[...]es death drive and archive drive have to do with one another='qstn'>? destruction and archiving...
="prgrph">-girl with the red dancing shoes, undeadness of ="frds scrmbld">Laurent, wanting to see himself in the image of that which cannot be destroyed (!!), his unbearable ='strcls'>*nostalgia for a lost harmony='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[followed by ="frds scrmbld">Hoda and ="frds scrmbld">Arjang='lgc'>] (-is that why they negate ="trms">love='qstn'>? because they cannot ="trms">love but still want to be alive='lgc'>: ='lgc'>[the drive='lgc'>] to remain alive after they are dead)
(their ="trms">relation to the city night='lgc'>:) they drive, Trieb, ='lgc'>[in a ="ppl">Lacanian sense='lgc'>: all drives are partial to the death drive (because='lgc'>:)
="lstsrd">1- every drive pursues its own extinction
="lstsrd">2- every drive involves the subject in repetition
="lstsrd">3- every drive is an attempt to go beyond the pleasure principle, to the realm of ="trms">excess ='strcls'>*jouissance='strcls'>*(='lgc'>: enjoyment experienced as suffering ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Sana)='lgc'>]
(death drive ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= dying)='strcls'>*
with death drive we are at the dimension of the undead (spectral undeadness is the domain of the drive) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “horrible fate of being caught in the endless repetitive cycle of wandering around in guilt and pain”
(="ppl">Lacan='lgc'>:) deep inside they desire to return to the preoedipal fusion with the mother's breast (='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to ‘touch’ without ="trms">love, ‘will’ without desire)
‘death drive’ belongs to the suicidal tendency of (="trms">symbolic order of) ="trms">narcissism ='lgc'>: (turning ‘libido’ into a) re="trms">presentation of indestructible life
(in the ="trms">neurotic's fantasy of the subject with death drive) there is no connection with object ='lgc'><='lgc'>== object is defined as the Other's ="trms">demand ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> they have to ‘fuck’ them
="prgrph">-accourding to Zizek='lgc'>: there is only one drive='lgc'>: death drive, which is such sexualized

="ppl">Freud='lgc'>: “civilization='lgc'> = a reaction formation” (an effort to counter death drive)

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pedagogies of ="trms">affect and/or feeling ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Hoda
understanding, curating, and fomenting public feelings
political/="trms">aesthetic ="trms">imaginaries

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bache
بچه='lgc'>: (in ="ppl">Rumi) object sexy-erfani ابژه سکسی عرفانی



(="nms">iranians='qstn'>?) mix ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= tangle (='qstn'>?non="nms">iranians)


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motley
miscellaneous
="trms">lecture consisting of haphazard patchwork of sections
a ="trms">jester is usually dressed in motley
mexican garden='lgc'>: a model of motley and devotion, of rapt attention to the ="trms">birds it draws

what was the ="trms">imaginary homeland (='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= re="trms">membered homeland) for ="nms">Iranians='qstn'>?

“here, forms and shapes revel themselves through patient inquiry and the luxury of enough carried water to let you trace them.”



to think about X='lgc'> = to change X
we change the subject
we get some info='lgc'>: there are 5 people in the room. but when we bring that information into thought (because of how we feel and of our believes ='lgc'>='lgc'>==>) we start to bend the 5 to 6 or to 50 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a try to change the reality ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= thinking in calm condition using ="trms">science, information, conversation

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bipolar ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> mood disorder ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">relationship of the self with emotions
borderline ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> personality disorder ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">relationship of the self with the ="trms">world (of subjects)
="trms">narcissist ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> personality disorder ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">relationship of the ego with the ="trms">world

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people who grew up in ="nms">iran and former soviet countries ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> tajrobeye doganegi تجربه دوگانگی (they lived through contradictory experience) ='lgc'>='lgc'>='lgc'>=/=> settle down or grounded subejctivity ثبات sabat
“I like to ="trms">travel” ='lgc'>[='lgc'>~= escape from one's self گریز از خود goriz az khod ='lgc'>: need to be everywhere but here='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•zamineye sargardani بیقراری restlessness (='lgc'>='lgc'>~=> escape) ='lgc'>--sold='lgc'>='lgc'>--> nomadic
="lsts lst1">•zamineye narezayati نارضایتی dissatisfaction ='lgc'>--sold='lgc'>='lgc'>--> critical
="lsts lst1">•zamineye konjkavi کنجکاوی curiosity ='lgc'>--sold='lgc'>='lgc'>--> knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge
="lsts lst1">•zamineye majarajuyi ماجراجویی adventure ='lgc'>--sold='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">wonder

(a ='lgc'>[not always wanted='qstn'>?='lgc'>] form of relatedness in ="trms">interpersonal ="trms">relationships)
mentor ='lgc'>~= rahnama راهنما

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(when someone is) angry='lgc'> = ="trms">anxiety ='lgc'>+ depressed ='lgc'>+ obsessive–compulsive vasvasi ='lgc'>+ pessimist bad-bin ='lgc'>+ negative ='lgc'>+ offender motejavez
direct speech رک صریح  بی پرده rok sarih bi-parde harf zadan='lgc'> = saying the real and truth in the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right place that is necessary and almost an ="trms">obligation ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= parde-dari provocation

