[...]can't spin out as kind of rouge and solitary satellite that no one can connect with. i have to make the connections, in a ="trms">world that is having debates and discursive encounters around my themes. i am ='strcls'>*in conversation='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">responding, quoting, tuning,) standing up for myself and my text, “fake it till you make it,” yes i need to re="trms">narcissize and build up, at this phase towards the end i need to perform being assertive and show what i have brought to the table, and if i don't know that then i ask someone to tell me what have i done='qstn'>? where does it belong='qstn'>? how can i ="trms">situate myself='qstn'>?

8th='lgc'>: sleep-walk, don't look down, don't wake myself up, don't ask why i am doing this

9th='lgc'>: (problematically ="ppl">Deleuzian='lgc'>:) ='strcls'>*becoming woman='strcls'>*! (for ="ppl">Deleuze) all ="trms">writing involves you (no ="trms">matter how you are gendered or constructed or what you think you are) in becoming woman, which is to say the experience of a powerful sub="trms">mission and the ability to carry off the disappearance of ="trms">agency or ego kick, subjecting oneself (to the other) before becoming subject.
='lgc'>[(="ppl">="ppl">Hayward) woman='lgc'>: vibratory being='lgc'>: sensation ='lgc'><='lgc'>~='lgc'>~(creative-="trms">response)='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~> environment='lgc'>]

زن شو

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wunderkammer, cabinet of curiosities, is about the ="trms">world unfinished

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the prefixial ="trms">nature of ‘trans-’ ='lgc'>: across, into, through ='lgc'>: a pre="trms">positional force
Trans='strcls'>* foregrounds and intensifies the prehensile (گیرکننده), prefixial (pishvandi پیشوندی) ="trms">nature of ‘trans-’ and implies a suffixial (pasvandi پسوندی) space of attachment that is ="trms">simultaneously ="trms">generalizable and abstract yet its function can be enacted only when taken up by particular objects (="ppl">="ppl">Hayward ='and'>& ="ppl">Weinstein)
trans='strcls'>* (pre="trms">positionally oriented) “is the process through which thingness and beingness are constituted” ='lgc'>[...='lgc'>] “marking the ‘with,’ ‘through,’ ‘of,’ ‘in,’ and ‘across’ that make life possible”
="lsts lst1">•="trms">materializes pre="trms">positional movements

the ‘human on board’ no longer possesses critical purchase, it no longer “delineates a normative standard of legibility,” “the elite status of being considered fully human” (how is it in ="nms">ajayeb='qstn'>?)
(biopolitics of) de-, in-, non-, trans-

a ‘turn’ (= a cause to move, a ="trms">difference in ="trms">position ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> a change in ="trms">nature) enables creatures to migrate from the margins to the center of theoretical ="trms">interrogatives

="ppl">="ppl">Haraway prefering (the energetic expressive capacity of) ‘with’ over ‘and’
="prgrph">-syntactical problem of ‘and’ raised to the power of n
="prgrph">-she puts the emphasis on with-ness ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to reinvigorate (tajdide niru تجدید نیرو) attention to ="trms">materiality but also ="trms">matter's ="trms">contingent force ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">intersectional ="trms">demands of assemblage
“and...and...and”
trans, speciating ="trms">technology, the drive for suffixial endpoints


(pre="trms">positional operations on suffixiated) assemblages of spacetime="trms">matterings


='strcls'>**** terrible violence is directed to the non-existing, the never having existed


‘='strcls'>*’ (the asterisk) is paratactic (faghede ravabet فاقد روابط) (='lgc'>=/= conjunction,) it designates multiplication, it repurposes, displaces, renames, replicates, and intensifies terms, adding yet more texture, increased vitalization
="prgrph">-it is a ="trms">sensuous node
="prgrph">-making (my points) a com="trms">posite of ="trms">affects and percepts ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> speciation is always a cultivated ="trms">response ='strcls'>***

='strcls'>*="trms">trap='lgc'>: “means also mouth, or mode of utterance; it is the “O” curve of lips and throat that makes sounds phonic and names the apprehension of becoming bodily. A ="trms">trap, in weaving, is also a break in the th="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reads, an unraveling, loosening, unwinding that opens up space. When we think of spider webs, ="trms">trap is a silk net, a sticky mesh that registers sensation. For the spider, its ="trms">trap is its nearby-ness, its where-ness, its with-ness. ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure;='lgc'>] (="ppl">="ppl">Hayward ='and'>& ="ppl">Weinstein)
="prgrph">-how, then, might we hear the phrase “="trms">trapped in the wrong body” as less about authenticity (fixity and normativity) than about ='strcls'>*textures of spacetime='strcls'>* (prefixial movements)='qstn'>?

