[...]ia of infancy (='lgc'>~ all ="trms">paranoic disorders) (='lgc'>='lgc'>~-> hurt with denial)

(="ppl">Freud's) primal state='lgc'>: ='lgc'>{id ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= ego ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= external ="trms">world='lgc'>}='lgc'>--(not ="trms">differentiated)
one could not lay hold of oneself as other ='lgc'>==> ="trms">narcissism expires
(="ppl">Lacan's) ego='lgc'> = another ='lgc'>}='lgc'>==> the specular ego (in the mirror ="trms">stage) ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">narcissistic
(‘='lgc'>=/=’ ='lgc'>: ="trms">erotic attraction or aggressive tension)

="ppl">Nietzsche='lgc'>: the utterance “I am ugly” created “the beautiful”
='lgc'>[does this mean='lgc'>: “I am beautiful” created “the ugly” (in the other and ="trms">world)='qstn'>?='lgc'>]


="large lg2" stl="font-size:111%"> ="trms">sublimation is passion transformed
or, object displacement, transformation of instincts,
a desuxualization (from primary to secondary ="trms">narcissism) (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what is ="frds scrmbld">Aela's “thirst for knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge”='qstn'>?)='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~='lgc'>='lgc'>--> un="trms">folding into (="trms">differentiated elements of a oneness of) instinctual-spiritual experience. (="frds scrmbld">Aela's) ‘oneness’ ='lgc'>[an o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">riginal unity ='lgc'>+ one hidden and defended against='lgc'>] stays alive as connection='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">question of desire for ="frds scrmbld">Aela is about this hidden linkage.
='lgc'>[="trms">transitional objects, play, modifications of the pleasure principle, genital function,='lgc'>]
,
(noted by ="ppl">="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Christianson">Christian ="ppl">Hubert='lgc'>: for ="ppl">Loewald='lgc'>:) ='strcls'>*="trms">eroticism is genuine ="trms">sublimation='strcls'>* ='lgc'>: a reconciliation in the area of ego development and of ="trms">internalization. (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Aela)
="prgrph">-de="trms">sublimation (of reason='qstn'>?)
objective of sexuality conceptual transformation into Eros ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (asking ="frds scrmbld">Aela with ="ppl">Marcuse='lgc'>:) what is the non-repressive ="trms">sublimation of the resexualized body='qstn'>? (='lgc'>=/= ="trms">neurotic reactivation of ="trms">narcissistic libido)
why Eros is so powerful='qstn'>? what kind of ="trms">sublimation is the culture-building power of Eros='qstn'>?

in ="ppl">Derrida, ="trms">narcissism is the passage to the Other, and not necessarily merely a collapse into oneself.

auto-="trms">erotic solipsism

باطل کردن طلسم ضمیر the ego appears ='lgc'>[displaced elsewhere in the ="trms">world as an effect='lgc'>] as the result of primary ="trms">narcissism='qstn'>?
(batel kardan-e telesm-e zamir) dispulsion of ego
='strcls'>*ego forms in the ="trms">world='strcls'>* (="ppl">Lippit)

auto-="trms">erotic economy

the ego in the island, finding footprints of the others
(="ppl">Freudian protocols of existence='lgc'>:) there is no ="trms">world, there is only islands. ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> multiplicity of isolations ='lgc'>='lgc'>~-> individuation

“In ="trms">narcissism the ego disappears from the ="trms">world and reappears in the ="trms">imaginary realm of invisible ="trms">interiority.” (="ppl">Lippit)

='lgc'>{the ="trms">erotic attachment to outside objects='lgc'>}='lgc'><='lgc'>--="trms">pervert ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">narcissist='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{withdraw, calls it “instinct for self preservation"='lgc'>} (a shortcut='lgc'>: my way of undering my own ="trms">narcissistic tendencies has been through ="trms">perversity.)

