[...]is probably wrong='qstn'>?
within the ="trms">rhetoric of ="trms">integration a usual terrifying point is in which the duty of the migrant is to attach to a ="trms">different, happier object
the future of reattachment ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Hoda
="prgrph">-in this ="trms">integrative ="trms">narrative, I have to be careful with assumptions that good feelings are open and bad feelings are closed
bad feelings are seen as orientated toward the ="trms">past ='lgc'>=/= ='mywrk'>my work on ="trms">past
she said “here is the English-one” meaning the English ="trms">translation of her ="trms">poem
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> in the last five years i have been rifting between the difficult space between “here the ="trms">Farsi-one” and “here the English-one”
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='at'>#semester, seminar study the “s="trms">cene of ="trms">writing”
keywords='lgc'>: deconstruction, fabrication, ="trms">articulation, plasticity
='lgc'>[week 1,2,3='lgc'>] encounters between psychoanalysis, deconstruction, ="trms">writing, concepts of ="trms">language='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Derrida ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">Freud / “="ppl">Freud ='and'>& the S="trms">cene of ="trms">Writing” (43 pages)
="lsts lst1">•Fleming ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">Derrida / “Cultural Graphology ="trms">Writing After ="ppl">Derrida” (first chapter='lgc'>: The Psychopathology of ="trms">Writing, 29 pages)
="lsts lst1">•the schemas of text and the trace, Malabou on plasticity ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= elasticity='lgc'>] (change of the paradigm of ="trms">writing as developed in ="ppl">Derrida's Grammatology with the new paradigm of plasticity, her ="trms">interest in ="trms">relation between form, ="trms">materiality and meaning) / “Plasticity at the Dusk of ="trms">Writing” (28 pages)
='lgc'>[week 4='lgc'>] 20th century ="trms">sciences and philosophies, ='thdf'>the notion of fabrication of concepts='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•Xin Wei ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">Whitehead / “="ppl">Whitehead's ="trms">Poetical Mathematics” (19 pages)
='lgc'>[week 5='lgc'>] on ="trms">articulation='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Deleuze and ="ppl">Guattari / “A Thousand Plateaus” (chapter 3='lgc'>: Double ="trms">Articulation, 32 pages)
='lgc'>[week 6='lgc'>] feminist and women studies, s="trms">cene of ="trms">writing='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">aesthetic tentacularity='lgc'>: Lindsay Kelley ='and'>& Eva ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward / “Carnal Light”
='lgc'>[week 7='lgc'>] digital media='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Flusser on hypertext / “Does ="trms">Writing Have a Future” (chapter='lgc'>: Supertext, 6 pages)
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Bolter / “="trms">Writing Space” (chapter 3 ="trms">Writing as ="trms">Technology, 13 pages)
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='at'>#workshop little ="trms">fables of practice, second day ="trms">storytelling
(proposed initially to ="frds scrmbld">Lili='lgc'>:) ='at'>#="trms">imagine and describe an alien ="trms">world where its populace don't practice ‘knowing’
with this practice we get into ="trms">questions of (='lgc'>--without directly addressing/announcing them we will provoke a better understanding of what we might think of them='lgc'>:)
="lsts lst1">•knowing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the inseparability of) knowing, being, and doing
="lsts lst1">•the ‘="trms">suppos’ of the ="trms">supposed to know
="lsts lst1">•="trms">rhetorics, and intrinsicality (“on the inside”)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">response ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (‘knowing’ =) ="trms">differential accountability ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">differential ="trms">responsiveness
="lsts lst1">•environment
="lsts lst1">•description (discursive significance)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">world, and sense-making
="lsts lst1">•="trms">geometry (and -metry)
="lsts lst1">•(intelligibility and) ="trms">materiality enacted ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">question of discourse
="lsts lst1">•="trms">epistemology
="lsts lst1">•conceptions of space and time
="lsts lst1">•reflection (as a ="trms">pervasive ="trms">trope of knowing) ='lgc'>[mirroring, imitation, reflection, ="trms">tropes of “sameness"='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•="trms">material discursive evolving
="lsts lst1">•="trms">mattering; ="trms">matter and intelligibility, ="trms">episteme and ="trms">techne, macro and micro,
="lsts lst1">•
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the workshop is in a way about the ="trms">trope of knowing, ="trms">ontology of knowing
(ways of) knowing entangled with mode of being
(with which creature='qstn'>?) ="trms">matter's dynamism is intrinsic to its biodynamic way of being (='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Barad='lgc'>='lgc'>--> for brittlestar everything is intrinsic)
