[...] of white supremacist thinking that needs incoherent genders to make gender ="trms">matter at all='strcls'>****
='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> when trans becomes ‘this’ (an effect of gender) then it can only serve regimes of power
='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's (expected and a bit cliche)='lgc'>] trans="trms">figurations='lgc'>: (cascading provocations) sug="trms">gesting ="trms">questions without answering them, to break from an ="trms">interpretive paradigm that ="trms">demands solution-making over and against problem-generating
native
a ="trms">zoological term
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="ppl">Derrida's blackness (skin color)='lgc'>: unsovereign and stateless, criminal and ="trms">beast
(promise of ="trms">love ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) relinquishing the body to ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]flesh='lgc'>: pre-discoursive ="trms">material, a zone of non-personhood, a state of anjection (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="trms">according to ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward)
anatomo-political)
soma-politics of the body (of the racial-colonial ="trms">category of the human)
carno-political ="trms">question of flesh (under the regime of racial capitalism) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> human/="trms">animal divide
="lsts lst1">•="trms">animals in the afterlife of slavery are rendered as flesh (under the regime carno-political regimes of racial capita="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list valuation) ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's misrecognition of contemporary ="trms">society as “regime"='lgc'>]
genre of ="trms">animal
Gossett ='lgc'>+ ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's argument ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the psychic life of ="trms">zoophobia and ="trms">zoophilia are tied up with negrophobia and negrophilia ='lgc'>~= ="trms">species divides (human/="trms">animal) are ="trms">technologies of race (human/black)
maroon='lgc'>: escaped cattle
typography='lgc'>: domain of style, of appearance, of ="trms">aesthetic
glyph “='strcls'>*”
asterisk
a diminutive star
limb-y reach
a grasping
erring on the side of over-population, over-use, ="trms">excessiveness
“='strcls'>*” can denote a ="trms">database search or censorship
designate multiplication
a disclaimer
mark genetic identity
pseudonyms that have been changed
='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*the star of life='strcls'>*
xenogenesis ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> proliferating ="trms">difference (genesis) built through pessimism (xeno)
Sun Ra (in Space is the Place ='lgc'>~= earth is “nowhere,” no longer a place ='lgc'>[='lgc'>+ Octavia, Delany='lgc'>]) signaled the failed projects of planetary humanist and earthly liberalism, inviting blacks living in Oakland to leave the gratuitous violence of the ="trms">world
afro-futurism is about the impossible, the unbearable, the fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure of the ="trms">world ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> afro-pessimism (blackness as loss, as nothingness)
(mode of ="trms">imagination='lgc'>:) “anti-black racism ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> radical politics of abolition”
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “being (white) is made possible thourgh and with black bodies cannibalized by a racial capitalism and its ="trms">scientific jaws” ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's politically correct and simple fantasy about good and bad='lgc'>]
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='strcls'>*body='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">socio="trms">historical construct ='and'>& constrain
='lgc'>=/=
='strcls'>*="trms">embodiment='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sense of being bodily (pain, ...) ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- my focus has been on this one more than the other='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>**never ="trms">embody ironically!='strcls'>** (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- maybe irony is OK in visual or ="trms">written medium='qstn'>?)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">embodiment goes beyond body (my body is still my body but also not)
="lsts lst1">•to pose
="lsts lst1">•to transpose
in ='mywrk'>my work, i transpose='lgc'>: walk through ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings (='lgc'>=/= transform='lgc'>: performative “true” ="trms">embodiment)
="lsts lst1">•trans="trms">position='lgc'>: a mapping of senses, to change something into another form (='lgc'>+ its foreclosures, refusals, limits)='lgc'> = expressive ex="trms">citation, provocation of ="trms">difference that cannot be resolved by penetration or collapsed selves ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">interpenetration
border crossing='lgc'>: forces and ex="trms">citations of location, of neighborhood
sensation='lgc'>: a com="trms">posite of ="trms">affects and percepts
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personal ='lgc'>=/= individual
="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's ="trms">story is shaped by repression ='lgc'>: a wish to be seen as she wants to be seen ='lgc'>=/= ="frds">Sina
="trms">story='lgc'>: act of violence and deception
medicalized legacy of transsexual's self-="trms">narrativizing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">synchronous field of wrong body-ness ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> account
accurate accounting ='lgc'>=/= describe ="trms">transitional sensations
described='lgc'>: forma="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listically detailed trans="trms">positional
post-="trms">animal='lgc'>: the afterward of the ="trms">animal is meat
bumptious coherence of bodies
(neighborhoods) designed to make some vulnerable while others safe
percussed by bullets or by traffic
='strcls'>*threat as invitation='strcls'>*
جراحی زیبایی who alter themselves through surgeries and hormonoes ='strcls'>*to feel themselves ="trms">differently='strcls'>*
