[...]bal warming

="trms">causal factoid


humiliators ='lgc'>[there is no center and we don't inhabit it='lgc'>]='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•Copernicus
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Darwin
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Freud (displacing the human from the very center of psychic activity)
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Marx (displacing human ="trms">social life with economic organization)
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Heidegger
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Derrida (displacing the human from the center of meaning-making)
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Nietzsche
="lsts lst1">•="ppl">Deleuze and ="ppl">Guattari
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>~= there is no ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge ='lgc'>=/= (film Lucy or Neil Tyson series sug="trms">gesting that) there is an ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge (of time to see everything perfectly), in some (privilaged) transcendental sphere of pure freedom, Lucy's chair ="trms">literally sitting a VIP box beyond the ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">anthropocentrism='lgc'>: ='thdf'>the idea of a privilaged transcendental sphere
="ppl">Kant ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (although we are limited in ="trms">finitude) our transcendental faculties are at least ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphorically floating in space beyond the ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge of the universe ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#milieu ='at'>#="nms">tasavof ='at'>#sufism

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...هزار و یک hezaro yek
universe of trillions of ="trms">finitudes


='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]thing='lgc'>: a rift between what it is and how it appears


(="ppl">="ppl">Morton > Herman='lgc'>:) human consciousness wants ='strcls'>*to preserve knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge as a special kind of ="trms">relation to the ="trms">world quite ="trms">different from the ="trms">relations that raindrops and lizards have to the ="trms">world='strcls'>* (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- so d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous and so difficult to resist ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- next level of ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) also want to claim that the very status of ='lgc'>[his='lgc'>] utterance is somehow special ='lgc'><='lgc'>== (human) ‘thought’ is given a unique ability to negate and transcend immediate experience
(claims that the human doesn't exist ='lgc'>='lgc'>==>) elevating the strucure of human ‘thought’ to the ="trms">ontological pinnacle سرمنزل

everything (such as ="trms">modernity) banks on a certain forms of ="trms">ontology and ="trms">epistemology to secure its coordinates


speculative realism, a rogue machinery

saving power='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•expecting an eschatological solution from the sky
="lsts lst1">•a revolution in consciousness
="lsts lst1">•a people's army seizing control of the state
="lsts lst1">•

obsessive robots (that hold open the sliding doors of ="trms">history just as they appear to be snapping shut, imprisoning us in ="trms">modernity forever)


='strcls'>*distance='strcls'>*='lgc'>: (the ="trms">schizophrenic defense, “object in mirror,”) a psychic and ideological construct designed to protect me from the nearness of things
="prgrph">-the concept of ‘="trms">nature’ is (such) an “object in mirror” (='at'>#amazon project)
بنداز دور mythical land away ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a dis-dimension called ‘away’ (door دور) in ="nms">iran (door andakhtan دور انداختن)
(there is no away on this surface we are in) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> throw away='lgc'>: an optical effect ='lgc'>: there is no loger distances our image from us in a nice, ="trms">aesthetically manageable way, but sticks to us ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> we are glued to our ="trms">phenomenological ="trms">situation (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> entanglement of ="trms">="trms">equipment and quanta ='lgc'>=/= three pigs)

a threatening proximity

“i do not feel ‘at home’ in the biosphere” (yet it surrounds them and penetrates them) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> most humans feel that way. how one's entire physical being is caught in its meshwork of narezayati نارضایتی
(physical existence carrying with it) a trace of unreality ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> آمدنم بهر چه بود ='lgc'>: “i am not sure where i am anymore. i am at home in feeling not at home.”


one's normal sense of time as a container


="frds scrmbld">Ehsan's ghost/sheikh film ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> demonic in that through them ="trms">causalities flow like electricity


ambient, latin ‘ambo’ means ‘on both sides’


the old art theories that separated sweetness and power collapse
sweetness, it turns out, just is power='lgc'>: the most powerful thing


weather as ="trms">monster

baby learns to distinguish between the vomit and the non-vomit, and comes to know the non-vomit as self


(a ="trms">society in which) growing ="trms">scientific ='strcls'>*awareness of rish='strcls'>* ='lgc'>==changes='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the ="trms">nature of democracy

back-to-="trms">nature festivals

nihi="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listic princes of darkness

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='mywrk'>my work is ='strcls'>*to mix ="trms">stories='strcls'>*

everyday engagements with other kinds of creatures (in my case='lgc'>: ="nms">ajayeb) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> opens new kinds of possibilities for relating and understanding

