjoying terrible places='qstn'>?


the subtending (entgegensetzend) logic of the ="trms">zoo

sadism='lgc'>: the trouble of enjoying terribleness

(="ppl">Lacanian) ="trms">imaginary ='lgc'>--desires='lgc'>='lgc'>--> coherence (='lgc'>=/= fragmentation) ='lgc'>==generates='lgc'>='lgc'>==> a compromise ='lgc'>: an idealization of the self as whole, between the unbearability of ="trms">interiority and exteriority
='strcls'>*="trms">imaginary is unavoidable, the ="trms">obligatory state of existence (for speaking subjects) ='lgc'>==constitutes='lgc'>='lgc'>==> real effects

="lsts lst1">•Borges ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">imaginary ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a ="trms">world in pieces (="trms">monstrous fragmentation), impossible ="trms">world of ‘that’
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Lacan ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">imaginary ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> tentatively precariously constitutes a sense of self through alienation

(="ppl">="ppl">Hayward > Borgesian) ='strcls'>****="trms">zoo ='lgc'>--constitutes='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a primal s="trms">cene of colonial violence though which fantasy and ="trms">imagination, dragons and unicorns, are ="trms">articulated, organized, rendered as “elsewhere” ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? ="nms">ajayeb pre="trms">modern


="trms">zoo
one of the most ancient institutions
transformed by the event horizon of ="trms">modernity

(Fanon dramatizing) colonialization is animated by ="trms">zoonomia as phantasy='lgc'>: “when the settler seeks to describe the native fully in exact terms he constantly refers to the ="trms">bestiary”

='strcls'>*we='lgc'> = sadism's ="trms">children='strcls'>*

how ="trms">imaginary beings and ='strcls'>*fantastic ="trms">zoology='strcls'>* always carry a colonial logic

biological essentialism ='lgc'>: a d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous and reactionary basis upon which to build a politic

...racial and colonial violence of slavery

prison='lgc'>: anti-trans necropolitical institution
='lgc'>+ its abolition='lgc'>: a critique of anti-black legal/sovereign violence and for the radical potentiality of ="trms">social tranformation
(='lgc'>=/= prison in Orange Is the New Black TV series)

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]trans='lgc'>: an effect of white supremacist thinking that needs incoherent genders to make gender ="trms">matter at all='strcls'>****
='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> when trans becomes ‘this’ (an effect of gender) then it can only serve regimes of power


="large lg1" stl="font-size:111%"> ='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's (expected and a bit cliche)='lgc'>] trans="trms">figurations='lgc'>: (cascading provocations) sug="trms">gesting ="trms">questions without answering them, to break from an ="trms">interpretive paradigm that ="trms">demands solution-making over and against problem-generating


native
a ="trms">zoological term

="ppl">Derrida's blackness (skin color)='lgc'>: unsovereign and stateless, criminal and ="trms">beast

(promise of ="trms">love ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) relinquishing the body to ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]flesh='lgc'>: pre-discoursive ="trms">material, a zone of non-personhood, a state of anjection (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="trms">according to ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward)
anatomo-political)

soma-politics of the body (of the racial-colonial ="trms">category of the human)

carno-political ="trms">question of flesh (under the regime of racial capitalism) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> human/="trms">animal divide
="lsts lst1">•="trms">animals in the afterlife of slavery are rendered as flesh (under the regime carno-political regimes of racial capita="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list valuation) ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's misrecognition of contemporary ="trms">society as “regime"='lgc'>]

genre of ="trms">animal

Gossett ='lgc'>+ ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's argument ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the psychic life of ="trms">zoophobia and ="trms">zoophilia are tied up with negrophobia and negrophilia ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= ="trms">species divides (human/="trms">animal) are ="trms">technologies of race (human/black)


maroon='lgc'>: escaped cattle


typography='lgc'>: domain of style, of appearance, of ="trms">aesthetic

glyph “='strcls'>*”
asterisk
a diminutive star
limb-y reach
a grasping
erring on the side of over-population, over-use, ="trms">excessiveness
“='strcls'>*” can denote a ="trms">database search or censorship
designate multiplication
a disclaimer
mark genetic identity
pseudonyms that have been changed
='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*the star of life='strcls'>*

xenogenesis ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> proliferating ="trms">difference (genesis) built through pessimism (xeno)

