[...] of white supremacist thinking that needs incoherent genders to make gender ="trms">matter at all='strcls'>****
='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> when trans becomes ‘this’ (an effect of gender) then it can only serve regimes of power
='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's (expected and a bit cliche)='lgc'>] trans="trms">figurations='lgc'>: (cascading provocations) sug="trms">gesting ="trms">questions without answering them, to break from an ="trms">interpretive paradigm that ="trms">demands solution-making over and against problem-generating
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native
a ="trms">zoological term
="ppl">Derrida's blackness (skin color)='lgc'>: unsovereign and stateless, criminal and ="trms">beast
(promise of ="trms">love ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) relinquishing the body to ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]flesh='lgc'>: pre-discoursive ="trms">material, a zone of non-personhood, a state of anjection (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="trms">according to ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward)
anatomo-political)
soma-politics of the body (of the racial-colonial ="trms">category of the human)
carno-political ="trms">question of flesh (under the regime of racial capitalism) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> human/="trms">animal divide
="lsts lst1">•="trms">animals in the afterlife of slavery are rendered as flesh (under the regime carno-political regimes of racial capita="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list valuation) ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's misrecognition of contemporary ="trms">society as “regime"='lgc'>]
genre of ="trms">animal
Gossett ='lgc'>+ ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's argument ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the psychic life of ="trms">zoophobia and ="trms">zoophilia are tied up with negrophobia and negrophilia ='lgc'>~= ="trms">species divides (human/="trms">animal) are ="trms">technologies of race (human/black)
maroon='lgc'>: escaped cattle
typography='lgc'>: domain of style, of appearance, of ="trms">aesthetic
glyph “='strcls'>*”
asterisk
a diminutive star
limb-y reach
a grasping
erring on the side of over-population, over-use, ="trms">excessiveness
“='strcls'>*” can denote a ="trms">database search or censorship
designate multiplication
a disclaimer
mark genetic identity
pseudonyms that have been changed
='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*the star of life='strcls'>*
xenogenesis ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> proliferating ="trms">difference (genesis) built through pessimism (xeno)
Sun Ra (in Space is the Place ='lgc'>~= earth is “nowhere,” no longer a place ='lgc'>[='lgc'>+ Octavia, Delany='lgc'>]) signaled the failed projects of planetary humanist and earthly liberalism, inviting blacks living in Oakland to leave the gratuitous violence of the ="trms">world
afro-futurism is about the impossible, the unbearable, the fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure of the ="trms">world ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> afro-pessimism (blackness as loss, as nothingness)
(mode of ="trms">imagination='lgc'>:) “anti-black racism ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> radical politics of abolition”
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “being (white) is made possible thourgh and with black bodies cannibalized by a racial capitalism and its ="trms">scientific jaws” ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's politically correct and simple fantasy about good and bad='lgc'>]
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='strcls'>*body='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">socio="trms">historical construct ='and'>& constrain
='lgc'>=/=
='strcls'>*="trms">embodiment='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sense of being bodily (pain, ...) ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- my focus has been on this one more than the other='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>**never ="trms">embody ironically!='strcls'>** (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- maybe irony is OK in visual or ="trms">written medium='qstn'>?)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">embodiment goes beyond body (my body is still my body but also not)
="lsts lst1">•to pose
="lsts lst1">•to transpose
in ='mywrk'>my work, i transpose='lgc'>: walk through ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings (='lgc'>=/= transform='lgc'>: performative “true” ="trms">embodiment)
