[...] artifacts (='qstn'>?). there is some kind of liveliness that is both human and nonhuman
the kind of ="trms">sociality that joins two ="trms">categorically separate mode of ="trms">agencies, is a ="trms">sociality that constitutes both ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">interaction of humans and machines produced both ='lgc'>=/= unilateral action
(my whole point or ="trms">joke, with the bow and arrow was that the arrow of index finger does not move in one way.)
='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= another mode that comes to mind is when your intimacy making leads always to yourself, getting laid, ="trms">literally. that is when your concern becomes only you and someone, sexually ="trms">interested ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> economically, and you don't concern the ="trms">sociality of your people with each other. ='at'>#="trms">techno-capital singular subjectivity ='at'>@='lgc'>='lgc'>--> this is super relevant for ="frds scrmbld">Sven, maybe='lgc'>: how one becomes ="trms">interested, invested, and ="trms">skillful in provoking ="trms">interesting ="trms">socialities for friends and peers='lgc'>--and not only for oneself='qstn'>? creating, inciting zones of connectivity='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-='lgc'>[it was not accidental that the ="trms">rhetoric of ="trms">drugs came up with ="frds scrmbld">="frds scrmbld">Lilia when I sug="trms">gested the attention to ="trms">anthropos ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what figures human and otherwise was for her the subject of ="trms">drug-induced ="trms">rhetoric of mind-alteration; (this is the ="trms">anthropos of the Enlightenment Europeans and classical Greece talking='lgc'>:) “in order to get rid of me you must take ="trms">drugs!” ='at'>#="trms">fable/_ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> being sober(='qstn'>?!), ="trms">anthropos becoming, human ="trms">nature, common sense, ="trms">="trms">empiricism and ="trms">interpretation are at stake here='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-='lgc'>[another thing was the label of “="trms">animal” that was passed around as a form of mock, instead of provocations for more conversation, I was stupefied. ='lgc'>--how can we go on together and not render each other commitments nonsense='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
“point of view” is an important ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor
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='at'>#in ='mywrk'>my work in ="nms">apass i am working on descriptive practices ='lgc'>[="trms">poetics of ="trms">animal description, ="trms">histories of nonhuman inscription, etc.='lgc'>] to learn to name latent (and therefore emergent) ="trms">ontologies, to name ‘what we are doing in new ways,’ which are hard to name. (also refusing not to name the violences of others and yourself. to reckon the ="trms">nature and scope of the erasures we do in our works.) ='prcnt'>% why do you think that is important='qstn'>?
='at'>#and my shift of attention to peer's works is about that='lgc'>: our domain of practices must make claim on each other ='lgc'><== we inhabit ="trms">differences together (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> attention and work on='lgc'>:) ‘local ="trms">category abstractions’ (how do we talk and make each other feel our subjects of ="trms">interest in ="nms">apass for example) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the cumulative, as="trms">sociated and sensed) ="trms">routines, ="trms">gestures, and (="trms">inter)surfaces of our everyday life in ="nms">apass, as a group of rese="trms"nttrm="search">archers, that don't necessarily align ='lgc'>==> ="trms">worlding comes from these things.
='lgc'>[attunement ='lgc'>=/= argument='lgc'>]
the name of the ="trms">world is “detail”
='strcls'>***="trms">translation (essentailly imperfect) is the very condition of signification ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">trope is the very condition of ="trms">language
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don't be docile bodies or innocent bystander, do what you have to do to constitute your courage
all i am saying is that='lgc'>: it is not clear what the destiny of art (or of anything) is
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perhaps what i am trying to learn='lgc'>--with ="nms">apass, ="nms">ajayeb, ="trms">writing, ="nms">harem, etc='lgc'>--is to ask what do i need='lgc'>--which ="trms">skills, abilities, or ="trms">literacies='lgc'>--to become ="trms">="trms">equipped to share the experience of the habits of the ="trms">world (of ="nms">ajayeb) that i am discovering
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="frds scrmbld">Luisa='lgc'>: “the visual (side)effects of a ‘not being supported’”
effect ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> object ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> object2 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport3 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport4 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ...
(at one point ="frds scrmbld">Marialena pulling away a support box ='lgc'>==> ="frds scrmbld">Luisa's cry sound side-effect of a ‘not being supported’)
="lsts lst1">•='qstn'>?how is it done for her='lgc'>: construction of in="trms">different objects
="lsts lst1">•which import function is ="trms">materializing her ‘objects’='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[public import='lgc'>]
I want my friends to become marvelous thinkers makers, I want them to ask ="trms">interesting ="trms">questions
="frds scrmbld">Esta='lgc'>: “when we enter the ="trms">presentation we are rese="trms"nttrm="search">archers, we are not friends” ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “neutrality” of encounter='lgc'>]
(but i want to explore new places in ='mywrk'>my work with the people who care for you)
(is this at all possible='qstn'>? to enter with friends a non-friend zone='qstn'>?)
in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion ='lgc'>=/= involvement
(in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion usually mistaken as ="trms">literally for physical in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion)
How ="frds scrmbld">Kobe's work can move from a “case-finder ="trms">agency” to a consequential work='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">storytellings for making consequential meanings='strcls'>*='lgc'>] that means='lgc'>: what does it mean to live in the consequences of the ="trms">relations one is enacting='qstn'>?