Sun Ra (in Space is the Place ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= earth is “nowhere,” no longer a place ='lgc'>[='lgc'>+ Octavia, Delany='lgc'>]) signaled the failed projects of planetary humanist and earthly liberalism, inviting blacks living in Oakland to leave the gratuitous violence of the ="trms">world
afro-futurism is about the impossible, the unbearable, the fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure of the ="trms">world ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> afro-pessimism (blackness as loss, as nothingness)
(mode of ="trms">imagination='lgc'>:) “anti-black racism ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> radical politics of abolition”
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “being (white) is made possible thourgh and with black bodies cannibalized by a racial capitalism and its ="trms">scientific jaws” ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's politically correct and simple fantasy about good and bad='lgc'>]

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='strcls'>*body='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">socio="trms">historical construct ='and'>& constrain
='lgc'>=/=
='strcls'>*="trms">embodiment='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sense of being bodily (pain, ...) ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- my focus has been on this one more than the other='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>**never ="trms">embody ironically!='strcls'>** (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- maybe irony is OK in visual or ="trms">written medium='qstn'>?)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">embodiment goes beyond body (my body is still my body but also not)

="lsts lst1">•to pose
="lsts lst1">•to transpose

in ='mywrk'>my work, i transpose='lgc'>: walk through ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings (='lgc'>=/= transform='lgc'>: performative “true” ="trms">embodiment)
="lsts lst1">•trans="trms">position='lgc'>: a mapping of senses, to change something into another form (='lgc'>+ its foreclosures, refusals, limits)='lgc'> = expressive ex="trms">citation, provocation of ="trms">difference that cannot be resolved by penetration or collapsed selves ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">interpenetration

border crossing='lgc'>: forces and ex="trms">citations of location, of neighborhood

sensation='lgc'>: a com="trms">posite of ="trms">affects and percepts

personal ='lgc'>=/= individual

="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's ="trms">story is shaped by repression ='lgc'>: a wish to be seen as she wants to be seen ='lgc'>=/= ="frds">Sina

="large lg6" stl="font-size:100%"> ="trms">story='lgc'>: act of violence and deception

medicalized legacy of transsexual's self-="trms">narrativizing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">synchronous field of wrong body-ness ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> account

accurate accounting ='lgc'>=/= describe ="trms">transitional sensations

described='lgc'>: forma="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listically detailed trans="trms">positional

post-="trms">animal='lgc'>: the afterward of the ="trms">animal is meat


bumptious coherence of bodies

(neighborhoods) designed to make some vulnerable while others safe
percussed by bullets or by traffic
='strcls'>*threat as invitation='strcls'>*

جراحی زیبایی who alter themselves through surgeries and hormonoes ='strcls'>*to feel themselves ="trms">differently='strcls'>*
(shia in ="nms">iran is islam after a cosmetic surgery to feel their ="trms">religion ="trms">differently)

='strcls'>*changing sex is about changing senses and ="trms">species='strcls'>* ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Foad


depending on my needs, i pretend not to understand

="trms">instrumentalization of ="trms">animal life
surgically changing body


="trms">technique of eschew اجتناب
eschewing a ="trms">nature or culture distinction


sex in pieces
spheres of ="trms">imagination


='lgc'>[='mywrk'>my work:='lgc'>] trans="trms">historical diagnosis='lgc'>: ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading in pieces neighborhoods of ="trms">imagination (opposed to what is available)
='at'>#sleep-walking


