[...]driving under influence, what are we on when they were driving her cars
DUI has become the pharmecy take on ="trms">drugs to take away and winning the ="trms">drug war
movement under influence, MUI
legelized use of motor activity
driving while impaired/driving while intoxicated (DWI)
drink-driving (UK)
driving risky (DR)
drunk driver (DD)
='thdf'>the notion of game and rule for ="frds scrmbld">Elen and ="frds scrmbld">Luisa and ="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: it is until ages of 3 and 6 that ="trms">children must not play by rules, and only after that the concept of rule-based-games (such as sports) should be introduced to them. what does that say about our artistic environment when we talk rules or breaking rules='qstn'>?
i am becoming more ="trms">interested in the ‘rules’ that the artist (or non-artist) is proposing, and not my own ‘freedom’ in their work. what does it mean or do to become ="trms">interested in the ='strcls'>*freedom of others='strcls'>* and not yourself='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==> paying attention to the most implicit rules of your game, that means i am paying attention to your freedom that has ="trms">articulated itself in the creative ="trms">gesture
instead of (the “how” of) “how do i show my ="trms">interested texts='qstn'>?” (which was proposed in ="frds scrmbld">Maarten's exhibition of ="trms">poems) i like to ask (the “what” of) “what requires ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='qstn'>?” (also ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Sven) (my kill-joys in ="nms">apass ... am i being too ="trms">ontologic with everything='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> I am operating from the ="trms">position that understanding ="trms">materials, practices, and ="trms">interpretation implies ="trms">questioning ="trms">ontological assumption ='lgc'>==> challenge concepts)
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>: is there a notion of ‘="trms">natural’ embeded in her ‘compelled’='qstn'>? there is nothing ="trms">natural about us being here, there is nothing ="trms">natural about here
="lsts lst1">•cognitivism='lgc'>: (when talking of re="trms">presentation) a psychology of doing which emphasizes human cognition endowment enabling man to develop intellectually ='lgc'>==> classifications (are easy seen) as properties of mind ='lgc'>=/= classifications as ="trms">materials or ="trms">materially textured ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “a common way to hear people's experience of this ="trms">materiality is through ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors. So the generation of ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors is closely linked with the shift to texture.” (="ppl">="ppl">Bowker)
="lsts lst1">•behaviorism='lgc'>: a theory of doing that focuses on objectively observable behaviors and discounts independent activities of the minds involved in the doing
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='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? behavioral ="trms">intervention
(footnote on) behavior therapy ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> breaking one's loops (of='lgc'>: reverie ='lgc'>[mind fleeing across se="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluded planes='lgc'>], reaction to stimuli ='lgc'>[overwhelmed by the speech of the others ='lgc'>~ ="trms">neurosis='lgc'>], distorted thinking ='lgc'>[overstressed emotional reasoning='lgc'>], , ,)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]behavior therapy='lgc'>: treatment of ="trms">neurotic ="trms">symptoms by training the patient's reactions to stimuli ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*cognitive restructuring='strcls'>* could help ="frds scrmbld">Eszter in her artwork='qstn'>? (to reestablish the ="trms">relationships between stimuli and ="trms">responses)
(="trms">techniques='lgc'>:)
="lsts lst1">•counterconditioning
="lsts lst1">•punishment (operant conditioning)
="lsts lst1">•habituation
="lsts lst1">•functional analysis
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*behavior ="trms">intervention plans='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•automatic thought record
="lsts lst1">•
i can only guess (with cognitive therapy) at the ="trms">interior landscape of her reverie, her ="trms">internal reality (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= psyche) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> i am reminded by this again that knowing anyone's psyche is impossible, as in psychology is an impossible ="trms">science='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]cognitive therapy='lgc'>: identifying and changing unhelpful or inaccurate thinking, problematic behavior, and ='strcls'>*distressing emotional ="trms">responses='strcls'>*
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning to monitor thoughts (in three layers='lgc'>:)
="lstsrd">1. core belief ='lgc'>[deepest level of our thinking, underlying self-values and perceptions of the ="trms">world, have an absolute quality='lgc'>: “I am worthless.” “I am inadequate.” “if I fail, I am worthless.” “I am unsafe in the ="trms">world.” etc.='lgc'>]
="lstsrd">2. ="trms">intermediate beliefs ='lgc'>[expectations and assumptions, guidelines we follow, maintaining our ="trms">anxiety and depression='lgc'>: “Always look for d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger and expect it to be there.” “If I don't understand something perfectly, then I'm dumb.” etc.='lgc'>]
="lstsrd">3. automatic thoughts ='lgc'>[immediate thoughts that go through our mind in ="trms">response to a ="trms">situation, usually negative and un="trms">questioned='lgc'>: “She thinks I'm weird.” “I won't pass that test.” “This is too hard. I'll never understand this.” etc.='lgc'>]