(when I look at my friends and peers in ="nms">apass, I can see and feel the knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges they inhabit in their bodies and the living effects of their ="trms">languages. I re-figurally feel the figures they ="trms">embody and their objects whether they assist or resist states of transformation.)
ephemeral things become food
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="frds scrmbld">Esta, risking one's life
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda, ="frds scrmbld">Xiri,
='thdf'>the idea of “express its inner experience”
simulation of
="frds scrmbld">Xiri's sense of entitlement to accusation
='at'>@="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo, ="trms">fiction of sharing
‘something tangible, like a meal’
something phantasmatically hooked up to libidinal openness, like a ="trms">drug
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Elen, DUI='lgc'>: driving under influence, what are we on when they were driving her cars
DUI has become the pharmecy take on ="trms">drugs to take away and winning the ="trms">drug war
movement under influence, MUI
legelized use of motor activity
driving while impaired/driving while intoxicated (DWI)
drink-driving (UK)
driving risky (DR)
drunk driver (DD)
='thdf'>the notion of game and rule for ="frds scrmbld">Elen and ="frds scrmbld">Luisa and ="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: it is until ages of 3 and 6 that ="trms">children must not play by rules, and only after that the concept of rule-based-games (such as sports) should be introduced to them. what does that say about our artistic environment when we talk rules or breaking rules='qstn'>?
i am becoming more ="trms">interested in the ‘rules’ that the artist (or non-artist) is proposing, and not my own ‘freedom’ in their work. what does it mean or do to become ="trms">interested in the ='strcls'>*freedom of others='strcls'>* and not yourself='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==> paying attention to the most implicit rules of your game, that means i am paying attention to your freedom that has ="trms">articulated itself in the creative ="trms">gesture
instead of (the “how” of) “how do i show my ="trms">interested texts='qstn'>?” (which was proposed in ="frds scrmbld">Maarten's exhibition of ="trms">poems) i like to ask (the “what” of) “what requires ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='qstn'>?” (also ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Sven) (my kill-joys in ="nms">apass ... am i being too ="trms">ontologic with everything='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> I am operating from the ="trms">position that understanding ="trms">materials, practices, and ="trms">interpretation implies ="trms">questioning ="trms">ontological assumption ='lgc'>==> challenge concepts)
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: is there a notion of ‘="trms">natural’ embeded in her ‘compelled’='qstn'>? there is nothing ="trms">natural about us being here, there is nothing ="trms">natural about here
="lsts lst1">•cognitivism='lgc'>: (when talking of re="trms">presentation) a psychology of doing which emphasizes human cognition endowment enabling man to develop intellectually ='lgc'>==> classifications (are easy seen) as properties of mind ='lgc'>=/= classifications as ="trms">materials or ="trms">materially textured ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “a common way to hear people's experience of this ="trms">materiality is through ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors. So the generation of ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors is closely linked with the shift to texture.” (="ppl">="ppl">Bowker)
="lsts lst1">•behaviorism='lgc'>: a theory of doing that focuses on objectively observable behaviors and discounts independent activities of the minds involved in the doing
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? behavioral ="trms">intervention
(footnote on) behavior therapy ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> breaking one's loops (of='lgc'>: reverie ='lgc'>[mind fleeing across se="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluded planes='lgc'>], reaction to stimuli ='lgc'>[overwhelmed by the speech of the others ='lgc'>~ ="trms">neurosis='lgc'>], distorted thinking ='lgc'>[overstressed emotional reasoning='lgc'>], , ,)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]behavior therapy='lgc'>: treatment of ="trms">neurotic ="trms">symptoms by training the patient's reactions to stimuli ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*cognitive restructuring='strcls'>* could help ="frds scrmbld">Eszter in her artwork='qstn'>? (to reestablish the ="trms">relationships between stimuli and ="trms">responses)
(="trms">techniques='lgc'>:)
="lsts lst1">•counterconditioning
="lsts lst1">•punishment (operant conditioning)
="lsts lst1">•habituation
="lsts lst1">•functional analysis
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*behavior ="trms">intervention plans='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•automatic thought record
="lsts lst1">•
i can only guess (with cognitive therapy) at the ="trms">interior landscape of her reverie, her ="trms">internal reality (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= psyche) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> i am reminded by this again that knowing anyone's psyche is impossible, as in psychology is an impossible ="trms">science='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]cognitive therapy='lgc'>: identifying and changing unhelpful or inaccurate thinking, problematic behavior, and ='strcls'>*distressing emotional ="trms">responses='strcls'>*
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning to monitor thoughts (in three layers='lgc'>:)
="lstsrd">1. core belief ='lgc'>[deepest level of our thinking, underlying self-values and perceptions of the ="trms">world, have an absolute quality='lgc'>: “I am worthless.” “I am inadequate.” “if I fail, I am worthless.” “I am unsafe in the ="trms">world.” etc.='lgc'>]
