[...]c sites, making them the center of libidinal attention and ="trms">narcissistic investment (="frds scrmbld">Janina's room) (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> in effect reinscribing them in ='strcls'>*a mode of resistance='strcls'>*)
='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> oral, anal, sadistic impulses, tactility, scopophilia, “sexual ="trms">perversions” ='lgc'>=='qstn'>? (to emphasize and cultivate) a mode of defiance to heterosexist requirements
='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds">Sina, the images that i have been clinging to are in the ="nms">body image that i think i am refusing or inscribing='lgc'>: pony, unicorn, rainbow, skull, the ="trms">childish bracelet i found in the park, etc.='lgc'>]


ماليخوليا
hypochondria خودبيمارانگارى
a ="ppl">Freudian problem='lgc'>: to describe the ="trms">transference of libido from the external ="trms">world and ="trms">love objects to the subject's own body in illness
="prgrph">-treating nongenital zones as if they had taken on genital meaning='lgc'> = (in the case of hysteria) hysterogenic zone takes on a sexual, usually phallic, function
='strcls'>*hypochondria='lgc'>: chronic and abnormal ="trms">anxiety abour ="trms">imaginary ="trms">symptoms='lgc'> = a flight against ="trms">narcissim='strcls'>* (the individual defends himself against the libidinous overtension of the hypochondriac organ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to treat it like a foreign bosdy in the ="nms">body image)
='lgc'>[hypochondria ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">narcissim='lgc'>]
hypochondriac tries to expel from the ="nms">body image but cannot because the zone is overinvested with libido ='lgc'>=/= خوددگربینی depersonalization='lgc'> = psychical transformation of the ="nms">body image='strcls'>*, subject lose ="trms">interest in the whole body, they refuse or are afraid to invest any ="trms">narcissistic libido in the ="nms">body image
="prgrph">-depersonalization might account for the ="trms">phenomenon of out-of-body experience (the outside ="trms">world is also experienced as flat and disinvested از خود بی خود / فنا؟)
depersonalization='lgc'>: a kind of psychical mimicry of the organic structure of dizziness ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">narcissistic decathexis ='lgc'>[withdrawal of psychic energy='lgc'>] of the subject's own inclination to voyeurism (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- disinvestment in the processes of self-observation) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> seeing has no longer any value ='lgc'>: the subject now seen or sees itself with no libidinal investment in looking (or being looked at) ='at'>@="frds">Sina, ="frds scrmbld">Foad

_='strcls'>*hysteria ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> transformation of ="nms">body image (of the meaning of the sexual zones to other organs which are not usually as="trms">sociated with genitality)
_='strcls'>*hypochondria ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> trans="trms">position of libido (displacement, from one organ to another, from the genital to other parts of the body)
_='strcls'>*depersonalization ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> withdrawal of libido from privileged zones (often from the whole body)

='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ='strcls'>****تغيير پذيرى lability of meaning for bodily organs='strcls'>**** ='lgc'>: any zone of the bady can (under certain circumstances) take on the meaning of any other zone
='lgc'>[stabil ='lgc'>=/= labil='lgc'>: transient, apt to slip='lgc'>]

="large lg2" stl="font-size:110%"> ="trms">neurosis ='and'>& psychosis='lgc'>: subject's sexual life is transposed from its ="trms">socially expected locations, aims, and onjects to elsewhere

="prgrph">-life ="trms">history of the subject='lgc'>: the ="trms">systems of psychical meaning and the events rendered meaningful
="prgrph">-body='lgc'>: the ="trms">history of the subject's explorations and practices ='lgc'>+ its various accidents and illnesses

(='at'>@="frds">Sina) breathing difficulties ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (hysterical ="trms">symptoms for) significance of the public/private division ='lgc'>~ inside/outside division
="lsts lst1">•visible disorders ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> some kind of message ='strcls'>*to others='strcls'>* is being transmittes
="lsts lst1">•invisible disorders ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> some kind of message ='strcls'>*to another signifier='strcls'>* is being transmittes ='at'>#="ppl">Lacan


hypochondria ='lgc'>+ depersonalization ='lgc'>+ hysteria ='lgc'>==='lgc'>[through the mediation of ="nms">body image='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ='strcls'>*the biological or organic body is open to psychical meanings='strcls'>* ='lgc'>~ psychic processes rely on various organic connections (it takes them as its raw ="trms">material, as its model of expression)

disease (='lgc'><='lgc'>==)transforms='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ="nms">body image (='lgc'><='lgc'>==)="trms">affects='lgc'>='lgc'>==> subject's psychological state

