[...]ceived but misconstructed, and which becomes attached to another idea. ='lgc'>[can i say that ='mywrk'>my work in ="nms">ajayeb, which i named it as ‘organizing my ="trms">memory, and also, that which comes to mind’ is all about this reconstruction of cognizeds and percepts='qstn'>? is that why i am having less and less unconsciousness in my daily life='qstn'>?!='lgc'>])
="prgrph">-cognizant agah آگاه
="prgrph">-in ="ppl">Freud's model of unconsciousness, the ="trms">affect itself is not repressed, rather, what is repressed is the idea to which the ="trms">affect was attached ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> displacement

(="ppl">Lacan's) subject='lgc'>: proper s="trms">cene of absence and loss='strcls'>*
a theory of the subject that the locus of the signifier settles ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> constitution of the subject as “settlement”

(='lgc'>[what is='qstn'>?='lgc'>] ="frds scrmbld">Eszter's ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right and will to keep looking for signs of ="trms">difference. ='lgc'>--when she was talking about idio="trms">syncrasies of her countries)
='strcls'>*='lgc'>[with ="frds scrmbld">Eszter's “the nation has suffered enough!"='lgc'>] ='lgc'>--="ppl">Lezra='lgc'>='lgc'>--> politics in a sense is precisely concerned with what is or is not ='strcls'>*enough='strcls'>*
“it's enough!” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#="trms">demand something or before which I make a claim. it is practical (even ="trms">technical) or is dealing with being practical
the haunting modifier of “enough”
the ='strcls'>*amount='strcls'>* of something (-of suffering in this case) ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- “That's enough coffee”
="prgrph">-we are dealing with ="trms">materiality and ="trms">measure
='lgc'>{has that anything to do with the enough of ="frds scrmbld">Ekaterina's “good-enough mothers”='qstn'>?='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> true enough-ness for an effect to be achieved

model of emotion ='lgc'>==> ="trms">materialization of bodies

="large lg2" stl="font-size:111%"> (emotions construct) bodies as ‘enveloped’

in standard psychological model, fear ‘has’ an object
='strcls'>*(="ppl">Ahmed's) fear='lgc'>: “passing by” (='lgc'>=/= arriving) of the object, impossibility of containment of object

="trms">anxiety is an approach to objects ='lgc'>=/= fear is an object's approach

in ="ppl">Freud='lgc'>: self is made by the fear of father


="ppl">Ahmed's model of ‘impact of fear’
fear does not leat to containment but an expansion ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> his/her embrace of the ="trms">world
="lsts lst1">•being sealed into a body that takes up less space!
='strcls'>**fear works to restrict some bodies through the movement or expansion of others='strcls'>** (="trms">interesting for ="frds scrmbld">Mona's work)
='lgc'>[structural possibility:='lgc'>] proximity of fear-object ='lgc'>--is='lgc'>='lgc'>--> possibility of future injury

impressions of coherence, “sticking together”
(that is perhaps why ="trms">dictionaries and ="trms">bestiaries are ="trms">interesting='lgc'>: because their elements do not “stick together” in the sense of an ="trms">affective economy ='lgc'>[of inquiry and ="trms">narrative='lgc'>] ='at'>#="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">lists)


="trms">ontology of insecurity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (naratives of) crisis ='lgc'>==> “return” (to values) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> fetish
="prgrph">-production of crisis is crucial for insecurity
="prgrph">-declaration/announcement of ='strcls'>*crisis='strcls'>* ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reads the fact/figure/event and transforms is into a fetish object that then acquires a life of its own
="prgrph">-it must be presumed that things are not secure, in and of themselves, in order to justify the imperative to make things secure (again)='lgc'>='lgc'>-->(the word “again” in the ="trms">rhetoric of safty becomes itself the fetish object with its own life)
='lgc'>[security is bound up with “the not (me/us)"='lgc'>]

being invaded by inappropriate others ='lgc'>[in ="trms">histories of ="nms">Iranian modes of ="trms">intersubjectivity='lgc'>: ‘being invaded by the appropriate other’ ='lgc'>='lgc'>~=='qstn'>? being of Tasavof, ='at'>#slave manifesto, let me know if you want me to kill your master.='lgc'>]

(in the 1999 film Matrix we see the image of the ‘strengthening the will’ of the human ="trms">community in the face of the nunhuman machine others='lgc'>: Matrix ='lgc'>==> “us”)
(Matrix's) narative logic of an ="trms">internal strength being ="trms">posited as ="trms">responsible for recovery, survival, and moving forward of the human race. (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Maarten, displacements of weakness and strength)

values that garantee survival
="trms">technologies that garantee survival
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they become moral


those who____
speak (against) the “truth” of the ="trms">world, cause the “ruin” of the ="trms">world

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say your name before talking
it's a Q and A, a ="trms">lecture
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> it is a violent day
asking for your name is intrusive enough, even before asking where you come from ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#estizah='lgc'>]


(learning from ="ppl">Heidegger='lgc'>:) abbreviation is al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready an effect of ="trms">technology
case of Germany specially
and persian san'at (صنعت ="trms">techniques and ="trms">technologies) of subject-making
="lsts lst1">•‘is’ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> information ="trms">system
="lsts lst1">•‘ich’ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> intangible cultural ="trms">heritage


