[...]which inscribes in itself ‘giving up,’ the Aufgabe, it means it is impossible, we take it on as a kind of ethical, political ="trms">obligation, but in the word Aufgabe is also ‘Gabe’ meaning ‘gift’ in German, it is gift and giving-up. ='lgc'>[="ppl">Derrida beautifully asks to negotiate endlessly with the ‘given,’ even if the Gift that is given is poisonous.='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{ we can see how operate but also how they contaminate (and leak into each other.) we might have a sense of three of them='lgc'>}
="prgrph">-="trms">ontology of “struggling” a way out of Aporia ='lgc'>[denotes, in philosophy, a philosophical puzzle or state of puzzlement='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> we can't! ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> we must try to work to locate modalities of ="trms">stagnancy (rokud) without necessarily seeing the Exit. how do we live with these catastrophic markers that mark us='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-Paleonymics='lgc'>: a certain operation ="trms">according to which one continues to put old words to work. The use of a pre-existing word in a new context. ='lgc'>-- we are stuck with old pomping meanings.
='lgc'>--(="ppl">="ppl">Stengers) connecting ="trms">materialism with struggle ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (in ="nms">apass) we are descendants of this ="trms">trope

for ="frds scrmbld">Luiza, the meaning of ‘in="trms">fold’='qstn'>? instead of ‘unravel’='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">interface='strcls'>*
(i want to point out the ‘synthesis’ in her work rather than the ‘analysis’ implied in the term ‘unravel’)



="ppl">Lacoue-Labarthe made ="ppl">Heidegger possible to ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read for ="ppl">Avital
(and that is what ="ppl">Avital does, make a lot of things possible to ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read for me)

="large lg2" stl="font-size:112%"> (to incorporate a) ='strcls'>*="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigorous hesitation='strcls'>* (='lgc'>=/= ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo's “slowness”)
going step by step in the confrontation (essential to the un="trms">folding of thought)
='strcls'>**not turning ‘weakness’ (or ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphorical weariness) into a (compelling) paraconcept ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="ppl">Levinas does it='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-taking on the the big topoi of the day like a warrior
courage ='lgc'>--comes='lgc'>='lgc'>--> from the ='strcls'>*="trms">abyss of needling fearfulness='strcls'>*
='strcls'>*German romantics invented the always-with-="trms">community, a living-with, a Mitsein practice of living life philosophically (full of moments of restricted solitude, pressure zones, etc.)
(office of friendship...) i am friend in a ="ppl">Freudian ambivalence, that means i undermine the friend, try to ="trms">trap him and catch him off guard
="prgrph">-if you are so calm, then i will try to bring you over to my side of the barricade of obsessional ="trms">neurotic (a condition in which the mind is intruded upon against her will by images, ideas, or words. consciousness remains lucid and power to reason remains intact ='lgc'>==> temporarily deprivation of individual of freedom of thought and action ='lgc'>[='lgc'><== ="trms">intrapsychic conflict of sexual o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigin that mobilizes and blocks all flows of energy (in the case ="trms">neurotic a source of pleasure to the ="trms">child ='lgc'>=/= hysteric)='lgc'>])
="prgrph">-when we ="trms">write do we need to de="trms">monstrate a far-ranging grasp of the political consequences of every possible ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphysical move='qstn'>?
...prime mover or suspects such as ="ppl">Plato, ="ppl">Heidegger, ="ppl">Derrida
='strcls'>*acceleration='lgc'>: that we are result-oriented, business-oriented, under the gun of gains, and subject to the push towards ="trms">scientific objectification ='lgc'>=/= i try to work with ="trms">different degrees of attention='lgc'>: slowing down for checkpoints, allusive ="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusters and ="trms">dense indicators, that are also problematic and short-circuited (in my ="trms">lectures) ='lgc'>==> to get to the ='strcls'>*notational space='strcls'>* that we can calmly observe, examine and explore together.
="prgrph">-to be lucid about your own part taking in ="trms">narcissistic economy
='strcls'>*="trms">mimesis='strcls'>*='lgc'>: those things we are still stuck in in very covert and unavowed ways ='lgc'>~-> ‘destiny’ (a term i use when i mean ="trms">mimesis for us ='lgc'>[-a disease that shows ="trms">symptoms characteristic of another disease='lgc'>])
(i am not pessimistic at all) i have just a catastrophic intuition that informs my grammar ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">mimetic hell

