[...]he object of one's fidelity='strcls'>***
="prgrph">-identity crisis for persons of genius is frequently prolonged
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? genital ="trms">stage
="prgrph">-(20-39 years) Intimacy / Isolation ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">Love
='lgc'>[Can I ="trms">love='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]distanciation='lgc'>: “the ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readiness to isolate and if necessary, to destroy those forces and people whose essence seems d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous to our own, and whose territory seems to encroach on the extent of one's intimate ="trms">relations”
="prgrph">-(40-64 years) Generativity / ="trms">Stagnation ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Care
='lgc'>[Can I make my life count='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
guiding the next generation
="prgrph">-(65-death) Ego ="trms">Integrity / Despair ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Wisdom
='lgc'>[Is it okay to have been me='qstn'>?='lgc'>]
(only now is able to) develop ="trms">integrity
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you have a ‘bad day’
(in ="ppl">Socrates='lgc'>:) because you are ignorant of ="trms">geometry
(in Feminism='lgc'>:) because you are a man
(in ="trms">communicative capitalism='lgc'>:) because you are ‘boring’
how to plot to take over the ="trms">world='qstn'>?
(="ppl">Rilke)
“I wish to help and expect to be helped. Everyone's eternal mistake is to take me for a healer when, in fact, I am only attracting others, for my own profit, in the ="trms">trap of a simulated assistance.”
(your) ="trms">interview and ="trms">interruption
I would take a bullet for you
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you go for the knife and i prepar myself to die
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duty ='lgc'>='lgc'>~= Dienst nach Vorschrift
(the problem is that it is not enough to have a duty, rather, you have to define what ‘duty’ is. that is the only duty)
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MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i like to think, “i am rich they can't hurt me.”
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: that's a mistake.
MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i am being punished for making my job look easy... Although, that kid, guy, he has a spark. He is a pure account man.
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: and what is that job all about='qstn'>?
MADMAN='at'>#1='lgc'>: i don't know. it's about ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listening to people and never saying what's really on your mind.
MADMAN='at'>#2='lgc'>: no. it's about letting things go so you can get what you want.
“I could tell the minute she saw who I realy was, she never wanted to look at me again, which is why I never told her.”
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> i am not telling you anything, because the minute you see who i realy am, you never want to look at me again.
“...but nobody knows what is wrong with themselves, and everyone else can see it ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right away.”
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is this an honour='qstn'>?
(a) better thug
so, one summer evening, I was wrong, ...
once when i was wrong...
thank you for that kind (of an) introduction
i like to make decorations for other people's work
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="trms">Instructions of Shuruppak
“In those days, in those far remote times, in those nights, in those faraway nights, in those years, in those far remote years.”
daftare bimani دفتر بیمعنی
hezar nokte هزار نکته
i can only stutter and telegraph you mutilated message
also i offer the hermeneutic of frustration so that we don't feel we have mastered or understood necessarily
janebe hagh ra gereftan جانب حق را گرفتن ='lgc'>==> hagh-be-janebi حقبهجانبی
safineye nadan سفینه نادن
safineye nadani سفینه نادانی
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Bettina's self almost entirely to be construed within the order of the will
(="ppl">Hillman='lgc'>:) Eros is always curiously weaker than the problem it must deal with. ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> logos is biger than its problem
="lstsrd">1. revolution='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the value ="trms">system
="lstsrd">2. reform='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the ="trms">social norm (hanjar هنجار) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> eslahat اصلاحات
="lstsrd">3. invention/noavari='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the ="trms">system/institution/sazman
="lstsrd">4. coup d'état='lgc'>: changing/disturbing the people/="trms">apparatus
(amal bar asase='lgc'>:) sonat='lgc'>: gozashte, diruz, anja, anha
گذشته
دیروز
phd='lgc'>: طرح مساله tarh-e masale ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> everything depends on the ways you pattern a niche, a site of strings that you and your collieges are cought long enough
="lsts lst1">•using texture, form, color
="lsts lst1">•using ="trms">embodiments
="lsts lst1">•using optics (in knowing) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> some ="trms">sort of distance, dis="trms">embodied seeing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> abstraction, figure,
carnal intellectuality
