[...]osophical desire to transcend corporeality and its urges='strcls'>*

="prgrph">-it is only in adolescence that it becomes clear (wanted or not) that the subject has a sexual ="trms">position (='lgc'>~ genital ="trms">position)
="prgrph">-during puberty, gentials and secondary sexual characteristics become de="trms">finitive objects of consciousness and only bit by bit acquire re="trms">presentation in the ="nms">body image

='strcls'>***in the refusal of sexual roles ordinated by heterosexuality,(for example gay men and lesbians) ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->
="lsts lst1">•may ="trms">perversely cling to p="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readolescent ="nms">body images (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to remain ambiguous regarding the ="trms">differences between the sexes)
="lsts lst1">•invest greater intensity in ="trms">erotogenic sites, making them the center of libidinal attention and ="trms">narcissistic investment (="frds scrmbld">Janina's room) (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> in effect reinscribing them in ='strcls'>*a mode of resistance='strcls'>*)
='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> oral, anal, sadistic impulses, tactility, scopophilia, “sexual ="trms">perversions” ='lgc'>=='qstn'>? (to emphasize and cultivate) a mode of defiance to heterosexist requirements
='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds">Sina, the images that i have been clinging to are in the ="nms">body image that i think i am refusing or inscribing='lgc'>: pony, unicorn, rainbow, skull, the ="trms">childish bracelet i found in the park, etc.='lgc'>]

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ماليخوليا
hypochondria خودبيمارانگارى
a ="ppl">Freudian problem='lgc'>: to describe the ="trms">transference of libido from the external ="trms">world and ="trms">love objects to the subject's own body in illness
="prgrph">-treating nongenital zones as if they had taken on genital meaning='lgc'> = (in the case of hysteria) hysterogenic zone takes on a sexual, usually phallic, function
='strcls'>*hypochondria='lgc'>: chronic and abnormal ="trms">anxiety abour ="trms">imaginary ="trms">symptoms='lgc'> = a flight against ="trms">narcissim='strcls'>* (the individual defends himself against the libidinous overtension of the hypochondriac organ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to treat it like a foreign bosdy in the ="nms">body image)
='lgc'>[hypochondria ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">narcissim='lgc'>]
hypochondriac tries to expel from the ="nms">body image but cannot because the zone is overinvested with libido ='lgc'>=/= خوددگربینی depersonalization='lgc'> = psychical transformation of the ="nms">body image='strcls'>*, subject lose ="trms">interest in the whole body, they refuse or are afraid to invest any ="trms">narcissistic libido in the ="nms">body image
="prgrph">-depersonalization might account for the ="trms">phenomenon of out-of-body experience (the outside ="trms">world is also experienced as flat and disinvested از خود بی خود / فنا؟)
depersonalization='lgc'>: a kind of psychical mimicry of the organic structure of dizziness ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">narcissistic decathexis ='lgc'>[withdrawal of psychic energy='lgc'>] of the subject's own inclination to voyeurism (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- disinvestment in the processes of self-observation) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> seeing has no longer any value ='lgc'>: the subject now seen or sees itself with no libidinal investment in looking (or being looked at) ='at'>@="frds">Sina, ="frds scrmbld">Foad

_='strcls'>*hysteria ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> transformation of ="nms">body image (of the meaning of the sexual zones to other organs which are not usually as="trms">sociated with genitality)
_='strcls'>*hypochondria ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> trans="trms">position of libido (displacement, from one organ to another, from the genital to other parts of the body)
_='strcls'>*depersonalization ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> withdrawal of libido from privileged zones (often from the whole body)

='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ='strcls'>****تغيير پذيرى lability of meaning for bodily organs='strcls'>**** ='lgc'>: any zone of the bady can (under certain circumstances) take on the meaning of any other zone
='lgc'>[stabil ='lgc'>=/= labil='lgc'>: transient, apt to slip='lgc'>]

="trms">neurosis ='and'>& psychosis='lgc'>: subject's sexual life is transposed from its ="trms">socially expected locations, aims, and onjects to elsewhere

="prgrph">-life ="trms">history of the subject='lgc'>: the ="trms">systems of psychical meaning and the events rendered meaningful
="prgrph">-body='lgc'>: the ="trms">history of the subject's explorations and practices ='lgc'>+ its various accidents and illnesses

(='at'>@="frds">Sina) breathing difficulties ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (hysterical ="trms">symptoms for) significance of the public/private division ='lgc'>~ inside/outside division
="lsts lst1">•visible disorders ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> some kind of message ='strcls'>*to others='strcls'>* is being transmittes
="lsts lst1">•invisible disorders ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> some kind of message ='strcls'>*to another signifier='strcls'>* is being transmittes ='at'>#="ppl">Lacan


hypochondria ='lgc'>+ depersonalization ='lgc'>+ hysteria ='lgc'>==='lgc'>[through the mediation of ="nms">body image='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ='strcls'>*the biological or organic body is open to psychical meanings='strcls'>* ='lgc'>~ psychic processes rely on various organic connections (it takes them as its raw ="trms">material, as its model of expression)

disease (='lgc'><='lgc'>==)transforms='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ="nms">body image (='lgc'><='lgc'>==)="trms">affects='lgc'>='lgc'>==> subject's psychological state

