[...]> ='at'>#and my shift of attention to peer's works is about that='lgc'>: our domain of practices must make claim on each other ='lgc'><== we inhabit ="trms">differences together (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> attention and work on='lgc'>:) ‘local ="trms">category abstractions’ (how do we talk and make each other feel our subjects of ="trms">interest in ="nms">apass for example) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the cumulative, as="trms">sociated and sensed) ="trms">routines, ="trms">gestures, and (="trms">inter)surfaces of our everyday life in ="nms">apass, as a group of rese="trms"nttrm="search">archers, that don't necessarily align ='lgc'>==> ="trms">worlding comes from these things.
='lgc'>[attunement ='lgc'>=/= argument='lgc'>]


the name of the ="trms">world is “detail”


="large lg2" stl="font-size:112%"> ='strcls'>***="trms">translation (essentailly imperfect) is the very condition of signification ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">trope is the very condition of ="trms">language

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don't be docile bodies or innocent bystander, do what you have to do to constitute your courage
all i am saying is that='lgc'>: it is not clear what the destiny of art (or of anything) is

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perhaps what i am trying to learn='lgc'>--with ="nms">apass, ="nms">ajayeb, ="trms">writing, ="nms">harem, etc='lgc'>--is to ask what do i need='lgc'>--which ="trms">skills, abilities, or ="trms">literacies='lgc'>--to become ="trms">="trms">equipped to share the experience of the habits of the ="trms">world (of ="nms">ajayeb) that i am discovering

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="frds scrmbld">Luisa='lgc'>: “the visual (side)effects of a ‘not being supported’”
effect ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> object ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> object2 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport3 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> suport4 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ...
(at one point ="frds scrmbld">Marialena pulling away a support box ='lgc'>==> ="frds scrmbld">Luisa's cry sound side-effect of a ‘not being supported’)
="lsts lst1">•='qstn'>?how is it done for her='lgc'>: construction of in="trms">different objects
="lsts lst1">•which import function is ="trms">materializing her ‘objects’='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[public import='lgc'>]



I want my friends to become marvelous thinkers makers, I want them to ask ="trms">interesting ="trms">questions



="frds scrmbld">Esta='lgc'>: “when we enter the ="trms">presentation we are rese="trms"nttrm="search">archers, we are not friends” ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “neutrality” of encounter='lgc'>]
(but i want to explore new places in ='mywrk'>my work with the people who care for you)
(is this at all possible='qstn'>? to enter with friends a non-friend zone='qstn'>?)

in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion ='lgc'>=/= involvement
(in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion usually mistaken as ="trms">literally for physical in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion)



="large lg1" stl="font-size:127%"> How ="frds scrmbld">Kobe's work can move from a “case-finder ="trms">agency” to a consequential work='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">storytellings for making consequential meanings='strcls'>*='lgc'>] that means='lgc'>: what does it mean to live in the consequences of the ="trms">relations one is enacting='qstn'>?
(when I look at my friends and peers in ="nms">apass, I can see and feel the knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges they inhabit in their bodies and the living effects of their ="trms">languages. I re-figurally feel the figures they ="trms">embody and their objects whether they assist or resist states of transformation.)


ephemeral things become food

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="frds scrmbld">Esta, risking one's life


='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda, ="frds scrmbld">Xiri,
='thdf'>the idea of “express its inner experience”
simulation of

="frds scrmbld">Xiri's sense of entitlement to accusation

="large lg3" stl="font-size:111%">
='at'>@="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo, ="trms">fiction of sharing
‘something tangible, like a meal’
something phantasmatically hooked up to libidinal openness, like a ="trms">drug


='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Elen, DUI='lgc'>: driving under influence, what are we on when they were driving her cars
DUI has become the pharmecy take on ="trms">drugs to take away and winning the ="trms">drug war
movement under influence, MUI
legelized use of motor activity
driving while impaired/driving while intoxicated (DWI)
drink-driving (UK)
driving risky (DR)
drunk driver (DD)

="large lg4" stl="font-size:112%"> ='thdf'>the notion of game and rule for ="frds scrmbld">Elen and ="frds scrmbld">Luisa and ="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: it is until ages of 3 and 6 that ="trms">children must not play by rules, and only after that the concept of rule-based-games (such as sports) should be introduced to them. what does that say about our artistic environment when we talk rules or breaking rules='qstn'>?
i am becoming more ="trms">interested in the ‘rules’ that the artist (or non-artist) is proposing, and not my own ‘freedom’ in their work. what does it mean or do to become ="trms">interested in the ='strcls'>*freedom of others='strcls'>* and not yourself='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==> paying attention to the most implicit rules of your game, that means i am paying attention to your freedom that has ="trms">articulated itself in the creative ="trms">gesture


instead of (the “how” of) “how do i show my ="trms">interested texts='qstn'>?” (which was proposed in ="frds scrmbld">Maarten's exhibition of ="trms">poems) i like to ask (the “what” of) “what requires ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='qstn'>?” (also ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Sven) (my kill-joys in ="nms">apass ... am i being too ="trms">ontologic with everything='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> I am operating from the ="trms">position that understanding ="trms">materials, practices, and ="trms">interpretation implies ="trms">questioning ="trms">ontological assumption ='lgc'>==> challenge concepts)