="large lg3" stl="font-size:111%"> ='lgc'>[='at'>#contract, concerning modalities of being-with:='lgc'>] ="trms">anxiety, Sorge, (='lgc'>~ care='qstn'>?) is ='strcls'>*disclosive='strcls'>*, for ="ppl">Heidegger, is an ="trms">ontologically fundamental mood that opens you up to the possibility of understanding, ="trms">anxiety is the leading mood that allows understanding
(in ="ppl">Heidegger) ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'>==> understanding
(in ="trms">Farsi) negarani نگرانی ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> vision بینندگی ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> basirat بصیرت ='lgc'>==> ta'amol تأمل (modalities of meditation and speculation)
(in psychoanalysis) ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'>=/= fear
(in capitalism) ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> boredom ='lgc'>==> capital
(in settler white colonialism) ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'>==> safty
(in ="ppl">Ahmed) ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> approach to objects
(in ="ppl">Ahmed) fear/="trms">anxiety ='lgc'>==> effect of “that which I am not”

(ghol قول, gharar قرار, gharardad قرارداد ='lgc'>[='lgc'>~ that which is promised by the ghol='lgc'>], ghovate ghalb قوت قلب) contracts also come to reassure, otherwise we might be in the radically open space of psychosis.
='strcls'>***contracts, they disambiguate the space='strcls'>***
='lgc'>{='lgc'>+='lgc'>} (pointed out by ="ppl">Derrida='lgc'>:) “contract” is less terrorizing than assuming that there is something ="trms">natural that binds us... (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa) contract is a non-="trms">natural conventional object. (the textual ="trms">nature of contracts allows it to be ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read, ="trms">written, re="trms">written, reformatted and rearranged.)='prcnt'>%='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{ontic ='and'>& ="trms">ontologic='lgc'>}
="lsts lst1">•what kinds of violations does the contract capaciously in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cludes in itself='qstn'>?
="lsts lst1">•there is nothing ="trms">natural about here and us being here. (spatiotemporally clock tells us not only what time it is, but also where and who we are='lgc'>: how “time-teller” is spatially architecturally phallically ="trms">positioned='lgc'>: in the center, on the top, wrapped around the body, and so on.)


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='lgc'>[="nms">apass opening week 08.05.2017, (my ="trms">response to) what is “artistic research”='qstn'>?='lgc'>] artistic research is a fancy way of transforming your “weird feelings” about the ="trms">world into an “inquiry,” so to say, and at the same time resist to be faithful to standard accounts of what counts as a “="trms">serious knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge claim.” So it in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cludes a lot of messy thinking-feeling, ="trms">embodied practices, ="trms">affects, ="trms">poeticity, semi-="trms">scientific work, magic, ="trms">data collection, mutative ="trms">interpretative ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading, forgetting things, detours, rituals, dead-ends, ="trms">writing under the influence of scarce foreign obscure philosophies, ="trms">literary ="trms">drugs, and boldly using ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors from ="trms">different disciplines of “study” that one can find. So, on the one hand, it is a term, invented to indicate a “fluid ="trms">modern personality” within a turn in humanity studies that opens up to ‘what an artist al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready knows’ or ‘what an artist is allowed not to know’ within their ="trms">specific ="trms">historically ="trms">situated set of tools. And, on the other hand, it indicates an important shift in the education of art, in which the attitude of the artist changes='lgc'>: instead of making things into a “resource” for artistic creation, rather making things into a “topic.” That means a whole new set of ="trms">relationalities and new forms of attention need to be learned and cultivated, which were ="trms">historically often absent in the education of art.


="prgrph">-i want to bring a circus inside ='lgc'>{='lgc'>='lgc'>--> within='lgc'>}
="prgrph">-my business still with ="trms">aesthetics (my own image) (="trms">narcissistic stuff...)
="prgrph">-to show up as a guy, castrated and very advanced (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> you can only come up castrated unless you are extremely advanced, ='at'>#="nms">harem stuff)
="prgrph">-i am trying to come forward with all the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigor and ="trms">rhetorics available to me

the death score

="large lg5" stl="font-size:151%"> ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo correcting his proper name in my mouth. (sig="trms">nature='lgc'>: master of your name ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> master of your house)
="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo named his future projection='lgc'>: “Empathos="trms">cene”
='lgc'>[sometimes your name is the first doorkeeper (as in ="ppl">Kafka'a Turhüter)='lgc'>]

="frds scrmbld">Eszter's ‘what is there as an obstacle to the freedom of man (='qstn'>?)’ (="trms">question marked by me)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the spatial ="trms">gesture of the ‘stop’ (='at'>#="frds scrmbld">Selma)

="frds scrmbld">Maarten's version of confusion (stated by himself) is due to that='lgc'>: the messianic horizon is essentially confusing (='qstn'>?)
his auto="trms">poiesis and cognitions

="frds scrmbld">Nicolas's notion of “leaking” has to do with marginal non-textual non-accounted-for moments that bleed in absolute non-contractual and non-appropriable event='qstn'>? (the so-called moment when we show things to each other)
="lsts lst1">•his ‘climate of creativity'='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~='lgc'>~_='lgc'>[what does[...]