="nms">body image='lgc'>: mediating ="trms">position between the organic and the psychical ='lgc'>: it is by ="trms">affecting, modifying, transforming the ="nms">body image that each (organic ='and'>& psychical) is able to effect transformation in the other


='strcls'>***="ppl">Freud's pre="trms">diction='lgc'>: man would become a prosthetic god='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>~= Iron Man='lgc'>]

="nms">body image='lgc'> = (function of) psychology ='lgc'>+ ="trms">socio="trms">historical context ='lgc'>+ anatomy
the ="nms">body image is extremely fluid and dynamic ='lgc'>: its borders, ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges, and c="trms">ontours are osmotic (تراوش کننده), they have the remarkable power of incorporating and expelling outside and inside in an ongoing ="trms">interchange ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*="trms">social='strcls'>*

S="trms">childer's “zones of sensitivity”='lgc'>: bodily orifices ='lgc'>+ its sensation experienced about one centimeter from the opening (-for example how the diseases of ="trms">internal organs are not experienced in their precise anatomical locations)
='strcls'>*zones outside the body='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> intrusion into this bodily space is considered as much a violation as penetration of the body itself, the size and form of this surrounding space of safety is individually, sexually, racially, and culturally variable ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#clean and dirt for my mother; my ="nms">body image outside space surrounding it when i am in my room is the room itself, every corner, every niche accumulates senses and thoughts...='lgc'>]
the space surrounding the body is not uniform='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•thinner in some places (which more ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readily tolerate body contact)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">thicker in some places (which are particularly psychically, ="trms">socially, and culturally “privatized”)
="lsts lst1">•

="prgrph">-acting uses ="nms">body image ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="nms">body image can shrink or expand; it can give parts to the outside ="trms">world and can take other parts into itself
="prgrph">-playing setar ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (part of the difficulty of learning how to use ="trms">instruments, such as setar) the libidinal problem of how they become psychically invested (='lgc'>=/= simply the ="trms">technical problem of how they are used)

surgeon's ="nms">body image

in driving, trying to fit into a small parking spot ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- experienced in the ="nms">body image of the driver (and sometimes, to their ="trms">horror, in that of the passengers) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> by inability to drive is related to a bad ="nms">body image='qstn'>?='lgc'>]

="nms">body image is capable of accommodating and incorporating an extremely wide range of objects='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•clothing
="lsts lst1">•jewelry
="lsts lst1">•other bodies
="lsts lst1">•objects
="lsts lst1">•nail polish
="lsts lst1">•jets, ships, cars
="lsts lst1">•bodily zones='lgc'>:
="lsts lst2">◦orifices
="lsts lst2">◦curves
="lsts lst2">◦convex spaces
="lsts lst2">◦concave spaces
="lsts lst1">•“detachable” or ="trms">intermediate ="trms">category of objects, midway between the inanimate and the bodily ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>~= ="ppl">Lacanian objet a, Kristeva's abject='lgc'>]='lgc'>:
="lsts lst2">◦body's excretions
="lsts lst2">◦body's waste products
="lsts lst2">◦bodily byproducts
="lsts lst3">◾urine
="lsts lst3">◾faeces
="lsts lst3">◾saliva
="lsts lst3">◾sperm
="lsts lst3">◾blood
="lsts lst3">◾vomit
="lsts lst3">◾hair
="lsts lst3">◾nails
="lsts lst3">◾skin
  ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> retain something of the cathexis and value of the body (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> keeping my chopped nails, old toys, art-works... ='qstn'>?! ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ‘detachment='lgc'> = your work (art, etc.) is not bound up with your ="nms">body image’), they remain magically linked to the body ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">narcissistic investment in the ="nms">body image

='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>****human subjects never simply have a body='strcls'>****
the body is always necessarily the object and subject of attitudes and judgments, psychically invested, never a ="trms">matter of in="trms">difference
="prgrph">-the body never has merely ="trms">instrumental or utilitarian value for the subject ='lgc'>--="ppl">Grosz='lgc'>='lgc'>--> which organs are libidinally invested and the kinds of investments that animate them are functions of the subject's psychical, ="trms">interpersonal, and ="trms">socio="trms">historical ="trms">relations and are malleable and continually changing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*always potentially open to new meanings and investments='strcls'>*

="nms">body image='lgc'>: (to a large extent) function of ="trms">socially shared significance
="prgrph">-(='thdf'>for example) male and female genitals have a particular ="trms">social meaning in western patriarchal cultures that the individual alone or even in groups is unable to transform (-these meanings are deeply etched into and lived as part of the ="nms">body image) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= Frankenstein='lgc'>]
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> () very ="trms">different self-perception and very ="trms">different organic body ='lgc'>=/= dichotomous division of sexed bodies

="ppl">Grosz generally finds S="trms">childer useful ='lgc'>--but='lgc'>='lgc'>-->
="lsts lst1">•he ="trms">writes in terms of a sexually neutral subject who experiences cerebral lesions and ="trms">neurological or psychologica[...]