="lstsrd">2. ="trms">intermediate beliefs ='lgc'>[expectations and assumptions, guidelines we follow, maintaining our ="trms">anxiety and depression='lgc'>: “Always look for d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger and expect it to be there.” “If I don't understand something perfectly, then I'm dumb.” etc.='lgc'>]
="lstsrd">3. automatic thoughts ='lgc'>[immediate thoughts that go through our mind in ="trms">response to a ="trms">situation, usually negative and un="trms">questioned='lgc'>: “She thinks I'm weird.” “I won't pass that test.” “This is too hard. I'll never understand this.” etc.='lgc'>]
types of automatic thoughts='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•evaluation (evaluative thoughts)
="lsts lst1">•coping strategies
="lsts lst1">•avoidance
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>[cognitive distortions='lgc'>]
typical mistakes in thinking='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*all or nothing='strcls'>* / all-or-none thinking (“If I'm not a total success, I'm a fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*catastrophizing='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> middle eastern fortune-telling, omen, foretell the future='lgc'>] ( “I'll be so upset, I won't be able to function at all.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*disqualifying the ="trms">positive='strcls'>* (="trms">positive experiences do not count='lgc'>: “I did that project well, but that doesn't mean I'm competent; I just got lucky.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*emotional reasoning='strcls'>* (“I know I do a lot of things okay at work, but I still feel like I'm a fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*labeling='strcls'>* (“I'm a loser.” “He's no good.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*magnification/minimization='strcls'>* (“Getting a mediocre evaluation proves how inadequate I am. Getting high marks doesn't mean I'm smart.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*mental filter='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[selective abstraction='lgc'>] (“Because I got one low rating on my evaluation it means I'm doing a lousy job.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*mind ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[="trms">narcissism='lgc'>] (believe to know what others are thinking='lgc'>: “He's thinking that I don't know the first thing about this project.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*over="trms">generalization='strcls'>* (“='lgc'>[Because I felt uncomfortable at the meeting='lgc'>] I don't have what it takes to make friends.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*personalization='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[="trms">narcissism='lgc'>] (believe others are behaving negatively because of you='lgc'>: “The repairman was curt to me because I did something wrong.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*should/must='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[imperatives='lgc'>] (having a fixed idea of how you or others should behave='lgc'>: “It's terrible that I made a mistake. I should always do my best.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*tunnel vision='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[cyclopean view='lgc'>] (“My son's teacher can't do anything ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right. He's critical and insensitive and lousy at teaching.”)
what is the most central belief about herself='qstn'>?
which experiences contributed to the development and maintenance of the her belief='qstn'>?
which ="trms">positive assumption helped her cope with the core belief='qstn'>?
what is the negative counterpart to this assumption='qstn'>?
which behaviors help her cope with the belief='qstn'>?
='strcls'>*basically there is often no evidence that the automatic thought is true
http://static1.squarespace.com/static/521a7b2ee4b0ee587906d191/t/5774531e03596e22f1d2c844/1467241246388/CBT='lgc'>+Case='lgc'>+Conference='lgc'>+Handouts-1.pdf
(a deep problem with behavior analysis is that it comes from the study of ="trms">animal learning in the 20th century... observing cats trying to escape from home-made puzzle boxes, and things like that)
(for ="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>:) complex ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= coherent (='lgc'>=/= ='strcls'>*contradictory='strcls'>*)
="frds scrmbld">Eszter could benefit from learning about collective behavior ="trms">sociology
/individual behavior is completely unpre="trms">dictable
/collective behavior is to a large extent pre="trms">dictable
contagion ='lgc'>=/= convergence
(Kelile Demne='lgc'>: evil is convergent)
='strcls'>*contagion='lgc'>: crowds exert a hypnotic influence over their ="trms">members
='strcls'>*convergent='lgc'>: people who want to act in a certain way come together ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> crowd diffuse ="trms">responsibility but the behavior itself is claimed to o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">riginate within the individuals
='strcls'>*emergent-norm='lgc'>: people find themselves in a vague, ambiguous, confusing ="trms">situation ='lgc'>==> new norms “emerge” on the spot, which may be at odds with normal ="trms">social behavior
='strcls'>*value-added='lgc'>: release valve سوپاپ for built-up tension within ="trms">community
='strcls'>*complex adaptive ="trms">systems='lgc'>: auto="trms">poiesis or self-creation of patterns and new entities
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(footnote on) personality disorder
deviating from ‘orders’ accepted by the individual's culture
="prgrph">-your distinguished and enduring behavioral and mental traits that differ from ="trms">social norms and expectations
it is in ="trms">relation to others ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> cognition, emotiveness, ="trms">interpersonal functioning, impulse control ='lgc'>==> personal, ="trms">social, occupational disruption
