[...]/>
="lsts lst1">•
in ="trms">situations where feelings are shared or are in common (which is usually the case in the environments that I am involved with,) how do I usually play a role='qstn'>? ='lgc'>==> (re)location of ="trms">responsibility
self-ex="trms">="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusion
to make ="nms">Iran or India or Germany happy “in bed”
(='at'>@="frds">Sina) ='strcls'>*what ever there is in the hear and now, it does not mean you do not have to rebel or not get into trouble.
idio="trms">syncratic likes (or dislikes) ='lgc'>=/= jouissance
="large lg2" stl="font-size:112%">
="ppl">Ahmed ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading many ="trms">narratives of freedom, in which an in="trms">difference is “directed” as the apparent gift of freedom (, father becomes in="trms">different to what her daughter does as long as it makes her happy) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the unhappy objects of ="trms">difference
fantasies of proximity (in sense8 TV series) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> if only we could be closer, we would be as one
the happiness of the characters of sense8 is the promise of “the one”
="display:block;white-space:nowrap;margin-bottom:-1em;overflow:hidden;">...................................
how to learn to ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read the discursive practices of being of ="nms">ajayeb='qstn'>? the ways each being proposes its own (or another's) changing ="trms">geometry and topology, their boundary-drawing practices, their ="trms">differential productions, and how each being makes sense of its ="trms">world
="prgrph">-(the ="trms">authors and beings of ="nms">ajayeb,) what are their capacity to discern the reality of their (="trms">relational) ="trms">nature='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-how their determinate ="trms">position (in their ="trms">relational ="trms">nature) is or may be (usefully) (con)figured as ='strcls'>*="trms">specific connectivity='strcls'>*='qstn'>? ='lgc'>[the ="trms">question of ="trms">specific connectivites of ="nms">ajayeb='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> this requires from me ="trms">poetics='lgc'>: diffractive descriptive acts
="prgrph">-what are the ="nms">ajayeb's beings and mine ="trms">intertwined practices of knowing and being='qstn'>?
the ="trms">agential cut of the brittlestar is a survival kit='lgc'>: the arm is “cut” and becomes part of the other (predator)
="ppl">="ppl">Barad is ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading the brittlestar to rework (challenge conventional conceptions of) her discipline's ="trms">ontologies and boundaries ='lgc'>=/= ="trms">scientist's usual frame of application and amusement of “discovery” that feeds ="trms">technological advancement, “the ex="trms">citement and romantic overtones that inevitably accompany the ="trms">story of the ="trms">scientist as explorer breaking into new frontiers” (="ppl">="ppl">Barad)
(="trms">embodiment='lgc'>='lgc'>-->) ='strcls'>*bodies are not ="trms">situated in the ="trms">world. They are ‘of’ the ="trms">world (in its dynamic ="trms">specificity)='strcls'>* (="ppl">="ppl">Barad) (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Femke)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]objectivity
='lgc'>=/= occupying a determinate ="trms">position in a given environment
='lgc'>=/= occupying a particular coordinates in space and time, in culture, and in ="trms">history
='lgc'>=/= seeing from somewhere ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= “objectivism” (view from nowhere) or “everywhere” (relativism)='lgc'>]
='lgc'>=/=
(like ="ppl">="ppl">Barad's brittlestars) which ="nms">ajayeb's being's bodily dynamism resists (or constructs) the familiar notion that space is preexisting container='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•space='lgc'>: a ="trms">stage on which actors take their place
="lsts lst1">•time='lgc'>: the mere uniform ticking of clock
(how ="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">worlding is similar or ="trms">different than the familiar notion of ="ppl">Shakespeare's “="trms">world is a ="trms">stage...”='qstn'>?)