(creatures that) constantly changing its ="trms">geometry and its topology ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ongoing reworking of bodily boundaries
(our, and an alien critter's “it”’s) discoursive practices='lgc'>: boundary-drawing practices by which it ="trms">differentiates between “itself” and the “environment” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> making sense of its ="trms">world ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='thdf'>that is why i am ="trms">interested in the (better='qstn'>?) ="trms">articulation of “="trms">differences” (= boundary-making practices, our “="trms">differential productions”) that we are making, as a way of getting into eachother discourses ='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~and='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (its) ongoing ="trms">materialization ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*="trms">differential ="trms">materialization='strcls'>* (is discursive; ="ppl">="ppl">Barad)='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•patterns of ="trms">difference
="lsts lst1">•I am against the ‘frictionless ="trms">narrative space’ (in the absence of the dominant ="trms">story) where “everything” (therefore nothing) is possible
(the workshop engages in thinking) ="trms">intertwined practices of knowing and being
='lgc'>[this practice of ="trms">storytelling might be relevant for those invested in ="trms">questions of='lgc'>: knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge production, speculative theory, ="trms">situated bodies critique, ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges critique, being ‘of’ the ="trms">world,='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-to think creatures/beings that have evolved in ="trms">intra-action with their environment
="prgrph">-to ="trms">question and examine the ="trms">ontological issues='lgc'>: the locus of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge is presumed never to be too far removed from the human. in the workshop we re="trms">imagine the locus of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge in other location that nonhuman might occupy
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> a better account for the ='strcls'>*="trms">ontology of knowing='strcls'>* ='lgc'>=/= merely ‘welcome’ dispossessed Others (women, slaves, ="trms">children, ="trms">animals, and other exiles from the land of knowers) into the ="trms">fold of knowers ='lgc'>[no! no!='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•to challange “I think therefore I am”='lgc'>: ='thdf'>the idea that the “="trms">world” is an idea that exists in the human mind ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge making is a not mediated activity ='lgc'>=/= (="ppl">="ppl">Barad's) “direct ="trms">material engagement”
="lsts lst1">•(the workshop begins with a ="trms">position that believes='lgc'>:) knowing is a distributed practice that in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cludes the larger ="trms">material arrangement ='lgc'>[then isn't the practice of ="trms">writing insufficient='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
after the first round we can ask='lgc'>: what do you need (un)know to ="trms">write/think that ="trms">story='qstn'>? or, what do you need to forget/unlearn in order to be able to think/="trms">imagine that ="trms">world='qstn'>?
another round of the workshop could be='lgc'>: ='at'>#="trms">imagine and describe an alien ="trms">world where there is no ‘mediation’ or activities that are not ‘mediated’
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because of working on ="nms">ajayeb, i am becoming a “de="trms">finitionist,” or “de="trms">finitionologist” (not in the classical sense of concept theory)
a de="trms">finition i give is a local abstraction, even when it is making boundaries for a dispersed or global concept, it is still a ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge. that means it might be ="trms">categorical but not applicable outside this particulare niche of space and time, whether it is in a bar in a conversation with ="frds scrmbld">Eszter or when accessed in my hypertext
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committed to the imperative of the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">Rig, things not to do in the pop-up ="trms">book='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•use as ironic='lgc'>: incongruity in expectations of what is ment and what it will mean in advance
="lsts lst1">•use to ="trms">symbolize='lgc'>: as a way of not dealing with sujet ="trms">supposé savoir
="lsts lst1">•use of ana="trms">morphic gaze='lgc'>: a non-diffractive optical ="trms">system
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to be careful (or keep in check) with sequential ="trms">palindromic notion of pop-up ="trms">book, to deal with the parsable seesaw motif in="trms">herit in the pop-up ="trms">book Blickmaschin
="lsts lst1">•use hylo="trms">morphic='lgc'>: assumes form is inscribed ="trms">onto passive ="trms">matter (by an ="trms">agent with a design in mind)
="lsts lst1">•
(relevance should be worked) non-ironic non-="trms">symbolic non-ana="trms">morphic non-="trms">palindromic non-hylo="trms">morphic (='qstn'>?)