types of automatic thoughts='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•evaluation (evaluative thoughts)
="lsts lst1">•coping strategies
="lsts lst1">•avoidance
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>[cognitive distortions='lgc'>]
typical mistakes in thinking='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*all or nothing='strcls'>* / all-or-none thinking (“If I'm not a total success, I'm a fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*catastrophizing='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> middle eastern fortune-telling, omen, foretell the future='lgc'>] ( “I'll be so upset, I won't be able to function at all.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*disqualifying the ="trms">positive='strcls'>* (="trms">positive experiences do not count='lgc'>: “I did that project well, but that doesn't mean I'm competent; I just got lucky.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*emotional reasoning='strcls'>* (“I know I do a lot of things okay at work, but I still feel like I'm a fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*labeling='strcls'>* (“I'm a loser.” “He's no good.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*magnification/minimization='strcls'>* (“Getting a mediocre evaluation proves how inadequate I am. Getting high marks doesn't mean I'm smart.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*mental filter='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[selective abstraction='lgc'>] (“Because I got one low rating on my evaluation it means I'm doing a lousy job.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*mind ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[="trms">narcissism='lgc'>] (believe to know what others are thinking='lgc'>: “He's thinking that I don't know the first thing about this project.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*over="trms">generalization='strcls'>* (“='lgc'>[Because I felt uncomfortable at the meeting='lgc'>] I don't have what it takes to make friends.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*personalization='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[="trms">narcissism='lgc'>] (believe others are behaving negatively because of you='lgc'>: “The repairman was curt to me because I did something wrong.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*should/must='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[imperatives='lgc'>] (having a fixed idea of how you or others should behave='lgc'>: “It's terrible that I made a mistake. I should always do my best.”)
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*tunnel vision='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[cyclopean view='lgc'>] (“My son's teacher can't do anything ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right. He's critical and insensitive and lousy at teaching.”)
what is the most central belief about herself='qstn'>?
which experiences contributed to the development and maintenance of the her belief='qstn'>?
which ="trms">positive assumption helped her cope with the core belief='qstn'>?
what is the negative counterpart to this assumption='qstn'>?
which behaviors help her cope with the belief='qstn'>?
='strcls'>*basically there is often no evidence that the automatic thought is true
http://static1.squarespace.com/static/521a7b2ee4b0ee587906d191/t/5774531e03596e22f1d2c844/1467241246388/CBT='lgc'>+Case='lgc'>+Conference='lgc'>+Handouts-1.pdf
(a deep problem with behavior analysis is that it comes from the study of ="trms">animal learning in the 20th century... observing cats trying to escape from home-made puzzle boxes, and things like that)
(for ="frds scrmbld">Eszter='lgc'>:) complex ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= coherent (='lgc'>=/= ='strcls'>*contradictory='strcls'>*)
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="frds scrmbld">Eszter could benefit from learning about collective behavior ="trms">sociology
/individual behavior is completely unpre="trms">dictable
/collective behavior is to a large extent pre="trms">dictable
contagion ='lgc'>=/= convergence
(Kelile Demne='lgc'>: evil is convergent)
='strcls'>*contagion='lgc'>: crowds exert a hypnotic influence over their ="trms">members
='strcls'>*convergent='lgc'>: people who want to act in a certain way come together ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> crowd diffuse ="trms">responsibility but the behavior itself is claimed to o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">riginate within the individuals
='strcls'>*emergent-norm='lgc'>: people find themselves in a vague, ambiguous, confusing ="trms">situation ='lgc'>==> new norms “emerge” on the spot, which may be at odds with normal ="trms">social behavior
='strcls'>*value-added='lgc'>: release valve سوپاپ for built-up tension within ="trms">community
='strcls'>*complex adaptive ="trms">systems='lgc'>: auto="trms">poiesis or self-creation of patterns and new entities
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(footnote on) personality disorder
deviating from ‘orders’ accepted by the individual's culture
="prgrph">-your distinguished and enduring behavioral and mental traits that differ from ="trms">social norms and expectations
it is in ="trms">relation to others ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> cognition, emotiveness, ="trms">interpersonal functioning, impulse control ='lgc'>==> personal, ="trms">social, occupational disruption
egosyntonic personality disorders are most difficult to treat (such as='lgc'>: ="trms">narcissistic personality disorder, anorexia, gambling problem)
='strcls'>*egosyntonic='lgc'>: in harmony with the needs and goals of the ego ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> defences ='lgc'>==> maladaptive coping ="trms">skills ='lgc'>='lgc'>='lgc'>~=> ="trms">anxiety, distress, depression='lgc'>]
='strcls'>*egodystonic='lgc'>: in conflict with the needs and goals of the ego, in conflict with a person's ideal self-image
