[...] women in the ="trms">world ='lgc'>==(shapes)='lgc'>='lgc'>==> your mode of attention to='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•the way ="trms">databases get set up
="lsts lst1">•the ways ="trms">interdisciplinarities get ="trms">crafted
="lsts lst1">•how you think about tools and genomics


my main point of my project has been about getting better at how to in="trms">herit your ="trms">histories without trashing them='strcls'>*** (even figuring out how to in="trms">herit a ="trms">history that you don't want to in="trms">herit)
(Islam, shyness, kindness, ="nms">ajayeb, ="nms">Iran, stuttering, being all too ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready to find complexities, )
="lsts lst1">•to become relaxed about predi="trms">gested version of ‘this is what ="nms">ajayeb is about’ (or Tasavof, etc.) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ‘what is going on there’ (in ="nms">ajayeb) is so built-in to ideologies of many kinds (of progress, deep ="trms">ecology, of ="trms">history, and so on)
="lsts lst1">•to build a little taxonomy (in ="nms">apass)
="lsts lst1">•working to give up the series of self-certainties around secularism ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> giving ways to talk to the ="trms">religious ones ='lgc'>: getting to grasp what the ="trms">world looks like in faith-based ="trms">communities (='lgc'>=/= check-="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list of dogma)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">category thinking='lgc'>: get into ="trms">differential liveliness (with all ="trms">sorts of inequalities='lgc'>:) ='strcls'>*who gets parsed how='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[='at'>#archive, ='at'>#="trms">articulation, ='at'>#="trms">storytelling='lgc'>] (and thinking about what it means to take up these ="trms">relationships in cultures saturated with ="trms">science and ="trms">technology)

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="frds scrmbld">Xiri was doing her research with ="trms">categories of victim and opressor, and now they suddenly disappeared from her work. that ="trms">category change or ="trms">vocabulary change was suspiciously effortless


='strcls'>*re="trms">membering is an extremely creative practice (-note to ="frds scrmbld">Hoda-)
="trms">memories are like ecotone کناربوم (="trms">transition area between two adjacent eco="trms">systems)


='at'>#(very important concept partly shaped by practices of ="ppl">Darwin into our lives='lgc'>:) “collect” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> lies (necessary='qstn'>?)
the frenzy of the 1700 of surveying ="trms">nature and collecting speciment ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> bioinfomatic
‘collect’ promises nontransformation
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphors of archive, information-intense ways of thinking about life on earth