egosyntonic personality disorders are most difficult to treat (such as='lgc'>: ="trms">narcissistic personality disorder, anorexia, gambling problem)
='strcls'>*egosyntonic='lgc'>: in harmony with the needs and goals of the ego ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> defences ='lgc'>==> maladaptive coping ="trms">skills ='lgc'>='lgc'>='lgc'>~=> ="trms">anxiety, distress, depression='lgc'>]
='strcls'>*egodystonic='lgc'>: in conflict with the needs and goals of the ego, in conflict with a person's ideal self-image
obsessive-compulsive disorder ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> egodystonic
obsessive-compulsive personality disorder ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> egosyntonic
="ppl">Freud='lgc'>: psychic conflict arising when the o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">riginal lagging instincts come into conflict with the ego (or egosyntonic instincts) ='lgc'>[such as='lgc'>: erection problem ='lgc'>==> egodystonic='lgc'>]
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='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]personality disorder='lgc'>: (a type of psychological disorder generally defined by) the lack of insight into the disorder
borderline personality disorder ='lgc'>=/= shades of gray
(a view that sees) significances as unfair and uncaring (devaluation) or flawless (idealization)
(a standardized criteria of diagnosis since 1980) a certain class of ="trms">neurotics who, when in crisis, appeared to straddle the borderline into psychosis
fluctuation in identity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> chaotic identity (='lgc'>=/= chaotic ="trms">imagination)
='strcls'>*the most treatment-resistant personality type='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-75 percent in female patients
="prgrph">-related to neglect in ="trms">childhood
borderline personality disorder often comes with very smart people
borderline personality ='lgc'>+ high intelligence ='lgc'>==>
="lsts lst1">•parakandegi-e zehn پراکندگی ذهن sporadic and dispersed mind ='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> hadaf jahat kushesh fa'aliat هدف جهت کوشش فعالیت having a target, direction, effort, activity
="lsts lst1">•going from one thing to another without consistency in life باری به هر جهت
borderline personality disorder ='lgc'>+ ="trms">narcissistic personality disorder ='lgc'>[seeing people from top to down='lgc'>] ='lgc'>==> winning arguments by mixing ="trms">imagination and reality, saying everything they like to others
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (donya-e zehni) a mental ="trms">world in which ="trms">imagination and reality are not distinguish (='lgc'>='lgc'>~-> lying)
(a nontherapeutic approach) to turn the borderline into ="trms">storyteller='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•dis="trms">sociation ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> impossible as="trms">sociation
="lsts lst1">•disconnection as a state of consciousness ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> impossible connection
="lsts lst1">•lying as a feature ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">fabulation
="lsts lst1">•manipulative behavior ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">articulative
="lsts lst1">•="trms">demand ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> performance
="lsts lst1">•chaotic identity ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> chaotic ="trms">imagination
="lsts lst1">•ذهن پراکنده (sporadic mind) ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ذهن انحرافی (deviant mind)
="lsts lst1">•sensitivity (of thin or no psychological skin) ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sensibility
="lsts lst1">•
a therapeutic approach to borderline personality='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•dialectical behavior therapy (='lgc'><='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>-- mindfulness)
="lsts lst1">•
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='prcnt'>%notes on ='at'>#workshop of ="trms">question (HWD)
="prgrph">-how come in my drawing class participancts couldn't even hold the pen
="prgrph">-participants lenzes couldn't focus, the words were in b="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lur and in disarray
="prgrph">-i had to stop free as="trms">sociations and ="trms">staggerings, and return to the task at hand
="prgrph">-it was like teaching a new ="trms">language
="prgrph">-i was trying to share my methorodlogy, ="trms">specificly. not a jam session
="prgrph">-is it neccesory or ="trms">interesting to learn eachother ="trms">methodlogies in order to get involved and engagned in eachother practices='qstn'>? maybe not ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> go back to re="trms">presentational tools ='lgc'>--are re="trms">presentational tools the best we have='qstn'>? or maybe, structurally we can't give workshop in ="nms">apass HWDs or endweeks, because participants are not there by free will that is usually mobilising them to look for and join a workshop that they are ="trms">interested in.
='prcnt'>%(am I='qstn'>?) ‘coming back with advices’ in ='mywrk'>my work ='lgc'>[='lgc'>[='at'>#="frds scrmbld">Esta='lgc'>]='lgc'>]
is it ="trms">interesting for me or ='mywrk'>my research to think about how we moved that plant around in the 4th floor='qstn'>?
='strcls'>*moving plants='strcls'>* is risky
as backdrop for human activity
passively vegetating
making local and global connections='lgc'>: which local or global connections was made (by ="frds">Sina, ="frds scrmbld">Xiri and ="frds scrmbld">Esta moving the plant)='qstn'>? (how the plant was re="trms">positioned in our) making of public common spaces
="prgrph">-practices of concern
(attentive to the plant that was a) shared “thing” between us
what was mediated, navigated and ="trms">articulated with that plant in ="nms">apass 4th floor='qstn'>?
