[...]architecturally phallically ="trms">positioned='lgc'>: in the center, on the top, wrapped around the body, and so on.)
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='lgc'>[="nms">apass opening week 08.05.2017, (my ="trms">response to) what is “artistic research”='qstn'>?='lgc'>] artistic research is a fancy way of transforming your “weird feelings” about the ="trms">world into an “inquiry,” so to say, and at the same time resist to be faithful to standard accounts of what counts as a “="trms">serious knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge claim.” So it in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cludes a lot of messy thinking-feeling, ="trms">embodied practices, ="trms">affects, ="trms">poeticity, semi-="trms">scientific work, magic, ="trms">data collection, mutative ="trms">interpretative ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading, forgetting things, detours, rituals, dead-ends, ="trms">writing under the influence of scarce foreign obscure philosophies, ="trms">literary ="trms">drugs, and boldly using ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors from ="trms">different disciplines of “study” that one can find. So, on the one hand, it is a term, invented to indicate a “fluid ="trms">modern personality” within a turn in humanity studies that opens up to ‘what an artist al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready knows’ or ‘what an artist is allowed not to know’ within their ="trms">specific ="trms">historically ="trms">situated set of tools. And, on the other hand, it indicates an important shift in the education of art, in which the attitude of the artist changes='lgc'>: instead of making things into a “resource” for artistic creation, rather making things into a “topic.” That means a whole new set of ="trms">relationalities and new forms of attention need to be learned and cultivated, which were ="trms">historically often absent in the education of art.
="prgrph">-i want to bring a circus inside ='lgc'>{='lgc'>='lgc'>--> within='lgc'>}
="prgrph">-my business still with ="trms">aesthetics (my own image) (="trms">narcissistic stuff...)
="prgrph">-to show up as a guy, castrated and very advanced (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> you can only come up castrated unless you are extremely advanced, ='at'>#="nms">harem stuff)
="prgrph">-i am trying to come forward with all the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigor and ="trms">rhetorics available to me
the death score
="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo correcting his proper name in my mouth. (sig="trms">nature='lgc'>: master of your name ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> master of your house)
="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo named his future projection='lgc'>: “Empathos="trms">cene”
='lgc'>[sometimes your name is the first doorkeeper (as in ="ppl">Kafka'a Turhüter)='lgc'>]
="frds scrmbld">Eszter's ‘what is there as an obstacle to the freedom of man (='qstn'>?)’ (="trms">question marked by me)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the spatial ="trms">gesture of the ‘stop’ (='at'>#="frds scrmbld">Selma)
="frds scrmbld">Maarten's version of confusion (stated by himself) is due to that='lgc'>: the messianic horizon is essentially confusing (='qstn'>?)
his auto="trms">poiesis and cognitions
="frds scrmbld">Nicolas's notion of “leaking” has to do with marginal non-textual non-accounted-for moments that bleed in absolute non-contractual and non-appropriable event='qstn'>? (the so-called moment when we show things to each other)
="lsts lst1">•his ‘climate of creativity'='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~='lgc'>~_='lgc'>[what does ‘criticism’ mean for him='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•when he says “="trms">gesture,” is he accessing ‘="trms">gesture’ having an uncalculable ="trms">semiotic value ='lgc'>=/= ‘performance’ that can be ="trms">measured in economical terms='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[but, what kind of consequential work is ="trms">gesture doing='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
(="frds scrmbld">Nicolas's order of inquiry and discovery)
(='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what is at stake is how do you locate the effects of your work. for ="frds scrmbld">Nicolas it is locate at the “sides” ='lgc'>[which is al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready problematically pre="trms">positioned outside of him='lgc'>] ='lgc'>--="ppl">Ahmed='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ab object can be ="trms">affective by virtue of its own ='strcls'>*location='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[...='lgc'>] and the ='strcls'>*timing='strcls'>* of its appearence)
='lgc'>[the ‘image of the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigid’ in his ="trms">presentation='lgc'>]
="frds scrmbld">Kristien's chart='lgc'>:
="trms">questions ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">symptoms
answers ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> openings
="trms">past ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> diary
for ="frds scrmbld">="frds scrmbld">Lilia='lgc'>: ="trms">apparatus='lgc'> = score