="nms">body image='lgc'>: mediating ="trms">position between the organic and the psychical ='lgc'>: it is by ="trms">affecting, modifying, transforming the ="nms">body image that each (organic ='and'>& psychical) is able to effect transformation in the other


='strcls'>***="ppl">Freud's pre="trms">diction='lgc'>: man would become a prosthetic god='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>~= Iron Man='lgc'>]

="nms">body image='lgc'> = (function of) psychology ='lgc'>+ ="trms">socio="trms">historical context ='lgc'>+ anatomy
the ="nms">body image is extremely fluid and dynamic ='lgc'>: its borders, ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges, and c="trms">ontours are osmotic (تراوش کننده), they have the remarkable power of incorporating and expelling outside and inside in an ongoing ="trms">interchange ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*="trms">social='strcls'>*

S="trms">childer's “zones of sensitivity”='lgc'>: bodily orifices ='lgc'>+ its sensation experienced about one centimeter from the opening (-for example how the diseases of ="trms">internal organs are not experienced in their precise anatomical locations)
='strcls'>*zones outside the body='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> intrusion into this bodily space is considered as much a violation as penetration of the body itself, the size and form of this surrounding space of safety is individually, sexually, racially, and culturally variable ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#clean and dirt for my mother; my ="nms">body image outside space surrounding it when i am in my room is the room itself, every corner, every niche accumulates senses and thoughts...='lgc'>]
the space surrounding the body is not uniform='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•thinner in some places (which more ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readily tolerate body contact)
="lsts lst1">•="trms">thicker in some places (which are particularly psychically, ="trms">socially, and culturally “privatized”)
="lsts lst1">•

="prgrph">-acting uses ="nms">body image ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="nms">body image can shrink or expand; it can give parts to the outside ="trms">world and can take other parts into itself
="prgrph">-playing setar ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (part of the difficulty of learning how to use ="trms">instruments, such as setar) the libidinal problem of how they become psychically invested (='lgc'>=/= simply the ="trms">technical problem of how they are used)

surgeon's ="nms">body image

in driving, trying to fit into a small parking spot ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- experienced in the ="nms">body image of the driver (and sometimes, to their ="trms">horror, in that of the passengers) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> by inability to drive is related to a bad ="nms">body image='qstn'>?='lgc'>]

="nms">body image is capable of accommodating and incorporating an extremely wide range of objects='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•clothing
="lsts lst1">•jewelry
="lsts lst1">•other bodies
="lsts lst1">•objects
="lsts lst1">•nail polish
="lsts lst1">•jets, ships, cars
="lsts lst1">•bodily zones='lgc'>:
="lsts lst2">◦orifices
="lsts lst2">◦curves
="lsts lst2">◦convex spaces
="lsts lst2">◦concave spaces
="lsts lst1">•“detachable” or ="trms">intermediate ="trms">category of objects, midway between the inanimate and the bodily ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>~= ="ppl">Lacanian objet a, Kristeva's abject='lgc'>]='lgc'>:
="lsts lst2">◦body's excretions
="lsts lst2">◦body's waste products
="lsts lst2">◦bodily byproducts
="lsts lst3">◾urine
="lsts lst3">◾faeces
="lsts lst3">◾saliva
="lsts lst3">◾sperm
="lsts lst3">◾blood
="lsts lst3">◾vomit
="lsts lst3">◾hair
="lsts lst3">◾nails
="lsts lst3">◾skin
  ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> retain something of the cathexis and value of the body (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> keeping my chopped nails, old toys, art-works... ='qstn'>?! ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ‘detachment='lgc'> = your work (art, etc.) is not bound up with your ="nms">body image’), they remain magically linked to the body ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">narcissistic investment in the ="nms">body image