="trms">cosmo="trms">ecology='lgc'>: multiple beings (gods, jinns, ="trms">animals, humans, living, dead, etc.) each bearing the consequences of the others’ ways (of living and dying)

‘the ="trms">ecological ="trms">question’ is about the needs that ought to be met in the ongoing creation of rapports and connections ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">questions are how does this being achieve the task of holding ="trms">onto its existence ='lgc'>=/= “does this being really exist, or is it not a re="trms">presentation”
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> (="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>:) ='strcls'>*we may never know (safely and re="trms">liably, either ahead of time or a posteriori) which beings will bear/enjoy the consequences of the concrete attention we give to them='strcls'>*

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on Kate Rich work
feral ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> before or without a political state ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> state of ="trms">nature ='lgc'>[a lot of moral political philosophers of the state asking “What was life like before civil ="trms">society='qstn'>?"='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> in feral there are only freedoms ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> contracts (='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what cultural ="trms">anthropology has to say about that='qstn'>?)
she is in the ="ppl">Rousseauian tradition of ='strcls'>*how to establish a ‘political ="trms">community’ in the face of the problems of ‘commercial ="trms">society’='strcls'>* (='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to ="ppl">Rousseau's The ="trms">Social Contract ='and'>& Discourse on the O="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigin and Basis of Inequality Among Men)
fighting the ="trms">system ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> feral ="trms">tropes ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> arsenal of the Enlightenment (="ppl">Kant's motto='lgc'>: “Dare to think for yourself!” ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= “I don't follow orders!”), application of Reason in the public sphere of human affairs
with her work we are in the Age of Enlightenment, Age of Reason, resourcing ="trms">authority and legitimacy, ideals of individual liberty and progress ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Kate's thinking founded on philosophical ="trms">fictions of the 18th century (='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Foucault='lgc'>='lgc'>--> problematic legacy of the Enlightenment)
="lsts lst1">•the legecy of 20th century='lgc'>: (Kate's dialectical negativity) to define and work in negative way, an ‘exit,’ a ‘way out’ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> transcendental ='lgc'>[='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to ="ppl">Singh, ="ppl">Khan,='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•="trms">question of contemporary reality ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Kate does a totalizing elevation (like many other artists)
="lsts lst1">•the realm of obedience ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> artists’ ="trms">childish attitude of never accepting someone else's ="trms">authority (='at'>#fighting the ="trms">system; should we fight the ="trms">system ="trms">systematically='qstn'>? ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Nicolas)


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basically everything i do is related to the ="trms">question of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> make us better ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readers

my ="trms">excessive use of footnote ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the most decisive indication of the concerns of a text are to be found in its margins ='and'>& no ‘proper’ starting/ending point for ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading

each of my performances/projects reflect on their own status as examples of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading/mis="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading ='lgc'>=/= achieving correct ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading

="trms">literature='lgc'>: the problem of mis="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading (='lgc'>=/= the ="trms">language it uses)
='lgc'>[with De Man='lgc'>]

i have become sensitive to the ="trms">systematic avoidance of the problem of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading, of the ="trms">interpretative or hermeneutic moment, in ="trms">literary analysis and art

all ="trms">language-use is tropological (='lgc'>~ ="trms">rhetorical)


catachresis (the misuse of a word) ='lgc'><='lgc'>--fluid='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor (the non-="trms">literal application of a word) ='lgc'><='lgc'>--fluid='lgc'>='lgc'>--> metonymy (in which the name of one thing is put for that of another related to it)

="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readability='lgc'>: the possibility of producing an essential/de="trms">finitive ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> closure ='lgc'>=/= further ="trms">interpretation

a ="trms">language which would perfectly fit my multiple identity='lgc'>--persian consciousness
="trms">emboding (belonging to) two bordering cultures='lgc'>: western university and persian tradition of subjectivity
="lsts lst1">•mixture of English and ="trms">Farsi
="lsts lst1">•spontaneous shift of style
="lsts lst1">•
="lsts lst1">•


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learning from academia='lgc'>: committed to ="trms">excessive ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigor ='lgc'>+ sriousness of purpose

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(Erikson's) developmental ="trms">stages characterized by a psycho="trms">social crisis of two conflicting forces='lgc'>: (each ="trms">stage that came before and that follows has its own ‘crisis’)
='lgc'>[conflictual psycho="trms">social crisis ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> virtue ='lgc'>='lgc'>~-> (answers to) existential ="trms">questions='lgc'>]