for ="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: ="trms">apparatus='lgc'> = preparation ='lgc'>{='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> everything depends on the ways we prepare='lgc'>}
for ="frds">Sina='lgc'>: ="trms">apparatus='lgc'> = (chaotic/strange) attractor
for ="frds scrmbld">Hoda='lgc'>: ="trms">apparatus='lgc'> = negative feelings
for
for
(other non-="ppl">Agambenian notions of ="trms">apparatus='lgc'>: ="ppl">Katie ="ppl">King's, ="ppl">="ppl">Barad's, ="ppl">Wark's)
='lgc'>[="ppl">Agamben still thinks of structure in ="ppl">Euclidian terms, pre-chaos theory and fractal ="trms">geometry of (non)equilibrium. thermal chaos and dynamic ="trms">system theory has changed the ways we think about global/local stabilities, discontinuities and noise. ="trms">sym="trms">poiesis is another one.='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-with ‘="trms">apparatus’ what is at stake='lgc'>: flow of energy, order, waste, transformation,
="frds scrmbld">Vladimir's tether on disambiguity
="frds scrmbld">Elen, adding her own wheels to the flow(s)
and putting a stick/spoke in a rolling wheel (of others='qstn'>?) ='lgc'>[her saboteur trends, چوب لای چرخ (='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? kharab-kari خراب کاری), what is chub lay-e charkh for her='qstn'>? vandalizing the discourse of others='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-the famous vandal of wikipedia with the recursive name “-on wheels” (Willy on Wheels, adding “on wheels” to the title of every single page, using the move function of Wikipedia='lgc'>: renaming the existing title ='lgc'>==> moved to another namespace, without changing the base title)
="prgrph">-like myself, her saboteurs are critically not ="trms">symbolic nor ontic, rather sometimes ="trms">epistemic, or better, ="trms">ontologic='lgc'>: they don't vandalize the “thing” itself, but the “="trms">nature of the properties” that constructs that thing for us
="prgrph">-rocket sculture (what does it mean for her='qstn'>?)
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='lgc'>[the ="trms">question of inevitability of ="trms">anthropical view='lgc'>]
there is no final answer to a kind of ="trms">question but a lot of answers
through inhabiting a figure you are ="trms">crafting you find yourself addressing a set of problems
="trms">agency='lgc'>: liveliness of artifacts (='qstn'>?). there is some kind of liveliness that is both human and nonhuman
the kind of ="trms">sociality that joins two ="trms">categorically separate mode of ="trms">agencies, is a ="trms">sociality that constitutes both ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">interaction of humans and machines produced both ='lgc'>=/= unilateral action
(my whole point or ="trms">joke, with the bow and arrow was that the arrow of index finger does not move in one way.)
='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= another mode that comes to mind is when your intimacy making leads always to yourself, getting laid, ="trms">literally. that is when your concern becomes only you and someone, sexually ="trms">interested ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> economically, and you don't concern the ="trms">sociality of your people with each other. ='at'>#="trms">techno-capital singular subjectivity ='at'>@='lgc'>='lgc'>--> this is super relevant for ="frds scrmbld">Sven, maybe='lgc'>: how one becomes ="trms">interested, invested, and ="trms">skillful in provoking ="trms">interesting ="trms">socialities for friends and peers='lgc'>--and not only for oneself='qstn'>? creating, inciting zones of connectivity='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-='lgc'>[it was not accidental that the ="trms">rhetoric of ="trms">drugs came up with ="frds scrmbld">="frds scrmbld">Lilia when I sug="trms">gested the attention to ="trms">anthropos ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what figures human and otherwise was for her the subject of ="trms">drug-induced ="trms">rhetoric of mind-alteration; (this is the ="trms">anthropos of the Enlightenment Europeans and classical Greece talking='lgc'>:) “in order to get rid of me you must take ="trms">drugs!” ='at'>#="trms">fable/_ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> being sober(='qstn'>?!), ="trms">anthropos becoming, human ="trms">nature, common sense, ="trms">="trms">empiricism and ="trms">interpretation are at stake here='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-='lgc'>[another thing was the label of “="trms">animal” that was passed around as a form of mock, instead of provocations for more conversation, I was stupefied. ='lgc'>--how can we go on together and not render each other commitments nonsense='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
“point of view” is an important ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor
='at'>#in ='mywrk'>my work in ="nms">apass i am working on descriptive practices ='lgc'>[="trms">poetics of ="trms">animal description, ="trms">histories of nonhuman inscription, etc.='lgc'>] to learn to name latent (and therefore emergent) ="trms">ontologies, to name ‘what we are doing in new ways,’ which are hard to name. (also refusing not to name the violences of others and yourself. to reckon the ="trms">nature and scope of the erasures we do in our works.) ='prcnt'>% why do you think that is important='qstn'>?