obsessive-compulsive disorder ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> egodystonic
obsessive-compulsive personality disorder ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> egosyntonic
="ppl">Freud='lgc'>: psychic conflict arising when the o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">riginal lagging instincts come into conflict with the ego (or egosyntonic instincts) ='lgc'>[such as='lgc'>: erection problem ='lgc'>==> egodystonic='lgc'>]
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='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]personality disorder='lgc'>: (a type of psychological disorder generally defined by) the lack of insight into the disorder
borderline personality disorder ='lgc'>=/= shades of gray
(a view that sees) significances as unfair and uncaring (devaluation) or flawless (idealization)
(a standardized criteria of diagnosis since 1980) a certain class of ="trms">neurotics who, when in crisis, appeared to straddle the borderline into psychosis
fluctuation in identity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> chaotic identity (='lgc'>=/= chaotic ="trms">imagination)
='strcls'>*the most treatment-resistant personality type='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-75 percent in female patients
="prgrph">-related to neglect in ="trms">childhood
borderline personality disorder often comes with very smart people
borderline personality ='lgc'>+ high intelligence ='lgc'>==>
="lsts lst1">•parakandegi-e zehn پراکندگی ذهن sporadic and dispersed mind ='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> hadaf jahat kushesh fa'aliat هدف جهت کوشش فعالیت having a target, direction, effort, activity
="lsts lst1">•going from one thing to another without consistency in life باری به هر جهت
borderline personality disorder ='lgc'>+ ="trms">narcissistic personality disorder ='lgc'>[seeing people from top to down='lgc'>] ='lgc'>==> winning arguments by mixing ="trms">imagination and reality, saying everything they like to others
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (donya-e zehni) a mental ="trms">world in which ="trms">imagination and reality are not distinguish (='lgc'>='lgc'>~-> lying)
(a nontherapeutic approach) to turn the borderline into ="trms">storyteller='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•dis="trms">sociation ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> impossible as="trms">sociation
="lsts lst1">•disconnection as a state of consciousness ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> impossible connection
="lsts lst1">•lying as a feature ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">fabulation
="lsts lst1">•manipulative behavior ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">articulative
="lsts lst1">•="trms">demand ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> performance
="lsts lst1">•chaotic identity ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> chaotic ="trms">imagination
="lsts lst1">•ذهن پراکنده (sporadic mind) ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ذهن انحرافی (deviant mind)
="lsts lst1">•sensitivity (of thin or no psychological skin) ='lgc'>--into='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sensibility
="lsts lst1">•
a therapeutic approach to borderline personality='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•dialectical behavior therapy (='lgc'><='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>-- mindfulness)
="lsts lst1">•
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='prcnt'>%notes on ='at'>#workshop of ="trms">question (HWD)
="prgrph">-how come in my drawing class participancts couldn't even hold the pen
="prgrph">-participants lenzes couldn't focus, the words were in b="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lur and in disarray
="prgrph">-i had to stop free as="trms">sociations and ="trms">staggerings, and return to the task at hand
="prgrph">-it was like teaching a new ="trms">language
="prgrph">-i was trying to share my methorodlogy, ="trms">specificly. not a jam session
="prgrph">-is it neccesory or ="trms">interesting to learn eachother ="trms">methodlogies in order to get involved and engagned in eachother practices='qstn'>? maybe not ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> go back to re="trms">presentational tools ='lgc'>--are re="trms">presentational tools the best we have='qstn'>? or maybe, structurally we can't give workshop in ="nms">apass HWDs or endweeks, because participants are not there by free will that is usually mobilising them to look for and join a workshop that they are ="trms">interested in.
='prcnt'>%(am I='qstn'>?) ‘coming back with advices’ in ='mywrk'>my work ='lgc'>[='lgc'>[='at'>#="frds scrmbld">Esta='lgc'>]='lgc'>]
is it ="trms">interesting for me or ='mywrk'>my research to think about how we moved that plant around in the 4th floor='qstn'>?
='strcls'>*moving plants='strcls'>* is risky
as backdrop for human activity
passively vegetating
making local and global connections='lgc'>: which local or global connections was made (by ="frds">Sina, ="frds scrmbld">Xiri and ="frds scrmbld">Esta moving the plant)='qstn'>? (how the plant was re="trms">positioned in our) making of public common spaces
="prgrph">-practices of concern
(attentive to the plant that was a) shared “thing” between us
what was mediated, navigated and ="trms">articulated with that plant in ="nms">apass 4th floor='qstn'>?
(with this i am trying to ask about the) kinds of ="trms">imaginative ="trms">world-making at work
gathering forces
="prgrph">-
the mice, and the pattern of rice, how did we become the ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reader of mice's text='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reader is always always constructed.
the mice disconnected us from global digital ="trms">networks and wrote something on the floor...
