[...] distinction between kin and pest, ="trms">nature and culture
what is a garden full of indirections, snakes='qstn'>?

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='at'>#my ="trms">trope-findings, (bi="trms">lingual non="trms">systematic comparative thinking for ="trms">storytelling) (work with ="ppl">Avital='qstn'>?)='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•پیر ="nms">Pir / sujet ="trms">supposé savoir (='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? پیر فلک ="nms">Pir-e falak in ="ppl">Hafez)
="lsts lst1">•غر Ghor / ="trms">complaint (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> shekayat شکایت, and then, khamush خموش in ="ppl">Hafez)
="lsts lst1">•تعارف ="nms">Tarof / ="trms">greeting
="lsts lst1">•transcend ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> darajat درجات‌ (='lgc'>-> ="ppl">Attar)
="lsts lst1">•super-ego ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Div-mardom دیو مردم (='lgc'>-> ="ppl">Nezami)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">NatureZolmat (ظلمت ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="nms">ajayeb)
="lsts lst1">•آبرو Aberu / economy of value
="lsts lst1">•طی‌الارض tey-ol-arz / body scale, intensity and ="trms">excess
="lsts lst1">•نگرانی negarani ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> practices of care



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on Aberu, I became ="trms">interested due to my lack of Aberu in ="trms">presentationl quality and its abundance in other area's of my psychosomatic becoming.
Aberu ="trms">traverses, calls itself in, animates, and exists for later visits.
="prgrph">-when you are devalued by the marked of bi-aberu, you are less tied to the strictures of shame, and ‘your behavior’ becomes performance ="trms">material


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="trms">agency ='lgc'>=='qstn'>? boresh برش, jahd جهد (in ="trms">Farsi), “="trms">agential cut enacts a local ="trms">causal structure” (="ppl">="ppl">Barad)

="trms">agency of ‘hemat’ همّت
hemate shahi همّت شاهی, lavazeme hemat لوازم همّت ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">apparatus
sufi's hemat ='lgc'>~= magic

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="large lg10" stl="font-size:108%"> ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Seba after accelerate manifesto ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='lgc'>: (what is and how can we not pivot on our work) the ="trms">measure of the meaningfulness of action. (="frds scrmbld">Seba's notion of losing hope is because he put himself unconsciously in a cost-benefit analysis='qstn'>? “what is the effect of my actions='qstn'>?”) ='lgc'>[in practice it is difficult to ="trms">embody speculative thinking. we are still in the space of thinking in terms of the probable.='lgc'>]
to do hope-work is about ‘not talking (too much) about the future’ ='lgc'>=/= commitment in terms of probabilities, refusal to treat your subjects as if they were objects of management ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> let's set aside our own hopes, and work to honour the ='strcls'>**hopefulness of others='strcls'>** (="ppl">Deborah ="ppl">Rose)

“And hope is here, all around us. Creatures want to live.” (not in the “future”)

the accelerationists putting things in their cascade of fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lures, (everything sinks effortlessly into it,) and creating a vanishing point in terms of a western saturated temporality. for them the ="trms">present is the time of announcing the news of salvation or apocalypse, and has no ="trms">thickness. (the desire) to step out of ="trms">history, and is made void in the process of realization, ='thdf'>the idea that “everything is possible.” they experience their freedom as universal freedom ='strcls'>* (noted by ="ppl">Blanchot.) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the problem with all male action heroes...='lgc'>]

(is this a kind of “game-over” discourse='qstn'>?)