='at'>#and my shift of attention to peer's works is about that='lgc'>: our domain of practices must make claim on each other ='lgc'><== we inhabit ="trms">differences together (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> attention and work on='lgc'>:) ‘local ="trms">category abstractions’ (how do we talk and make each other feel our subjects of ="trms">interest in ="nms">apass for example) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the cumulative, as="trms">sociated and sensed) ="trms">routines, ="trms">gestures, and (="trms">inter)surfaces of our everyday life in ="nms">apass, as a group of rese="trms"nttrm="search">archers, that don't necessarily align ='lgc'>==> ="trms">worlding comes from these things.
='lgc'>[attunement ='lgc'>=/= argument='lgc'>]
the name of the ="trms">world is “detail”
='strcls'>***="trms">translation (essentailly imperfect) is the very condition of signification ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">trope is the very condition of ="trms">language
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don't be docile bodies or innocent bystander, do what you have to do to constitute your courage
all i am saying is that='lgc'>: it is not clear what the destiny of art (or of anything) is
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perhaps what i am trying to learn='lgc'>--with ="nms">apass, ="nms">ajayeb, ="trms">writing, ="nms">harem, etc='lgc'>--is to ask what do i need='lgc'>--which ="trms">skills, abilities, or ="trms">literacies='lgc'>--to become ="trms">="trms">equipped to share the experience of the habits of the ="trms">world (of ="nms">ajayeb) that i am discovering
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="frds scrmbld">Luisa='lgc'>: “the visual (side)effects of a ‘not being supported’”
effect ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> object ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> object2 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport3 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport4 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ...
(at one point ="frds scrmbld">Marialena pulling away a support box ='lgc'>==> ="frds scrmbld">Luisa's cry sound side-effect of a ‘not being supported’)
="lsts lst1">•='qstn'>?how is it done for her='lgc'>: construction of in="trms">different objects
="lsts lst1">•which import function is ="trms">materializing her ‘objects’='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[public import='lgc'>]
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I want my friends to become marvelous thinkers makers, I want them to ask ="trms">interesting ="trms">questions
="frds scrmbld">Esta='lgc'>: “when we enter the ="trms">presentation we are rese="trms"nttrm="search">archers, we are not friends” ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “neutrality” of encounter='lgc'>]
(but i want to explore new places in ='mywrk'>my work with the people who care for you)
(is this at all possible='qstn'>? to enter with friends a non-friend zone='qstn'>?)
in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion ='lgc'>=/= involvement
(in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion usually mistaken as ="trms">literally for physical in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion)
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How ="frds scrmbld">Kobe's work can move from a “case-finder ="trms">agency” to a consequential work='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">storytellings for making consequential meanings='strcls'>*='lgc'>] that means='lgc'>: what does it mean to live in the consequences of the ="trms">relations one is enacting='qstn'>?
