[...]threatening proximity
“i do not feel ‘at home’ in the biosphere” (yet it surrounds them and penetrates them) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> most humans feel that way. how one's entire physical being is caught in its meshwork of narezayati نارضایتی
(physical existence carrying with it) a trace of unreality ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> آمدنم بهر چه بود ='lgc'>: “i am not sure where i am anymore. i am at home in feeling not at home.”
one's normal sense of time as a container
="frds scrmbld">Ehsan's ghost/sheikh film ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> demonic in that through them ="trms">causalities flow like electricity
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ambient, latin ‘ambo’ means ‘on both sides’
the old art theories that separated sweetness and power collapse
sweetness, it turns out, just is power='lgc'>: the most powerful thing
weather as ="trms">monster
baby learns to distinguish between the vomit and the non-vomit, and comes to know the non-vomit as self
(a ="trms">society in which) growing ="trms">scientific ='strcls'>*awareness of rish='strcls'>* ='lgc'>==changes='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the ="trms">nature of democracy
back-to-="trms">nature festivals
nihi="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listic princes of darkness
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='mywrk'>my work is ='strcls'>*to mix ="trms">stories='strcls'>*
everyday engagements with other kinds of creatures (in my case='lgc'>: ="nms">ajayeb) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> opens new kinds of possibilities for relating and understanding
="trms">cosmo="trms">ecology='lgc'>: multiple beings (gods, jinns, ="trms">animals, humans, living, dead, etc.) each bearing the consequences of the others’ ways (of living and dying)
‘the ="trms">ecological ="trms">question’ is about the needs that ought to be met in the ongoing creation of rapports and connections ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">questions are how does this being achieve the task of holding ="trms">onto its existence ='lgc'>=/= “does this being really exist, or is it not a re="trms">presentation”
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> (="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>:) ='strcls'>*we may never know (safely and re="trms">liably, either ahead of time or a posteriori) which beings will bear/enjoy the consequences of the concrete attention we give to them='strcls'>*
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on Kate Rich work
feral ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> before or without a political state ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> state of ="trms">nature ='lgc'>[a lot of moral political philosophers of the state asking “What was life like before civil ="trms">society='qstn'>?"='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> in feral there are only freedoms ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> contracts (='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> what cultural ="trms">anthropology has to say about that='qstn'>?)
she is in the ="ppl">Rousseauian tradition of ='strcls'>*how to establish a ‘political ="trms">community’ in the face of the problems of ‘commercial ="trms">society’='strcls'>* (='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to ="ppl">Rousseau's The ="trms">Social Contract ='and'>& Discourse on the O="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigin and Basis of Inequality Among Men)
fighting the ="trms">system ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> feral ="trms">tropes ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> arsenal of the Enlightenment (="ppl">Kant's motto='lgc'>: “Dare to think for yourself!” ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= “I don't follow orders!”), application of Reason in the public sphere of human affairs
with her work we are in the Age of Enlightenment, Age of Reason, resourcing ="trms">authority and legitimacy, ideals of individual liberty and progress ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Kate's thinking founded on philosophical ="trms">fictions of the 18th century (='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Foucault='lgc'>='lgc'>--> problematic legacy of the Enlightenment)
="lsts lst1">•the legecy of 20th century='lgc'>: (Kate's dialectical negativity) to define and work in negative way, an ‘exit,’ a ‘way out’ ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> transcendental ='lgc'>[='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='gtrw'>go to ="ppl">Singh, ="ppl">Khan,='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•="trms">question of contemporary reality ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Kate does a totalizing elevation (like many other artists)
="lsts lst1">•the realm of obedience ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> artists’ ="trms">childish attitude of never accepting someone else's ="trms">authority (='at'>#fighting the ="trms">system; should we fight the ="trms">system ="trms">systematically='qstn'>? ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Nicolas)
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basically everything i do is related to the ="trms">question of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> make us better ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readers
my ="trms">excessive use of footnote ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the most decisive indication of the concerns of a text are to be found in its margins ='and'>& no ‘proper’ starting/ending point for ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading
each of my performances/projects reflect on their own status as examples of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading/mis="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading ='lgc'>=/= achieving correct ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading
="trms">literature='lgc'>: the problem of mis="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading (='lgc'>=/= the ="trms">language it uses)
='lgc'>[with De Man='lgc'>]
i have become sensitive to the ="trms">systematic avoidance of the problem of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading, of the ="trms">interpretative or hermeneutic moment, in ="trms">literary analysis and art
all ="trms">language-use is tropological (='lgc'>~ ="trms">rhetorical)
catachresis (the misuse of a word) ='lgc'><='lgc'>--fluid='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor (the non-="trms">literal application of a word) ='lgc'><='lgc'>--fluid='lgc'>='lgc'>--> metonymy (in which the name of one thing is put for that of another related to it)