='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Barad, ="trms">poet of ="trms">matter, time and space:='lgc'>] “="trms">Matter does not move in space and time. ="trms">Matter ="trms">materializes and dynamically en="trms">folds ="trms">different spatialities and temporalities.”='strcls'>*
='strcls'>*there is only exteriority within='strcls'>*
='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> models that ="trms">position re="trms">presentation as the lens that mediates between the object ="trms">world and the mind of the knowing subject ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (an optics that reflects) a ="trms">geometry of absolute exteriority between ="trms">ontologically and ="trms">epistemologically distinct kinds ='lgc'>=/= ="nms">ajayeb's diffractive ="trms">differential ="trms">materializations
perhaps that arm that got detached from you, could have a chance of not becoming a jettison ="nms">phantom limb forever haunting the missing amputated ‘you,’ rather, a part of “companion ="trms">species being helping out”='qstn'>? ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*connectivity does not require physical contiguity='strcls'>* (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa's string “theory”)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*="nms">phantom limb='strcls'>* (a concept every theorist/artist should take ="trms">seriously), in ="ppl">Descartes='lgc'>: used as an illustration of the deception to which the inner senses are prone.
“fossil images,” persistence of pathological ex="trms">citation to the peripheral nerves. (the condition of ‘amputees’ for the one who re-="trms">members and builds archives for his phantasmatically lost limb) ='strcls'>*="trms">imaginary loss of a penis='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a “tool” for a recovery of what was “always al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready” missing ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">Freud='lgc'>: libidinal ="trms">memorial to the lost limb (='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Elen's kind of mourning for preoedipal (='lgc'>='lgc'>~= precastrated) body, and her (erroneous) localization of it on the motorbike)
="ppl">Grosz='lgc'>: “It is only through controlled use of the phantom that the artificial limb can (gradually) take the place of the lost limb”
='at'>#="nms">body image='lgc'>]
="trms">ecologies of reflection and diffraction ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> resolution of ="trms">nature
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]diffraction='lgc'>: an effect that limits the ability of a lens (or a ="trms">system of lenses) ='strcls'>*to resolve an image='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•(to evolve a creative tension,) a trade-off, between the resolution of detail and diffraction effects, between ="trms">geometrical and physical optics
="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">ecologies mixed (less of) reflection and (much more of) diffraction, are taken from a yet not detachments of the experience of ="trms">phenomena and the ="trms">apparatuses of its description, of percepts and ="trms">affects
='at'>#my findings of com="trms">posites of ="nms">ajayeb='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">animals varying number of legs ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">animal ='lgc'>+ movement
="lsts lst1">•fantastic creatures ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">animal ='lgc'>+ environment ='lgc'>+ ="trms">affect
="lsts lst1">•="trms">fable ="trms">poetics ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">animal ='lgc'>+ ="trms">apparatus of description
="lsts lst1">•tentative ="trms">citationality ='lgc'>[other name of “="trms">rumor”='qstn'>?='lgc'>] ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> nonhuman ='lgc'>+ human ="trms">relational ="trms">histories
="lsts lst1">•re="trms">membering is an extremely creative (& ="trms">imaginative) practice
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ongoing, open-ended ="trms">articulation of the ="trms">world (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ='mywrk'>my work on ="nms">ajayeb)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> these are the diffraction patterns in ="nms">ajayeb that are (artistically, politically, ethnically) significant for me (='qstn'>?)
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> these are instances of resistance against bio="trms">mimesis in ="nms">ajayeb (='qstn'>?) ='lgc'>[bio="trms">mimesis is involved with mirroring, imitation, or reflection, and other ="trms">tropes of “sameness"='lgc'>] ='lgc'>=/= trans-="trms">materialities of the creatures of the ="trms">world, they transgress the sacrosanct divides between ="trms">techne and ="trms">episteme