="prgrph">-(0-18 months) Trust / Mistrust ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Hope
='lgc'>[Can I trust the ="trms">world='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> what constitutes d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous ="trms">situations (in life)
="trms">world is undependable, unpre="trms">dictable, and possibly a d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous place
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]trust='lgc'>: syntonic quotient
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]mistrust='lgc'>: diatonic quotient
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> oral ="trms">stage

="prgrph">-(2-4 years) Autonomy / Shame-Doubt ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Will
='lgc'>[Is it okay to be me='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
venture out to assert their will ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> learning about environment
lack/="trms">excess/ridiculed restriction ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> shame ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> doubt (in dealing with, handling problems)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> anal ="trms">stage

="prgrph">-(4-5 years) Initiative / Guilt ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Purpose
='lgc'>[Is it okay for me to do, move, and act='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
autonomy ='lgc'>+ mastery (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> artists who stay at their own autonomy and mastery are fixated at this age)
discourage the pursuit of independent activities ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> guilt about needs and desires
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> phallic ="trms">stage

='lgc'>='lgc'>---till here we were in the realm of play='lgc'>='lgc'>---

to master trust, autonomy, and industrious ="trms">skills
(i have mastered ‘trust,’ failed at ‘autonomy,’ and overdosing ‘industrious ="trms">skills’)

="prgrph">-(5-12 years) Industry / Inferiority ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Competence
='lgc'>[Can I make it in the ="trms">world of people and things='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•beginning to grasp the concepts of space and time in more logical, practical ways
="lsts lst1">•="trms">causality
="lsts lst1">•="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading (is an industrious ="trms">skills='qstn'>?!)
="lsts lst1">•recognizing cultural ="trms">differences (is an industrious ="trms">skills='qstn'>?!)
="lsts lst1">•completing the task
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> latency ="trms">stage

="prgrph">-(13-19 years) Identity / Role Confusion ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Fidelity
='lgc'>[Who am I='qstn'>? Who can I be='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
concerned with how to appear to others
fit into ="trms">society
(used to be evidenced in career, now in sexual identity ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) superego identity is the accrued confidence that the outer sameness and continuity prepared in the future are matched by the sameness and continuity of one's meaning for oneself
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> sense of identity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> re-establish boundaries (in a potentially hostile ="trms">world) ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- this is difficult because commitments are asked for before particular identity roles have formed
='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> experiment and explore (in a ‘psycho="trms">social moratorium’ ='lgc'>[allowed adolescent role confusion='lgc'>]) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> firm sense of identity
(experimentation is about identity formation='qstn'>?) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='lgc'>[="trms">according to Erikson='lgc'>] only when identity is established ='lgc'>[='lgc'>~ experimentation stopped='lgc'>] the ="trms">questions “What have I got='qstn'>?” and “What am I going to do with it='qstn'>?” can be asked
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]identity='lgc'>: to identify the object of one's fidelity='strcls'>***
="prgrph">-identity crisis for persons of genius is frequently prolonged
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? genital ="trms">stage

="prgrph">-(20-39 years) Intimacy / Isolation ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">Love
='lgc'>[Can I ="trms">love='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]distanciation='lgc'>: “the ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readiness to isolate and if necessary, to destroy those forces and people whose essence seems d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous to our own, and whose territory seems to encroach on the extent of one's intimate ="trms">relations”

="prgrph">-(40-64 years) Generativity / ="trms">Stagnation ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Care
='lgc'>[Can I make my life count='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
guiding the next generation

="prgrph">-(65-death) Ego ="trms">Integrity / Despair ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Wisdom
='lgc'>[Is it okay to have been me='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
(only now is able to) develop ="trms">integrity

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you have a ‘bad day’
(in ="ppl">Socrates='lgc'>:) because you are ignorant of ="trms">geometry
(in Feminism='lgc'>:) because you are a man
(in ="trms">communicative capitalism='lgc'>:) because you are ‘boring’


how to plot to take over the ="trms">world='qstn'>?


(="ppl">Rilke)
“I wish to help and expect to be helped. Everyone's eternal mistake is to take me for a healer when, in fact, I am only attracting others, for my own profit, in the ="trms">trap of a simulated assistance.”


(your) ="trms">interview and ="trms">interruption

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I would take a bullet for you
/////
you go for the knife and i prepar myself to die

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duty ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= Dienst nach Vorschrift
(the problem is that it is not enough to have a duty, rather, you have to define what ‘duty’ is. that is the only duty)

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MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i like to think, “i am rich they can't hurt me.”
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: that's a mistake.
MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i am being punished for making my job look easy... Although, that kid, guy, he has a spark. He is a pure account man.
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: and what is that job all about='qstn'>?
MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i don't know. it's about ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listening to people and never saying what's really on your mind.
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: no. it's about letting things go so you can get what you want.