='strcls'>*time (thinking with ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway)
the sequential ="trms">palindromic time (in Western-related cultures) ='lgc'>[جناس قلب ="trms">palindrome='lgc'>: from the ="trms">Greek roots ="trms">palin “again” and dromos “way, direction”; a word, phrase, number, or other sequence of characters which ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reads the same backward as forward; (un)parsable ="trms">palindromic motifs;='lgc'>]
there are many ="trms">sorts of temporalities in West, but the most ="trms">naturalized and intuitive, ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready-to-hand (and black-boxed) version of it is the “="trms">past, ="trms">present, future.” ='thdf'>the notion of ‘="trms">present’ becomes a (mathematical) vanishing point, a pivot or a point rather than itself a ="trms">thickness, an inaccessible ="trms">past being transmuted into a future that is always to come. ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= the lived time of the flesh='lgc'>]

='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what counts as a ="trms">responsible person in temporality='qstn'>? (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Seba, ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Pierre's “future”)
in ='mywrk'>my work on ="nms">ajayeb in ="nms">apass, i choose to give account to ="trms">responsibility in a way ='strcls'>*to face those who come before rather than to face the future='strcls'>*, this is about a switch in the direction of attention.
="lsts lst1">•="trms">narratable ="trms">memory with named people turned to ="trms">ancestors and moved into dreaming time
="lsts lst1">•="trms">past='lgc'>: quiet country ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> bear the mark of the care of generation, inhabits both living and dying ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> recuperation (behbud بهبود, ramagh رمق)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">present='lgc'>: ="trms">wilderness ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">ongoingness (="trms">thickened with creatures)

='lgc'>[in (my ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='qstn'>?) ="nms">ajayeb's temporality='lgc'>] things come from the ="trms">past and the future ="trms">simultaneously


what i ="trms">respond to='lgc'> = what i in="trms">herit

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="trms">science (in the way that is ="trms">presented) is outside ="trms">history, and becomes simply that which is “the case” of the ="trms">world
='strcls'>**everything that one does is inside time, but that which is acquired (becomes a view ="trms">onto a s="trms">cene) and is outside of time='strcls'>**

='strcls'>***(d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous) ways of being outside of the time of the ="trms">thick ="trms">present='strcls'>*** (="ppl">="ppl">Haraway)
‘-s="trms">cene’='lgc'>: a ="trms">thick ="trms">presence of now, has many durations in it

(='mywrk'>my work on ="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">past tense trans-="trms">species affair) is about those with whom one must get on together, in the enacting of ="trms">responsibility for those who came before. how not to exit time='qstn'>? (= “staying with the trouble”)

trans-="trms">species affair then and now

(in our) multi-dimensional inhabiting of space with critters (you can't only talk about capital, land, labor without having a multi="trms">species affair)


="ppl">Badiou's points on accelerate='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•unifying us around negativity
="lsts lst1">•future of western ="trms">world
="lsts lst1">•="trms">question of private property ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> key of soical organization


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='at'>#work on video series (with='qstn'>? ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Christianson">Christian, ="frds scrmbld">Esta,)
messy short videos (for youtube or other places)
="lstsrd">1. critique of magic in cinema
="lstsrd">2. re="trms">presentation of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge in cinema
="lstsrd">3.
to perform ="trms">past and ="trms">present alarmingly ="trms">simultaneously, to ="trms">intermix the directions of ="trms">causation and influence, they cannot be linear and progressive, against a production of ="trms">present ='lgc'>[="trms">presentism='lgc'>]



='at'>#create identity research center for/with ='mywrk'>my work
="lstsrd">1. ="nms">harem (حرم)
="lstsrd">2. ="nms">ajayeb (عجایب)
="lstsrd">3. wortsalad
="lstsrd">4. erklammern (with ="frds scrmbld">Foad)
="lstsrd">5. san'at-e mojarad-sazi (صنعت مجردسازی with ="frds scrmbld">Foad)
="lstsrd">6. garden (باغ)
="lstsrd">7.


='at'>#what am i learning from Hiwa's Chicago Boys project='qstn'>?
="trms">history, recent region departures, study group, music, jam, more and more people together with their voices and ="trms">stories, faces, sing, play, discomfort in ="trms">instrument, tour, collectivity, sojourn in ="trms">stage, conviviality, cover song,
="prgrph">-when i look at the videos of the project i feel like i want to do or be part of something like that, i want those qualities, i want the way people are looking and feeling like there.