(with this i am trying to ask about the) kinds of ="trms">imaginative ="trms">world-making at work
gathering forces
="prgrph">-
the mice, and the pattern of rice, how did we become the ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reader of mice's text='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reader is always always constructed.
the mice disconnected us from global digital ="trms">networks and wrote something on the floor...
(which objects of our ="trms">systems design supporting some and not others) leaving out what are locally perceived as “nonpeople” can mean nonworking ="trms">system. (biologists not seeing their secretaries as doing real ="trms">science, artists in ="nms">apass not seeing the mice doing real work, etc.)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*(="ppl">Leigh ="ppl">="ppl">Star's) “ethnography of infrastructure”='strcls'>* -infrastructure is both ="trms">relational and ="trms">ecological, both transparent and opaque. it is part of the balance of action, tools, and the built environment. ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]infrastructure='lgc'>: a ="trms">dense ="trms">interwoven fabric of shared visions of possible and acceptable dreams (of the inovative, as ="trms">techniques, knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge, know-how, and the institutions).
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my previous ="trms">lectures have been ="trms">communicating something I don't quite understand to an audience that doesn't want to know. but still somehow they became not in="trms">different to my madness and we managed to establish lines of ="trms">interest and ="trms">interference (='lgc'>=/= restoring the phalus to its proper place, or getting a ="trms">membership)
i am building another wit ='lgc'>=/= you know when you are on some kind of auto-="trms">respond, those smart fast answers. my wits take ages to come through. in a way i have been slowing down certain kinds of wit. that's also why it is so easy to silence me.
i have been also busy with the timing of understanding. how to keep understanding open and ongoing='qstn'>? there is this standard general sense that becomes very upset when things are not immediately understood (='at'>#double-click democratization of ="trms">communication,) ='mywrk'>my workings have been perhaps invested in keeping my own (not-fully-)understood alive for a while. if things were instantly understandable we wouldn't be here.
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="trms">question at ="frds scrmbld">Hoda
how to make her ="trms">interested in ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphysics='qstn'>? in queer studies and practices
physics is the river of ="trms">phenomena
="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">meta='lgc'>: above, among, beyond
="trms">ontological commitment to='lgc'>:
sense of ="trms">wonder
sense of sadness
sense of madness
what (else) ="trms">literature can be if not elegy='qstn'>?
sonic level of sign-making and significance in her act
soft-spoken adjectives
“sigh”='lgc'>: ="trms">poetry's start-up engine, aaaahh
somewhere between lament and mourning
proper address of the mother
which ‘s="trms">cene of ="trms">modern or classical ="trms">language’ you are opening='qstn'>?
‘sigh’ is important, sigh initiates (many in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluding german and ="nms">iranian) ="trms">literature
="nms">iranian ="trms">historical comfort zones
where ="trms">literature starts with sigh
when and how did you learn to sigh='qstn'>?
sigh is from the family of the specialized ="trms">languages of ="trms">complaining='qstn'>?
temporal climate of your re="trms">membrance (as mourning) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> related to the ="trms">past='qstn'>?
mourning and ="trms">memory are sojourn for her
incorporating the object of (her) loss
(holding ="trms">onto) the unhappy objects of ="trms">difference
="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger, pain, misery, ...
which (good or bad) feelings saturates her ="trms">poem='qstn'>?
="trms">question of saturation
which feelings modified by which ="trms">poetics sutures which wounds='qstn'>? زخمبندی
or to be more psychoanalytically correct='lgc'>: where is the wound='qstn'>?
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my own affirmative exposure of the unhappy effects of her ="trms">poetry
what is the image of the ‘better life’ in her ="trms">poetry='qstn'>?
somehow in the ="trms">literary habitus she is moving, the o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigin of descriptive/inscriptive saying is made by an initial violation
="frds scrmbld">Hoda's ="trms">poem, which energies does it unleash in her='qstn'>?
sokhan-e ranj سخن رنج
شعر غنایی Lyric ="trms">poetry, a formal type of ="trms">poetry which is defined by or dedicated to expressing so-called personal emotions or feelings.
the Lyre, a string ="trms">instrument in ="trms">Greek classical antiquity, is tuning the ="trms">technicality of this ‘form’
="trms">historical ="trms">contingencies of “personal feelings”
='qstn'>?what is more singular than your “personal” highs, trips, crashes, “feelings” ='lgc'>==> a text telling about itself (its ownmost experience of something that is radically singular)
="prgrph">-="trms">rhetoric of singularity
="prgrph">-(my point is that the expression of your) innermost experience (is often signed by someone else)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “distributed biographies,” thinking about ="trms">sociality of perception
her ="trms">poem is her textual body (='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sexual body)
ecstasy
is subjectivity (permanently for ="frds scrmbld">Hoda) ecstatic='qstn'>?
this is the ="trms">question of ‘where is the subject’='qstn'>? ="trms">according to ="trms">different practices with ecstasy we are outside ourselves. (in ="trms">religion that is precisely where the ‘inside’ is located)
="prgrph">-permanent or structural ecstasy is clearly political
="prgrph">-ecstasy is disruptive
how much should I be invested or ="trms">interested as a friend for your happiness and wellbeing='qstn'>?