='strcls'>*“de="trms">monstration” coined by ="trms">science

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(with Scout ="ppl">="ppl">Calvert) the ways the digital ="trms">apparatuses are working, and the kinds of tensions and creativities between the cyber infrastructures and the other kinds informational management discourses displace other ="trms">book discourses ='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">categories explode in library practice
='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Calvert donig brilliant discourse analysis of library ="trms">sciences ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> has direct impact on practices of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading='at'>#, ="trms">different kinds of knowers='lgc'>]
="trms">techno-biblio-capital='lgc'>: ="trms">techno-capital and library practices embedded in each other ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{ ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">technology='lgc'>: assemblages of people, computers, software, discourses, ="trms">techniques and workarounds that make them function; ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]capital='lgc'>: a ="trms">social arrangement in which buyers of labor power are entitled to profits and the sellers of labor power to wages and all the effects entailed in that arrangement; ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">techno-capital='lgc'>: ="trms">techniques, discourse and ="trms">technologies used to ="trms">naturalize and derive capital from information and information ="trms">technologies='lgc'>}
='strcls'>*curiosity='lgc'> = a small and local kind of ='strcls'>*freedom='lgc'>[= ="trms">agency within constrain ='lgc'>==enabling='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ="trms">skillful meanings='lgc'>], curiosity resists control and has the power to defeat one's favourite self-certainties, can also be commodified for ="trms">consumer culture specializing in providing private pleasure,
="trms">techno-capital objectivism='lgc'>: (neutrality of) collection developemnt and format choices ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> power-sensitive judgments
“we will engineer ourselves out of that” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> naive ="trms">technological optimism; ='strcls'>*the ="trms">technological ="trms">question is cruicial to ="trms">questions of power and knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-library ="trms">science tends to ="trms">position library as power-neutral spaces
="prgrph">-(="ppl">="ppl">Foucault='lgc'>: resistence to power is always ="trms">present)
“freedom to” is always disciplinary (because there is always a particular subject enjoying that) ='lgc'>[citizen of liberal democracy who exercises the freedom of re="trms">presentative government, so much as a ="trms">consumer who exercises freedom of choice of commodities='lgc'>]
patrons as constituent مولفه (='lgc'>='lgc'>==> new knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge ='lgc'>+ themselves as knowers) ='lgc'>=/= seamless information ="trms">consumer discursively produced as an unmarked singular independent self-contained stable universal white male heteronormative ="trms">technophilic subject ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- this donesn't realy exisit as a person, rather as discoursive productions='lgc'>]
(now) our electronic recreation is work='lgc'>: our every click is sur="trms">veilled, generating ="trms">data about our desires and curiosities that feeds back into our formation as ="trms">techno-capital subjects (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Sven's enthusiasm with ="trms">social media='lgc'>--how can ="frds scrmbld">Sven has a real chance of producing resistance knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge='qstn'>?) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> this is not freedom! (-an account of freedom for one entails reciprocal unfreedom for others) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> mixtures of work and play in this new economy, (="ppl">="ppl">Calvert > ="ppl">="ppl">Bateson) the ="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">meta-="trms">communicative ="trms">nature of ='strcls'>*play='lgc'>[= strict rules with genuine freedom, the dual essence of play='lgc'>: curiosity and ="trms">relationality='lgc'>];
(="ppl">="ppl">Calvert arguing for) “knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge-makers” who engages in creation of ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges by activity adapting, processing and sharing knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge within the ="trms">ecology of library ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= ='strcls'>*bibliographic ="trms">apparatus='strcls'>*
(="ppl">="ppl">Calvert's heuristic device to ="trms">imagine what library practices might emerge='lgc'>:) imperfectly ="trms">literate constituent seekers

="prgrph">-a double consciousness of play, where cognitive sensation amid multiple ="trms">affectivities are continually teased between assertion and rejection
="prgrph">-a doubled unconscious connoisseurship of rea="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list conventions pressured at new horizons
='lgc'>[="ppl">Katie ="ppl">King='lgc'>]

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(women's) mini-encounters with god ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> kind of ="trms">materiality of god that don't fit any of the available ="trms">categories


now-but-not-then quality of continuities


="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's deep commitment to the ties of ="trms">science and competence, pleasure, empowerment, (='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">science='lgc'>:) this ="trms">craft where you did this incredibly fragile, important, hard work of asking ="trms">questions of the ="trms">world in such a way that you might have half a chance of knowing if you are wrong='strcls'>***


you get it “there” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> (you have a chance of) figuring out something else='strcls'>*


(sustainable life ways that involve) breeds ='lgc'>=/= factory farming

="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's problem with veganism's moral, who="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listic, complex claim that they make on us (also a necessary kind of contemporary witness)='lgc'>: that people's practices with ="trms">animals as food and fiber and work ="trms">animals, turning into nothing but museum pieces at best. vegans deadly ="trms">imagination sometimes don't get what they kill='lgc'>: most kinds of ="trms">animals that have long ="trms">histories in close as="trms">sociation with people.

there is no ="trms">relationship to this ="trms">world that does not involve extensive killig (="ppl">="ppl">Haraway)


up-to-the-minute ="trms">technologies

complicated issues around security ="trms">apparatuses and ="trms">different national struggles

="trms">histories of dispossession and genocide


“do you believe='qstn'>?"='lgc'> = "do you believe in a ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list of dogma='qstn'>?”
totally wrong ="trms">question='lgc'>: do you believe in God='qstn'>?