(shia in ="nms">iran is islam after a cosmetic surgery to feel their ="trms">religion ="trms">differently)
='strcls'>*changing sex is about changing senses and ="trms">species='strcls'>* ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Foad
depending on my needs, i pretend not to understand
="trms">instrumentalization of ="trms">animal life
surgically changing body
="trms">technique of eschew اجتناب
eschewing a ="trms">nature or culture distinction
sex in pieces
spheres of ="trms">imagination
='lgc'>[='mywrk'>my work:='lgc'>] trans="trms">historical diagnosis='lgc'>: ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading in pieces neighborhoods of ="trms">imagination (opposed to what is available)
='at'>#sleep-walking
web-building ="trms">beasts (spiders) ='lgc'>[webbing ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? weaving='lgc'>: a feminine ="trms">trope='qstn'>?='lgc'>] ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> expression of the body
my fleshy referent 🕷
over-reaching subjects
='strcls'>*spider's web ='lgc'>==propose='lgc'>='lgc'>==> home and territory are of and with the body='strcls'>*
spiders are s="trms">cenes of arachnophobia and revultion
extending bodily substance through sexual ="trms">transition
(arrangment of) sensorial milieu of the self ='lgc'>+ profusion of the ="trms">world
(="trms">trope for fear as emancipation)
an ="trms"nttrm="disturban">urban designer
weaver of cityscapes
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]web='lgc'>: skeletalization of the surface, extension of the surface ="trms">affects of the spider, dynamic threshold of sensibility ='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the body is strengthed) react through a spatial and temporal generativity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> body='lgc'>: ="trms">inter- and ="trms">intra-th="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings of many ="trms">sensuous vectors that relay like the spider in its web ='lgc'>~= cities, web-builders
='strcls'>*center of her web='lgc'> = her touch ="trms">world='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-moves quickly, even uncannily, there/then not, sill/in motion, unsettling/reassuring (seems to ="trms">trap only dust)
='strcls'>*lived-web='lgc'> = optic skin, a resounding connective tissue
(spider's capacities to) create, ="trms">syncopate, improvise
(spider and me in the appartment) we resonate in ="trms">relation to our ="trms">different movements and processes
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">trap='lgc'>: a mouth, a mode of utterance, the “O” curve of lips and throat that sounds out and names the apprehension of being ="trms">embodied
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>***="trms">positionality ='lgc'>~/= ="trms">situatedness='lgc'> = to be ="trms">trapped='strcls'>*** (to speak and receive ranges of ="trms">sensuous input from one's environment) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*our bodies are not endlessly available to intentionality='strcls'>*
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">articulation='lgc'>: speaking oneself into culture and ="trms">history, but also creating a site, a gap, making room in cultural and political fabrications, and finding a tempo, a beat
="lsts lst1">•utopic in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion (sexual, national, racial)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*sexuality ="trms">imagined as political promise='strcls'>* (radical force of nonnormative sexuality) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= (for ="ppl">Freud) sex is regressive='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•trans='lgc'>: energetic and fantastic space between objects
(racial, economic) ='strcls'>**divisions='lgc'> = dependencies='strcls'>**
(="ppl">Lyotard='lgc'>: we must) construct the anatomy of poly="trms">morphous ="trms">perversion, un="trms">fold the immense ="trms">membrane of libidinal body ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">system of parts
irreverent intimacies
thresholding='lgc'>: an intensity that must be exceeded for reaction to occur
“here is my home, i am freshly aware that my body is a threshold, an entry between rooms”
limits (of my body)='lgc'> = energized zones
sadomasochism stitches
='strcls'>*carnal improvisation='strcls'>* ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- paradigm of performance art in europe (='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to karaoke in KHM, role of my body as medium in the circuit of trans="trms">missions, ="trms">poetically ="trms">imagine the shape of a new pattern)
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="trms">past="trms">present='lgc'>: an always ="trms">present ="trms">past in the ="trms">present
='strcls'>*patterns longer than lived experience='strcls'>*
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">history='lgc'>: libidinal tracings, ="trms">erotogenic intensities, psychical cartographies
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='lgc'>{ porosity='lgc'> = ="trms">poiesis ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> collapse the boundary between the ="trms">embodied self ='lgc'>+ its ="trms">world ='lgc'>+ others ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> con="trms">situte a ="trms">specific place
="lsts lst1">•puberty='lgc'> = the fantasy that this dis="trms">figuration will make me more myself
="lsts lst1">•teenager='lgc'> = you spend hours before the refracting reflection of your transmutating ='strcls'>*body='lgc'> = your most intimate other='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> enact boundaries, sometimes ="trms">lovingly, but also brutally
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(senses are) reactive to the ="trms">sensual abundance of the ="trms">world but limited by ="trms">affected perceptual milieus
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]texture='lgc'>: residue of un="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolized and ="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolized sensations of animate forces ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> emergence of bodiliness (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's ="trms">rhetoric)
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