="large lg1" stl="font-size:139%"> ='at'>#i am learning from ="ppl">Kohn that the survival is complicated, from ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway that ="trms">world works by ="trms">excess and therefore filled with hope, with ="ppl">Sennett and ="ppl">Delanda a better account of ="trms">socio-="trms">material ="trms">history, from ="ppl">Ahmed a ="trms">different understanding of psychoanalysis, from ="ppl">="ppl">Barad ="trms">poetry and argumentation, from ="ppl">Scher the effort needed to become ="trms">interested, from ="ppl">="ppl">Kenney that there is no need for a “standard ="trms">language” to describe your ="trms">interventions or to produce a body of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge about your ="trms">matters of concern,

(this is one place that i am recognizing and foregrounding a binary structure='lgc'>:)
="lsts lst1">•women in my life='lgc'>: ="ppl">Avital, ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway, ="ppl">Ahmed, ="ppl">Scher, ="ppl">="ppl">Barad, ="ppl">="ppl">Despret, teaching me ="trms">science and art, attentive modes of ="trms">differential ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading and ="trms">writing, practices of care and concern
="lsts lst1">•men in my life='lgc'>: ="ppl">Serres, ="ppl">Sennett, ="ppl">Delanda, ="ppl">Levinas, ="ppl">Anand, teaching me a non-guilt-driven knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge of ="trms">history and ="trms">past, a ="trms">different mode of re="trms">membrance which provokes a ="trms">different mode of ="trms">response and ="trms">responsibility


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alive ='lgc'>--='lgc'>[='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> dead ='lgc'>--='lgc'>[='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">ancestor

what provokes ="trms">storytelling='qstn'>?

(="ppl">="ppl">Harawayian) inhabiting ='lgc'>=='lgc'>=> ="trms">responsibility ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> alignment

(a split-self at home with) contra="trms">dictions ='lgc'>=='lgc'>=> dealing with ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> this is about ‘ongoing’

note to self='lgc'>: not to throw away the contaminated concept that we have, (='thdf'>for example ‘human intentionality,’ ‘human ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rights,’ etc) ='strcls'>*but to hold on (while knowing how contaminated it is) to any concept (which are always unsettled) until it gets a particular (="trms">situated) job done
(which job i am try to get done with my good and bad concepts='qstn'>?)

where are we headed with our syntax='qstn'>?

“-s="trms">cene” ='lgc'>: the ‘now’ of the ="trms">species ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> pleisto="trms">cene image='lgc'>] also, a sharp change in the graph/diagram ='lgc'>[https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Extinction_intensity.svg='lgc'>]

="ppl">Sa'di, thinking not with the capital T, rather with the flower, with the cut tail of the animaux

competency ='lgc'>+ competency (of ="trms">different ="trms">animal, human, machine, pigeon, etc) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= subtraction, taboo, ="trms">obligation ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> deficiency='strcls'>*='lgc'>]
(additive competencies)

“="trms">excess” is the name of the ="trms">world
there is always more that we don't know; what yet has to come; the ="trms">world is constantly doing stuff; (='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> accelerate manifesto, apocalyptic ="trms">narratives)
(i am drawn to and by ="trms">excess, and i am engaged in it='lgc'>: in my ="trms">lectures, talkings, ="trms">writings, and I take it up also visually in my drawings. my ="nms">ajayeb hypertext search is ="trms">contingent and opportunistic, and its se="trms"nttrm="search">arches are non-="trms">systematic)

in ="nms">apass what my project is all about='lgc'>: ='strcls'>*="trms">loving to tell you about what i am ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='strcls'>* (why it seams too difficult, complicated and impossible to understand!='qstn'>?)
="prgrph">-“to provides a feast of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading pleasures”

holding each other's unasked-for patterns (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa)
taking up each other patterns ='lgc'>[which are sometimes obvious, sometimes cryptic='lgc'>]
(what is the other name of the practices of “string figures” in ="nms">Iran='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>[stars, facts, ="trms">fabulations, “far”s, patternings,='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> all ="trms">cosmopolitical, ="trms">composes the “we”)

="lsts lst1">•a “we” com="trms">positional
="lsts lst1">•an “="nms">ajayeb” com="trms">positional
="lsts lst1">•