(when I look at my friends and peers in ="nms">apass, I can see and feel the knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges they inhabit in their bodies and the living effects of their ="trms">languages. I re-figurally feel the figures they ="trms">embody and their objects whether they assist or resist states of transformation.)
ephemeral things become food
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="frds scrmbld">Esta, risking one's life
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda, ="frds scrmbld">Xiri,
='thdf'>the idea of “express its inner experience”
simulation of
="frds scrmbld">Xiri's sense of entitlement to accusation
='at'>@="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo, ="trms">fiction of sharing
‘something tangible, like a meal’
something phantasmatically hooked up to libidinal openness, like a ="trms">drug
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Elen, DUI='lgc'>: driving under influence, what are we on when they were driving her cars
DUI has become the pharmecy take on ="trms">drugs to take away and winning the ="trms">drug war
movement under influence, MUI
legelized use of motor activity
driving while impaired/driving while intoxicated (DWI)
drink-driving (UK)
driving risky (DR)
drunk driver (DD)
='thdf'>the notion of game and rule for ="frds scrmbld">Elen and ="frds scrmbld">Luisa and ="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: it is until ages of 3 and 6 that ="trms">children must not play by rules, and only after that the concept of rule-based-games (such as sports) should be introduced to them. what does that say about our artistic environment when we talk rules or breaking rules='qstn'>?
i am becoming more ="trms">interested in the ‘rules’ that the artist (or non-artist) is proposing, and not my own ‘freedom’ in their work. what does it mean or do to become ="trms">interested in the ='strcls'>*freedom of others='strcls'>* and not yourself='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==> paying attention to the most implicit rules of your game, that means i am paying attention to your freedom that has ="trms">articulated itself in the creative ="trms">gesture
instead of (the “how” of) “how do i show my ="trms">interested texts='qstn'>?” (which was proposed in ="frds scrmbld">Maarten's exhibition of ="trms">poems) i like to ask (the “what” of) “what requires ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='qstn'>?” (also ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Sven) (my kill-joys in ="nms">apass ... am i being too ="trms">ontologic with everything='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> I am operating from the ="trms">position that understanding ="trms">materials, practices, and ="trms">interpretation implies ="trms">questioning ="trms">ontological assumption ='lgc'>==> challenge concepts)
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: is there a notion of ‘="trms">natural’ embeded in her ‘compelled’='qstn'>? there is nothing ="trms">natural about us being here, there is nothing ="trms">natural about here
="lsts lst1">•cognitivism='lgc'>: (when talking of re="trms">presentation) a psychology of doing which emphasizes human cognition endowment enabling man to develop intellectually ='lgc'>==> classifications (are easy seen) as properties of mind ='lgc'>=/= classifications as ="trms">materials or ="trms">materially textured ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “a common way to hear people's experience of this ="trms">materiality is through ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors. So the generation of ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors is closely linked with the shift to texture.” (="ppl">="ppl">Bowker)
="lsts lst1">•behaviorism='lgc'>: a theory of doing that focuses on objectively observable behaviors and discounts independent activities of the minds involved in the doing
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? behavioral ="trms">intervention
(footnote on) behavior therapy ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> breaking one's loops (of='lgc'>: reverie ='lgc'>[mind fleeing across se="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluded planes='lgc'>], reaction to stimuli ='lgc'>[overwhelmed by the speech of the others ='lgc'>~ ="trms">neurosis='lgc'>], distorted thinking ='lgc'>[overstressed emotional reasoning='lgc'>], , ,)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]behavior therapy='lgc'>: treatment of ="trms">neurotic ="trms">symptoms by training the patient's reactions to stimuli ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*cognitive restructuring='strcls'>* could help ="frds scrmbld">Eszter in her artwork='qstn'>? (to reestablish the ="trms">relationships between stimuli and ="trms">responses)
(="trms">techniques='lgc'>:)
="lsts lst1">•counterconditioning
="lsts lst1">•punishment (operant conditioning)
="lsts lst1">•habituation
="lsts lst1">•functional analysis
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*behavior ="trms">intervention plans='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•automatic thought record
="lsts lst1">•