="lsts lst1">•fellow-feeling
="lsts lst1">•="trms">sympathy (is expressed by='lgc'>:) returning feeling with like feeling
="frds">Sina='lgc'>: if a thinking makes you sad, that thinking is probably wrong='qstn'>?
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within the ="trms">rhetoric of ="trms">integration a usual terrifying point is in which the duty of the migrant is to attach to a ="trms">different, happier object
the future of reattachment ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Hoda
="prgrph">-in this ="trms">integrative ="trms">narrative, I have to be careful with assumptions that good feelings are open and bad feelings are closed
bad feelings are seen as orientated toward the ="trms">past ='lgc'>=/= ='mywrk'>my work on ="trms">past
she said “here is the English-one” meaning the English ="trms">translation of her ="trms">poem
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> in the last five years i have been rifting between the difficult space between “here the ="trms">Farsi-one” and “here the English-one”
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='at'>#semester, seminar study the “s="trms">cene of ="trms">writing”
keywords='lgc'>: deconstruction, fabrication, ="trms">articulation, plasticity
='lgc'>[week 1,2,3='lgc'>] encounters between psychoanalysis, deconstruction, ="trms">writing, concepts of ="trms">language='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Derrida ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">Freud / “="ppl">Freud ='and'>& the S="trms">cene of ="trms">Writing” (43 pages)
="lsts lst1">•Fleming ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">Derrida / “Cultural Graphology ="trms">Writing After ="ppl">Derrida” (first chapter='lgc'>: The Psychopathology of ="trms">Writing, 29 pages)
="lsts lst1">•the schemas of text and the trace, Malabou on plasticity ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= elasticity='lgc'>] (change of the paradigm of ="trms">writing as developed in ="ppl">Derrida's Grammatology with the new paradigm of plasticity, her ="trms">interest in ="trms">relation between form, ="trms">materiality and meaning) / “Plasticity at the Dusk of ="trms">Writing” (28 pages)
='lgc'>[week 4='lgc'>] 20th century ="trms">sciences and philosophies, ='thdf'>the notion of fabrication of concepts='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•Xin Wei ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">Whitehead / “="ppl">Whitehead's ="trms">Poetical Mathematics” (19 pages)
='lgc'>[week 5='lgc'>] on ="trms">articulation='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Deleuze and ="ppl">Guattari / “A Thousand Plateaus” (chapter 3='lgc'>: Double ="trms">Articulation, 32 pages)
='lgc'>[week 6='lgc'>] feminist and women studies, s="trms">cene of ="trms">writing='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">aesthetic tentacularity='lgc'>: Lindsay Kelley ='and'>& Eva ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward / “Carnal Light”
='lgc'>[week 7='lgc'>] digital media='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Flusser on hypertext / “Does ="trms">Writing Have a Future” (chapter='lgc'>: Supertext, 6 pages)
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Bolter / “="trms">Writing Space” (chapter 3 ="trms">Writing as ="trms">Technology, 13 pages)
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='at'>#workshop little ="trms">fables of practice, second day ="trms">storytelling
(proposed initially to ="frds scrmbld">Lili='lgc'>:) ='at'>#="trms">imagine and describe an alien ="trms">world where its populace don't practice ‘knowing’
with this practice we get into ="trms">questions of (='lgc'>--without directly addressing/announcing them we will provoke a better understanding of what we might think of them='lgc'>:)
="lsts lst1">•knowing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the inseparability of) knowing, being, and doing
="lsts lst1">•the ‘="trms">suppos’ of the ="trms">supposed to know
="lsts lst1">•="trms">rhetorics, and intrinsicality (“on the inside”)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">response ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (‘knowing’ =) ="trms">differential accountability ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">differential ="trms">responsiveness
="lsts lst1">•environment
="lsts lst1">•description (discursive significance)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">world, and sense-making
="lsts lst1">•="trms">geometry (and -metry)
="lsts lst1">•(intelligibility and) ="trms">materiality enacted ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">question of discourse
="lsts lst1">•="trms">epistemology
="lsts lst1">•conceptions of space and time
="lsts lst1">•reflection (as a ="trms">pervasive ="trms">trope of knowing) ='lgc'>[mirroring, imitation, reflection, ="trms">tropes of “sameness"='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•="trms">material discursive evolving
="lsts lst1">•="trms">mattering; ="trms">matter and intelligibility, ="trms">episteme and ="trms">techne, macro and micro,
="lsts lst1">•
the workshop is in a way about the ="trms">trope of knowing, ="trms">ontology of knowing
(ways of) knowing entangled with mode of being