="trms">anthropo="trms">cene ="trms">system thinking
="lsts lst1">•feedback loops
="lsts lst1">•thermodynamics ='and'>& 18th century mathematics (='lgc'>=/= hyperbolic mathematics in ‘crochet’ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">excess of surface, ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">story of ="trms">interface)
="lsts lst1">•comparative ="trms">interpretive thinking (a dominant western model of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge production='lgc'>--which i am using!)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">modern synthesis='lgc'>: restrictive ="trms">system theories within evolutionary theories
="lsts lst1">•="trms">systems idea
="lsts lst1">•
='strcls'>*“The global scale takes precedence='lgc'>--because it is the scale of the model.”='strcls'>* ="ppl">Tsing

='lgc'>[title='lgc'>]
Bi="trms">lingual ="trms">Stories for Ajayeb ="trms">NatureCultures
(...="trms">stories ‘for’ ='lgc'>=/= ...="trms">stories ‘of’)

does Brexit and Trumplandia changes the landscape of English use as a ="trms">language='qstn'>?

the image of pedagogy ='lgc'>: ="trms">semiotic ="trms">apparatus (& ="trms">technological) (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ritual of Simpson strangling Bart)


(why am i cultivating the) ='strcls'>*non-inventive ="trms">imagination='strcls'>* (and its anti="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabole ='lgc'>[or chiasmus, chiastic patterns of antithesis='lgc'>]='lgc'>: non-="trms">imaginitive invention)
often we find ourselves inventing everything (in political animation) ='lgc'>=/= to figure out what are we attached to

(in="trms">heriting something ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? being heir to something)

the ="trms">scientist inside me begs me to narrow my temporal scale, choose an epoch, let's say middle ages, choose a century let's say 15th, choose a year, choose a day, a moment, a micro-second slice of the cake of the milieu that you are ="trms">interested in, the instance in the bazar with Halaj in the sun and so on.

(my old school) ="trms">obligatory knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- salon of ="trms">scietific entertainment
='lgc'>}='lgc'>-> (is about creating) proper witness='strcls'>***

the ="trms">tropes i am building in my current research, do they help build a better ="nms">Iran='qstn'>? and how='qstn'>?
="trms">interms of='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•an ="trms">ongoingness
="lsts lst1">•a commitment to a recent future thinking

‘homo-’='lgc'>: stuff of the soil, that figures of b="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right and sunny image of the same

='at'>#="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigs and ="trms">syms='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•games
="lsts lst1">•="trms">technological designs
="lsts lst1">•plots
="lsts lst1">•mechanisms
="lsts lst1">•sfs
="lsts lst1">•="trms">jokes
="lsts lst1">•="trms">jests
="lsts lst1">•

='lgc'>[title='lgc'>]
critical ="trms">bestiaries
critique-="trms">bestiary

belonging='lgc'> = achievement (dastavard دستاورد) ='lgc'>+ violence (khoshunat خشونت)

...the ways we renounce the ="trms">world through the use of the word “real” and “really”

(="ppl">="ppl">Stengers='lgc'>:) weaving='lgc'>: not secular nor ="trms">religious, not traditional nor ="trms">modern, is ="trms">sensuous


='at'>#='lgc'>[nodes and notes='lgc'>]

the emptyland, terrestrial life, ‘per-’ instead of ‘her’ or ‘his’
="prgrph">-the way i started with ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway was through the way i ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read her notion of ‘critter,’ juju (جوجو) in ="trms">Farsi, jako junevar (جک جونور), little life animators often easy and ok to kill, a term in ="trms">farsi for kids that ="trms">worlds for them in particular ways
bio (“qualified life”) ='lgc'>=/= zoe, juju, “bare life” (="ppl">Agamben)='lgc'>: that which is killable ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?!='lgc'>='lgc'>--> that which must be transformed
='lgc'>[="trms">stories of o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">riginary ex="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion and com="trms">position of body='lgc'>]

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the form and function are having too tight fit. no no no!
(cities) being in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusive but not ="trms">integrative