(many creatures of our shared ="trms">world have) evolved in ="trms">intra-action with their environment, and old ="trms">bestiaries, such as ="nms">ajayeb, critically inhabit a mode of description and ="trms">affect ="trms">situated within the ="trms">intra-activity of ="trms">technologies of ="trms">writing and perception
="lsts lst1">•the creatures of the mud know better not to get caught up in a “="trms">geometrical optics of knowing”
we are seeking a ="trms">different genus of knowing ='lgc'>=/= mediating machine, inscription devices, lenses, panopticons, and various other ="trms">epistemological tools that many ="trms">science studies and cultural studies scholars fancy. (is that also what ="frds scrmbld">Marialena fancies='qstn'>? her ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list of tools)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]intelligibility='lgc'>: an ="trms">ontological performance of the ="trms">world in its ongoing ="trms">articulation
not a ="trms">specifically human capacity, intelligibility does not require an (usually human) inttelective ="trms">agent
="large lg1" stl="font-size:119%">
the problem with design is that designers (as well as ="trms">scientists and engineers) are busy with building ‘enhanced ="trms">communication ="trms">networks’ and principles of ‘usefulness’, in the way they relate to the “forms” of ="trms">nature
='strcls'>*connections and commitments (come together)='strcls'>*
the copy="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right ="trms">symbol © should be a sign not of the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right to copy but, if anything, of the ="trms">responsibilities entailed in producing ="trms">differential ="trms">materialization (for whom and at what costs='qstn'>?)='strcls'>*
="ppl">="ppl">Barad ='heart'>♥
(brittlestar, the plant in my room, ="nms">ajayeb's creatures,) ...their being is a flexible distributed growing and regenerating multi-oriented shape-shifting topologically variant dynamical ="trms">system of diffraction gratings
(="trms">rhetoric of) re-="trms">veiling, which provokes the seeming need for a revealing of ="trms">nature
entanglement ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> inseparability ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> spatially separated particles in an entangled state do not have separate identities
there is no epmirical evidence of such a disjunction ="trms">ontologies at a particular scale, “micro-="trms">world” and “macro-="trms">world”
who insists on “quarantining quantum queerness”='qstn'>?
quarantining scale and time
quarantining ="ppl">="ppl">Sadra to “his” time, or ="nms">ajayeb to an older another temporality, and therefore irrelevant for us “today”
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]scale='lgc'>: ="trms">intra-actively (re)configured in the ongoing ="trms">intra-active becoming on space-time-="trms">mattering
="display:block;white-space:nowrap;margin-bottom:-1em;overflow:hidden;">...................................
Khezr and San'an, the most repeated points of reference in ="nms">tasavof
like you, ="ppl">Hafez, full of struggle, sensation, ="trms">love,
our resistance and breakdance
(="ppl">Mehran Rad='lgc'>:) ="ppl">Hafez preferences on ="trms">Farsi over ="ppl">Arabic='lgc'>:
Deir دیر / Some'e صومعه
="nms">Pir پیر / Sheikh شیخ
Parsa پارسا / Zahed زاهد
Parishan پریشان / Tafraghe تفرقه
moshtaghe bandegi مشتاق بندگی
(='lgc'>~='qstn'>? the advanced level of) ‘wannabe slave’
="display:block;white-space:nowrap;margin-bottom:-1em;overflow:hidden;">...................................
the d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous suffixial ="trms">worlders, prehensile adjective-builder, ="trms">natural-inhabitant-makers of “-ian” or “-i” or “-isch” to the name of a nation/country ='lgc'>==> ="nms">Iranian, Afgani, etc. ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> makes subjects
in the case of the podcast https://soundcloud.com/norient/afghanistan-sucht-seine-musikalische-identitat-podcast ="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">listen to the way the ="trms">story of the Afgani music is told by norient (“music in the globe”, “multi-modally”) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">articulation of western human ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">rights ='and'>& dis="trms">articulation of other ="trms">ecology of ="trms">stories
='lgc'>=/= Charles Amirkhanian radio programm Ode to Gravity
="display:block;white-space:nowrap;margin-bottom:-1em;overflow:hidden;">...................................
the protector of spiders who dies by the bite of a spider
="prgrph">-susceptible bodies entagled in ="trms">networks of care, life and death, that are not always harmonious to popular ="trms">narratives of nonviolence
="display:block;white-space:nowrap;margin-bottom:-1em;overflow:hidden;">...................................