='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: is there a notion of ‘="trms">natural’ embeded in her ‘compelled’='qstn'>? there is nothing ="trms">natural about us being here, there is nothing ="trms">natural about here
="lsts lst1">•cognitivism='lgc'>: (when talking of re="trms">presentation) a psychology of doing which emphasizes human cognition endowment enabling man to develop intellectually ='lgc'>==> classifications (are easy seen) as properties of mind ='lgc'>=/= classifications as ="trms">materials or ="trms">materially textured ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “a common way to hear people's experience of this ="trms">materiality is through ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors. So the generation of ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors is closely linked with the shift to texture.” (="ppl">="ppl">Bowker)
="lsts lst1">•behaviorism='lgc'>: a theory of doing that focuses on objectively observable behaviors and discounts independent activities of the minds involved in the doing

="large lg5" stl="font-size:161%"> ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? behavioral ="trms">intervention
(footnote on) behavior therapy ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> breaking one's loops (of='lgc'>: reverie ='lgc'>[mind fleeing across se="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluded planes='lgc'>], reaction to stimuli ='lgc'>[overwhelmed by the speech of the others ='lgc'>~ ="trms">neurosis='lgc'>], distorted thinking ='lgc'>[overstressed emotional reasoning='lgc'>], , ,)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]behavior therapy='lgc'>: treatment of ="trms">neurotic ="trms">symptoms by training the patient's reactions to stimuli ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*cognitive restructuring='strcls'>* could help ="frds scrmbld">Eszter in her artwork='qstn'>? (to reestablish the ="trms">relationships between stimuli and ="trms">responses)
(="trms">techniques='lgc'>:)
="lsts lst1">•counterconditioning
="lsts lst1">•punishment (operant conditioning)
="lsts lst1">•habituation
="lsts lst1">•functional analysis
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*behavior ="trms">intervention plans='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•automatic thought record
="lsts lst1">•

i can only guess (with cognitive therapy) at the ="trms">interior landscape of her reverie, her ="trms">internal reality (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= psyche) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> i am reminded by this again that knowing anyone's psyche is impossible, as in psychology is an impossible ="trms">science='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]cognitive therapy='lgc'>: identifying and changing unhelpful or inaccurate thinking, problematic behavior, and ='strcls'>*distressing emotional ="trms">responses='strcls'>*
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning to monitor thoughts (in three layers='lgc'>:)
="lstsrd">1. core belief ='lgc'>[deepest level of our thinking, underlying self-values and perceptions of the ="trms">world, have an absolute quality='lgc'>: “I am worthless.” “I am inadequate.” “if I fail, I am worthless.” “I am unsafe in the ="trms">world.” etc.='lgc'>]
="lstsrd">2. ="trms">intermediate beliefs ='lgc'>[expectations and assumptions, guidelines we follow, maintaining our ="trms">anxiety and depression='lgc'>: “Always look for d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger and expect it to be there.” “If I don't understand something perfectly, then I'm dumb.” etc.='lgc'>]
="lstsrd">3. automatic thoughts ='lgc'>[immediate thoughts that go through our mind in ="trms">response to a ="trms">situation, usually negative and un="trms">questioned='lgc'>: “She thinks I'm weird.” “I won't pass that test.” “This is too hard. I'll never understand this.” etc.='lgc'>]

types of automatic thoughts='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•evaluation (evaluative thoughts)
="lsts lst1">•coping strategies
="lsts lst1">•avoidance
="lsts lst1">•

='lgc'>[cognitive distortions='lgc'>]
typical mistakes in thinking='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*all or nothing='strcls'>* / all-or-none thinking (“If I'm not a total success, I'm a fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*catastrophizing='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> middle eastern fortune-telling, omen, foretell the future='lgc'>] ( “I'll be so upset, I won't be able to function at all.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*disqualifying the ="trms">positive='strcls'>* (="trms">positive experiences do not count='lgc'>: “I did that project well, but that doesn't mean I'm competent; I just got lucky.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*emotional reasoning='strcls'>* (“I know I do a lot of things okay at work, but I still feel like I'm a fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*labeling='strcls'>* (“I'm a loser.” “He's no good.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*magnification/minimization='strcls'>* (“Getting a mediocre evaluation proves how inadequate I am. Getting high marks doesn't mean I'm smart.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*mental filter='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[selective abstraction='lgc'>] (“Because I got one low rating on my evaluation it means I'm doing a lousy job.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*mind ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[="trms">narcissism='lgc'>] (believe to know what others are thinking='lgc'>: “He's thinking that I don't know the first thing about this project.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*over="trms">generalization='strcls'>* (“='lgc'>[Because I felt uncomfortable at the meeting='lgc'>] I don't have what it takes to make friends.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*personalization='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[="trms">narcissism='lgc'>] (believe others are behaving negatively because of you='lgc'>: “T[...]