(setar ="trms">different ="trms">technique of vibrato and ="trms">measure for instance in Saba and Ghavami, which part of the finger or body, one works in certain way for one and not for the other musician ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the explicit unpacking of the activity ='lgc'>: what was formerly tacit ='lgc'>[zemni, khamush, ='lgc'>=/= habit='lgc'>] becomes dr="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edged into explicit ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= expressive='lgc'>] consciousness, precisely because there is a resistance, that there is something not ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right for the musician ='lgc'>=='lgc'>=> reconsidering, reexploring ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">technique then again disappears into the tacit realm ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">technique becomes variegated)
='strcls'>**tacit ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> explicit (='lgc'>~= that which becomes available for reconsideration)='strcls'>**

when one masters a ="trms">skill it is about being ="trms">="trms">equipped to address a whole new set of problems
='lgc'>{expertise/mastery='lgc'>: problem solving='lgc'>}='lgc'>=/=='lgc'>{="trms">craft='lgc'>: problem finding='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> when other things become problematic='lgc'>='lgc'>---the condition (in the ="trms">craft work) that when you learn how to do one thing you see other things that need to be explored ='lgc'>[='lgc'>-> ="trms">question for ="frds scrmbld">Eunkyung's drawing ="trms">skills and practice='lgc'>]

="large lg6" stl="font-size:104%"> ='strcls'>*="trms">craft is more important than art(='qstn'>?) (="ppl">Sennett)
...='thdf'>the notion that the work art breaks the conventions of practice, that it is something that makes an ="trms">epistemic break. ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> emphasis on innovation (something new)='lgc'>--that is a reflection of ="trms">sort of 19th century bourgeois ideas of about making art.
="lsts lst1">•privileging the creative act over the ="trms">craftsman act
="lsts lst1">•in innovation the “innovator” is separated from the “mass” ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">craftsmanship is collective and additive ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (in ="trms">craftsmanship) the performance is myself
="lsts lst1">•creativity being a form of individuation or separation (='at'>@the exploratory shift in ="frds scrmbld">Eunkyung's work that ="frds scrmbld">Pierre highlighted)

='strcls'>*** ="trms">craft-work is about additive ="trms">skill; it is about building on what you know rather than throwing it out ='strcls'>*** (='lgc'>=/= capita="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list logic of progress, creativity in the sense that ‘something’ where before was ‘nothing’) ='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a ="trms">different way of building quality (into practices and objects)

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="ppl">Bakhtin's dialogic, to become a ="trms">skilled ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listener ='lgc'>: ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listening='lgc'> = ="trms">response (='lgc'>=/= simply answering) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (when we speak) we give other people talismans that are not (perfectly) clear to us='lgc'>='lgc'>='lgc'>----we penetrate and unpack what someone doesn't have the words clearly and ="trms">response to what they intend ='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “common understanding,” “make something work,”

cooperation is about getting deeper into something

conditions that more ="trms">skills are required (and not the op="trms">posite)

in ="trms">modernity everything seams to need to be ="trms">verbalized. what happens to the un="trms">verbalized, the unprogrammatic='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> can you have an implicit ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right which can't be ="trms">verbalized='qstn'>? maybe no, maybe this is the limit of the ="trms">social...

purposiveness='lgc'>: when you hear somebody go “i am going to put clearly what we all want...” you have submitted to that person (almost ="trms">erotic) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “they really know who they are” ='lgc'>=='lgc'>=> you become a ="trms">spectator to their de="trms">finiteness

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="large lg6" stl="font-size:100%"> who the fuck='lgc'> = theology
how the fuck='lgc'> = ="trms">="trms">empiricism
what the fuck='lgc'> = ="trms">ontology
how the what the fuck='lgc'> = ="trms">epistemology
why what the fuck='lgc'> = ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphysics
why the fuck='lgc'> = ethics
why give a fuck='lgc'> = teleology
the fuck itself='lgc'> = ="trms">phenomenology
fucked up='lgc'> = pathology
fuck all='lgc'> = nihilism