='lgc'>[harkate johari حرکت جوهری ='lgc'>='lgc'>~/=='qstn'>? harkate pishvandi حرکت پیشوندی='lgc'>]._/'='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">="ppl">Sadra


(="ppl">Susan ="ppl">Stryker warns) that transsexuals, in their capacity to be ="trms">monstrous, arise, like Frankenstein's creature, from the operating tables of their (re)birth as “something more, and something other” than their medical service providers may have intended or ="trms">imagined
more ='and'>& other ='lgc'>=/= with ='and'>& of


='strcls'>*gender='lgc'>: ="trms">sociopoliical taxomomizing ="trms">ontologically distinct form (entwined) with enfleshed ="trms">mattering


='strcls'>*="trms">animality='lgc'>: ="trms">sensuous ="trms">materialities, com="trms">posites of ="trms">affects and percepts, ="trms">specificities but remain thresholds of emergence, individuation that prompt ="trms">sensuous ="trms">intra- and ="trms">interchange ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> provocations

(Weaver, Kelley, ="ppl">Weinstein, ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward, Kier, Franklin='lgc'>:) ="trms">animal ="trms">difference announces a radically singular Other marked by sexual ="trms">differences

“trans-infused apprehensions and engagements with the expansive ="trms">world of possibility opened up by non-="trms">anthropocentric perspectives.”


trans='strcls'>* ='lgc'>+ ="trms">animal ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (alternative ways of envisioning) futures of='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">embodiment
="lsts lst1">•="trms">aesthetics
="lsts lst1">•biopolitics
="lsts lst1">•climates
="lsts lst1">•ethics


we have to negotiate the ='lgc'>[contaminated concept of='lgc'>] human ='lgc'>--(to deal with)='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the persistence of humanism in structures of thought


critical ="trms">animal studies has(='qstn'>?) the transformative power to ="trms">interrupt humanism and its sexually ="trms">differentiated legacy by challenging the boundaries between, and existence of, ="trms">differentiated, essential kinds.

robust, nondua="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listic theories of human/="trms">animal

Critical Life Studies
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*="trms">species panic='strcls'>* (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- the concept of the homosexual panic defense) ='lgc'>{androids='lgc'>: ="trms">species ='lgc'>+ trans ="trms">embodiment='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>**genuine ="trms">animals='strcls'>** ="trms">transitivity='lgc'>: “shifting ="trms">positions on a series of spectrums, where human, ="trms">animal, and machine bleed into one another” ='lgc'>[="ppl">Huebert='lgc'>]='lgc'>--='lgc'>{"it”='lgc'>: ex="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusive ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right of gendered pronouns='lgc'>--"it” ascribed to artificial ="trms">animals and androids ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the distinction between “genuine” and “inauthentic”; “it” leaves us in a perpetual ="trms">species panic='lgc'>}
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*="trms">animal ="trms">symbolic='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigin of the construction of the human located in sexual ="trms">difference ='lgc'>[="ppl">Nurka='lgc'>]
it seems with ‘human’ one always spring inexorably back to sex ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sexual ="trms">difference and its o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rigins in the problematic of ="trms">difference
="prgrph">-individuating ="trms">difference ='lgc'>='lgc'>==>='qstn'>? pre="trms">positional singularities='lgc'>--the potentialities to differ that are not yet stabilized into the ="trms">categories of an individual
='lgc'>[="ppl">Nurka > ="ppl">Colebrook='lgc'>] concept of “="trms">transitive in="trms">difference” transforms the self/other pairing beyond the ="trms">demands of recognition and ="trms">relation ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (all-too-often) ="trms">animal ="trms">difference serves to secure human sameness ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= ouroboros ="trms">abyssal ="trms">beastliness='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">ontological ="trms">difference serves only to erect man as the being for whom “the ="trms">world is nothing more than the arena whereby he recognizes his proper ="trms">difference,”
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>*="trms">animal ="trms">techne='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>~='lgc'>~='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Jackass ='and'>& ="trms">Wildboyz ='lgc'>: ="trms">animality is ="trms">viscerally, painfully, and transformatively encountered or enacted by the human body ='lgc'>[="ppl">Seymour='lgc'>], sliding down the ="trms">animacy hierarchy ='lgc'>[="ppl">Chen='lgc'>], ="trms">gesturing toward various ="trms">interconnected trans-(="trms">species) corporalities performed in (Critical Life Studies texts and) ="trms">Wildboyz (='lgc'>=/= elite status of human) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (="ppl">="ppl">Barad's) ethics of ="trms">mattering ='lgc'>: connections of human and nonhuman life always al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready taking place on bodies='strcls'>*****