(with which creature='qstn'>?) ="trms">matter's dynamism is intrinsic to its biodynamic way of being (='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Barad='lgc'>='lgc'>--> for brittlestar everything is intrinsic)
(creatures that) constantly changing its ="trms">geometry and its topology ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ongoing reworking of bodily boundaries
(our, and an alien critter's “it”’s) discoursive practices='lgc'>: boundary-drawing practices by which it ="trms">differentiates between “itself” and the “environment” ='lgc'>==> making sense of its ="trms">world ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='thdf'>that is why i am ="trms">interested in the (better='qstn'>?) ="trms">articulation of “="trms">differences” (= boundary-making practices, our “="trms">differential productions”) that we are making, as a way of getting into eachother discourses ='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~and='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (its) ongoing ="trms">materialization ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*="trms">differential ="trms">materialization='strcls'>* (is discursive; ="ppl">="ppl">Barad)='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•patterns of ="trms">difference
="lsts lst1">•I am against the ‘frictionless ="trms">narrative space’ (in the absence of the dominant ="trms">story) where “everything” (therefore nothing) is possible
(the workshop engages in thinking) ="trms">intertwined practices of knowing and being
='lgc'>[this practice of ="trms">storytelling might be relevant for those invested in ="trms">questions of='lgc'>: knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge production, speculative theory, ="trms">situated bodies critique, ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges critique, being ‘of’ the ="trms">world,='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-to think creatures/beings that have evolved in ="trms">intra-action with their environment
="prgrph">-to ="trms">question and examine the ="trms">ontological issues='lgc'>: the locus of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge is presumed never to be too far removed from the human. in the workshop we re="trms">imagine the locus of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge in other location that nonhuman might occupy
='lgc'>==> a better account for the ='strcls'>*="trms">ontology of knowing='strcls'>* ='lgc'>=/= merely ‘welcome’ dispossessed Others (women, slaves, ="trms">children, ="trms">animals, and other exiles from the land of knowers) into the ="trms">fold of knowers ='lgc'>[no! no!='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•to challange “I think therefore I am”='lgc'>: ='thdf'>the idea that the “="trms">world” is an idea that exists in the human mind ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge making is a not mediated activity ='lgc'>=/= (="ppl">="ppl">Barad's) “direct ="trms">material engagement”
="lsts lst1">•(the workshop begins with a ="trms">position that believes='lgc'>:) knowing is a distributed practice that in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cludes the larger ="trms">material arrangement ='lgc'>[then isn't the practice of ="trms">writing insufficient='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
after the first round we can ask='lgc'>: what do you need (un)know to ="trms">write/think that ="trms">story='qstn'>? or, what do you need to forget/unlearn in order to be able to think/="trms">imagine that ="trms">world='qstn'>?
another round of the workshop could be='lgc'>: ='at'>#="trms">imagine and describe an alien ="trms">world where there is no ‘mediation’ or activities that are not ‘mediated’
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because of working on ="nms">ajayeb, i am becoming a “de="trms">finitionist,” or “de="trms">finitionologist” (not in the classical sense of concept theory)
a de="trms">finition i give is a local abstraction, even when it is making boundaries for a dispersed or global concept, it is still a ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge. that means it might be ="trms">categorical but not applicable outside this particulare niche of space and time, whether it is in a bar in a conversation with ="frds scrmbld">Eszter or when accessed in my hypertext
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committed to the imperative of the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">Rig, things not to do in the pop-up ="trms">book='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•use as ironic='lgc'>: incongruity in expectations of what is ment and what it will mean in advance
="lsts lst1">•use to ="trms">symbolize='lgc'>: as a way of not dealing with sujet ="trms">supposé savoir
="lsts lst1">•use of ana="trms">morphic gaze='lgc'>: a non-diffractive optical ="trms">system
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to be careful (or keep in check) with sequential ="trms">palindromic notion of pop-up ="trms">book, to deal with the parsable seesaw motif in="trms">herit in the pop-up ="trms">book Blickmaschin
="lsts lst1">•use hylo="trms">morphic='lgc'>: assumes form is inscribed ="trms">onto passive ="trms">matter (by an ="trms">agent with a design in mind)
="lsts lst1">•
(relevance should be worked) non-ironic non-="trms">symbolic non-ana="trms">morphic non-="trms">palindromic non-hylo="trms">morphic (='qstn'>?)