web-building ="trms">beasts (spiders) ='lgc'>[webbing ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? weaving='lgc'>: a feminine ="trms">trope='qstn'>?='lgc'>] ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> expression of the body
my fleshy referent 🕷
over-reaching subjects
='strcls'>*spider's web ='lgc'>==propose='lgc'>='lgc'>==> home and territory are of and with the body='strcls'>*
spiders are s="trms">cenes of arachnophobia and revultion
extending bodily substance through sexual ="trms">transition
(arrangment of) sensorial milieu of the self ='lgc'>+ profusion of the ="trms">world
(="trms">trope for fear as emancipation)
an ="trms"nttrm="disturban">urban designer
weaver of cityscapes
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]web='lgc'>: skeletalization of the surface, extension of the surface ="trms">affects of the spider, dynamic threshold of sensibility ='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the body is strengthed) react through a spatial and temporal generativity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> body='lgc'>: ="trms">inter- and ="trms">intra-th="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings of many ="trms">sensuous vectors that relay like the spider in its web ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= cities, web-builders
='strcls'>*center of her web='lgc'> = her touch ="trms">world='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-moves quickly, even uncannily, there/then not, sill/in motion, unsettling/reassuring (seems to ="trms">trap only dust)
='strcls'>*lived-web='lgc'> = optic skin, a resounding connective tissue
(spider's capacities to) create, ="trms">syncopate, improvise
(spider and me in the appartment) we resonate in ="trms">relation to our ="trms">different movements and processes

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">trap='lgc'>: a mouth, a mode of utterance, the “O” curve of lips and throat that sounds out and names the apprehension of being ="trms">embodied
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>***="trms">positionality ='lgc'>='lgc'>~/= ="trms">situatedness='lgc'> = to be ="trms">trapped='strcls'>*** (to speak and receive ranges of ="trms">sensuous input from one's environment) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*our bodies are not endlessly available to intentionality='strcls'>*

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">articulation='lgc'>: speaking oneself into culture and ="trms">history, but also creating a site, a gap, making room in cultural and political fabrications, and finding a tempo, a beat


="lsts lst1">•utopic in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion (sexual, national, racial)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*sexuality ="trms">imagined as political promise='strcls'>* (radical force of nonnormative sexuality) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= (for ="ppl">Freud) sex is regressive='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•trans='lgc'>: energetic and fantastic space between objects

(racial, economic) ='strcls'>**divisions='lgc'> = dependencies='strcls'>**

(="ppl">Lyotard='lgc'>: we must) construct the anatomy of poly="trms">morphous ="trms">perversion, un="trms">fold the immense ="trms">membrane of libidinal body ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">system of parts

irreverent intimacies


thresholding='lgc'>: an intensity that must be exceeded for reaction to occur
“here is my home, i am freshly aware that my body is a threshold, an entry between rooms”

limits (of my body)='lgc'> = energized zones


sadomasochism stitches

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='strcls'>*carnal improvisation='strcls'>* ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- paradigm of performance art in europe (='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to karaoke in KHM, role of my body as medium in the circuit of trans="trms">missions, ="trms">poetically ="trms">imagine the shape of a new pattern)


="trms">past="trms">present='lgc'>: an always ="trms">present ="trms">past in the ="trms">present

='strcls'>*patterns longer than lived experience='strcls'>*

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">history='lgc'>: libidinal tracings, ="trms">erotogenic intensities, psychical cartographies


='lgc'>{ porosity='lgc'> = ="trms">poiesis ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> collapse the boundary between the ="trms">embodied self ='lgc'>+ its ="trms">world ='lgc'>+ others ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> con="trms">situte a ="trms">specific place


="lsts lst1">•puberty='lgc'> = the fantasy that this dis="trms">figuration will make me more myself
="lsts lst1">•teenager='lgc'> = you spend hours before the refracting reflection of your transmutating ='strcls'>*body='lgc'> = your most intimate other='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> enact boundaries, sometimes ="trms">lovingly, but also brutally


(senses are) reactive to the ="trms">sensual abundance of the ="trms">world but limited by ="trms">affected perceptual milieus


='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]texture='lgc'>: residue of un="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolized and ="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolized sensations of animate forces ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> emergence of bodiliness (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's ="trms">rhetoric)

="trms">transitional body='lgc'> = textural body

architecture='lgc'>: the most binding part of the ="trms">communal rhythm

appearance ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= metonymic
appearance allows her to emerge ="trms">situationally as a woman, a gendered neighbor, a ="trms">historical subject