="lsts lst1">•trans="trms">position='lgc'>: a mapping of senses, to change something into another form (='lgc'>+ its foreclosures, refusals, limits)='lgc'> = expressive ex="trms">citation, provocation of ="trms">difference that cannot be resolved by penetration or collapsed selves ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">interpenetration
border crossing='lgc'>: forces and ex="trms">citations of location, of neighborhood
sensation='lgc'>: a com="trms">posite of ="trms">affects and percepts
personal ='lgc'>=/= individual
="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's ="trms">story is shaped by repression ='lgc'>: a wish to be seen as she wants to be seen ='lgc'>=/= ="frds">Sina
="trms">story='lgc'>: act of violence and deception
medicalized legacy of transsexual's self-="trms">narrativizing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">synchronous field of wrong body-ness ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> account
accurate accounting ='lgc'>=/= describe ="trms">transitional sensations
described='lgc'>: forma="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listically detailed trans="trms">positional
post-="trms">animal='lgc'>: the afterward of the ="trms">animal is meat
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bumptious coherence of bodies
(neighborhoods) designed to make some vulnerable while others safe
percussed by bullets or by traffic
='strcls'>*threat as invitation='strcls'>*
جراحی زیبایی who alter themselves through surgeries and hormonoes ='strcls'>*to feel themselves ="trms">differently='strcls'>*
(shia in ="nms">iran is islam after a cosmetic surgery to feel their ="trms">religion ="trms">differently)
='strcls'>*changing sex is about changing senses and ="trms">species='strcls'>* ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Foad
depending on my needs, i pretend not to understand
="trms">instrumentalization of ="trms">animal life
surgically changing body
="trms">technique of eschew اجتناب
eschewing a ="trms">nature or culture distinction
sex in pieces
spheres of ="trms">imagination
='lgc'>[='mywrk'>my work:='lgc'>] trans="trms">historical diagnosis='lgc'>: ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading in pieces neighborhoods of ="trms">imagination (opposed to what is available)
='at'>#sleep-walking
web-building ="trms">beasts (spiders) ='lgc'>[webbing ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? weaving='lgc'>: a feminine ="trms">trope='qstn'>?='lgc'>] ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> expression of the body
my fleshy referent 🕷
over-reaching subjects
='strcls'>*spider's web ='lgc'>==propose='lgc'>='lgc'>==> home and territory are of and with the body='strcls'>*
spiders are s="trms">cenes of arachnophobia and revultion
extending bodily substance through sexual ="trms">transition
(arrangment of) sensorial milieu of the self ='lgc'>+ profusion of the ="trms">world
(="trms">trope for fear as emancipation)
an ="trms"nttrm="disturban">urban designer
weaver of cityscapes
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]web='lgc'>: skeletalization of the surface, extension of the surface ="trms">affects of the spider, dynamic threshold of sensibility ='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the body is strengthed) react through a spatial and temporal generativity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> body='lgc'>: ="trms">inter- and ="trms">intra-th="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings of many ="trms">sensuous vectors that relay like the spider in its web ='lgc'>~= cities, web-builders
='strcls'>*center of her web='lgc'> = her touch ="trms">world='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-moves quickly, even uncannily, there/then not, sill/in motion, unsettling/reassuring (seems to ="trms">trap only dust)
='strcls'>*lived-web='lgc'> = optic skin, a resounding connective tissue
(spider's capacities to) create, ="trms">syncopate, improvise
(spider and me in the appartment) we resonate in ="trms">relation to our ="trms">different movements and processes
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">trap='lgc'>: a mouth, a mode of utterance, the “O” curve of lips and throat that sounds out and names the apprehension of being ="trms">embodied
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>***="trms">positionality ='lgc'>~/= ="trms">situatedness='lgc'> = to be ="trms">trapped='strcls'>*** (to speak and receive ranges of ="trms">sensuous input from one's environment) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*our bodies are not endlessly available to intentionality='strcls'>*
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">articulation='lgc'>: speaking oneself into culture and ="trms">history, but also creating a site, a gap, making room in cultural and political fabrications, and finding a tempo, a beat
