[...]mbody ironically!='strcls'>** (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- maybe irony is OK in visual or ="trms">written medium='qstn'>?)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">embodiment goes beyond body (my body is still my body but also not)

="lsts lst1">•to pose
="lsts lst1">•to transpose

in ='mywrk'>my work, i transpose='lgc'>: walk through ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings (='lgc'>=/= transform='lgc'>: performative “true” ="trms">embodiment)
="lsts lst1">•trans="trms">position='lgc'>: a mapping of senses, to change something into another form (='lgc'>+ its foreclosures, refusals, limits)='lgc'> = expressive ex="trms">citation, provocation of ="trms">difference that cannot be resolved by penetration or collapsed selves ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">interpenetration

="large lg2" stl="font-size:111%"> border crossing='lgc'>: forces and ex="trms">citations of location, of neighborhood

sensation='lgc'>: a com="trms">posite of ="trms">affects and percepts

personal ='lgc'>=/= individual

="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's ="trms">story is shaped by repression ='lgc'>: a wish to be seen as she wants to be seen ='lgc'>=/= ="frds">Sina

="trms">story='lgc'>: act of violence and deception

medicalized legacy of transsexual's self-="trms">narrativizing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">synchronous field of wrong body-ness ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> account

accurate accounting ='lgc'>=/= describe ="trms">transitional sensations

described='lgc'>: forma="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listically detailed trans="trms">positional

post-="trms">animal='lgc'>: the afterward of the ="trms">animal is meat


bumptious coherence of bodies

(neighborhoods) designed to make some vulnerable while others safe
percussed by bullets or by traffic
='strcls'>*threat as invitation='strcls'>*

جراحی زیبایی who alter themselves through surgeries and hormonoes ='strcls'>*to feel themselves ="trms">differently='strcls'>*
(shia in ="nms">iran is islam after a cosmetic surgery to feel their ="trms">religion ="trms">differently)

='strcls'>*changing sex is about changing senses and ="trms">species='strcls'>* ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Foad


depending on my needs, i pretend not to understand

="trms">instrumentalization of ="trms">animal life
surgically changing body


="trms">technique of eschew اجتناب
eschewing a ="trms">nature or culture distinction


sex in pieces
spheres of ="trms">imagination


='lgc'>[='mywrk'>my work:='lgc'>] trans="trms">historical diagnosis='lgc'>: ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading in pieces neighborhoods of ="trms">imagination (opposed to what is available)
='at'>#sleep-walking


web-building ="trms">beasts (spiders) ='lgc'>[webbing ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? weaving='lgc'>: a feminine ="trms">trope='qstn'>?='lgc'>] ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> expression of the body
my fleshy referent 🕷
over-reaching subjects
='strcls'>*spider's web ='lgc'>==propose='lgc'>='lgc'>==> home and territory are of and with the body='strcls'>*
spiders are s="trms">cenes of arachnophobia and revultion
extending bodily substance through sexual ="trms">transition
(arrangment of) sensorial milieu of the self ='lgc'>+ profusion of the ="trms">world
(="trms">trope for fear as emancipation)
an ="trms"nttrm="disturban">urban designer
weaver of cityscapes
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]web='lgc'>: skeletalization of the surface, extension of the surface ="trms">affects of the spider, dynamic threshold of sensibility ='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the body is strengthed) react through a spatial and temporal generativity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> body='lgc'>: ="trms">inter- and ="trms">intra-th="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings of many ="trms">sensuous vectors that relay like the spider in its web ='lgc'>~= cities, web-builders
='strcls'>*center of her web='lgc'> = her touch ="trms">world='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-moves quickly, even uncannily, there/then not, sill/in motion, unsettling/reassuring (seems to ="trms">trap only dust)
='strcls'>*lived-web='lgc'> = optic skin, a resounding connective tissue
(spider's capacities to) create, ="trms">syncopate, improvise
(spider and me in the appartment) we resonate in ="trms">relation to our ="trms">different movements and processes

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">trap='lgc'>: a mouth, a mode of utterance, the “O” curve of lips and throat that sounds out and names the apprehension of being ="trms">embodied
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>***="trms">positionality ='lgc'>~/= ="trms">situatedness='lgc'> = to be ="trms">trapped='strcls'>*** (to speak and receive ranges of ="trms">sensuous input from one's environment) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*our bodies are not endlessly available to intentionality='strcls'>*

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">articulation='lgc'>: speaking oneself into culture and ="trms">history, but also creating a site, a gap, making room in cultural and political fabrications, and finding a tempo, a beat


="lsts lst1">•utopic in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion (sexual, national, racial)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*sexuality ="trms">imagined as political promise='strcls'>* (radical force of nonnormative sexuality) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= (for ="ppl">Freud) sex is regressive='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•trans='lgc'>: energetic and fantastic space between objects