='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>****human subjects never simply have a body='strcls'>****
the body is always necessarily the object and subject of attitudes and judgments, psychically invested, never a ="trms">matter of in="trms">difference
="prgrph">-the body never has merely ="trms">instrumental or utilitarian value for the subject ='lgc'>--="ppl">Grosz='lgc'>='lgc'>--> which organs are libidinally invested and the kinds of investments that animate them are functions of the subject's psychical, ="trms">interpersonal, and ="trms">socio="trms">historical ="trms">relations and are malleable and continually changing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*always potentially open to new meanings and investments='strcls'>*

="nms">body image='lgc'>: (to a large extent) function of ="trms">socially shared significance
="prgrph">-(='thdf'>for example) male and female genitals have a particular ="trms">social meaning in western patriarchal cultures that the individual alone or even in groups is unable to transform (-these meanings are deeply etched into and lived as part of the ="nms">body image) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= Frankenstein='lgc'>]
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> () very ="trms">different self-perception and very ="trms">different organic body ='lgc'>=/= dichotomous division of sexed bodies

="ppl">Grosz generally finds S="trms">childer useful ='lgc'>--but='lgc'>='lgc'>-->
="lsts lst1">•he ="trms">writes in terms of a sexually neutral subject who experiences cerebral lesions and ="trms">neurological or psychological disorders in a sexually neutral way
="lsts lst1">•he develops a single frame of reference (not so clearly relevant for women and female sexuality)
="lsts lst1">•he does not specify that male experience is taken as the norm and woman's experience is discussed only insofar as it deviates from or compares to this referential framework (='lgc'><='lgc'>== influence that studies of war injuries had on the developement of this field ='lgc'>+ vast disproportion of male subjects in active war)

S="trms">childer='lgc'>: attainment of a stable genital form of sexuality ='lgc'>='lgc'>==>
="lsts lst1">•unification of the ="nms">body image
="lsts lst1">•cohesion of our self-identities
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> phallic='lgc'> = genital phallic sexuality hierarchically ='strcls'>*subordinates the pregenital drives='strcls'>* ='lgc'>=/= female sexuality is al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready genitality multilocational, p="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lural, ambiguous, poly="trms">morphous, and ='strcls'>*not clearly able to subordinate the earlier ="trms">stages='strcls'>*

shared ="trms">sociocultural conceptions of bodies in general and shared familial and ="trms">interpersonal fantasy about particular bodies ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="nms">body image='lgc'>: unifies and coordinates postural, tactile, kinesthetic, and visual sensations ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> (so that these are experienced as) the ='strcls'>*sensations of a subject coordinated into a single space='strcls'>*

='strcls'>***any willful action requires a plan of bodily action ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the function of the ="nms">body image='strcls'>*** (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> this explains my fucked up ="nms">body image!)

="large lg1" stl="font-size:141%"> ="prgrph">-we cannot talk about space whithout ="nms">body image ='lgc'><='lgc'>== the ="nms">body image determines both the localization of sensations in ="trms">different concrete regions of the body and the ="trms">position of the body as a whole within space


="nms">body image ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “='lgc'>=/=” ='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•figure ='lgc'>=/= ground
="lsts lst1">•central action ='lgc'>=/= peripheral action
="lsts lst1">•(subject's) body ='lgc'>=/= (background of) forces
="lsts lst1">•movement of limbs ='lgc'>=/= corporeal context (of the rest of the body)
="lsts lst1">•outside (skin) ='lgc'>=/= inside (organs ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= process='lgc'>])
="lsts lst1">•active ="trms">relations ='lgc'>=/= passive ="trms">relationship
="lsts lst1">•="trms">position of subject ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">position of object


moving from a state of a="trms">morphousness to increasing ="trms">differentiation and specialization

a single movement reorients the whole of the body, creating what might be called a gait or posture, an individual and cultural bodily style

appersonization='lgc'>: treatment of one's own body as an outside object='lgc'>:
='lgc'>+ psychical vampirism='lgc'>: identification with the ="trms">symptoms, actions, and fantasies of othe people
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> identification, incorporation, introjection