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='strcls'>*="trms">complaint (blocks ‘becoming’='qstn'>?)
="prgrph">-so if i am used to ="trms">complaint in all ="trms">sorts and forms and shapes, what do i do if not ="trms">complaining='qstn'>? that means i need to start learning new ="trms">techniques of being in the ="trms">world.
="prgrph">-="trms">complain, forms of protest, grievance, ='lgc'><='lgc'>--(contamination)='lgc'>='lgc'>--> lament (sug سوگ, zaje ضجه)
="prgrph">-dis="trms">positions of Beschwerde
="prgrph">-which minorities are as="trms">sociated with bitching and moaning='qstn'>? (naleh va shekayat ناله و شکایت, ghor غرولند, غر) (a feminine accent='qstn'>?!)
 ="prgrph prgrph2">-it is often said that “="trms">children should stop ="trms">complaining”
“stop ="trms">complaining” ='qstn'>?!! ='lgc'>[='lgc'>~~> pointed to or relevant for ="frds scrmbld">Lili also='lgc'>]
='strcls'>***="trms">complaint ='lgc'>: the disenfranchised (az hagh mahrum shodeh از حق محروم شده) ="trms">language of muted rage='strcls'>***
what is (let's) bitching together='qstn'>?
is ="trms">religion one long ="trms">complaint='qstn'>? (='lgc'>--'reformation’ as a cover-up)
the “i prefer,” non-need, non-preference
='strcls'>*forms of relatedness='lgc'>--in certain ="trms">societies the opening self of ="trms">sociality consists in ="trms">complaining. (starter-utterances; ="trms">social encounter involves nagging about your friends, parents, ="trms">lovers, etc.) ='lgc'>--making friends is via ="trms">complaining. (this is about the conditions of Mitsein, being-with) ='lgc'>{non-affirmation ='lgc'>~/=='qstn'>? ="trms">complaint; we mistake so easily non-affirmation with ="trms">complaining. (is this ="frds scrmbld">Lili's take='qstn'>? her ="trms">complaints about the insufficiencies of being.)='lgc'>} ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> is ="trms">complaint parasitized by calls for retribution='qstn'>?
Klage (="trms">complaint) ='lgc'>--to='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Anklage (accusation)
='strcls'>*="trms">complaint remains a repetitive fixation that feeds rather than exhausting its course (/="ppl">Avital, aw9Cv_wQ4CQ) ='lgc'>-- it does not finish itself off, or move up the ladder of transformation ='lgc'>[important for ="frds scrmbld">Sana='lgc'>], actually increases pain ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> so, (="trms">according to the analyst='lgc'>:) ="trms">complain is jacking up one's suffering (the Analytiker can't take it anymore)
="ppl">Avital > ="ppl">Kittler='lgc'>: the Ach of Sprache, (in our ="trms">historical ="trms">language usage='lgc'>:) ="trms">literature or ="trms">language as ="trms">complaint. sigh in ="trms">literature (also pointed out by ="frds scrmbld">Lili)
='lgc'>--the ="trms">modern techo-="trms">monster Faust opens with the ="trms">complain
='strcls'>**what is then a proper address='qstn'>?
...the wish for more

="prgrph">-do machines ="trms">complaint or lament='qstn'>?

='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luiza; (one of sub-="trms">phenomenon of utterance) ='strcls'>*blush='strcls'>* registers a ="trms">complaint(='qstn'>?)
(='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to be noted that certain white skin-colors considered racistly “capable” of displaying moral ="trms">anxiety.)
="prgrph">-a level of ="trms">affect and meaning that remains at the loss of words, between shame and ex="trms">citement, confession and disavow. blush speaks for her at moment when she cannot stand up for herself='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-or it betrays her with a sudden sp="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read of skin-mapping releasing a secret or indexing a moral blemish (lakedar لکه دار), a pigmentation... (how to ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read it='qstn'>?)
="prgrph">-blush manages to register a ="trms">complaint and it signs off ='lgc'>[con="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cludes='lgc'>] at an unspoken accusation...
="prgrph">-blossoming of senses, cultural significance, who is capable of blushing='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (decency's) ='strcls'>*outrage='strcls'>* (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> libidinally charged, prompting a political arousal ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> still a vitality stirs in the ="trms">complaint='lgc'>--='strcls'>*the ="trms">complaint can bring movement='strcls'>*) ='lgc'>[="frds scrmbld">Luiza's climate of resistance and her ="trms">integrated modality of ‘struggle'='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>**inner life of morality='strcls'>**
="prgrph">-flush='qstn'>?

='lgc'>[="trms">complaint,='lgc'>] is it issued from a place of impotence or does it have the potential to move mountains='qstn'>? (="ppl">Avital='lgc'>--="frds">Sina's emergency supply of meaning)
can it arrive at any destination whatsoever='qstn'>?
‘="trms">complain’ and ‘explain’ ="trms">relationships
(="trms">laughter as a form of ="trms">complaining)
‘="trms">complain’ and ‘politeness’ ="trms">relationships
what ="trms">complaint has to do with our ="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger-management programs='qstn'>?

="trms">complaint ='lgc'>~/= lament (="trms">complaint won't shut up but lament desires its ending)
lament is fined to mourning and loss ='lgc'>~/= ="trms">complaint (resisting a fixed ="trms">relation to loss) seems unable to mourn
='strcls'>*="trms">complaint cannot mourn. ='lgc'>[="trms">complaint as a form of mourning-disorder='lgc'>]
(is mourning busy with ‘continuity in life’='qstn'>? a ="trms">world that is not made of connections='lgc'>: zendegi bi/ba tadavom زندگی‌ بی/با تداوم, jahani ke be ham mortabet nist جهانی‌ که به هم مرتبط نیست)

is any critique not a ="trms">complaint='qstn'>? not throwing something in the field of ="trms">complaint='qstn'>? (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Luiza, ="frds scrmbld">Lili; certain forms of protest dominates their utterances)
='lgc'>--="trms">different ="trms">morphs of civic grief='lgc'>--
(why am i concerned with ="trms">complaint of my friends='qstn'>? this is about checking my own infrastructural concerns about zones of encounter and redirecting oversized libidinal aggressions, ='lgc'>[and pain-relief='qstn'>? ='lgc'>{is ='mywrk'>my work all about (philosophical/artistic) pain-relief='qstn'>?='lgc'>}='lgc'>])

="trms">complaint ='lgc'>=/= staying within the boundaries of ="trms">coded gracefulness
(...credit reserved for non-="trms">complainers) ,,, ((minor scales of)) protest and breaking rhymes (of master discourse='qstn'>?) (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Sana, perturbed by manners of injustice; her libido ='lgc'>[zist-maye زیست مایه, shur-e hayat شور حیات='lgc'>] is at stake)
='lgc'>--when ="trms">complaint takes over and you don't even know if there is an injury anymore at the root of it.
(we are ="trms">traveling behind its possible meaning-fields)

de-shamanization and ="trms">translation /(non-transparency should rule='qstn'>?!)
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