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towards ="trms">writing the end of ="nms">apass dossier
="lsts lst1">•practices='lgc'>: workshops, (bow and arrow,) ="nms">ajayeb.net, ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigs ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> pop-up ="trms">book, notes, ="trms">routines, ="trms">excess,
="lsts lst1">•="trms">trajectory='lgc'>: bibliography, ="trms">wonder, ="trms">ongoingness, ="trms">ontology,
="lsts lst1">•productions='lgc'>: study as artwork, ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading as artwork, bottom-top approach to ="trms">writing,
="lsts lst1">•findings='lgc'>: every research practice='lgc'>: must in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clude “="nms">body image”, must in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clude “the image of creativity” especially if you are ="nms">iranian, must employ ="trms">ontological attention to ="trms">differential productions, must rework de="trms">compose redefine its root-="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors, must give extensive ="trms">="trms">equipment ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list, must trace its ="trms">social connections in a wider ="trms">ecology of practices, must in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clude a critique of ="trms">technology,
="lsts lst1">•moments of com="trms">position='lgc'>: a s="trms">cene animated by some quality, or... taking place as accidents (or not)
key ="trms">literature, magic wands='lgc'>:
1st ="trms">stage='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•Richard ="ppl">Sennett='lgc'>: Flesh and Stonne ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="nms">body image
="lsts lst1">•Manuel ="ppl">Delanda='lgc'>: A 1000 Years of Nonlinear ="trms">History ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">material ="trms">histories
="lsts lst1">•Eduardo ="ppl">Kohn='lgc'>: How Forests Thinks ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">semiotics
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Timothy ="ppl">="ppl">Morton='lgc'>: ="trms">Sublime Objects ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">ontology
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Avital Ronnel='lgc'>: (="trms">lectures and articles) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">poetics
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Donna ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway='lgc'>: (="trms">lectures and articles) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">rhetorics
2nd ="trms">stage='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Martha ="ppl">="ppl">Kenney='lgc'>: ="trms">Fables of Attention ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*rationality='lgc'>: mixture of the highly rational and the highly fantastic
="lsts lst1">•Karen ="ppl">="ppl">Barad='lgc'>: Posthumanist Performativity, Invertebrate Visions ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">apparatus
="lsts lst1">•Eva ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>: visualizing ="trms">apparatuses ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> her ="trms">interest in optics, in the optics in which marine invertebrates and people come together through visualizing ="trms">apparatuses
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Vinciane ="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>: The Becomings of Subjectivity in ="trms">Animal ="trms">Worlds ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> learning about ="trms">anthropo-="trms">zoo-genetics
="lsts lst1">•Kathleen ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart='lgc'>: nonre="trms">presentational theory ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> other ways of description
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Katie ="ppl">King='lgc'>: ="trms">technologies of ="trms">writing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a better thinking of locals and globals
="lsts lst1">•
(curiosity ='lgc'>='lgc'>==>) having to figure out how to do something that i don't al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready know how to do='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">ongoingness of collective practices of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge and concern
="lsts lst1">•talking about (what is going on with) ="nms">ajayeb
="lsts lst1">•paying attention to ="trms">differential ="trms">ontologies
="lsts lst1">•the stuff that happens through face-to-face colleagueship
="lsts lst1">•to be in productive alliance
="lsts lst1">•
unalianated critical work='lgc'> = art
="frds">Seifee wants to say something
something wants to say ="frds">Seifee='qstn'>?
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i like us to be ="trms">skilled at
="lsts lst1">•objective perception
="lsts lst1">•5 minute perception
="lsts lst1">•="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigorously passionate perception
="lsts lst1">•="trms">rhetorical perception
="lsts lst1">•sacred perception
="lsts lst1">•devilish perception
="lsts lst1">•queer non-perception
="lsts lst1">•having a taste for ="nms">iranian stuff perception
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> poly="trms">skilled web of friends
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='at'>#="nms">Bambi's mother studies='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•other ="trms">stories possibility, ="trms">past and ="trms">history, performative approach to film
="lsts lst1">•politics of ="trms">memory, and ="trms">affect
="lsts lst1">•patterns of re="trms">membrance ='lgc'>=/= event recall
="lsts lst1">•
three ="trms">childhood ="trms">memories, ="trms">stories, from elementary school='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•the ="trms">mime of “you think (too much)”
="lsts lst1">•the weird pro hit on the coming ball
="lsts lst1">•peeping into the toilet
="lsts lst1">•
my ="trms">childhood recognizing='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•filaments (hypha, hyphae, تار) of spider webs
="lsts lst1">•patterns of ants
="lsts lst1">•motion color b="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lurings ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> that ="trms">present is “physical if the eye is quick enough” (="frds scrmbld">Stevens)
="lsts lst1">•
the ways i was engaged as a ="trms">child in scope-="trms">apparatus, micro-macro scales
what other ="trms">stories, re="trms">membrances of the ="trms">past are possible='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-="trms">different ="trms">apparatuses of attention, reconstruction, and ="trms">storytelling, that are ="trms">="trms">equipped to hold diffractive patterns of ‘that which comes to mind’
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can we care for “="nms">iranians” without “for ="nms">iran”='qstn'>?