='lgc'>[for ="frds scrmbld">Juan:='lgc'>] (artistic) ="trms">narcissism ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? fossilization (='lgc'>='lgc'>~->='qstn'>? ="trms">mimesis)

='strcls'>*="trms">mimesis='strcls'>* is not about form
in order to re="trms">present the character of the ="trms">supposed ‘word’ of another
="trms">mimesis ='lgc'>+ ="trms">techne ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= copy (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Juan)

diegesis ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? ="trms">mimesis
(telling) ='lgc'>-- (showing)
(recounted) ='lgc'>-- (enacted)
='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">poiesis _////(actually a useful and necessary ="trms">difference, synthesized by the ="trms">Greeks='lgc'>--="ppl">Plato and ="ppl">Aristotle)
(...and what about the ="trms">question of the medium='qstn'>?)

='strcls'>*="frds scrmbld">Juan's ="trms">relationship with the (in)dependency of the individuated self of the artist='lgc'>--in this case himself='lgc'>--by means of ="trms">mimetic ="trms">techne is to overcome the visual artist's ="trms">narcissism='qstn'>?

(="frds scrmbld">Pierre='lgc'>:) being alone ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">mimesis ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> through ="trms">mimetic ="trms">intra-acting with the other
(="frds">Sina='lgc'>: there is no “being alone” only ‘feeling lonely’ which is itself a form of ="trms">intra-acting ='lgc'>: ="trms">internalizing an external ="trms">phenomena. “loneliness” is a belief that one has.)

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="trms">narcissism as a ="trms">mimetic and performative mode
transindividual ="trms">narcissism ='lgc'>--Maitra='lgc'>='lgc'>--> movement of the subject beyond ethnicity (ethnic formations that the bio-political processes of ="trms">interpellation ="trms">demand of the subject)
remediation of ethnic ="trms">narcissism

='lgc'>[Maitra's queer diasporic ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading practice of='lgc'>] (in diaspora media theory) performing an identity (that is “="nms">Iranian” for example)

='strcls'>*="trms">intermedia='strcls'>* (='lgc'>=/= multimedia='lgc'>: fuse disparate media)
frictions between ="trms">different media
conceptual ="trms">interplay between media
space of alchemical transformation
(at the level of) conflict of ="trms">interpretations
radical understanding of ="trms">interdisciplinarity

="large lg3" stl="font-size:110%"> diaspora='lgc'>: no longer having a clear answer to “where are you from='qstn'>?”

what might we learn from ="trms">narcissism (from ="trms">mimesis)='qstn'>?
mediate and fracture the ="trms">writing of the self

wound='lgc'>: disconnected event
not adding up to a comprehensive ="trms">narrative of the ethnic self

='strcls'>*ego-under-construction='strcls'>*
="ppl">Freud's primary ="trms">narcissism, we ="trms">love ourselves before ="trms">loving others
(for the ="trms">child) ="trms">narcissism='lgc'> = ="trms">intermediate
(secondary) ="trms">narcissism='lgc'>: the processes by which the distinction between the ego and external object is lost
(="ppl">Lacan) loss of distinction between the ego and its reflection in the mirror
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">narcissism helps the infant in trying to distinguish himself from the mother/other

="large lg4" stl="font-size:112%"> ="trms">narcissism beyond infantile sexuality ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->
="trms">narcissism='lgc'>: structure (='lgc'>=/= state) ='lgc'><== when the burden of desire on the subject becomes intolerable

(='qstn'>?what are new structures of) artistic ="trms">narcissism
='strcls'>*an occasion to ="trms">erotisize your own body='strcls'>*
to ="trms">erotically emphasize a particular ="trms">memory
stitching together of the naked ethnic body

hupersexuality
...those who are undersexed

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="large lg5" stl="font-size:162%"> ='prcnt'>%note on ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Alice,Shariati">Alice's workshop='lgc'>:
how ='thdf'>the idea of ="trms">mimesis came when we were not sure what she meant by “make note.” the signifier of “note” defined itself in a collective ="trms">mimetic semi-conscious way.
(='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? ='mywrk'>my work on how signifiers transmit and transform ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> parasitism, ="trms">rumorology, etc. ... weaker neighborhoods of thought)