="lsts lst1">•utopic in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion (sexual, national, racial)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*sexuality ="trms">imagined as political promise='strcls'>* (radical force of nonnormative sexuality) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= (for ="ppl">Freud) sex is regressive='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•trans='lgc'>: energetic and fantastic space between objects
(racial, economic) ='strcls'>**divisions='lgc'> = dependencies='strcls'>**
(="ppl">Lyotard='lgc'>: we must) construct the anatomy of poly="trms">morphous ="trms">perversion, un="trms">fold the immense ="trms">membrane of libidinal body ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">system of parts
irreverent intimacies
thresholding='lgc'>: an intensity that must be exceeded for reaction to occur
“here is my home, i am freshly aware that my body is a threshold, an entry between rooms”
limits (of my body)='lgc'> = energized zones
sadomasochism stitches
='strcls'>*carnal improvisation='strcls'>* ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- paradigm of performance art in europe (='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to karaoke in KHM, role of my body as medium in the circuit of trans="trms">missions, ="trms">poetically ="trms">imagine the shape of a new pattern)
="trms">past="trms">present='lgc'>: an always ="trms">present ="trms">past in the ="trms">present
='strcls'>*patterns longer than lived experience='strcls'>*
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">history='lgc'>: libidinal tracings, ="trms">erotogenic intensities, psychical cartographies
='lgc'>{ porosity='lgc'> = ="trms">poiesis ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> collapse the boundary between the ="trms">embodied self ='lgc'>+ its ="trms">world ='lgc'>+ others ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> con="trms">situte a ="trms">specific place
="lsts lst1">•puberty='lgc'> = the fantasy that this dis="trms">figuration will make me more myself
="lsts lst1">•teenager='lgc'> = you spend hours before the refracting reflection of your transmutating ='strcls'>*body='lgc'> = your most intimate other='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> enact boundaries, sometimes ="trms">lovingly, but also brutally
(senses are) reactive to the ="trms">sensual abundance of the ="trms">world but limited by ="trms">affected perceptual milieus
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]texture='lgc'>: residue of un="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolized and ="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolized sensations of animate forces ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> emergence of bodiliness (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's ="trms">rhetoric)
="trms">transitional body='lgc'> = textural body
architecture='lgc'>: the most binding part of the ="trms">communal rhythm
appearance ='lgc'>~= metonymic
appearance allows her to emerge ="trms">situationally as a woman, a gendered neighbor, a ="trms">historical subject
(being under the influence of the moon='lgc'>:) enfleshing elements of your (celestial) environment within yourself and expressing parts of yourself back into the (terrestrial ="trms">social) environment
identification='lgc'>: “i am like you='lgc'> = i know you” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> resolve the divide of ="trms">difference
(let's not make that kind of garden again ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion in Adam's nameable Eden of belonging (='lgc'>=/= ="nms">Cinderella's trans="trms">bestiary)
cross-="trms">species rejoiners
mended spiderwebs
error is (still a kind of) expression
human='lgc'>: com="trms">posites of ="trms">zoo-intensities, animated movements, bio-="trms">differentials
(i always felt like this) my perceptions are refracted through psychic forces
="trms">anxious
uncertain
="trms">paranoid
“is everyone staring at the ="trms">morphing ‘it’ that is me”
(understanding of art in contemporary european performance ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) art='lgc'> = intensifying bodily substance, to resonate otherwise, to feel ="trms">different corpo(realities) through zones of ="trms">transition and ="trms">intervention, provocation='lgc'> = ="trms">responses to our ='strcls'>*capacities to resonate='strcls'>*
...medicalization, recognition, subjectification, ="trms">instrumentalization, and ="trms">responsiveness being with ="trms">animals
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what does the maze mean for the rat='qstn'>?
what a maze can mean='qstn'>?