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="frds scrmbld">Aela to ="frds scrmbld">Sven='lgc'>: “everytime you disappoint me you gain in depth” (5 April 2017)

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(06.04.2017) ='prcnt'>%notes after my ="nms">apass endweek ="trms">presentation='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•my implicit focus and energy on the body and its organs of ="trms">gesture that animates us
="lsts lst1">•="trms">loving telling you what i ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read
="lsts lst1">•giving you what i don't fully understand ='lgc'>=/= gift from above
="lsts lst1">•(in ="trms">lecture) to allow ="trms">language ="trms">greet the un="trms">verbalized

(it is about) organizing my ="trms">memory
(it is about) that which comes to (my) mind, and “things” coming to minds
(it is about) the things I am told
__='lgc'>[these are perhaps other names of cognition, ="trms">affect, ="trms">memory, ="trms">semiotics, ="trms">history, in="trms">heritance, ="trms">figuration, ="trms">interface, thing-="trms">relations, huntology,='lgc'>]
__in our shared space where we let eachother in the effect of our ="trms">languages, I want to practice what comes to mind when I stand in front of you and your work, ask myself ‘what else’ comes to mind='qstn'>? in a sense, my project on ="nms">ajayeb is that kind of training

also in ="nms">apass i want “to catch you in your acts”
it is my privilege to recognize you (as...)

asking='lgc'>:
="lstsrd">1- what do I know='qstn'>?
="lstsrd">2- what am I told='qstn'>?
="lstsrd">3- (how getting good at to) explain what somebody else said

="lstsrd">1- the first ="trms">question has no clear answer, what i know is not placed somewhere in me, it is always an ="trms">articulated ="trms">matter of ‘with’ or in ="trms">interaction with, it is a ="trms">sym, changes before i can grasp, knowing is done always with a figure or a thing, it in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cludes all ="trms">sorts of optics and ="trms">technologies, (="trms">affect theory, media theory, ="trms">epistemology,)
="lstsrd">2- the ="trms">response to the second ="trms">question is also not clear, i am not sure what i am told, i don't re="trms">member or hear, what i am told is in="trms">folded in what i know, (when i started with my islam ="trms">lecture series i was testing the waters of these two ="trms">questions and the possibility of staying with them without freaking out of ambiguity or ploting an answer)
3='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#cat's cradle


='at'>#on hypertext note='lgc'>:
i am becoming ="trms">skilled at looking at my notes='lgc'>:
='lgc'>{(1) what are the ='strcls'>*="trms">skills necessary='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= tabula rasa (of the ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reader, of the audience) of the ="trms">communo-capitalism's standard of “user-="trms">interface"='lgc'>--the strange idea that the ="trms">interaction and ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading doesn't need or must not need learned-efforts or ="trms">skills, that it should be “easy” and “effortless” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> fallacy of the un="trms">skilled ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listener.='lgc'>] to engage, ="trms">interact, and get involved with the ="trms">interface, ="trms">data-set, grammar, and ="trms">literacy of (my) reservoir='qstn'>? ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>** let's ask that ="trms">question with every ="trms">apparatus that engages us into desire, movement, ="trms">articulation, ...
="trms">skills ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to become ‘="trms">literate’ in this particular way ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cludes this ="trms">situated ="trms">literacy and ="trms">skills of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading particular to the object of “text” (in that case how do i address my ="trms">interest in the ="trms">pervert ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reader='qstn'>? the ="trms">skills of the unlearning='strcls'>*)
the ="trms">skills necessary for ='mywrk'>my work to work comes with time, attention, and desire ='lgc'>~-='lgc'>=>='qstn'>? ='at'>#="nms">harem (='lgc'>=/= ladies room)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (2) this ="trms">skills of (my) reservoir, what set of ="trms">questions or problems ="trms">="trms">equip me to address='qstn'>?

varzidan, varz, varzide, ورزیده

="large lg18" stl="font-size:108%"> ="ppl">Sennett's ="trms">love for his subjects is extraordinary (='lgc'>=/= iconoclasm, futurism) and it influences me deeply, his voice and care when he opens his reflection, findings, etc.