="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readability='lgc'>: the possibility of producing an essential/de="trms">finitive ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> closure ='lgc'>=/= further ="trms">interpretation
a ="trms">language which would perfectly fit my multiple identity='lgc'>--persian consciousness
="trms">emboding (belonging to) two bordering cultures='lgc'>: western university and persian tradition of subjectivity
="lsts lst1">•mixture of English and ="trms">Farsi
="lsts lst1">•spontaneous shift of style
="lsts lst1">•
="lsts lst1">•
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learning from academia='lgc'>: committed to ="trms">excessive ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigor ='lgc'>+ sriousness of purpose
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(Erikson's) developmental ="trms">stages characterized by a psycho="trms">social crisis of two conflicting forces='lgc'>: (each ="trms">stage that came before and that follows has its own ‘crisis’)
='lgc'>[conflictual psycho="trms">social crisis ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> virtue ='lgc'>='lgc'>~-> (answers to) existential ="trms">questions='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-(0-18 months) Trust / Mistrust ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Hope
='lgc'>[Can I trust the ="trms">world='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> what constitutes d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous ="trms">situations (in life)
="trms">world is undependable, unpre="trms">dictable, and possibly a d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous place
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]trust='lgc'>: syntonic quotient
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]mistrust='lgc'>: diatonic quotient
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> oral ="trms">stage
="prgrph">-(2-4 years) Autonomy / Shame-Doubt ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Will
='lgc'>[Is it okay to be me='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
venture out to assert their will ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> learning about environment
lack/="trms">excess/ridiculed restriction ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> shame ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> doubt (in dealing with, handling problems)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> anal ="trms">stage
="prgrph">-(4-5 years) Initiative / Guilt ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Purpose
='lgc'>[Is it okay for me to do, move, and act='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
autonomy ='lgc'>+ mastery (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> artists who stay at their own autonomy and mastery are fixated at this age)
discourage the pursuit of independent activities ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> guilt about needs and desires
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> phallic ="trms">stage
='lgc'>='lgc'>---till here we were in the realm of play='lgc'>='lgc'>---
to master trust, autonomy, and industrious ="trms">skills
(i have mastered ‘trust,’ failed at ‘autonomy,’ and overdosing ‘industrious ="trms">skills’)
="prgrph">-(5-12 years) Industry / Inferiority ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Competence
='lgc'>[Can I make it in the ="trms">world of people and things='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•beginning to grasp the concepts of space and time in more logical, practical ways
="lsts lst1">•="trms">causality
="lsts lst1">•="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading (is an industrious ="trms">skills='qstn'>?!)
="lsts lst1">•recognizing cultural ="trms">differences (is an industrious ="trms">skills='qstn'>?!)
="lsts lst1">•completing the task
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> latency ="trms">stage
="prgrph">-(13-19 years) Identity / Role Confusion ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Fidelity
='lgc'>[Who am I='qstn'>? Who can I be='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
concerned with how to appear to others
fit into ="trms">society
(used to be evidenced in career, now in sexual identity ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) superego identity is the accrued confidence that the outer sameness and continuity prepared in the future are matched by the sameness and continuity of one's meaning for oneself
='lgc'>='lgc'>==> sense of identity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> re-establish boundaries (in a potentially hostile ="trms">world) ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- this is difficult because commitments are asked for before particular identity roles have formed
='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> experiment and explore (in a ‘psycho="trms">social moratorium’ ='lgc'>[allowed adolescent role confusion='lgc'>]) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> firm sense of identity
(experimentation is about identity formation='qstn'>?) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='lgc'>[="trms">according to Erikson='lgc'>] only when identity is established ='lgc'>[='lgc'>~ experimentation stopped='lgc'>] the ="trms">questions “What have I got='qstn'>?” and “What am I going to do with it='qstn'>?” can be asked
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]identity='lgc'>: to identify the object of one's fidelity='strcls'>***
="prgrph">-identity crisis for persons of genius is frequently prolonged
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? genital ="trms">stage
="prgrph">-(20-39 years) Intimacy / Isolation ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">Love
='lgc'>[Can I ="trms">love='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]distanciation='lgc'>: “the ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readiness to isolate and if necessary, to destroy those forces and people whose essence seems d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous to our own, and whose territory seems to encroach on the extent of one's intimate ="trms">relations”
="prgrph">-(40-64 years) Generativity / ="trms">Stagnation ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Care
='lgc'>[Can I make my life count='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
guiding the next generation
="prgrph">-(65-death) Ego ="trms">Integrity / Despair ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Wisdom
='lgc'>[Is it okay to have been me='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
(only now is able to) develop ="trms">integrity
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you have a ‘bad day’
(in ="ppl">Socrates='lgc'>:) because you are ignorant of ="trms">geometry
(in Feminism='lgc'>:) because you are a man
(in ="trms">communicative capitalism='lgc'>:) because you are ‘boring’
how to plot to take over the ="trms">world='qstn'>?