='lgc'>[should i go to Berlin after ="nms">apass='qstn'>?='lgc'>] a parochial person دهاتی (in the pressure of the ="trms">seriously elite places)='lgc'>: you could be here, you could succeed here, but never belong here


="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's ‘="trms">literal’ makings='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•“companion” is about whom you are at table ="trms">literally='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•to be homo sapiens is to be in multi="trms">species ="trms">interdependencies ="trms">literally='strcls'>*


my issue with the image of the free floating meaning ="trms">network popular in artists’ thinking='lgc'>: yes meanings foreground and background. they swirl, but they don't swirl at random

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MOU (="trms">memorandum of understanding)='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Esta ='lgc'>+ ="frds scrmbld">Zoumana ='lgc'>+ ="frds scrmbld">Hoda
='strcls'>*="trms">memorandum='lgc'>: ="trms">memo, reminder, note, تذکره ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> passport ='lgc'>: آنچه موجب یادآوری شود ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> آنچه موجب دخول شود
a legal document describing an agreement between parties less formal than a contract
='lgc'>[1994 U.S.-North Korea nuclear pact, the MOU between Bush and Kerry for 2004 debates,='lgc'>]

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batlagh باتلاق



it is (perhaps the most) important to help transform (your or my) ‘wounded-="trms">child’ to ‘="trms">wonder-="trms">child’ (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda)
='lgc'>[the image of the ="trms">wonder-="trms">child in all ='mywrk'>my workings='lgc'>]='strcls'>***

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="lsts lst1">•accumulative='lgc'>: gradual increase as a whole, someone/something doing the accumulating, emphasis on the process of accumulating
="lsts lst1">•cumulative='lgc'>: nongradual successive additives, as="trms">sociated with that which is accumulated, emphasis on the result
ad- (“in addition”) plus cumulare, “heap up”, from cumulus, “heap”

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='lgc'>[we need='lgc'>] ability to move from ‘close attention’ to ‘="trms">gestures’ and actions on the ="trms">material ="trms">world, all the way to an as="trms">sortment of ‘artifacts’ able to enhance cognition, sensitivity, and ="trms">sociality

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="ppl">="ppl">Stewart

surge of signs ='lgc'>+ capital ='lgc'>+ sensoriums of public culture ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">matter ='and'>& image

images, when circulating things, suddenly enter the senses ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">literally make sense ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> look and smell of an incipient vitality ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> immanent intensity or force ='lgc'>~ ="trms">affect

='at'>#my coin='lgc'>: two-sidedness of things, virtual meeting actual, seeping ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge of potentiality

="large lg10" stl="font-size:118%"> common sensate ="trms">affect ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> shock ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “continuous trembling that haunts the stable gaze” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> images and sensibilities that constantly exceed (reason, order, and common sense) ='at'>#telegram

="trms">Affect, is about something is happening, something capable of impact
="lsts lst1">•sometging half noted out of the corner of the eye
="lsts lst1">•something in the commonsense ="trms">world
="lsts lst1">•
(that which escapes/exceeds enclosure) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> it can be put into words='lgc'>[='qstn'>?='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to become a figure of vitality and even freedom='lgc'>[='qstn'>?='lgc'>]='strcls'>*** ='at'>@="nms">Iranians

='lgc'>[i welcome the reprieve (rokhsat, رخصت, a temporary relief) from='lgc'>] ="trms">symbolic gridlock

“="trms">affect gathers its force to make image touch ="trms">matter” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> image's power is the power of synaesthesia ='lgc'>=/= collection of named “feelings” (invented in discourses of morals, ideals, and known subjectivities)

(let's study how ='lgc'>[in ="nms">Iran='lgc'>] raw ="trms">materials are formed and exceeded ='lgc'>-- sudden and lingering intensity of things) (which darvaze/دروازه/gate we can't and which سوراخ سوزن / surakh-e suzan / hole of needle we pass through)
='lgc'>[i am having always multiple ="trms">books open, at least two, is that how connection occur for me='qstn'>? ='at'>#="trms">simultaneity='lgc'>]