(being under the influence of the moon='lgc'>:) enfleshing elements of your (celestial) environment within yourself and expressing parts of yourself back into the (terrestrial ="trms">social) environment


identification='lgc'>: “i am like you='lgc'> = i know you” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> resolve the divide of ="trms">difference

(let's not make that kind of garden again ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion in Adam's nameable Eden of belonging (='lgc'>=/= ="nms">Cinderella's trans="trms">bestiary)

cross-="trms">species rejoiners
mended spiderwebs


error is (still a kind of) expression


human='lgc'>: com="trms">posites of ="trms">zoo-intensities, animated movements, bio-="trms">differentials


(i always felt like this) my perceptions are refracted through psychic forces
="trms">anxious
uncertain
="trms">paranoid
“is everyone staring at the ="trms">morphing ‘it’ that is me”


(understanding of art in contemporary european performance ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) art='lgc'> = intensifying bodily substance, to resonate otherwise, to feel ="trms">different corpo(realities) through zones of ="trms">transition and ="trms">intervention, provocation='lgc'> = ="trms">responses to our ='strcls'>*capacities to resonate='strcls'>*


...medicalization, recognition, subjectification, ="trms">instrumentalization, and ="trms">responsiveness being with ="trms">animals

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what does the maze mean for the rat='qstn'>?
what a maze can mean='qstn'>?

experimental psychology ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> subjects conform most often to the expectations of their experimenters ='lgc'>[='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they are ='strcls'>*artifactual='strcls'>*='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-='strcls'>*the ="trms">scientists think that the subject ="trms">respond to the ="trms">question that is posed to them, but the subject in fact ="trms">respond to another ="trms">question='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{="trms">question that is addressed to them='lgc'> = protocol to which they are submitted='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they can take a ="trms">position in ="trms">relation to what is proposed to them in ="trms">scientific research ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= ="nms">Cinderella's mice subject='lgc'>]

="large lg14" stl="font-size:116%"> ='thdf'>the idea that (='thdf'>the ='thdf'>assumption that) their subjects could be influenced by what the ="trms">scientist was looking for ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the experimenters tried most often to camouflage the real ="trms">questions guiding their research
="prgrph">-='thdf'>the ='thdf'>assumption that the subjects do not do what they do because the experimenter asked then to do so, but for more abstract and more general reasons ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “="trms">ecological validity”
="prgrph">-='strcls'>*the subjects most of the time not only predict what the experimenter expects of them but they comform to it='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-='lgc'>[they ="trms">responded to='lgc'>] the way in which they ="trms">interpreted that which was expected of them (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- just because they are nice people.) “when the subjects were asked why they did all this ='lgc'>[absurd tedious repetitive='lgc'>] work without objecting and without posing other ="trms">questions, they ="trms">responded that they had thought that is was a test of endurance. and they obeyed because a ="trms">scientist asked then to”

="trms">difference between hypnotized subjects and “normal” experimental subjects

="large lg3" stl="font-size:112%"> ='strcls'>*the ="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure utilized to mask the expectations='strcls'>* (in psychology, far from resolving the problem)

organization of the research ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">scientist distributes expertise in a very a="trms">symmetrical manner


what a maze can mean='qstn'>? ='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>**="trms">translating what happens to rats in terms of meaning='strcls'>**
(drawing on Uexküll's theory of Umwelt) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> open up for the ="trms">animal the ="trms">question of point of view

="large lg4" stl="font-size:112%"> a concrete or lived Umwelt ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the ="trms">animal endowed with sensory organs ="trms">different from our own, cannot perceive the same ="trms">world as we do

='lgc'>{='strcls'>**perception='lgc'>: an act of creation ='lgc'>=/= a form of reception='strcls'>**='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">animal ='strcls'>**fills its environment with perceptual objects='strcls'>**, it constructs its environment by ='strcls'>*peopling='strcls'>* it with perceptual objects (='lgc'>=/= perceive passively)
='strcls'>*the activity of perception='lgc'> = an activity that confers meaning='strcls'>*='lgc'> = only that which has meaning is perceived, only that which can be perceived (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= is important of the org[...]