ok, again, the ‘="trms">skill’ ="trms">question='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•1='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what are the set of ="trms">skills needed for ='mywrk'>my work='qstn'>?
="lsts lst1">•2='lgc'>='lgc'>--> which problematics these ="trms">skills ="trms">="trms">equip me to address='qstn'>?
="lsts lst1">•3='lgc'>='lgc'>--> can i (or should i) not know these problematics in advance='qstn'>?

the bow and arrow ='lgc'>--|)='lgc'>-> ='heart'>♥ in my ="nms">apass endweek (as sound object) was a relic of our shared physical energetic space, the nondiscursive ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> how to keep it in="trms">articulate='qstn'>?
="lsts lst1">•a way to record space, which is always ="trms">social ='lgc'>=/= silenced with no ="trms">agency of the recorder (the “quiet recorder”)
="lsts lst1">•also a playful respective ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading of ="ppl">La Guin, (something that may seem a misunderstanding of her carrier bag theory)
="lsts lst1">•carving out a practice agility area


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the ="trms">question ‘what does X mean='qstn'>?’ is always ‘what does X mean for you='qstn'>?’

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i am following the movement of certain words here

spam ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">internet

spam operates on/with patterns of ="trms">literacy or an existing (in)sufficiencies in known ="trms">categories of cognitive biases that people have

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='lgc'>[title='lgc'>]
“it's your turn now to play”

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(='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa on space,) (="trms">question of='lgc'>:) producing (your) ="trms">presence

="trms">material-discursive ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">semiotic-psychosis ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> her Wortsalad

(="ppl">Bocola > ="ppl">Kohut > Mondrian's bipolar structure='lgc'>:)
creation of universal beauty / ="trms">aesthetic expression of oneself
(='lgc'>=='qstn'>?='lgc'>=> transcend the framework of artistic production)
exhibitionist pole of the self / idealized pole of the self
the grandiose self / the idealized structures
="trms">worldviews / self-images

what is the (diametric, dialectical) ="trms">internal drama of her thinking and work='qstn'>?
(what are='qstn'>?) ="frds scrmbld">Luisa's overarching, idealized conception that lays claim to the validity of her values and standards as applied not only to herself and environment but to the entire universe='lgc'>: (="trms">question of structure)
="lsts lst1">•(pre-babylonian) universal abstractionism ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">embodied knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge
="lsts lst1">•fluid equilibrium ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> movement of Being
='lgc'>[is this a romantic structural attitude='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-and how is she confronted with ="trms">cosmos ="trms">prior to her inscriptions='qstn'>? (="trms">question of realism)
="prgrph">-what is (the mystery of) a ‘being through ="trms">interpretation’ for her='qstn'>? (="trms">question of performativity)

='lgc'>[rea="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listic:='lgc'>] to take possession of essential aspects of the external reality (='lgc'>~='lgc'>-> recreate them in the ="trms">imagination) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">="trms">empirical='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[structural:='lgc'>] to experience the external reality as parts of an ="trms">interconnected and comprehensive whole
='lgc'>[idea="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listic/="trms">symbo="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list:='lgc'>] to connect the (inner) particular to the general
='lgc'>[romantic:='lgc'>] to make (inner) invisible visible

="trms">sublimated gratification of instincts, ambitions and ideals, (homogeneous) ="trms">gestalt and expression of the self, ="trms">narcissistic equilibrium, test its viability, haptic art,

“invisible reality and the ="trms">aesthetics of universality” or a mean by which universal is recognized='strcls'>*
timelessness, wholesomeness, indivisibility, ="trms">aesthetic standards
="prgrph">-pictorial thinking, movement thinking, ="trms">affectual thinking, ='lgc'>{='lgc'>='lgc'>--> all issued by ='thdf'>the notion of “pure” and “purity”='qstn'>? tendency toward idealization='qstn'>? utopian='qstn'>?='lgc'>}

movement (the act) ='lgc'>=/= mobility (the possibility)