(racial, economic) ='strcls'>**divisions='lgc'> = dependencies='strcls'>**

(="ppl">Lyotard='lgc'>: we must) construct the anatomy of poly="trms">morphous ="trms">perversion, un="trms">fold the immense ="trms">membrane of libidinal body ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">system of parts

irreverent intimacies


thresholding='lgc'>: an intensity that must be exceeded for reaction to occur
“here is my home, i am freshly aware that my body is a threshold, an entry between rooms”

limits (of my body)='lgc'> = energized zones


sadomasochism stitches


='strcls'>*carnal improvisation='strcls'>* ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- paradigm of performance art in europe (='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to karaoke in KHM, role of my body as medium in the circuit of trans="trms">missions, ="trms">poetically ="trms">imagine the shape of a new pattern)


="trms">past="trms">present='lgc'>: an always ="trms">present ="trms">past in the ="trms">present

='strcls'>*patterns longer than lived experience='strcls'>*

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">history='lgc'>: libidinal tracings, ="trms">erotogenic intensities, psychical cartographies


='lgc'>{ porosity='lgc'> = ="trms">poiesis ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> collapse the boundary between the ="trms">embodied self ='lgc'>+ its ="trms">world ='lgc'>+ others ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> con="trms">situte a ="trms">specific place


="lsts lst1">•puberty='lgc'> = the fantasy that this dis="trms">figuration will make me more myself
="lsts lst1">•teenager='lgc'> = you spend hours before the refracting reflection of your transmutating ='strcls'>*body='lgc'> = your most intimate other='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> enact boundaries, sometimes ="trms">lovingly, but also brutally


(senses are) reactive to the ="trms">sensual abundance of the ="trms">world but limited by ="trms">affected perceptual milieus


='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]texture='lgc'>: residue of un="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolized and ="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolized sensations of animate forces ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> emergence of bodiliness (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward's ="trms">rhetoric)

="trms">transitional body='lgc'> = textural body

architecture='lgc'>: the most binding part of the ="trms">communal rhythm

appearance ='lgc'>~= metonymic
appearance allows her to emerge ="trms">situationally as a woman, a gendered neighbor, a ="trms">historical subject


(being under the influence of the moon='lgc'>:) enfleshing elements of your (celestial) environment within yourself and expressing parts of yourself back into the (terrestrial ="trms">social) environment


identification='lgc'>: “i am like you='lgc'> = i know you” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> resolve the divide of ="trms">difference

(let's not make that kind of garden again ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion in Adam's nameable Eden of belonging (='lgc'>=/= ="nms">Cinderella's trans="trms">bestiary)

cross-="trms">species rejoiners
mended spiderwebs


="large lg3" stl="font-size:112%"> error is (still a kind of) expression


human='lgc'>: com="trms">posites of ="trms">zoo-intensities, animated movements, bio-="trms">differentials


="large lg4" stl="font-size:111%"> (i always felt like this) my perceptions are refracted through psychic forces
="trms">anxious
uncertain
="trms">paranoid
“is everyone staring at the ="trms">morphing ‘it’ that is me”


(understanding of art in contemporary european performance ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) art='lgc'> = intensifying bodily substance, to resonate otherwise, to feel ="trms">different corpo(realities) through zones of ="trms">transition and ="trms">intervention, provocation='lgc'> = ="trms">responses to our ='strcls'>*capacities to resonate='strcls'>*


...medicalization, recognition, subjectification, ="trms">instrumentalization, and ="trms">responsiveness being with ="trms">animals

="large lg5" stl="font-size:114%"> ="display:block;white-space:nowrap;margin-bottom:-1em;overflow:hidden;">...................................

what does the maze mean for the rat='qstn'>?
what a maze can mean='qstn'>?

experimental psychology ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> subjects conform most often to the expectations of their experimenters ='lgc'>[='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they are ='strcls'>*artifactual='strcls'>*='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-='strcls'>*the ="trms">scientists think that the subject ="trms">respond to the ="trms">question that is posed to them, but the subject in fact ="trms">respond to another ="trms">question='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{="trms">question that is addressed to them='lgc'> = protocol to which they are submitted='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they can take a ="trms">position in ="trms">relation to what is proposed to them in ="trms">scientific research ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= ="nms">Cinderella's mice subject='lgc'>]

='thdf'>the idea that (='thdf'>the ='thdf'>assumption that) their subjects could be influenced by what the ="trms">scientist was looking for ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the experimenters tried most often to camouflage the real ="trms">questions guiding their research
="prgrph">-='thdf'>the ='thdf'>assumption that the subjects do not do what they do because the experimenter asked then to do so, but for more abstract and more general reasons ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “="trms">ecological validity”
="prgrph">-='strcls'>*the subjects most of the time not only predict what the experimenter expects of them but they comform to it='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-='lgc'>[they ="trms">responded to='lgc'>] the way in which they ="trms">interpreted that which was expected of them (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- just because they are nice people.) “when the subjects were asked why they did all this ='lgc'>[absurd tedious repetitive='lgc'>] work without objecting and without posing other ="trms">questions, they[...]