experimental psychology ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> subjects conform most often to the expectations of their experimenters ='lgc'>[='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they are ='strcls'>*artifactual='strcls'>*='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-='strcls'>*the ="trms">scientists think that the subject ="trms">respond to the ="trms">question that is posed to them, but the subject in fact ="trms">respond to another ="trms">question='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{="trms">question that is addressed to them='lgc'> = protocol to which they are submitted='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they can take a ="trms">position in ="trms">relation to what is proposed to them in ="trms">scientific research ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= ="nms">Cinderella's mice subject='lgc'>]
='thdf'>the idea that (='thdf'>the ='thdf'>assumption that) their subjects could be influenced by what the ="trms">scientist was looking for ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the experimenters tried most often to camouflage the real ="trms">questions guiding their research
="prgrph">-='thdf'>the ='thdf'>assumption that the subjects do not do what they do because the experimenter asked then to do so, but for more abstract and more general reasons ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “="trms">ecological validity”
="prgrph">-='strcls'>*the subjects most of the time not only predict what the experimenter expects of them but they comform to it='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-='lgc'>[they ="trms">responded to='lgc'>] the way in which they ="trms">interpreted that which was expected of them (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- just because they are nice people.) “when the subjects were asked why they did all this ='lgc'>[absurd tedious repetitive='lgc'>] work without objecting and without posing other ="trms">questions, they ="trms">responded that they had thought that is was a test of endurance. and they obeyed because a ="trms">scientist asked then to”
="trms">difference between hypnotized subjects and “normal” experimental subjects
='strcls'>*the ="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure utilized to mask the expectations='strcls'>* (in psychology, far from resolving the problem)
organization of the research ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">scientist distributes expertise in a very a="trms">symmetrical manner
what a maze can mean='qstn'>? ='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>**="trms">translating what happens to rats in terms of meaning='strcls'>**
(drawing on Uexküll's theory of Umwelt) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> open up for the ="trms">animal the ="trms">question of point of view
a concrete or lived Umwelt ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the ="trms">animal endowed with sensory organs ="trms">different from our own, cannot perceive the same ="trms">world as we do
='lgc'>{='strcls'>**perception='lgc'>: an act of creation ='lgc'>=/= a form of reception='strcls'>**='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">animal ='strcls'>**fills its environment with perceptual objects='strcls'>**, it constructs its environment by ='strcls'>*peopling='strcls'>* it with perceptual objects (='lgc'>=/= perceive passively)
='strcls'>*the activity of perception='lgc'> = an activity that confers meaning='strcls'>*='lgc'> = only that which has meaning is perceived, only that which can be perceived (='lgc'>~= is important of the organism) is ='strcls'>*="trms">accorded a meaning='strcls'>* (='lgc'>~= ="trms">accordance)
="lsts lst1">•butterfly lives in a ="trms">world of luminous intensities and of odors
="lsts lst1">•tick lives in a ="trms">world of butyric acid released by the sebaceous follicles of mammals
="lsts lst1">•spider lives in a ="trms">world of...
="lsts lst1">•rat lives in a ="trms">world of...
="lsts lst1">•
for a spider='qstn'>?
for a rat='qstn'>?
time, space, place, path, way, house, odor, enemy,,, ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> each event (in the perceived ="trms">world) “signified” which is not perceived except in that it signifies ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ='strcls'>***="trms">animal='lgc'> = subject='lgc'> = a “lender” of meaning='strcls'>***
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]subject='lgc'>: that which ="trms">accords meaning
the object is constituted in action (the ="trms">animal never enters into a ="trms">relation with an object as such) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> meaning does not emerge from the object='lgc'> = objects are not alone in having meaning ="trms">accorded to them
Umwelt='lgc'>: an environment of ="trms">relations
no ="trms">animal can be neutral of another (in the environment) ='lgc'><='lgc'>--if='lgc'>-- it can be seen to be ="trms">accorded a meaning
='strcls'>***strange ="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lures ='lgc'>==make=possible='lgc'>='lgc'>==> types of research='strcls'>***
="nms">Cinderella to the mice ='lgc'>: al="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">luring producer of ="trms">sociality (="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure='lgc'>: enticement for meaning) ='lgc'><='lgc'>== ='strcls'>*="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lures are frequently required in order to convey the meanings of an ="trms">animal='strcls'>*
a human can take on the meaning of ='strcls'>*="trms">socius='strcls'>* (comrade, friend, ally)
a human can learn what a ="trms">socius means in the like of a jackdaw (to be taken for a ="trms">material ="trms">socius)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ‘as="trms">sociating with'='lgc'> = carry out various activities together
you want to be taken by somebody from another ="trms">species for a ="trms">material ="trms">socius (that is also why people have pets) ='lgc'>=/= pray
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meanings are not fixed once and for all, flowing from elementary needs of the organism='lgc'>: meanings are flexible, can apply to other beings, extend to unforseen ="trms">situations, change, and even invent and create new ="trms">relational uses (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- this is what i experience in ="trms">translational working with meanings in ="trms">farsi ="trms">literate in my ="trms">lectures)
(="nms">Cinderella asking) when observing rats, what can produce the activity of ="trms">translating their behaviors in terms of meanings='qstn'>?