(i can't care less about ="nms">Iran)
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perhaps artistic research is all about playing cat's cradle (='lgc'>=/= autism) ='lgc'>: (you have all ="trms">sorts of limbs, even ="nms">phantom limbs) you must learn sustaining the rhythm of accepting and giving, (collaborative) patterning (that requires passion and action) ='lgc'>[this is one ="trms">skill that ="trms">matters a lot, what i have been trying to teach myself above anything else in the last years='lgc'>] ='lgc'>[i am playing that game with ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway, joining her (and others) in ="trms">thick, collaborative patterning; generous knottings; ="trms">thickening the knots, relaying a mutated and re="trms">situated pattern for the next play='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•getting the knot, proposing another
="lsts lst1">•you must learn how to hold still
="lsts lst2">◦(more and more) in ="trms">different ="trms">material and conceptual grains of detail and resolution
="lsts lst1">•the most important thing in research practices is this patterning, ="trms">networks reenacted (="ppl">Katie ="ppl">King)
(="frds scrmbld">Lili's kiss project was about that, blocked ="trms">intersubjectivity, a ="trms">matter of “learning to be ="trms">affected”; can i say that ="frds scrmbld">Lili's issue is with the lack of ='lgc'>[psychological, or psychic='lgc'>] dialogue='qstn'>? a ="trms">language that no longer carries ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor displaces the ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphorical drive='lgc'>: acting out the soul's ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor in direct ='lgc'>[non="trms">verbal='lgc'>] action. the breath in ="frds scrmbld">Lili's work, is the same in her suffocated kiss and scream performance, once hold in and one unleashed, lack of a “breather,” of a “converser,” of a partner in cat's cradle.)='lgc'>--='lgc'>[i like to propose a repatterning='lgc'>: in research environments we play a lot “catch me if you can”='lgc'>: to catching you in action, to capture your ‘knowing’ in action, to capture eros or logos in act, ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#beauty is ="trms">interested in action='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•it is about “understanding living with contra="trms">diction” ='lgc'>: making choices without necessarily turning the other choices into something an enemy does ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> important for collective research life; “='lgc'>[we='lgc'>] need each other's extremes”; ='strcls'>*our activisms are not the same='strcls'>*='lgc'>: to open up to our extremes, to open up to what you are not sure of ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to find ways to be in productive alliance (='lgc'>=/= ='thdf'>the notion that everybody has to do everything ='lgc'>[tell ="frds scrmbld">Xiri='lgc'>])
="lsts lst1">•(educating oneself) actually know how to explain what somebody else said and not just what you said='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> figuring out how to disagree with each other as well as agree, that no statement is going to be taken as evidence of being the enemy (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> we face this in ="nms">apass)
="lsts lst1">•learning how to recognize ="trms">authority (as a mentor and participant) (the problem of the inability to deal with ="trms">authority, common in early feminist movement, traces in ="frds scrmbld">Xiri) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> being alert to how hierarchy shut people up that one don't acknowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge the hierarchies that emerge out of that ='strcls'>*='lgc'>{alarm ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> hierarchy='lgc'>}='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•in ="nms">apass i am trying to re="trms">member what my peers are doing, and when i see things i think of them, and they are in my ="trms">citation ="trms">network (they are all over ="nms">ajayeb.net) and i am aware of what they have told me. words they are inventing are in my ="trms">vocabulary too (='thdf'>that is why i am so energetic calling in ="frds scrmbld">Xiri's ="trms">category change ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> for example “generous suspicion”)
="lsts lst1">•collective research environment works by ="trms">networks='strcls'>* (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a problem with ="nms">apass)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">epistemology='lgc'> = ="trms">stories knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges tell
sometimes practices ="trms">demand='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•ex="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusive expertise (='lgc'>~ focus)
="lsts lst1">•extensive scholarship ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> linking and speculating
="lsts lst1">•attaching unexpected ="trms">agencies and territories to each other
(better) understanding the mechanisms and ="trms">affects of in="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion and ex="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion in ="trms">communities of practice
for example in ="nms">apass (we are dealing with)='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•suffer ='lgc'><='lgc'>== ="trms">mutual incomprehensions
="lsts lst1">•pain ='lgc'><='lgc'>== heterogeneous knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge ="trms">worlds
="lsts lst1">•="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger ='lgc'><='lgc'>== unevenly distributed power
="lsts lst1">•fatigue ='lgc'><='lgc'>== exposure to intensity
="lsts lst1">•tension ='lgc'><='lgc'>== ="trms">different ="trms">styles of knowing
unacknowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edged suffering ='lgc'>--(in ="trms">past and ="trms">present)='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda='lgc'>='lgc'>--> as well as pleasures
(what do you make out of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading your gender ="trms">material='qstn'>?)
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="trms">Greek brainwomb
feminism ='lgc'>='lgc'>~/= feminist theory='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{highly diverse, located in many domains of practices in and out of the university, and understood to be this highly diverse activity='lgc'>}
the talks i have been giving are done by someone with a kind of mind and soul that just makes connections fast. i work orally. the ="trms">lectures are heavily prepared (and some important ways unprepared in the manner of its performance='lgc'>: all those connections happening during the talk not knowing them beforehand, they happen by the encounter='strcls'>*) and full of cue (سخن رهنما، ايماء، اشارت) and quirk (تزئينات، تناقض گويى، تغيير ناگهانى فکر). my notes and scripting are invisible to my audience, but they are there at work. and it gets people ex="trms">cited. and that's the point. i work with confusion and ex="trms">citement. i have not been good at laying out groundwork of ="trms">skills, going to next level and so on. i am working with that feeling of “i am not sure what i am getting, by i think i am getting it”. i also always come back, loop again through the same ="trms">material, go back to the ="trms">question we were raising before and ='strcls'>***“watch what is happening to the ="trms">language”='strcls'>***(="ppl">="ppl">Haraway). these are the ways my connections work. artistic and scholarly work works by ='strcls'>**modes of attention='strcls'>** ='lgc'>[='lgc'>--re="trms">member='lgc'>='lgc'>--> your mode of attention (= your mode of abstraction) is doing the foregrounding and the ="trms">world is not actually built that way. so you make ‘your mode of attention='lgc'> = ="trms">world’ to inhabit something for a certain time only to do a certain kind of work)='lgc'>] ='lgc'>--(because)='lgc'>='lgc'>--> you are always jumping into the middle of something that is ongoing before you, into the middle of many conversations. you are learning how to get it in several ways at once. the hypertext that i have been building also characterizes these kinds of layering upon layering of textual work. teaching myself how to ="trms">write and how to play with ideas.