(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart) “I re="trms">member ="trms">childhood as a collection of arresting images”
that hinge on sensory details and open ="trms">onto luminous s="trms">cenes of ="trms">affect ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Feherlofia/Fehérlófia 1981, Son of the White Horse film. (we must resist calling this film “psychedelic”)

“='lgc'>[...='lgc'>]family as a ="trms">viscerality through screen images of”

...sudden, repetitive eruption of images of alcoholism, accidents, violence, cancers

='strcls'>*="trms">technologies of family, church, law, and nation='strcls'>* (lay confident claim to ="trms">affect as a capturable content of known and expected “feelings,” but ="trms">affect itself='lgc'>--that which surges into view along the jumpy border of the actual and the virtual='lgc'>--is their raw ="trms">material and their only renewable resource. ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)

(a sidestep='qstn'>? what) brings an uncanny, alien ="trms">presence into the field of vision

='strcls'>*an object insists on being seen='strcls'>* (through the tricks of trauma, through the seductions of compulsive beauty,, , ) ='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">aesthetic event of the senses ='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda='lgc'>]

="trms">spectacular graphics of disaster

watching='lgc'>: inhabiting the power of the tuned-in ="trms">spectator; becoming an active participant in ='lgc'>[TV's='lgc'>] logic of image (production and) recognition

='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> catharsis of mean-spirited
='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> festering (cherkin چرکین) alienation
='lgc'>--='strcls'>*='lgc'>='lgc'>--> vitality of the game itself

the image on the screen ='lgc'><='lgc'>--(game)='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the walking simulacrum of ="trms">social life

the loop of the citizen as ="trms">consumer

='strcls'>***="trms">Mimesis in a State of Shock='strcls'>*** ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda
="prgrph">-the link between shock and a cushioned re="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluse is direct, seductive, and ="trms">mimetic

“When ="trms">affect makes its jump between the visible thing, the idea, and the ="trms">social sensibility, it can leave in its wake uncanny connections between otherwise disparate states of arrest, like shock and re="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluse گوشه نشينی” (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)


='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda='lgc'>: ="trms">affect jumps into view as the shock of an unassimilated trauma

cocoon room
holing up in your living room ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “out there” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> search for the arresting ="trms">presence

spectrality and concrete substance

(='qstn'>?when am i) “relaxing” the jumpy move of ="trms">affect

='strcls'>*="ppl">="ppl">Stewart's “jump of ="trms">affect”
tactile image ='lgc'>--(satisfies)='lgc'>='lgc'>--> move of ="trms">affect ='lgc'>--(actualizes)='lgc'>='lgc'>--> something tempting/haunting
="prgrph">-="trms">affecting ="trms">presence at rest
="prgrph">-='lgc'>[in glamour magazines='lgc'>] models frozen in time and space stare back at you in a s="trms">cene that ="trms">stages the jump from fantasy to actual body/image and back
="prgrph">-jump from ideal to ="trms">matter to ideal

="prgrph">-what to wear as the magic of ="trms">affect itself

copy ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= contact

movies, ads, malls, car phones, daydreams,

="trms">modernity's ="trms">mimetic machine


(“middle class” ='lgc'>[or what people thinking as “="nms">Iranians"='lgc'>] is not just a “norm” it is a) ='strcls'>*womblike space of ="trms">affect='strcls'>* (where sentimentality and ="trms">interiority becomes tactile, where ideals and ="trms">materiality grow to ="trms">excess,) (imploding under the weight of its own ="trms">literal ="trms">embodiment,,,)
="prgrph">-(it is an ="trms">affective space) where the hegemonic claim ='strcls'>*to channel trauma into beauty='strcls'>* is actualized='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•sensible, solid accumulation, family values, colorful decor, ="trms">techno-gadgets, daily lottery,
="lsts lst1">•constant stimulation of the senses (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> syn="trms">aesthetic images, sounds, touches, and smells)
="lsts lst1">•circuitry of circulation itself