transdisciplinarity='lgc'>: a self-adaptive complexity ='lgc'>[...='lgc'>] foreground='lgc'>[ing='lgc'>] the transduction of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge as it passes across and between the ="trms">interpretive and ="trms">methodological planes of ="trms">composing knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge. (="ppl">Katie ="ppl">King)

“distributed being and cognition”

...attendant mammalian attachment

individuating in="trms">difference

(="trms">anthropo="trms">cene's iteration of the) expansionist logic of manifest destiny

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="prgrph">-="trms">situated knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges (="ppl">="ppl">Haraway)
="prgrph">-trans-knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges (="ppl">="ppl">Hayward)

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]trans- ='lgc'>: ='strcls'>*promise of moving across without holding tightly to the locations that it is moving from='strcls'>*, crossing of spacetime, a movement within ="trms">relationship ='lgc'>[='lgc'>='lgc'>~/=='qstn'>? in="trms">heritance, the experience of being tied to a long string that is stretching and is connected to somewhere='lgc'>]
coalitional thinking='lgc'> = trans-knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge ='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= ='mywrk'>my work='lgc'>: heuristic ='lgc'>+ trans-) a thought here, then a reflection, perhaps a ="trms">question that prompts another ="trms">story, and probably a walk full of pointing and talking, walking on scales ='lgc'>[on bur="trms">dens and atrocities of abundance='lgc'>] (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> I use='lgc'>:) ="trms">translation, trans="trms">figuration, transformation, trans-="trms">differentiation, transcription
="prgrph">-what happens to knowing when it is crossing, trans- ="trms">materializes that process of movements, ='strcls'>*marks the where-ness of with-ness='strcls'>*

my ="trms">stories of getting to know one another and recognizing af="trms">finities in ="nms">apass

environmental injustices always play themselves on bodies of knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges and ="trms">histories as well

="prgrph">-how does my ="trms">lectures, a heuristic way of knowing through trans-, could or should “provide insights” into injustices and inequalities='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-how i have, as an ="nms">iranian or foreigner, ="trms">differently marked body and ="trms">history entry points into understanding and acting on problems='qstn'>?


neritic
oceanic
benthic

minute biota
micro-viruses, bacteria, and endless cycles of decay and regeneration
...the water formed nearly three billion years ago
pulsing temporalities...

(you and things are) surprise ='lgc'>=/= accident

dispossessions. dislocations. disease. greed. racism.
the always-limited, limiting promise of prosperity

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]racism='lgc'>: an environmental catastrophe, toxic by-product of the industry called racial thinking and un-thinking (the fantasy attached to what race is thought to be), a deadly ambivalence or refusal to see how race is at work in our lives
="prgrph">-humanness not yet available to all humans