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note on the workshop of anarchive in Zsenne ="nms">apass summer 2018
(my issues with Manning's ="trms">presentation of) process philosophy ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a ="trms">system-builder mode of thinking ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*saying something (="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right) about every single thing at once='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-process philosophy puts forward the will and desire for “change,” therefore it developes a resistant to change (='qstn'>?)
="prgrph">-it tend to be a ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphysics without physics ='lgc'>[='qstn'>?!='lgc'>] (when a ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphysics provoke less ="trms">interest for ‘-physics’ and more for the ‘="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">meta-’ /and why is that a problem='qstn'>?) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ="ppl">="ppl">Barad is much more useful for me now='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-the real ="trms">question of the workshop remained “how to define what i like (such as ‘anarchive’) that it remains open at all time to the ‘more’ and ‘multi’='qstn'>?” ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- and they provide an elusive non-de="trms">finition of the term, impossible to pin down. because accourding to Manning when you pin down an idea/practice by its de="trms">finition it becomes “fixed,” and fixity is ="trms">categorically bad at all times ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- there is a desire to create a hygienic concept immune to corruption and hierarchy. Manning is alert to certain hierarchies ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> not acknowledging other hierarchies that precisely emerge out of that (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> preserve the ‘health’ of ='thdf'>the idea of anarchive. ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- maybe we need to let concepts rot='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> de="trms">compose='lgc'>])
Manning's elusiveness='lgc'>: (i have become hyper-conscious about qualities that endow in="trms">finite freedom of thought to human subjects...)
="lsts lst1">•elusive thought طفره (='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= volatile فرار) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Spiderman's mode of freedom (-you can never catch him ='lgc'>+ in="trms">finite flexibility ='lgc'>+ ) (the effect of Spiderman on himself is that his moves are “amazing”)
="lsts lst1">•elusive thought ='lgc'>~->='qstn'>? mystical
="lsts lst1">•elusive thought ='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= modest thought limited by curiosity
="lsts lst1">•
“hierarchy as the bad object” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==>
="lsts lst1">•to escape thinking about your own ="trms">agency (='thdf'>for example what your name and reputation does='qstn'>? what are the precise ="trms">responsible consequences of your particular ="trms">position='qstn'>? your ="trms">position involves not only the ="trms">book you ="trms">write or the argument you make, it involves also your name and reputation, the currency of your gender, your mode of charisma and ="trms">authority, your ="trms">affective ="trms">techniques, your ="trms">network enacted, and so on.)
="lsts lst1">•to escape naming the engineering talents and ="trms">skills that are necessary to assemble (for example the senseLab website)
="lsts lst1">•to escape ="trms">epistemological commitment (the ="trms">question of='lgc'>: ='strcls'>**how is my ="trms">vocabulary ="trms">crafted for whom='qstn'>?='strcls'>**)
="lsts lst1">•
it is not clear (but i can maybe guess about it, Manning's commitments are)='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•(learning from ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway='lgc'>:) what they have witnessed ='lgc'>[hierarchies='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==commit='lgc'>='lgc'>==> anti-archive='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•(learning from ="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>:) which bodies they care for ='lgc'>[the autists='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==commit='lgc'>='lgc'>==> elusive creativity='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•(learning from ="ppl">="ppl">Kenney='lgc'>:) where are their alliances پیوستگیها ='lgc'>[with multiculturalism='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==commit='lgc'>='lgc'>==> democracy's logos of ="trms">difference='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•(learning from ="ppl">Verran='lgc'>:) how their ="trms">="trms">equipments are ="trms">crafted ='lgc'>[by processual ="trms">="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metaphysics='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==commit='lgc'>='lgc'>==> in="trms">finity='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•(learning from ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart='lgc'>:) how their ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigor is built ='lgc'>[by conceptual description='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==commit='lgc'>='lgc'>==> non-habituality='lgc'>]

="large lg5" stl="font-size:152%"> (because of her immense intelligence she cannot be normal, but that doesn't mean she can prescribe normativity, and issue a command ='lgc'>[in terms of the “de-” or “anti-“='lgc'>] or order a claim of reality ='lgc'>[in terms of “an-” or “ab-“='lgc'>])

="prgrph">-Manning's “philosophy of event” (='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= multi="trms">species ethnography, i prefer working with the ="trms">animal idea, because there is no way you can make philosophy out of ="trms">animal, they always relentlessly ="trms">contingent and ="trms">historically ="trms">materially ="trms">specific)

="prgrph">-Manning's notion of impersonality ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ‘people are exchangble’ ='lgc'>+ ‘the work is what is important and not “you”’ ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*="trms">techniques of impersonality='strcls'>* has being used in sufism and ="nms">iranian mysticism. i have seen how the special effects of impersonality is used in political projects, making of soldiers, master-disciple ="trms">relationship, and so on
="prgrph">-look at the cool impersonality of the ="trms">scientific ="trms">language (depriving them of their own ideological status)
="prgrph">-early 19th century ="trms">modern public space was reinventing and operating with impersonality='lgc'>: individuals are ="trms">systematically habituated not to return the gaze of the other.
='lgc'>='lgc'>=/= i am actually very much attracted to persons. i am ="trms">interested in their personality. the “you” is what i fall in ="trms">love with, not the ‘abstract link'='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (Manning's) peripheral perceptivity ='lgc'>=/[...]