="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Alice,Shariati">Alice's notions='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•explosion ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> dance
="lsts lst1">•the “generative” notion in her discourse (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> notion of “active,” and “conscious intentionality” ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a property of human ="trms">agency and ="trms">agential exceptionality. (the metric of) her work/workshop distinguishes the self-aware active entity from non-="trms">communicative receptive entity, ='strcls'>***="trms">intransitive ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">transitive='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{her privileged object='lgc'>}, and that distinction is not useful for me ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right now='lgc'>])
="lsts lst1">•the ="trms">authority of the ="trms">trope “practice” for ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Alice,Shariati">Alice
(what would be a non="trms">mimetic understanding of eachother='qstn'>? ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Juan)
="lsts lst1">•the workshop was not her ‘thinking’ or ‘making’ in process or an open ="trms">question or a not-knowing, rather the workshop was based on her (finished) ‘notions,’ with her ‘indisputables,’ her ‘="trms">literal’ objects; (dance, active, body, ="trms">imagination, practice, generative, creative, etc.)
="lsts lst1">•production of the “I” in her work; (a nasty side-effect='lgc'>: collateral individuation) (when were the moments in the workshop that an ="trms">interesting “we” was created and for whom='qstn'>?)
="lsts lst1">•the problematic ="trms">difference between ‘="trms">literal’ and ‘="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphorical’ at the footing of her thinking (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> my whole ="nms">apass research is about this)
="lsts lst1">•(artist's) ="trms">imagination as a magic wand that can transform things

='strcls'>*what helped me was ='thdf'>the idea of thinking with a ‘dormant ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor’ (in my own work) and ‘activate’ it, in a way that the problems and pleasures of thinking with that ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor is felt. by ‘dormant ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor’ what i mean is an operative word that one is using often and is left un="trms">interrogated. ='thdf'>for example the problems of “landscape” as a particular ="trms">ontological tool for me became apparent only after i committed myself to that ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor in the course of the ="trms">interview with ="frds scrmbld">Pierre and ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Alice,Shariati">Alice. to stay with a ="trms">story, to live its contra="trms">dictions. (and the ="trms">position of it in a sentence)
="lsts lst1">•“it was ‘landscape’ talking; not me!”
="lsts lst1">•why i was seeing ="nms">Tehran as the ‘ghostly landscape’='qstn'>? (="trms">matter of a confrontation with ="nms">Tehran='qstn'>? exteriority of my subjecthood is at stake='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>~->!='qstn'>? the arbitrary ="trms">position of “genius loci” ='lgc'>: that from a genius ="trms">position one can see for good. -how to make myself nonarbitrary='lgc'>--not subject to individual determination='lgc'>--in ="trms">relation to ="nms">Tehran='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> towards ‘="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge’)
="lsts lst1">•what kind of ="trms">material-discursive practices thinking with “landscape” committed me to='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[to explore and feel this commitment (and its consequences) is ‘staying with the trouble’ for me='lgc'>]

it felt like ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Alice,Shariati">Alice believes that people, we, have control over our ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors, but in the course of the workshop there were many occasions that was not the case='lgc'>:
="frds">Sina, landscape ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> optics
="frds scrmbld">Esta, building/house ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">geometry ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> security
="frds scrmbld">Agnes, super="trms">market ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> exchange
="frds scrmbld">Juan, crime ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> arrest
="frds scrmbld">Zoumana, garden (='lgc'>='lgc'>~-> fecundity) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> immunity
="frds scrmbld">Eszter, electronic device ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> closed
="frds scrmbld">Ekaterina, ="trms">zoo ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> objects of care (='lgc'>='lgc'>~-> ="trms">animal ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= diseased .='lgc'>='lgc'>--> objectifying or babying th[...]