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]posthumanism (and its tools of “becoming ="trms">animal” as effects of power ="trms">writing about itself)='lgc'>: privilege of having been human ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a racing, sexing, and classing ethos that cannot see itself as such
= a pretense of not al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready understanding humanness as a trans-, re-, and de="trms">composing
(="ppl">="ppl">Hayward asking='lgc'>:) how can we talk about posthumanism (in 2014) ='strcls'>*it is not that we have made humanness a more available ="trms">category in sixty years, but that those whose humanness was al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready certain (say, white, able-bodied, men) are in the luxurious ="trms">position of sloughing off their humanity='strcls'>* (-fuck!)
='lgc'>}='lgc'>=/= trans-="trms">differentiations, de-="trms">composings='lgc'>[='lgc'>~ marks the loss of ="trms">composure, of control ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> exposes the com="trms">posite shape of life. to de-="trms">compose is the promise we must keep -="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>]


racialization of ="trms">ecological crises (='qstn'>?)
(pollutions felt by who='qstn'>? -the poor, the ="trms">birds,)


the old tradition of seeing yourself that unwelcomed alienated guest on the earth (آمدنم بهر چه بود)

planetary accountability

(='at'>@artists, when and how you are) moved to a closer look='strcls'>**
horrified, disgusted, and drawn in

="ppl">="ppl">Hayward='lgc'>: what would an ardently ="trms">materia="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list eco-critical race politics look like='qstn'>?
='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= toward ="trms">materiality='lgc'>: bumptious liveliness of ="trms">matter ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> to deracinate life, to depoliticize ="trms">worldliness='lgc'>]

to host a guest='lgc'>: an ethics of care, a willingness to remain open to a guest without anticipation or expectation
(hospital =) alter the equation of hostile to hostel. Is this what is meant by hospitality='qstn'>?

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="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo's angry and productive underbelly
="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo's take on honesty='lgc'>: real and raw

(gar="trms">dens are full of) grotesqueness and splendor, death and life, delicacy and treachery, softness and sting

transgenerational
regenerations

liminal='lgc'>: a threshold without a value, a doorway without assurance

that false divide between life and death (somebody animating it)


(="frds scrmbld">Eszter's lace-like ="trms">interiors)


loss ='lgc'>==shapes='lgc'>='lgc'>==> our ="trms">relationship to the living (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Jassem)

(='strcls'>*ambivalence of loss and re="trms">membering='strcls'>* in the) melancholic calculus of the archive='lgc'>: “what is lost can become what is preserved as part of the self”
="prgrph">-as an environment sickens and dies we harbor the loss

(hope ='lgc'>=/= salvation)

...learning a new grammar of ="trms">animacy (with ="ppl">="ppl">Hayward)

“='lgc'>[...='lgc'>]="trms">memories of ="trms">excess and delight, freaks, f="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right, and exploitations. Too much sugar. Surprise. And disappointment. Larger than life. Grotesque. Al="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">luring. Captivating. Calling. Their juxta="trms">position in this contradictory scape of sea, desert, and mountains='lgc'>--surreal”

(the mer-creature) a living con="trms">densation and displacement of what people ="trms">imagined as real

...how little is needed to prompt the ="trms">imagination='lgc'>: paint, wheels, and wood.

(US/Mexico or land/ocean borders...) a space about who and what cannot move, of who and what falls apart, or of who and what is lost

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(the ="trms">inter- and trans-action of) learning, playing and thought



in ="nms">ajayeb what are the='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">animacy hierarchies (='lgc'>--="ppl">Chen)
="lsts lst1">•exposed and transparent conditions of possibility (='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Hayward) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> becomings and assemblages
="lsts lst1">•="trms">ontological fixities
="lsts lst1">•enactment of large-scale fantasies (='lgc'>--="ppl">Chen)
="lsts lst1">•


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(="ppl">Mehran Rad) on description of spring
kofr کفر ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “="trms">nature” (tabi'at طبيعت) ='lgc'><-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> bahar بهار ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> bot-khane بت خانه
Manuchehri='lgc'>: نوبهار آمد و آورد گل و یاسمنا باغ همچون تبت و راغ بسان عدنا http://ganjoor.net/manoochehri/divanm/ghaside-ghete/sh1/
="ppl">Hafez='lgc'>: کنون که در چمن آمد گل از عدم به وجود بنفشه در قدم او نهاد سر به سجود http://ganjoor.net/hafez/ghazal/sh219/
='lgc'>=/= durdastha دوردستها, beyonds

donya دنیا ='lgc'><='lgc'>='lgc'>--> gozar گذر
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? ="trms">materia="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list