working with (="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's) kind of good-enough approach to a body of scholarship ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> inhabiting many things that i have only got half-di="trms">gested (='lgc'>=/= through di="trms">gestion, particular bodies of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading that people need to have mastered in order to argue)
(after five years now i am) feeling myself (a little bit more) competent and confident in (some) ="trms">scientific ="trms">literacy and in (some of) the ="trms">skills of the arts and ="trms">literature ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='qstn'>?
after ="nms">apass='lgc'>: ="nms">apass was a safe-enough space for my inventive processes, to make ="trms">interesting mistakes, but do i need a real scholarly undertaking with ="nms">ajayeb='qstn'>?
i had a lousy education, don't know still how to ="trms">write well and coherently and sustain a project. i don't have the ="trms">skills to pull off ='mywrk'>my research as a phd, as a scholar. i need someone to work with me line-by-line. i need to go people who have ="trms">serious educations in my subject, and ask them ="trms">questions, and ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read.
and i am missing that kind of connectivity that your ="trms">writing being ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read performs. do i need an atmosphere in which my kind of ="trms">writerly activities are honored and foregrounded, and expected='qstn'>?
can my ="nms">ajayeb beome a real scholarly project with ="trms">seriously labor-intensive student work='qstn'>?
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hostility ='lgc'>=/= indi="trms">gestibility ='lgc'>{they cannot recognize it, it is something else='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> it is not personal, but a ="trms">historical state of a discourse, and the ="trms">nature of the kinds of possibilities that being opened up or closed
(in ="nms">apass) all of us fail each other in ="trms">different ways all the time='strcls'>*
we can barely ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read each other's works/="trms">books. but we do, and we struggle with each other's works/="trms">books
(in ="nms">apass i am catching my self giving “advice” to others='lgc'>='lgc'>---risk of the advice='lgc'>:) violation of their ="trms">integrity
='strcls'>*taxonomy='lgc'>: (constantly ="trms">morphing) tools, they work and get worked, ='strcls'>*they are part of ="trms">situated conversations='strcls'>* (='lgc'>~ “theory conversations” ="ppl">Katie ="ppl">King < ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway)
(='lgc'>=/= some kind of enemy that you never do)
='strcls'>***almost everybody is organically part of more than one conversation at a time='strcls'>*** (="ppl">="ppl">Haraway)
(this is so important to recognize specially in collaborative research environments such as ="nms">apass)
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(in political movement='lgc'>:) working to a kind of clarity of ideological ="trms">position ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> to do certain kinds of things (that are harder to do if you don't have them ='lgc'>[those ideological ="trms">positions='lgc'>] in the ="trms">world) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they are used as ='strcls'>*tools='strcls'>* to produce what got called ='strcls'>*political correctness='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> always producing those who count and those who don't count='strcls'>*
='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? feminist movement='lgc'> = ='strcls'>***a kind of vulnerability to not being who you thought you were='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>: openness to risk, less of a defensiveness, less of an attack mentality, not shaping each other up into vanguards پيشقراول ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (towards thinking) ="trms">differential/op="trms">positional consciousness (='lgc'>=/= father, single kind of creators)
“you can know if you are wrong in rather ="trms">interesting, ="trms">situated ways”
='at'>@="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Maarten
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]"was”='lgc'>: (so important for ="nms">iranians ='lgc'>[='at'>#="trms">past='lgc'>]) a geographical place, a place='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•of pain
="lsts lst1">•of fantasy
="lsts lst1">•of hope
="lsts lst1">•of possibility
="lsts lst1">•of defeat
="lsts lst1">•of breaking and building
(='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a borderland)
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="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors that are also real places
figurings that are also (always unequally) lived in the flesh
to think “contact zone” instead of “binary shape”
ways of living and ="trms">technologies, ways of doing the ="trms">world forcibly brought together in ="trms">relations of ="trms">serious inequality, but which do not take the simple shape of dominator and dominated
='strcls'>*“abstractions are precious and they take a huge amount of work to know how to build them well”='strcls'>*
(='qstn'>?how do i know when in working with ="nms">ajayeb) sometimes you are required (at the same time!)='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•to be dead ="trms">literal
="lsts lst1">•to be precise
="lsts lst1">•to be analytically good
="lsts lst1">•to be unforgivingly ="trms">technically ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right
="lsts lst1">•to be flaming ="trms">imaginative
="lsts lst1">•
='strcls'>*breakdown='strcls'>*='lgc'>: where the normalizing fails ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> something else emerges
='strcls'>*every collective needs people who feel='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•(a grace given to you by the structure of your cells, you don't know where it comes from='lgc'>:) “root sense that the ="trms">world is not dead” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a sense that things are moving and alive and future-full
="lsts lst1">•its people who feel despair (...emphasize the futurelessness of it all)
='strcls'>*!!!='lgc'>='lgc'>--> we (also) need sensibilities that are angrey at each other
(aligned with ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway) my ="trms">position has been that='lgc'>: we don't choose our sensibilities, we wake up and figure out what they are
(="ppl">="ppl">Haraway take on the ways we) may enginner as a ="trms">species now (tech, syntax, etc.)