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towards ="trms">writing the end of ="nms">apass dossier
="lsts lst1">•practices='lgc'>: workshops, (bow and arrow,) ="nms">ajayeb.net, ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigs ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> pop-up ="trms">book, notes, ="trms">routines, ="trms">excess,
="lsts lst1">•="trms">trajectory='lgc'>: bibliography, ="trms">wonder, ="trms">ongoingness, ="trms">ontology,
="lsts lst1">•productions='lgc'>: study as artwork, ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading as artwork, bottom-top approach to ="trms">writing,
="lsts lst1">•findings='lgc'>: every research practice='lgc'>: must in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clude “="nms">body image”, must in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clude “the image of creativity” especially if you are ="nms">iranian, must employ ="trms">ontological attention to ="trms">differential productions, must rework de="trms">compose redefine its root-="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors, must give extensive ="trms">="trms">equipment ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list, must trace its ="trms">social connections in a wider ="trms">ecology of practices, must in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clude a critique of ="trms">technology,
="lsts lst1">•moments of com="trms">position='lgc'>: a s="trms">cene animated by some quality, or... taking place as accidents (or not)
key ="trms">literature, magic wands='lgc'>:
1st ="trms">stage='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•Richard ="ppl">Sennett='lgc'>: Flesh and Stonne ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="nms">body image
="lsts lst1">•Manuel ="ppl">Delanda='lgc'>: A 1000 Years of Nonlinear ="trms">History ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">material ="trms">histories
="lsts lst1">•Eduardo ="ppl">Kohn='lgc'>: How Forests Thinks ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">semiotics
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Timothy ="ppl">="ppl">Morton='lgc'>: ="trms">Sublime Objects ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">ontology
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Avital Ronnel='lgc'>: (="trms">lectures and articles) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">poetics
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Donna ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway='lgc'>: (="trms">lectures and articles) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">rhetorics
2nd ="trms">stage='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Martha ="ppl">="ppl">Kenney='lgc'>: ="trms">Fables of Attention ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*rationality='lgc'>: mixture of the highly rational and the highly fantastic
="lsts lst1">•Karen ="ppl">="ppl">Barad='lgc'>: Posthumanist Performativity, Invertebrate Visions ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">apparatus
="lsts lst1">•Eva ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>: visualizing ="trms">apparatuses ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> her ="trms">interest in optics, in the optics in which marine invertebrates and people come together through visualizing ="trms">apparatuses
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Vinciane ="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>: The Becomings of Subjectivity in ="trms">Animal ="trms">Worlds ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">anthropo-="trms">zoo-genetics
="lsts lst1">•Kathleen ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart='lgc'>: nonre="trms">presentational theory ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> other ways of description
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Katie ="ppl">King='lgc'>: ="trms">technologies of ="trms">writing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a better thinking of locals and globals
="lsts lst1">•
(curiosity ='lgc'>==>) having to figure out how to do something that i don't al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready know how to do='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">ongoingness of collective practices of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge and concern
="lsts lst1">•talking about (what is going on with) ="nms">ajayeb
="lsts lst1">•paying attention to ="trms">differential ="trms">ontologies
="lsts lst1">•the stuff that happens through face-to-face colleagueship
="lsts lst1">•to be in productive alliance
="lsts lst1">•
unalianated critical work='lgc'> = art
="frds">Seifee wants to say something
something wants to say ="frds">Seifee='qstn'>?
i like us to be ="trms">skilled at
="lsts lst1">•objective perception
="lsts lst1">•5 minute perception
="lsts lst1">•="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigorously passionate perception
="lsts lst1">•="trms">rhetorical perception
="lsts lst1">•sacred perception
="lsts lst1">•devilish perception
="lsts lst1">•queer non-perception
="lsts lst1">•having a taste for ="nms">iranian stuff perception
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> poly="trms">skilled web of friends
='at'>#="nms">Bambi's mother studies='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•other ="trms">stories possibility, ="trms">past and ="trms">history, performative approach to film
="lsts lst1">•politics of ="trms">memory, and ="trms">affect
="lsts lst1">•patterns of re="trms">membrance ='lgc'>=/= event recall
="lsts lst1">•
three ="trms">childhood ="trms">memories, ="trms">stories, from elementary school='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•the ="trms">mime of “you think (too much)”
="lsts lst1">•the weird pro hit on the coming ball
="lsts lst1">•peeping into the toilet
="lsts lst1">•
my ="trms">childhood recognizing='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•filaments (hypha, hyphae, تار) of spider webs
="lsts lst1">•patterns of ants
="lsts lst1">•motion color b="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lurings ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> that ="trms">present is “physical if the eye is quick enough” (="frds scrmbld">Stevens)
="lsts lst1">•
the ways i was engaged as a ="trms">child in scope-="trms">apparatus, micro-macro scales
what other ="trms">stories, re="trms">membrances of the ="trms">past are possible='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-="trms">different ="trms">apparatuses of attention, reconstruction, and ="trms">storytelling, that are ="trms">="trms">equipped to hold diffractive patterns of ‘that which comes to mind’
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can we care for “="nms">iranians” without “for ="nms">iran”='qstn'>?
(i can't care less about ="nms">Iran)
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perhaps artistic research is all about playing cat's cradle (='lgc'>=/= autism) ='lgc'>: (you have all ="trms">sorts of limbs, even ="nms">phantom limbs) you must learn sustaining the rhythm of accepting and giving, (collaborative) patterning (that requires passion and action) ='lgc'>[this is one ="trms">skill that ="trms">matters a lot, what i have been trying to teach myself above anything else in the last years='lgc'>] ='lgc'>[i am playing that game with ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway, joining her (and others) in ="trms">thick, collaborative patterning; generous knottings; ="trms">thickening the knots, relaying a mutated and re="trms">situated pattern for the next play='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•getting the knot, proposing another
="lsts lst1">•you must learn how to hold still
="lsts lst2">◦(more and more) in ="trms">different ="trms">material and conceptual grains o[...]