="nms">ajayeb='lgc'>: mythoepic ="trms">literature in ="trms">translation from a Middle Persian corpus
="prgrph">-when i say ‘Middle Persian corpus’ what i actually mean is a shared ="trms">world of ritual, ="trms">religion, and mythology between ="nms">Iranian, Urdu, Turkish, Zoroastrianism in ="nms">Iran and Vedic Hinduism in India, Indo-European in="trms">heritance in ancient ="nms">Iranian culture, South-Southeast Asian ="trms">literatures, ="trms">translations and transcreations (and trans="trms">literation) of ="trms">stories (prose, ="trms">poetry, drama, epic, ="trms">jokes, parables, figures ='lgc'>[that are not always part of the canon='lgc'>], the irreverent بى ادب, ) in Indian and Southeast Asian contexts,
my project is about learning the ‘how’ of cultivating the ability to fruitfully approach texts from ="trms">different cultures and ="trms">pasts
="prgrph">-(to study) the radical ="trms">poetic force of the Persian texts='lgc'>--in ="nms">ajayeb
="prgrph">-to become enhanced and enchanted in ="trms">skills of ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading wider ranges of ="trms">linguistic registers
="prgrph">-to open up an approach to a dauntingly complex region of islamicated thought (not the ideological enterprise of “Islam”, which is usually badly politicized in the ="trms">historical ="trms">memory of the West. we could get ="trms">interested in the economics of corruption and ="trms">technologies of rule, the evolution of government bureaucracies and classificatory schemes, anti-colonial critique,)
="nms">ajayeb is on the side of counter-classical traditions of standard Muslem-ness, and its less elite ="trms">histories and cultural forms,
(intellectual identity='lgc'>:)
cross-dresser of the order
autodidact odds
sufis, merchants, nomads, ="trms">poets, pilgrims, smugglers, laborers,
="trms">religious identity, ="trms">religious knowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge, ="trms">religious violence,
medieval persian mysticism='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•oral, temporal ="trms">nature of speech
="lsts lst1">•speaking I to the unknown and unknowable Other
="lsts lst1">•the discourse of ="trms">love
="lsts lst1">•apophatic discourse ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='qstn'>? politically subversive
="lsts lst1">•="trms">linguistic fragmentation, ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges of meaning
="lsts lst1">•
="display:block;white-space:nowrap;margin-bottom:-1em;overflow:hidden;">...................................
="trms">dense and textured ="trms">stories
(generativity is fueled by) ="trms">densely felt textures
="trms">worlding of the place='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•the ="trms">material, sensory labor of attending to an emergent and enduring hum
="lsts lst1">•the force of things amassed of ="nms">phantom limbs
="lsts lst1">•actual residue of people “making something of things”
direct ="trms">materiality of people's shared sense='lgc'> = attending to what is happening
a racist violence in the dark
a space of con="trms">densed displacement
watching things arrive in the company of others
='strcls'>*nameable clarities='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•family
="lsts lst1">•friendship
="lsts lst1">•="trms">love
="lsts lst1">•collapse
="lsts lst1">•="trms">laughing
="lsts lst1">•telling ="trms">stories
="lsts lst1">•violence
="lsts lst1">•place
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> all atmospherics='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>: forms of attending to what's happening, sensing out, accreting attachments and detachments, ="trms">differences and in="trms">differences, losses and proliferating possibilities. ='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Stewart='lgc'>]
(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart's) curious pause to ="trms">wonder ='strcls'>*what analytic objects ="trms">matter='strcls'>* in the singularity of a ="trms">situation and what forms of ="trms">writing and thinking might approach them='strcls'>****
="prgrph">-experimenting with forms of theory and ="trms">writing that are ="trms">responsive to the moving objects they are trying to trace or highlight or escape, or whatever ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#number of legs in ="nms">ajayeb ='lgc'>{
="lsts lst1">•trying to describe what is happening in little ="trms">animal moments, s="trms">cenes
="lsts lst1">•(the ="trms">writers of ="nms">ajayeb trying to) explore the intensity and plasticity of lived com="trms">positions='lgc'>--proliferating in their ="trms">world
="lsts lst1">•the senses sharpen on the surfaces of things taking form
="lsts lst1">•a lived ="trms">affect ='lgc'>==> pushing a ="trms">present into a com="trms">position, an expressivity (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="nms">ajayeb's body)
="lsts lst1">•(a non-horizontal plane of) incommensurate elements hanging together in a com="trms">positional atmosphere ='lgc'>=/= holding objects in abeyance تعليق in order to evaluate them as good or bad, or, asserting op="trms">positions between ="trms">material and re="trms">presentational things