(which objects of our ="trms">systems design supporting some and not others) leaving out what are locally perceived as “nonpeople” can mean nonworking ="trms">system. (biologists not seeing their secretaries as doing real ="trms">science, artists in ="nms">apass not seeing the mice doing real work, etc.)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*(="ppl">Leigh ="ppl">="ppl">Star's) “ethnography of infrastructure”='strcls'>* -infrastructure is both ="trms">relational and ="trms">ecological, both transparent and opaque. it is part of the balance of action, tools, and the built environment. ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]infrastructure='lgc'>: a ="trms">dense ="trms">interwoven fabric of shared visions of possible and acceptable dreams (of the inovative, as ="trms">techniques, knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge, know-how, and the institutions).
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my previous ="trms">lectures have been ="trms">communicating something I don't quite understand to an audience that doesn't want to know. but still somehow they became not in="trms">different to my madness and we managed to establish lines of ="trms">interest and ="trms">interference (='lgc'>=/= restoring the phalus to its proper place, or getting a ="trms">membership)
i am building another wit ='lgc'>=/= you know when you are on some kind of auto-="trms">respond, those smart fast answers. my wits take ages to come through. in a way i have been slowing down certain kinds of wit. that's also why it is so easy to silence me.
i have been also busy with the timing of understanding. how to keep understanding open and ongoing='qstn'>? there is this standard general sense that becomes very upset when things are not immediately understood (='at'>#double-click democratization of ="trms">communication,) ='mywrk'>my workings have been perhaps invested in keeping my own (not-fully-)understood alive for a while. if things were instantly understandable we wouldn't be here.
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="trms">question at ="frds scrmbld">Hoda
how to make her ="trms">interested in ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphysics='qstn'>? in queer studies and practices
physics is the river of ="trms">phenomena
="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">meta='lgc'>: above, among, beyond
="trms">ontological commitment to='lgc'>:
sense of ="trms">wonder
sense of sadness
sense of madness
what (else) ="trms">literature can be if not elegy='qstn'>?
sonic level of sign-making and significance in her act
soft-spoken adjectives
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“sigh”='lgc'>: ="trms">poetry's start-up engine, aaaahh
somewhere between lament and mourning
proper address of the mother
which ‘s="trms">cene of ="trms">modern or classical ="trms">language’ you are opening='qstn'>?
‘sigh’ is important, sigh initiates (many in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluding german and ="nms">iranian) ="trms">literature
="nms">iranian ="trms">historical comfort zones
where ="trms">literature starts with sigh
when and how did you learn to sigh='qstn'>?
sigh is from the family of the specialized ="trms">languages of ="trms">complaining='qstn'>?
temporal climate of your re="trms">membrance (as mourning) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> related to the ="trms">past='qstn'>?
mourning and ="trms">memory are sojourn for her
incorporating the object of (her) loss
(holding ="trms">onto) the unhappy objects of ="trms">difference
="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger, pain, misery, ...
which (good or bad) feelings saturates her ="trms">poem='qstn'>?
="trms">question of saturation
which feelings modified by which ="trms">poetics sutures which wounds='qstn'>? زخمبندی
or to be more psychoanalytically correct='lgc'>: where is the wound='qstn'>?
my own affirmative exposure of the unhappy effects of her ="trms">poetry
what is the image of the ‘better life’ in her ="trms">poetry='qstn'>?
somehow in the ="trms">literary habitus she is moving, the o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigin of descriptive/inscriptive saying is made by an initial violation
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="frds scrmbld">Hoda's ="trms">poem, which energies does it unleash in her='qstn'>?
sokhan-e ranj سخن رنج
شعر غنایی Lyric ="trms">poetry, a formal type of ="trms">poetry which is defined by or dedicated to expressing so-called personal emotions or feelings.
the Lyre, a string ="trms">instrument in ="trms">Greek classical antiquity, is tuning the ="trms">technicality of this ‘form’
="trms">historical ="trms">contingencies of “personal feelings”
='qstn'>?what is more singular than your “personal” highs, trips, crashes, “feelings” ='lgc'>==> a text telling about itself (its ownmost experience of something that is radically singular)
="prgrph">-="trms">rhetoric of singularity
="prgrph">-(my point is that the expression of your) innermost experience (is often signed by someone else)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “distributed biographies,” thinking about ="trms">sociality of perception
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her ="trms">poem is her textual body (='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sexual body)
ecstasy
is subjectivity (permanently for ="frds scrmbld">Hoda) ecstatic='qstn'>?
this is the ="trms">question of ‘where is the subject’='qstn'>? ="trms">according to ="trms">different practices with ecstasy we are outside ourselves. (in ="trms">religion that is precisely where the ‘inside’ is located)
="prgrph">-permanent or structural ecstasy is clearly political
="prgrph">-ecstasy is disruptiv[...]