(="ppl">Rilke)
“I wish to help and expect to be helped. Everyone's eternal mistake is to take me for a healer when, in fact, I am only attracting others, for my own profit, in the ="trms">trap of a simulated assistance.”
(your) ="trms">interview and ="trms">interruption
I would take a bullet for you
/////
you go for the knife and i prepar myself to die
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duty ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= Dienst nach Vorschrift
(the problem is that it is not enough to have a duty, rather, you have to define what ‘duty’ is. that is the only duty)
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MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i like to think, “i am rich they can't hurt me.”
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: that's a mistake.
MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i am being punished for making my job look easy... Although, that kid, guy, he has a spark. He is a pure account man.
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: and what is that job all about='qstn'>?
MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i don't know. it's about ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listening to people and never saying what's really on your mind.
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: no. it's about letting things go so you can get what you want.
“I could tell the minute she saw who I realy was, she never wanted to look at me again, which is why I never told her.”
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> i am not telling you anything, because the minute you see who i realy am, you never want to look at me again.
“...but nobody knows what is wrong with themselves, and everyone else can see it ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right away.”
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is this an honour='qstn'>?
(a) better thug
so, one summer evening, I was wrong, ...
once when i was wrong...
thank you for that kind (of an) introduction
i like to make decorations for other people's work
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="trms">Instructions of Shuruppak
“In those days, in those far remote times, in those nights, in those faraway nights, in those years, in those far remote years.”
daftare bimani دفتر بیمعنی
hezar nokte هزار نکته
i can only stutter and telegraph you mutilated message
also i offer the hermeneutic of frustration so that we don't feel we have mastered or understood necessarily
janebe hagh ra gereftan جانب حق را گرفتن ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> hagh-be-janebi حقبهجانبی
safineye nadan سفینه نادن
safineye nadani سفینه نادانی
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Bettina's self almost entirely to be construed within the order of the will
(="ppl">Hillman='lgc'>:) Eros is always curiously weaker than the problem it must deal with. ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> logos is biger than its problem
="lstsrd">1. revolution='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the value ="trms">system
="lstsrd">2. reform='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the ="trms">social norm (hanjar هنجار) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> eslahat اصلاحات
="lstsrd">3. invention/noavari='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the ="trms">system/institution/sazman
="lstsrd">4. coup d'état='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the people/="trms">apparatus
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(amal bar asase='lgc'>:) sonat='lgc'>: gozashte, diruz, anja, anha
گذشته
دیروز
phd='lgc'>: طرح مساله tarh-e masale ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> everything depends on the ways you pattern a niche, a site of strings that you and your collieges are cought long enough
="lsts lst1">•using texture, form, color
="lsts lst1">•using ="trms">embodiments
="lsts lst1">•using optics (in knowing) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> some ="trms">sort of distance, dis="trms">embodied seeing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> abstraction, figure,
carnal intellectuality
(intellectual carnality)
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locating ‘shur’ شور del-shur دل شوره (also shuridegi شوریدگی) to the place of the unkown other
so when one has fearful fantacies about others in foreign lands they are in ‘shur’ for them
(psychologically tethered phantasy of the “independent person”='lgc'>:)
='strcls'>**oral fixation ='lgc'>[everything depends on the duration of breast-feeding during the development of libido='lgc'>]='lgc'>:
in ="nms">Iranians='lgc'>: over-fed (more than 12 months) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> dependency, needing stimulant
in Balkan='lgc'>: insufficiently fed ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> طلبکار و ناراضی talabkar narazi dissatisfied and manipulative (in need of oral stimulant ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> for example sarcasm) ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*narazi ='lgc'><='lgc'>~='lgc'>~='lgc'>='lgc'>--> tavagho’ توقع='strcls'>*='lgc'>]
(='lgc'>='lgc'>--> early experiences of ="trms">love bound up with various kinds of suffering, and later in adulthood one will look for familiar forms of suffering)
="lsts lst1">•oral fixation='lgc'>: everything related to pleasure ='lgc'>+ pain ='lgc'>+ security ='lgc'>+ sex are all bound together and located in the mouth