='thdf'>example of aging
="prgrph">-="nms">body image seems resistant to the changes brought about by aging
="prgrph">-they seem to have aged, whereas the subject feels as if he or she has not
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> condition of continual transformation ='lgc'>+ time lag in the perception and registeration of real changes in the ="nms">body image

="nms">body image='lgc'>: condition of the subject's access to spatiality (in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluding built environments)='lgc'> = a postural schema of the body ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= mapping a biological body ="trms">onto a psychological domain, providing a kind of ="trms">translation of ="trms">material into conceptual terms='lgc'>]
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->
="lsts lst1">•radical inseparability of biological from psychical elements
="lsts lst1">•connection between the ="trms">question of sexual ="trms">specificity (biological sexual ="trms">difference)
="lsts lst1">•connection between the ="trms">question of psychical identity


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="ppl">Grosz realizes two human ="trms">perversion in psychoanalysis ="trms">literature='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•male ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> fetishism (sexual gratification from the use of inanimate partial objects alone)
="lsts lst1">•feminine ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> exhibitionism, kleptomania

female fetishism ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> lesbianism

fetishism ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">excess of their psychoanalytic descriptions
feminism ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> collective psychosis (='lgc'>~ a political disavowal of women's ="trms">social reality as oppressed)

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]play='lgc'>: a form of mastery (= a conversion of passivity into activity) ='lgc'>+ a ="trms">technique for the production of pleasure

="ppl">Freud='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•deviation in the sexual object ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> homosexuality, pedophilia, bestiality
="lsts lst1">•deviation in the sexual aim ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> transvestism, voyeurism, exhibitionism
fetishism='lgc'>: sexual overvaluation of a part (of the body or an inanimate object)
='lgc'>[='lgc'>--="ppl">Grosz='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ‘overvaluation’ is a characteristic of masculine forms of ="trms">loving='lgc'>]
“="trms">perversion ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">neuroses” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">pervert expresses precisely what it is that the ="trms">neurotic represses (='strcls'>*="trms">perversion='lgc'>: to avoid the repression)

sexual normality='lgc'> = copulative nonincestual heterosexuality

fetishist='lgc'>: the boy/="trms">child who is unable to resolve the oedipal conflict in its various alternatives (unable or unwilling to abandon the mother as ="trms">love object)
="prgrph">-he cannot, like the homosexual son, accept ="trms">symbolic castration in order to take on the “feminine” ="trms">position and adopt a passive sexual role in ="trms">relation to his father
="prgrph">-he is not prepared to “pay” for his desire by facing the oedipal prohibition (give up the mother or lose the penis) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> fetish='lgc'>: a token of triumph over the threat of castration (and a protection against it) ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{makes women tolerable as sexual objects ='lgc'>+ saves the fetishist from becoming a homosexual='lgc'>}
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]fetish='lgc'>: (a substitute for or) ='strcls'>*a talisman of the phallus='strcls'>*

(most significant one in the ="trms">child's ="trms">erotic life ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) mother's phallus='lgc'>: that which endows her with power and ="trms">authority

fetish ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a way of both preserving his belief in the missing maternal phallus and at the same time accepting her castration and the possibility of his own

disavowal ='lgc'>=/= repression (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">neurosis) ='lgc'>=/= negation (denial) ='lgc'>=/= repudiation (foreclosure ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> psychosis)

negation='lgc'>: a provisional lifting of repression (not through acceptance, the repressed contents are ="trms">verbally and ="trms">affectively negated) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> affirmation='lgc'>: the process of registering or fixing a drive to an ideational content (signifying the former by the latter), both the condition of signification and of repression

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="ppl">Grosz on ="ppl">Deleuze and ="ppl">Guattari

problem with “becoming woman”
the process of becoming-X ='lgc'>[marginal, woman, non-western, etc.='lgc'>] means nothing as a strategy if one is al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready X ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">question of ="trms">difference, ="trms">specificity