(is ="frds scrmbld">Luisa ="trms">interested in='qstn'>?) the immanent laws and essential unity of all being

...step to complete nonobjectivity
...objects with their expression of plasticity
="prgrph">-what is the ="trms">symbolic term in her work='qstn'>?
she said='lgc'>: “space is ="trms">literal.” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the wholesome is proclaimed in the artistic act itself (and not as ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> experienced directly ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">imagined


='lgc'>='lgc'>--> احشايى the ="trms">viscera (ahsha), ="trms">visceral theory='lgc'>: ="trms">affect and ="trms">embodiment, transmissible physical charges, porous bodies,
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa
kP_AfO7Ms4I

how to create a condition in which she can herself later give access to her thinking and making='qstn'>?
="lstsrd">1- propose a curatorial ="trms">gesture of an assembly='lgc'>: ="frds scrmbld">Luisa, Mondrian, Zen master, Malevich; with ="ppl">Bocola and ="ppl">Ahmed;
="lstsrd">2- to open an investigation of ="trms">affective economies for her='lgc'>: abstraction, constructivism, idealism, ="trms">figurative empathy, ="trms">symbolism, longing,
="lstsrd">3-
="lstsrd">4-

(psychoanalysis ='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa='lgc'>] allows us to see that) ='strcls'>*emotionality involves movement='strcls'>*
as="trms">sociations whereby “feeling” take us across ="trms">different levels of signification, not all of which can be admitted in the ="trms">present. (='lgc'>+="ppl">Ahmed)
="prgrph">-emotions move back and forth (="trms">past as="trms">sociations, repression traces on ="trms">present) and sideways (sticky as="trms">sociations between figures and signs) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> something as the cause of a feeling in someone ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “involving ="trms">relationships of ='strcls'>*="trms">difference and displacement='strcls'>*='lgc'>{as the form or ="trms">language of the unconscious='lgc'>} without ="trms">positive value” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">affective economies ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{="trms">social, ="trms">material, psychic='lgc'>}

='lgc'>{ psychoanalysis='lgc'> = "absent ="trms">presence” of ="trms">historicity='lgc'>='lgc'>-->(sideways movement of feelings) ='lgc'>}='lgc'>==offers='lgc'>=='lgc'>=> a theory of emotion as economy='strcls'>***
="prgrph">-by economy, ="ppl">Ahmed means, like capital (is about the movement of commodities and money='strcls'>*), an effect of its circulation (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Luisa)
="prgrph">-the subject is one nodal point in the economy ='lgc'>=/= subject as its o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigin and destination

='strcls'>**the movement between signs converts into ="trms">affect
feeling ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> fetish commodity

in ="ppl">Freudian model, the movement between objects is ="trms">intrapsychic ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> trace of how ="trms">histories remain alive in the ="trms">present='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>[regarding ="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">histories, ="trms">histories that “stick” and which does not need to be declared, ='at'>#fohshe heyuan/heyvan فحش حیوان/حیوون sideways movements...='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-(="nms">ajayeb's) ="trms">past ="trms">histories of naming

objects, the ="trms">author of emotions



(how) emotions align subjects

_“surfacing” of individual_

(="ppl">Ahmed sug="trms">gests that) emotions are not simply “within” nor “without” but that they create the very effect of the surfaces or boundaries of bodies and ="trms">worlds.

="trms">narrative='lgc'> = production of the ordinary


="large lg14" stl="font-size:125%"> ="lsts lst1">•(which crimes against persons become crimes against place='qstn'>? -‘us’-)
="lsts lst1">•“body of the nation”
="lsts lst1">•s="trms">cene of “our injury” (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> also in ="nms">Iran='lgc'>: “our” ="trms">historical injury)
="lsts lst1">•(the fucking) ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right to defense ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ‘home’ itself becomes to be mobilized as a defense against terror, becomes transformed into the ="trms">symbolic space of the nation ='at'>#='lgc'>[='thdf'>example of when the approach (to/by objects) itself becomes a fetish object='strcls'>*='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “staying at home”='lgc'>: a f[...]