='strcls'>**anal fixation ='lgc'>[bowel and bladder control ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> focus of the libido='lgc'>: conflict of to pass or withhold='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> also a time person's ="trms">relationship with ="trms">authority is made. role of super-ego (parents) in toilet training. everything depends on what super-ego says about what you accomplish in the toilet (at the ages of 1 to 3) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> creativity / khesasat='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•anal-retentive='lgc'>: to hold back ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> tidy, khasis (='lgc'>~ careful with money), and respectful to ="trms">authority
="lsts lst1">•anal-expulsive='lgc'>: relieved whenever in inappropriate times ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> sharing personality, give things away,
subjectivity is porous, flow of thoughts without a thinker, self is unnecessary
‘self’ is such an unnecessary ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor for the process of awareness and knowing
the ="trms">question of “who/what am I='qstn'>?” is utterly boring
='lgc'>[title='lgc'>]
might suffer
="ppl">Freud's penis
ignoria
aghsa اقصا
far, farther, to send far, everywhere places, earth
(='lgc'>+ aknaf) ='lgc'>[virtual locality='lgc'>]
='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> maghsad مقصد (when aghsa overlapse the here and now)
tamrin تمرین üben/training (bazi-e khatarnak) ='lgc'>=/=
tajrobe تجربه Erfahrung/experience (experience in accident ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/=> getting better at driving; or
fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/=> ="trms">science)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> zehniate shakhshi mobtani bar bardashthaye mobtani bar tajribe ذهنیت شخصی مبتنی بر برداشتهای مبتنی بر تجربه experiential subjectivity
="lsts lst1">•experience ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> personal perception
="lsts lst1">•train ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ="trms">skill
taghirat va tahavolat-e donya ra az birun ba az bala negah kardan (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- we need more. ='lgc'>[by “we” i mean ="nms">iranians='lgc'>])
="frds scrmbld">Lili's use of pre="trms">position or a conjunction “and” “or” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> discourse marker
regarding the ="trms">system, to resist is much more ="trms">interesting than to ="trms">complain
i am worried (as adult) about X's death, because earlier (as ="trms">child) i have wished X's death
="trms">neurotic ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'><='lgc'>== controlling the ="trms">child (bokon nakon بکن نکن) ='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~> fear of punishment
="trms">neurotic ="trms">anxiety='lgc'>: unconscious fear that the ='strcls'>*libidinal impulses of the id='strcls'>* will take control (at an inopportune inappropriate time)
شخصیت واقع بین shakhsiat vaghe bin='lgc'>: objectivity montabegh bar subjectivity ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> truth (in ="trms">science) ='lgc'>+ commitment based on (accepted) reality ='lgc'>[ta'ahod cannot be based on or created by mogheyiat, that means ="trms">situatedness cannot make us feel/care/hate/commit='lgc'>]
شخصیت موقع بین shakhsiat moghe’ bin='lgc'>: ="trms">situated subjectivity ='lgc'>[='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Haraway='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">situated objectivity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> commitment based on care='lgc'>]
موقعیت mogheyiat (="trms">situtation, circumstance, condition) ='lgc'>=/= واقعیت vagheyiat (reality)
(='qstn'>?one should) to live by vagheyiat, not mogheyiat
='lgc'>[i am educated to base research and knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge both on mogheyiat and on vagheyiat ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> crisis of ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge in ="trms">interpersonal ="trms">relations='lgc'>: to feel about others based on mogheyiat/="trms">situation is a bad idea(='qstn'>?)='lgc'>]
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda='lgc'>: turning mogheyiat into vagheyiat
(="trms">verb ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> adjective)
do the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right thing (or take the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right side) جانب حق را گرفتن ='lgc'>[a form of closing off distance ='lgc'>=/= dis="trms">embodied seeing='lgc'>] ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">righteous حق به جانب ='lgc'>[a form of ="trms">embodiment, zero distanciation='lgc'>]
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“your ="trms">joke is the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right of the other person”
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you are hurt ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “the other was bad” (is not the con="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion that is helpfull or capable of giving an opening, and it ends badly)
='lgc'>=/= people make mistakes
roshd رشد ='lgc'>=/= pishraft پیشرفت
roshd ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> shodan, becoming
pishraft ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to gain, progress,
selfishness ='lgc'>=='qstn'>?='lgc'>=> being nice
khod khahi خود خواهی ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> nagozashtan-e tasvir/tasavor bad dar digari ='lgc'>["this is me, not you!"='lgc'>]
selfish='lgc'> = good at ="trms">communication (do taraf-e miz khub harf zadan), bad at relating (nazdik shodan)
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