='lgc'>}
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]attunement='lgc'>: a generative, com="trms">positional ="trms">worlding
="prgrph">-particular attunements can become habitual
="prgrph">-(in the atmospheric of my ="nms">ajayeb) what is recognized as worthy and knowable object
="prgrph">-what are the links ='lgc'>[sensory ='and'>& ="trms">affective='lgc'>] between (my) ="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">worlding and other ="trms">worlding
='lgc'>{ migraine ='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> house ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (an acute) sensory attunement (to the atmospherics of the house)
migraine='lgc'>: “black-furred creature beginning to stir”
="large lg6" stl="font-size:113%">
="frds scrmbld">Foad's atmospheric attunements, ="trms">responses to the environment
(fully sensory, at once abstract and concrete)='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•a labor
="lsts lst1">•a sentience to a ="trms">world's work
="lsts lst1">•ways of being in noise and light and space
intimacy with a ="trms">world ='lgc'><-='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">world's imperative
='strcls'>*an imperative can='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•catch you up
="lsts lst1">•then deflate
="lsts lst1">•pop
="lsts lst1">•leave you standing, a fish out of water
“the sentience of a ="trms">situation is filled with tracks of labor and attunement='lgc'>--a dwelling in the expressivity of something coming into existence” (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)
we take the ="trms">world for what it's up to
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]atmospheric attunement='lgc'>: actual ="trms">affects of modes of living being brought into being; labor-intensive process that stretches across ="trms">imaginaries
="prgrph">-the lived spaces and temporalities of='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•home
="lsts lst1">•work
="lsts lst1">•school
="lsts lst1">•blame
="lsts lst1">•adventure
="lsts lst1">•illness
="lsts lst1">•rumination
="lsts lst1">•pleasure
="lsts lst1">•down time
="lsts lst1">•release
="lsts lst1">•phantasmatic or unthinkable ="trms">situations
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> rhythms of the ="trms">present /='strcls'>*/='strcls'>*/='strcls'>*/='strcls'>*\
="nms">ajayeb reports of ="trms">world='lgc'>:
="prgrph">-="trms">dense entanglement of ="trms">affect, attention, the senses, and ="trms">matter
(everything depends on these entanglements)
a condition
a pacing
a s="trms">cene of absorption
a dream
a being abandoned by the ="trms">world
a serial immersion in some little ="trms">world you never knew was there until you got cancer
a dog
a ="trms">child
a hankering
the next thing
(='qstn'>?how much ="nms">ajayeb tells the ="trms">stories of) unraveling of states of attending to what might be happening
="large lg6" stl="font-size:132%">
not being able to sit still
being exhausted
being left behind
being ahead of the curve
being in ="trms">history
being in a predicament مخمصه
being ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready for something='lgc'>--anything
a life's ="trms">trajectories ="trms">traverse the ="trms">materializations of s="trms">cenes or pulsations
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Foad
atmospheres have='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•gradients
="lsts lst1">•valences
="lsts lst1">•moods
="lsts lst1">•sensations
="lsts lst1">•tempos
="lsts lst1">•lifespans
="lsts lst1">•
an atmospheric fill resonates the ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge between the ="trms">material and the potential
='lgc'>[my recording ="trms">symptom in 2009 was an atmospheric (not ="trms">symptomatic) attunement; constant recording; take on the texture and ="trms">density of a background hum; to produce a felt; barely felt sense of something happening in the house;='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-my father disappearing into violent, abandoning drinking
every person is a nexus of com="trms">positional moments
a ="trms">worlding taking place in ="trms">difference
="large lg3" stl="font-size:112%">
!='heart'>♥ ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart talking about her stepson becoming a homeless
“People like to simplify the ="trms">situation of homelessness as if it is a self-evident process of abject poverty without a safety net or as if it's just a ="trms">matter of personal blame or fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure. But it is also an attunement to a singular ="trms">world's texture and shine. The body has to learn to play itself like a musical ="trms">instrument in this ="trms">world's com="trms">positions.” ='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa, ="frds scrmbld">Sven, ="frds scrmbld">Foad='lgc'>]
(i lack certain learnings in sensory labor of attuning as a zerang زرنگ person)
(do i also have) the habit of a ="trms">worlding
="large lg4" stl="font-size:110%">
trying to find the rhythm of a new bodily life
[...]