to refuse the ="trms">story of the apocalypse ='lgc'>+ (still) recognizing the depth of the trouble
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">Freud's thanatos غريزه مرگ, a death instinct, (it is a deep, instinctual ="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure='lgc'>:) ='strcls'>*a ="trms">perverse pleasure in believing in inevitable fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure='strcls'>*
='strcls'>*="trms">transference is descriptively very apt for what goes on in artistic moves ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- to be careful of='lgc'>]
='strcls'>**to risk a feeling of (despair, of...)
the ways some of us risk things intellectually and emotionally ="trms">different than each other
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prima donna='lgc'>: doing whatever one does without any particular effort to nuance anything
='strcls'>*multiple impossibilities
learning from ="trms">religion, the ways of which the name of God has become an impossible ="trms">category. both catholics and muslim shia (='at'>#islam) are wellprepared for feeling this way, some kind of recognition of impossible thing. let's take that “being good at recognizing and affirming impossible things” and bring it to the name of women. that means as soon as you name what you mean by ‘women,’ you have told some kind of really impossible lie.
(how my muslim trained sensibilities are working and ="trms">mattering in my ="nms">ajayeb research='qstn'>? ways to ="trms">respond to ='strcls'>*the deadliness and the irreplaceable liveliness of ="trms">religion='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[کشندگی و سرزندگی یکتای مذهب='lgc'>], a ="trms">semiotics with implosion of sign and flesh)='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (i am so happy that) i cannot not know what it is like to be in a believing ="trms">community (a faith-based ="trms">community)='strcls'>***
...out of your own particular little ="trms">historical traditions
='strcls'>*because ='mywrk'>my research is about ="nms">ajayeb it can never only be about ="nms">ajayeb='strcls'>*
you can't do feminist theory without paying attention to the details of women lives
your mode of attention to women in the ="trms">world ='lgc'>==(shapes)='lgc'>='lgc'>==> your mode of attention to='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•the way ="trms">databases get set up
="lsts lst1">•the ways ="trms">interdisciplinarities get ="trms">crafted
="lsts lst1">•how you think about tools and genomics
my main point of my project has been about getting better at how to in="trms">herit your ="trms">histories without trashing them='strcls'>*** (even figuring out how to in="trms">herit a ="trms">history that you don't want to in="trms">herit)
(Islam, shyness, kindness, ="nms">ajayeb, ="nms">Iran, stuttering, being all too ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready to find complexities, )
="lsts lst1">•to become relaxed about predi="trms">gested version of ‘this is what ="nms">ajayeb is about’ (or Tasavof, etc.) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ‘what is going on there’ (in ="nms">ajayeb) is so built-in to ideologies of many kinds (of progress, deep ="trms">ecology, of ="trms">history, and so on)
="lsts lst1">•to build a little taxonomy (in ="nms">apass)
="lsts lst1">•working to give up the series of self-certainties around secularism ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> giving ways to talk to the ="trms">religious ones ='lgc'>: getting to grasp what the ="trms">world looks like in faith-based ="trms">communities (='lgc'>=/= check-="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list of dogma)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">category thinking='lgc'>: get into ="trms">differential liveliness (with all ="trms">sorts of inequalities='lgc'>:) ='strcls'>*who gets parsed how='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[='at'>#archive, ='at'>#="trms">articulation, ='at'>#="trms">storytelling='lgc'>] (and thinking about what it means to take up these ="trms">relationships in cultures saturated with ="trms">science and ="trms">technology)
="frds scrmbld">Xiri was doing her research with ="trms">categories of victim and opressor, and now they suddenly disappeared from her work. that ="trms">category change or ="trms">vocabulary change was suspiciously effortless
='strcls'>*re="trms">membering is an extremely creative practice (-note to ="frds scrmbld">Hoda-)
="trms">memories are like ecotone کناربوم (="trms">transition area between two adjacent eco="trms">systems)
='at'>#(very important concept partly shaped by practices of ="ppl">Darwin into our lives='lgc'>:) “collect” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> lies (necessary='qstn'>?)