(intellectual carnality)
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locating ‘shur’ شور del-shur دل شوره (also shuridegi شوریدگی) to the place of the unkown other
so when one has fearful fantacies about others in foreign lands they are in ‘shur’ for them
(psychologically tethered phantasy of the “independent person”='lgc'>:)
='strcls'>**oral fixation ='lgc'>[everything depends on the duration of breast-feeding during the development of libido='lgc'>]='lgc'>:
in ="nms">Iranians='lgc'>: over-fed (more than 12 months) ='lgc'>==> dependency, needing stimulant
in Balkan='lgc'>: insufficiently fed ='lgc'>==> طلبکار و ناراضی talabkar narazi dissatisfied and manipulative (in need of oral stimulant ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> for example sarcasm) ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*narazi ='lgc'><='lgc'>~='lgc'>~='lgc'>='lgc'>--> tavagho’ توقع='strcls'>*='lgc'>]
(='lgc'>='lgc'>--> early experiences of ="trms">love bound up with various kinds of suffering, and later in adulthood one will look for familiar forms of suffering)
="lsts lst1">•oral fixation='lgc'>: everything related to pleasure ='lgc'>+ pain ='lgc'>+ security ='lgc'>+ sex are all bound together and located in the mouth
='strcls'>**anal fixation ='lgc'>[bowel and bladder control ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> focus of the libido='lgc'>: conflict of to pass or withhold='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> also a time person's ="trms">relationship with ="trms">authority is made. role of super-ego (parents) in toilet training. everything depends on what super-ego says about what you accomplish in the toilet (at the ages of 1 to 3) ='lgc'>==> creativity / khesasat='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•anal-retentive='lgc'>: to hold back ='lgc'>==> tidy, khasis (='lgc'>~ careful with money), and respectful to ="trms">authority
="lsts lst1">•anal-expulsive='lgc'>: relieved whenever in inappropriate times ='lgc'>==> sharing personality, give things away,
subjectivity is porous, flow of thoughts without a thinker, self is unnecessary
‘self’ is such an unnecessary ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphor for the process of awareness and knowing
the ="trms">question of “who/what am I='qstn'>?” is utterly boring
='lgc'>[title='lgc'>]
might suffer
="ppl">Freud's penis
ignoria
aghsa اقصا
far, farther, to send far, everywhere places, earth
(='lgc'>+ aknaf) ='lgc'>[virtual locality='lgc'>]
='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> maghsad مقصد (when aghsa overlapse the here and now)
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tamrin تمرین üben/training (bazi-e khatarnak) ='lgc'>=/=
tajrobe تجربه Erfahrung/experience (experience in accident ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/=> getting better at driving; or
fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/=> ="trms">science)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> zehniate shakhshi mobtani bar bardashthaye mobtani bar tajribe ذهنیت شخصی مبتنی بر برداشتهای مبتنی بر تجربه experiential subjectivity
="lsts lst1">•experience ='lgc'>==> personal perception
="lsts lst1">•train ='lgc'>==> ="trms">skill
taghirat va tahavolat-e donya ra az birun ba az bala negah kardan (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- we need more. ='lgc'>[by “we” i mean ="nms">iranians='lgc'>])
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="frds scrmbld">Lili's use of pre="trms">position or a conjunction “and” “or” ='lgc'>==> discourse marker
regarding the ="trms">system, to resist is much more ="trms">interesting than to ="trms">complain
i am worried (as adult) about X's death, because earlier (as ="trms">child) i have wished X's death
="trms">neurotic ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'><== controlling the ="trms">child (bokon nakon بکن نکن) ='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~> fear of punishment
="trms">neurotic ="trms">anxiety='lgc'>: unconscious fear that the ='strcls'>*libidinal impulses of the id='strcls'>* will take control (at an inopportune inappropriate time)
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شخصیت واقع بین shakhsiat vaghe bin='lgc'>: objectivity montabegh bar subjectivity ='lgc'>==> truth (in ="trms">science) ='lgc'>+ commitment based on (accepted) reality ='lgc'>[ta'ahod cannot be based on or created by mogheyiat, that means ="trms">situatedness cannot make us feel/care/hate/commit='lgc'>]
شخصیت موقع بین shakhsiat moghe’ bin='lgc'>: ="trms">situated subjectivity ='lgc'>[='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Haraway='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">situated objectivity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> commitment based on care='lgc'>]
موقعیت mogheyiat (="trms">situtation, circumstance, condition) ='lgc'>=/= واقعیت vagheyiat (reality)
(='qstn'>?one should) to live by vagheyiat, not mogheyiat
='lgc'>[i am educated to base research and knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge both on mogheyiat and on vagheyiat ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> crisis of ="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge in ="trms">interpersonal ="trms">relations='lgc'>: to feel about others based on mogheyiat/="trms">situation is a bad idea(='qstn'>?)='lgc'>]
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda='lgc'>: turning mogheyiat into vagheyiat
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