one confuses the term “examine” with that of “neutralize” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (Watson, ="trms">scientist) removed the rat's eyes, olfactory bulb, and whikers, which are essential to the sense of touch in rats, before throwing it into the exploration of the maze...
='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> if the ="trms">world had probably lost all meaning for this de-sensed rat, the rat itself had lost all meaning for its experimenter (if it ever had one for him)
="prgrph">-this is the goal of the procedure='lgc'>: search out the lowest common denominator, the left-over, the automation, the behavior that from one ="trms">species to another will render all organisms commensurable تناسب پذير ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- no!!!!='lgc'>]
the tacit ='thdf'>assumption that an ="trms">animal could ever enter into a ="trms">relationship with an object is false ='lgc'><='lgc'>--Uexküll='lgc'>-- (to have in mind) to study the most ="trms">different kinds of ="trms">animals in their ="trms">relations to a maze
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her attic, ="nms">Cinderella in the universe of meanings
an ="trms">epistemological problem ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> it is not straightforward to enter into the subjective universe of an ="trms">animal in ="trms">interrogating it through an experimental dis="trms">positive thought up by a human
='lgc'>[dis="trms">positif='lgc'>: referring to machines and devices. as philosophical concept that has been drawn upon by ="ppl">Deleuze, ="ppl">="ppl">Foucault, ="ppl">Althusser, ="ppl">Agamben, and many others, has been rendered as “="trms">apparatus”, ="trms">social ="trms">apparatus='lgc'>]
maze ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what this particular experimental dis="trms">positive can mean for a rat='qstn'>? how can this ='strcls'>*="trms">traversing='strcls'>* come to be, from the point of view of the rat (Uexküll calls “familiar path”)='qstn'>? how rats in pretending to ="trms">respond to the ="trms">questions of the behaviorists ="trms">respond in fact to another ="trms">question='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-behaviorist's ="trms">question='lgc'>: what is the abstract ="trms">relation of a being, whatever it may be (that which the behaviorists call an organism) to a ="trms">natural object='qstn'>?
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why do rats always touch the walls as they go along them='qstn'>? ='lgc'>--="nms">Cinderella='lgc'>='lgc'>-->
="lsts lst1">•they are haptophiles, they like to touch
="lsts lst1">•they inscribe the course of their route in their bodies in the form of lines, curves, and turns, or even roughness, textures, sensations of cold or humidity
="lsts lst1">•letting itself be marked by the space
='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what do we know about what the body of a rat can sense='qstn'>?
='strcls'>***(from) the why of caused ='lgc'>--to='lgc'>='lgc'>--> entering into the regime of meanings='strcls'>***
the rat does not ="trms">respond to the ="trms">question of learning, he ="trms">responds to the ="trms">question of ='strcls'>*an architecture that constitute the ="trms">world for him='strcls'>*
(how='qstn'>?) the “="trms">animal's own ="trms">world” can (with difficulty) in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clude the human observer as an observer
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