the frenzy of the 1700 of surveying ="trms">nature and collecting speciment ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> bioinfomatic
‘collect’ promises nontransformation
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors of archive, information-intense ways of thinking about life on earth
='strcls'>*“de="trms">monstration” coined by ="trms">science
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(with Scout ="ppl">="ppl">Calvert) the ways the digital ="trms">apparatuses are working, and the kinds of tensions and creativities between the cyber infrastructures and the other kinds informational management discourses displace other ="trms">book discourses ='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">categories explode in library practice
='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Calvert donig brilliant discourse analysis of library ="trms">sciences ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> has direct impact on practices of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='at'>#, ="trms">different kinds of knowers='lgc'>]
="trms">techno-biblio-capital='lgc'>: ="trms">techno-capital and library practices embedded in each other ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{ ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">technology='lgc'>: assemblages of people, computers, software, discourses, ="trms">techniques and workarounds that make them function; ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]capital='lgc'>: a ="trms">social arrangement in which buyers of labor power are entitled to profits and the sellers of labor power to wages and all the effects entailed in that arrangement; ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">techno-capital='lgc'>: ="trms">techniques, discourse and ="trms">technologies used to ="trms">naturalize and derive capital from information and information ="trms">technologies='lgc'>}
='strcls'>*curiosity='lgc'> = a small and local kind of ='strcls'>*freedom='lgc'>[= ="trms">agency within constrain ='lgc'>==enabling='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ="trms">skillful meanings='lgc'>], curiosity resists control and has the power to defeat one's favourite self-certainties, can also be commodified for ="trms">consumer culture specializing in providing private pleasure,
="trms">techno-capital objectivism='lgc'>: (neutrality of) collection developemnt and format choices ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> power-sensitive judgments
“we will engineer ourselves out of that” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> naive ="trms">technological optimism; ='strcls'>*the ="trms">technological ="trms">question is cruicial to ="trms">questions of power and knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-library ="trms">science tends to ="trms">position library as power-neutral spaces
="prgrph">-(="ppl">="ppl">Foucault='lgc'>: resistence to power is always ="trms">present)
“freedom to” is always disciplinary (because there is always a particular subject enjoying that) ='lgc'>[citizen of liberal democracy who exercises the freedom of re="trms">presentative government, so much as a ="trms">consumer who exercises freedom of choice of commodities='lgc'>]
patrons as constituent مولفه (='lgc'>='lgc'>==> new knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge ='lgc'>+ themselves as knowers) ='lgc'>=/= seamless information ="trms">consumer discursively produced as an unmarked singular independent self-contained stable universal white male heteronormative ="trms">technophilic subject ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- this donesn't realy exisit as a person, rather as discoursive productions='lgc'>]
(now) our electronic recreation is work='lgc'>: our every click is sur="trms">veilled, generating ="trms">data about our desires and curiosities that feeds back into our formation as ="trms">techno-capital subjects (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Sven's enthusiasm with ="trms">social media='lgc'>--how can ="frds scrmbld">Sven has a real chance of producing resistance knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge='qstn'>?) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> this is not freedom! (-an account of freedom for one entails reciprocal unfreedom for others) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> mixtures of work and play in this new economy, (="ppl">="ppl">Calvert > ="ppl">="ppl">Bateson) the ="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">meta-="trms">communicative ="trms">nature of ='strcls'>*play='lgc'>[= strict rules with genuine freedom, the dual essence of play='lgc'>: curiosity and ="trms">relationality='lgc'>];
(="ppl">="ppl">Calvert arguing for) “knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge-makers” who engages in creation of ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges by activity adapting, processing and sharing knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge within the ="trms">ecology of library ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= ='strcls'>*bibliographic ="trms">apparatus='strcls'>*
(="ppl">="ppl">Calvert's heuristic device to ="trms">imagine what library practices might emerge='lgc'>:) imperfectly ="trms">literate constituent seekers
="prgrph">-a double consciousness of play, where cognitive sensation amid multiple ="trms">affectivities are continually teased between assertion and rejection
="prgrph">-a doubled unconscious connoisseurship of rea="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list conventions pressured at new horizons
='lgc'>[="ppl">Katie ="ppl">King='lgc'>]
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(women's) mini-encounters with god ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> kind of ="trms">materiality of god that don't fit any of the available ="trms">categories
now-but-not-then quality of continuities
="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's deep commitment to the ties of ="trms">science and competence, pleasure, empowerment, (='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">science='lgc'>:) this ="trms">craft where you did this incredibly fragile, important, hard work of asking ="trms">questions of the ="trms">world in such a way that you might have half a chance of knowing if you are wrong='strcls'>***
you get it “there” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> (you have a chance of) figuring out something else='strcls'>*
(sustainable life ways that involve) breeds ='lgc'>=/= factory farming
="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's problem with veganism's moral, who="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listic, complex claim that they make on us (also a necessary kind of contemporary witness)='lgc'>: that people's practices with ="trms">animals as food and fiber and work ="trms">animals, turning into nothing but museum pieces at best. vegans deadly ="trms">imagination sometimes don't get what they kill='lgc'>: most kinds of ="trms">animals that have long ="trms">histories in close as="trms">sociation with people.
there is no ="trms">relationship to this ="trms">world that does not involve extensive killig (="ppl">="ppl">Haraway)
up-to-the-minute ="trms">technologies
complicated issues around security ="trms">apparatuses and ="trms">different national struggles
="trms">histories of dispossession and genocide
“do you believe='qstn'>?"='lgc'> = "do you believe in a ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list of dogma='qstn'>?”
totally wrong ="trms">question='lgc'>: do you believe in God='qstn'>?