="ppl">Nezami='lgc'>:
بهاری داری ازوی بر خور امروز که هر فصلی نخواهد بود نوروز
گلی کو را نبوید آدمی زاد چو هنگام خزان آید برد باد


(ruse, san'at صنعت ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) hile حیله ='lgc'>=/= sho'bade شعبده (shab-bazi شب بازی, neyrang نیرنگ,)


lahn-haye jahan
لحنهای جهان

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(feral='qstn'>?) table of contents
how we know that contents are tabled at all='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> in="trms">heritances of taxonomy, ="trms">natural philosophies ="trms">aesthetics='lgc'>: tamed facts
='at'>#="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">Rigs, my ="nms">ajayeb diagrams

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="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">histories (='lgc'>~ ="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">historically ="trms">situated ="trms">relational ="trms">worldings) ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">societies of individuals in human-only ="trms">histories (='lgc'>~ ="ppl">Euclidean figures and ="trms">stories of Man)

(which ="trms">network is='qstn'>?) a netbag for collecting up what is crucial for ongoing

="large lg14" stl="font-size:123%"> ="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">technotheocratic geoengineering ='lgc'>[, it “fixes” some common ="trms">imaginations the “affairs of life,” and not ="trms">specifically the “afterlife,” (within the ='lgc'>{terminology ='lgc'>~='lgc'>} figural-conceptual powers of ="trms">syms and ="trms">material-="trms">semiotic time-space of the Indo-Greco-Arab-Turko-Persian terra taxa)='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•periods of time
="lsts lst1">•“known” life
="lsts lst1">•abode (budgah بودگاه, Wohnplatz)
="lsts lst1">•donya دنيا


="prgrph">-="trms">stories that focus on com="trms">position rather than intrusion
="prgrph">-="trms">stories that focus on ="trms">ongoingness rather than game-over

(="ppl">="ppl">Haraway > ="ppl">="ppl">Stengers > ="ppl">="ppl">Latour > ="ppl">="ppl">Margulis) Gaia, to name complex nonlinear couplings between processes that ="trms">compose and sustain entwined but nonadditive sub="trms">systems as a partially cohering ="trms">systemic whole

planet-transforming, ="trms">historically ="trms">situated, new-enough, ="trms">worlding ="trms">relations

(="trms">systematic ="trms">stories are linked) ="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">metabolisms, ="trms">articulations, coproductions
(they must also be) ="trms">relational, ="trms">sympoietic, consequential


myth-="trms">systems (are set-ups)
(a deadly one='lgc'>: “Man ='lgc'>+ Tool ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ="trms">history”)


names ='lgc'>=/= faces (='lgc'>~ ="trms">morphs of the same)

a thousand names of something else

="large lg10" stl="font-size:105%"> (what ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway is naming with) compound-eyed insectile and many-armed optics

="large lg3" stl="font-size:110%"> winged domains
="trms">bird-bodies

(="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's spider and) my ="nms">ajayeb's snake='lgc'>: tasks of thinking, figuring, and ="trms">storytelling
='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> heady facial re="trms">presentation; ='lgc'>[="frds scrmbld">Luisa also dislikes this='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•figure of snake (circular serpent) is ="nms">ajayeb Persian sf ="trms">worlding, has ties with the ="trms">Greek Chthonis (“of the earth,”) is at the same time the image of the continuity of life and the ="trms">abyssal moral (eating your end, no gag reflex)='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{Gildas Hamel='lgc'>: “the ="trms">abyssal and elemental forces before they were astralized by chief gods and their tame committees"='lgc'>}

“many critters acoss taxa” (juju جوجو ='lgc'>+ rade رده)

(I dispute ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's notion of “sacred.” popular ="trms">religion is at many times populated by earthly figures alongside many astralized destructive ="trms">finitudes.)

="large lg4" stl="font-size:110%"> ="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's urgently needed Chthulu="trms">cene ="trms">story


='lgc'>[="ppl">Miyazaki's='lgc'>] biodiverse terra ='lgc'>[God flips out='lgc'>] into something very slimy, like any overstressed complex adaptive ="trms">system at the end of its abilities to absorb insult after insult. (="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's wording)

(yes yes we are all ultimately connected to one anot[...]