i can only guess (with cognitive therapy) at the ="trms">interior landscape of her reverie, her ="trms">internal reality (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= psyche) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> i am reminded by this again that knowing anyone's psyche is impossible, as in psychology is an impossible ="trms">science='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]cognitive therapy='lgc'>: identifying and changing unhelpful or inaccurate thinking, problematic behavior, and ='strcls'>*distressing emotional ="trms">responses='strcls'>*
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning to monitor thoughts (in three layers='lgc'>:)
="lstsrd">1. core belief ='lgc'>[deepest level of our thinking, underlying self-values and perceptions of the ="trms">world, have an absolute quality='lgc'>: “I am worthless.” “I am inadequate.” “if I fail, I am worthless.” “I am unsafe in the ="trms">world.” etc.='lgc'>]
="lstsrd">2. ="trms">intermediate beliefs ='lgc'>[expectations and assumptions, guidelines we follow, maintaining our ="trms">anxiety and depression='lgc'>: “Always look for d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger and expect it to be there.” “If I don't understand something perfectly, then I'm dumb.” etc.='lgc'>]
="lstsrd">3. automatic thoughts ='lgc'>[immediate thoughts that go through our mind in ="trms">response to a ="trms">situation, usually negative and un="trms">questioned='lgc'>: “She thinks I'm weird.” “I won't pass that test.” “This is too hard. I'll never understand this.” etc.='lgc'>]
types of automatic thoughts='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•evaluation (evaluative thoughts)
="lsts lst1">•coping strategies
="lsts lst1">•avoidance
="lsts lst1">•
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='lgc'>[cognitive distortions='lgc'>]
typical mistakes in thinking='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*all or nothing='strcls'>* / all-or-none thinking (“If I'm not a total success, I'm a fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*catastrophizing='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> middle eastern fortune-telling, omen, foretell the future='lgc'>] ( “I'll be so upset, I won't be able to function at all.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*disqualifying the ="trms">positive='strcls'>* (="trms">positive experiences do not count='lgc'>: “I did that project well, but that doesn't mean I'm competent; I just got lucky.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*emotional reasoning='strcls'>* (“I know I do a lot of things okay at work, but I still feel like I'm a fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*labeling='strcls'>* (“I'm a loser.” “He's no good.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*magnification/minimization='strcls'>* (“Getting a mediocre evaluation proves how inadequate I am. Getting high marks doesn't mean I'm smart.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*mental filter='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[selective abstraction='lgc'>] (“Because I got one low rating on my evaluation it means I'm doing a lousy job.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*mind ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[="trms">narcissism='lgc'>] (believe to know what others are thinking='lgc'>: “He's thinking that I don't know the first thing about this project.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*over="trms">generalization='strcls'>* (“='lgc'>[Because I felt uncomfortable at the meeting='lgc'>] I don't have what it takes to make friends.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*personalization='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[="trms">narcissism='lgc'>] (believe others are behaving negatively because of you='lgc'>: “The repairman was curt to me because I did something wrong.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*should/must='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[imperatives='lgc'>] (having a fixed idea of how you or others should behave='lgc'>: “It's terrible that I made a mistake. I should always do my best.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*tunnel vision='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[cyclopean view='lgc'>] (“My son's teacher can't do anything ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right. He's critical and insensitive and lousy at teaching.”)
what is the most central belief about herself='qstn'>?
which experiences contributed to the development and maintenance of the her belief='qstn'>?
which ="trms">positive assumption helped her cope with the core belief='qstn'>?
what is the negative counterpart to this assumption='qstn'>?
which behaviors help her cope with the belief='qstn'>?
='strcls'>*basically there is often no evidence that the automatic thought is true
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http://static1.squarespace.com/static/521a7b2ee4b0ee587906d191/t/5774531e03596e22f1d2c844/1467241246388/CBT='lgc'>+Case='lgc'>+Conference='lgc'>+Handouts-1.pdf
(a deep problem with behavior analysis is that it comes from the study of ="trms">animal learning in the 20th century... observing cats trying to escape from home-made puzzle boxes, and things like that)
(for ="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>:) complex ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= coherent (='lgc'>=/= ='strcls'>*contradictory='strcls'>*)
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="frds scrmbld">Eszter could benefit from learning about collective behavior s[...]