='strcls'>*desire
='strcls'>*machinic functions
='strcls'>*assemblages
='strcls'>*rhizomatics
='strcls'>*cartography
='strcls'>*intensities
='strcls'>*speed
='strcls'>*planes

appropriation (recuperation) of the ="trms">positions and struggles of X ='lgc'>==risks='lgc'>='lgc'>==> depoliticizing ="trms">aestheticizing struggles and political challenges crucial to the survival and self-de="trms">finition of X

problem with becoming
(="ppl">Deleuze and ="ppl">Guattari are invested in a) romantic elevation of models of psychosis, ="trms">schizophrenia, and madness ='lgc'>='lgc'>==>
="lsts lst1">•ignore the very real pain and torment of individuals
="lsts lst1">•raise pathology to an unlivable, unviable ideal for others


="large lg14" stl="font-size:117%"> our reservations and suspicions (in ="nms">apass when we face each other)

="ppl">Deleuzian rhizomatics ='and'>& feminist theory ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> reversal of ="ppl">Platonism='lgc'>: “ideal ='lgc'>=/= real” (op="trms">position ="trms">integral to Western thought)


rhizomatics, cartography, ="trms">schizoanalysis (deconstruction, grammatology) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> clear the ground of ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphysical concepts ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> (others) may be able to devise their own knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges

four “illusions” of re="trms">presentation='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•identity
="lsts lst1">•op="trms">position
="lsts lst1">•analogy
="lsts lst1">•resemblance
='lgc'>}='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> becoming (beyond the logic and confines of being)
='lgc'>}='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> multiplicity ='lgc'>[defined by the outside='lgc'>] (beyond doubling or multicentering of proliferating subjects)


="ppl">Deleuzian-="ppl">Foucauldian understanding of politics theorizes in a clearer and more direct form than ='strcls'>*rival (alternative) political philosophies='strcls'>* (in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluding ="ppl">Marxism, ="trms">socialism, liberalism, and anarchism), the kinds of theoretical and political struggles in which feminists are involved

="large lg14" stl="font-size:124%"> ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]body='lgc'>: a discontinuous, n="trms">ontotalized series of processes, organs, flows, energies, corporeal substances and events, intensities, and durations ='lgc'>--link='lgc'>='lgc'>--> organs ='lgc'>+ biological processes ='lgc'>+ ="trms">material objects ='lgc'>+ ="trms">social practices

='lgc'>[Spinoza's rare affirmative understanding of='lgc'>] body='lgc'>: (is analyzed and assessed more) in terms of ='strcls'>*what it can do='strcls'>*, the things it can perform, the linkages it establishes, the transformations it undergoes, the machinic connections it forms with other bodies (='lgc'>=/= a locus for a conscious subject, as an organically determined object, by their genus and ="trms">species, by their organs and functions)

from ="ppl">Plato to ="ppl">Lacan ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> desire='lgc'>: negative, ="trms">abyssal, a lack at the level of ="trms">ontology itself (an effect of frustration) ='lgc'>[desire is frustrated by the real='lgc'>]
='lgc'>=/= Spinoza ="ppl">Nietzsche ="ppl">Deleuze ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> desire='lgc'>: immanent, ="trms">positive and productive, ='strcls'>***desire is a ="trms">relation of effectuation, not of satisfaction='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>[desire is productive of reality='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> aleatory, bricolage

Spinoza's ethics='lgc'>: capacity for action and passion, increase or decrease one's capacities and strengths ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- good ='and'>& bad
='lgc'>=/= ="ppl">Levinasian ethics (modeled on a subject-to-subject, self-to-other ="trms">relation)

="large lg3" stl="font-size:112%"> (psychoanalysis) ='strcls'>*partial objects='lgc'>: organs, processes, and flows, which show no respect for the autonomy of the subject='strcls'>*

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(="ppl">="ppl">="trms"nttrm="search">Archer > Saint Lauren='lgc'>:) “="trms">fashion fades, style is eternal"='lgc'> = 'notions of style ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> notions of ="trms">history’ =='lgc'>{"to have style"='lgc'> = to have the means of inserting oneself into ="trms">history / “to lack style"='lgc'> = to risk oblivion='lgc'>}

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