“I could tell the minute she saw who I realy was, she never wanted to look at me again, which is why I never told her.”
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> i am not telling you anything, because the minute you see who i realy am, you never want to look at me again.

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is this an honour='qstn'>?


(a) better thug


so, one summer evening, I was wrong, ...

once when i was wrong...


thank you for that kind (of an) introduction



i like to make decorations for other people's work

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="trms">Instructions of Shuruppak
“In those days, in those far remote times, in those nights, in those faraway nights, in those years, in those far remote years.”


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daftare bimani دفتر بیمعنی
hezar nokte هزار نکته



i can only stutter and telegraph you mutilated message
also i offer the hermeneutic of frustration so that we don't feel we have mastered or understood necessarily



janebe hagh ra gereftan جانب حق را گرفتن ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> hagh-be-janebi حق‌به‌جانبی


safineye nadan سفینه نادن
safineye nadani سفینه نادانی

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Bettina's self almost entirely to be construed within the order of the will


(="ppl">Hillman='lgc'>:) Eros is always curiously weaker than the problem it must deal with. ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> logos is biger than its problem



="lstsrd">1. revolution='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the value ="trms">system
="lstsrd">2. reform='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the ="trms">social norm (hanjar هنجار) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> eslahat اصلاحات
="lstsrd">3. invention/noavari='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the ="trms">system/institution/sazman
="lstsrd">4. coup d'état='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the people/="trms">apparatus


(amal bar asase='lgc'>:) sonat='lgc'>: gozashte, diruz, anja, anha
گذشته
دیروز


phd='lgc'>: طرح مساله tarh-e masale ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> everything depends on the ways you pattern a niche, a site of strings that you and your collieges are cought long enough

="lsts lst1">•using texture, form, color
="lsts lst1">•using ="trms">embodiments
="lsts lst1">•using optics (in knowing) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> some ="trms">sort of distance, dis="trms">embodied seeing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> abstraction, figure,




carnal intellectuality
(intellectual carnality)

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locating ‘shur’ شور del-shur دل شوره (also shuridegi شوریدگی) to the place of the unkown other
so when one has fearful fantacies about others in foreign lands they are in ‘shur’ for them

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(psychologically tethered phantasy of the “independent person”='lgc'>:)

='strcls'>**oral fixation ='lgc'>[everything depends on the duration of breast-feeding during the development of libido='lgc'>]='lgc'>:
in ="nms">Iranians='lgc'>: over-fed (more than 12 months) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> dependency, needing stimulant
in Balkan='lgc'>: insufficiently fed ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> طلبکار و ناراضی talabkar narazi dissatisfied and manipulative (in need of oral stimulant ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> for example sarcasm) ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*narazi ='lgc'><='lgc'>~='lgc'>~='lgc'>='lgc'>--> tavagho’ توقع='strcls'>*='lgc'>]
(='lgc'>='lgc'>--> early experiences of ="trms">love bound up with various kinds of suffering, and later in adulthood one will look for familiar forms of suffering)
="lsts lst1">•oral fixation='lgc'>: everything related to pleasure ='lgc'>+ pain ='lgc'>+ security ='lgc'>+ sex are all bound together and located in the mouth

='strcls'>**anal fixation ='lgc'>[bowel and bladder control ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> focus of the libido='lgc'>: conflict of to pass or withhold='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> also a time person's ="trms">relationship with ="trms">authority is made. role of super-ego (parents) in toilet training. everything depends on what super-ego says about what you accomplish in the toilet (at the ages of 1 to 3) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> creativity / khesasat='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•anal-retentive='lgc'>: to hold back ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> tidy, khasis (='lgc'>~ careful with money), and respectful to ="trms">authority
="lsts lst1">•anal-expulsive='lgc'>: relieved whenever in inappropriate times ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> sharing personality, give things away,


subjectivity is porous, flow of thoughts without a thinker, self is unnecessary
‘self’ is such an unnecessary ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor for the process of awareness and knowing
the ="trms">question of “who/what am I='qstn'>?” is utterly boring


='lgc'>[title='lgc'>]

might suffer

="ppl">Freud's penis


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aghsa اقصا
far, farther, to send far, everywhere places, earth
(='lgc'>+ aknaf) ='lgc'>[virtual locality='lgc'>]
='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> maghsad م[...]