='lgc'>[should i go to Berlin after ="nms">apass='qstn'>?='lgc'>] a parochial person دهاتی (in the pressure of the ="trms">seriously elite places)='lgc'>: you could be here, you could succeed here, but never belong here
="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's ‘="trms">literal’ makings='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•“companion” is about whom you are at table ="trms">literally='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•to be homo sapiens is to be in multi="trms">species ="trms">interdependencies ="trms">literally='strcls'>*
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my issue with the image of the free floating meaning ="trms">network popular in artists’ thinking='lgc'>: yes meanings foreground and background. they swirl, but they don't swirl at random
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MOU (="trms">memorandum of understanding)='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Esta ='lgc'>+ ="frds scrmbld">Zoumana ='lgc'>+ ="frds scrmbld">Hoda
='strcls'>*="trms">memorandum='lgc'>: ="trms">memo, reminder, note, تذکره ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> passport ='lgc'>: آنچه موجب یادآوری شود ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> آنچه موجب دخول شود
a legal document describing an agreement between parties less formal than a contract
='lgc'>[1994 U.S.-North Korea nuclear pact, the MOU between Bush and Kerry for 2004 debates,='lgc'>]
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batlagh باتلاق
it is (perhaps the most) important to help transform (your or my) ‘wounded-="trms">child’ to ‘="trms">wonder-="trms">child’ (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda)
='lgc'>[the image of the ="trms">wonder-="trms">child in all ='mywrk'>my workings='lgc'>]='strcls'>***
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="lsts lst1">•accumulative='lgc'>: gradual increase as a whole, someone/something doing the accumulating, emphasis on the process of accumulating
="lsts lst1">•cumulative='lgc'>: nongradual successive additives, as="trms">sociated with that which is accumulated, emphasis on the result
ad- (“in addition”) plus cumulare, “heap up”, from cumulus, “heap”
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='lgc'>[we need='lgc'>] ability to move from ‘close attention’ to ‘="trms">gestures’ and actions on the ="trms">material ="trms">world, all the way to an as="trms">sortment of ‘artifacts’ able to enhance cognition, sensitivity, and ="trms">sociality
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="ppl">="ppl">Stewart
surge of signs ='lgc'>+ capital ='lgc'>+ sensoriums of public culture ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">matter ='and'>& image
images, when circulating things, suddenly enter the senses ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">literally make sense ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> look and smell of an incipient vitality ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> immanent intensity or force ='lgc'>~ ="trms">affect
='at'>#my coin='lgc'>: two-sidedness of things, virtual meeting actual, seeping ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge of potentiality
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common sensate ="trms">affect ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> shock ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “continuous trembling that haunts the stable gaze” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> images and sensibilities that constantly exceed (reason, order, and common sense) ='at'>#telegram
="trms">Affect, is about something is happening, something capable of impact
="lsts lst1">•sometging half noted out of the corner of the eye
="lsts lst1">•something in the commonsense ="trms">world
="lsts lst1">•
(that which escapes/exceeds enclosure) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> it can be put into words='lgc'>[='qstn'>?='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to become a figure of vitality and even freedom='lgc'>[='qstn'>?='lgc'>]='strcls'>*** ='at'>@="nms">Iranians
='lgc'>[i welcome the reprieve (rokhsat, رخصت, a temporary relief) from='lgc'>] ="trms">symbolic gridlock
“="trms">affect gathers its force to make image touch ="trms">matter” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> image's power is the power of synaesthesia ='lgc'>=/= collection of named “feelings” (invented in discourses of morals, ideals, and known subjectivities)
(let's study how ='lgc'>[in ="nms">Iran='lgc'>] raw ="trms">materials are formed and exceeded ='lgc'>-- sudden and lingering intensity of things) (which darvaze/دروازه/gate we can't and which سوراخ سوزن / surakh-e suzan / hole of needle we pass through)
='lgc'>[i am having always multiple ="trms">books open, at least two, is that how connection occur for me='qstn'>? ='at'>#="trms">simultaneity='lgc'>]
(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart) “I re="trms">member ="trms">childhood as a collection of arresting images”
that hinge on sensory details and open ="trms">onto luminous s="trms">cenes of ="trms">affect ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Feherlofia/Fehérlófia 1981, Son of the White Horse film. (we must resist calling this film “psychedelic”)
“='lgc'>[...='lgc'>]family as a ="trms">viscerality through screen images of”
...sudden, repetitive eruption of images of alcoholism, accidents, violence, cancers
='strcls'>*="trms">technologies of family, church, law, and nation='strcls'>* (lay confident claim to ="trms">affect as a capturable content of known and expected “feelings,” but ="trms">affect itself='lgc'>--that which surges into view along the jumpy border of the actual and the virtual='lgc'>--is their raw ="trms">material and their only renewable resource. ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)
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(a sidestep='qstn'>? what) brings an uncanny, alien ="trms">presence into the field of vision
='strcls'>*an object insists on being seen='strcls'>* (through the tricks of trauma, t[...]