تأثر ta'asor, نتیجه‌ی عواطف natije-y avatef
="trms">affect (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= vitality/hope) ='lgc'>='lgc'>~/= (nightmare image of) soical entropy

the big, beautiful, basic, intensely sensate commodity-to-live-in

in ="nms">Iran='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•(the ‘public space’ or) “outside” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> a “="trms">wilding” s="trms">cene of crime, chaos, ="trms">drug-addled ="trms">monsters, d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger, disease, and decay
="lsts lst1">•“inside” ='lgc'>--overflowing-with='lgc'>='lgc'>--> s="trms">cenes of ="trms">aesthetic connection
='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">anxiety is the ground over which they (both) march


(="trms">modernist) image-="trms">affect of the new and clean and up-to-date

the feeling of being in the middle of something big and inevitable, watching it un="trms">fold
='at'>#my dreams

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the labor of looking

“Movies made for women ="trms">imagine a picture='lgc'>--perfect s="trms">cene of an Inside='lgc'>--a Home filled with tangible objects that Mean or a Self filled with the intricate dramas of dreams launched, wounded, and finally satisfied or left behind. ="trms">Affect itself is laid out on the carpet like a beautiful fetish that it is okay to ="trms">love.”

(the ='at'>#telegram is littered with image-="trms">written signs of personal/public disaster)
the surge of ="trms">affect toward the s="trms">cene of abjection ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> abjection itself is felt as a contagion ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Navid's comments turned into stickers
="prgrph">-fascination of catastrophe
="prgrph">-something pleads to be touched
="prgrph">-the act of looking at the telegram's forward='lgc'>: my desire is your desire and we are all together in the mass desire
="prgrph">-images on telegram offer ="trms">affects to ="trms">mime, lines of vitality to follow, intimate secrets to plumb, tips to imbibe for safety or good health or the search for things new and vibrant with collective envy
="prgrph">-browsing telegram, we're trudging the rough terrain of bodies, ="trms">sensuous accumulation, impact

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“Sometimes when you hear someone scream it goes in one ear and out the other. Sometimes it passes ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right into the middle of your brain and gets stuck there.”

(cryptic and as) crystal clear as a scream


='lgc'>[a ="trms">question or something else='lgc'>] lodged in a tactile sensate ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">aesthetic s="trms">cene (of the senses) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> s="trms">cene ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> shape
(="trms">anxiety has to do with the sensate and tactile and opens ="trms">onto asthetic)
(some do this all the time ='lgc'>[unknown shock of ="trms">anxiety in the morning='lgc'>]='lgc'>:) morning ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> mourning ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sudden d="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read and start scanning () () ='lgc'>[='lgc'>], (trauma as an) everyday walking path

="large lg5" stl="font-size:142%"> traumatic realism='lgc'>: a figuring that, like traumatic ="trms">memory, fails to re="trms">present the inflicting force as an object in a ="trms">symbolic order and therefore feels compelled to ="trms">literally re-="trms">present it over and over, ='strcls'>*miming the o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">riginal haunting impact.='strcls'>* (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart > Hal Foster)
="prgrph">-the subject surging to bear an ="trms">affect, surging toward an actualization, passionate connection of the subject who goes with the flow in an intoxicated moment (='lgc'>=/= sober distance)
(="frds scrmbld">Hoda's impact of) shocked subjectivity (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the real understood as traumatic) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> conjure up ="trms">memories of death ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">communal grieving
='lgc'>{referential vs. simulacral ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readings ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda, ="frds scrmbld">Marialena (‘referential object for’ / ‘empathetic object in’ /or ‘criticality of’ ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- i don't agree with these clear cuts of ”/"='lgc'>]; what is “the reality of suffering and death” (or “reality and suffering of death”) for ="frds scrmbld">Hoda='qstn'>? (="frds scrmbld">Xiri's ="trms">interest in her) object's “total ="trms">integration” into the political economy='lgc'>}

(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart's) signs of the senses
satisfaction in the making of sign-shrine
(="trms">question of satisfaction at ="frds scrmbld">Hoda='lgc'>:) satisfaction as a force, and end, in itself spoken through the b="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right, blunt, sensate ="trms">aesthetics of the sign
="prgrph">-something slashe[...]