[...]="lsts lst2">◦the ="trms">material, sensory labor of attending to an emergent and enduring hum
="lsts lst1">•the force of things amassed of ="nms">phantom limbs
="lsts lst1">•actual residue of people “making something of things”

direct ="trms">materiality of people's shared sense='lgc'> = attending to what is happening

a racist violence in the dark
a space of con="trms">densed displacement

watching things arrive in the company of others

='strcls'>*nameable clarities='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•family
="lsts lst1">•friendship
="lsts lst1">•="trms">love
="lsts lst1">•collapse
="lsts lst1">•="trms">laughing
="lsts lst1">•telling ="trms">stories
="lsts lst1">•violence
="lsts lst1">•place
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> all atmospherics='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>: forms of attending to what's happening, sensing out, accreting attachments and detachments, ="trms">differences and in="trms">differences, losses and proliferating possibilities. ='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Stewart='lgc'>]

(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart's) curious pause to ="trms">wonder ='strcls'>*what analytic objects ="trms">matter='strcls'>* in the singularity of a ="trms">situation and what forms of ="trms">writing and thinking might approach them='strcls'>****
="prgrph">-experimenting with forms of theory and ="trms">writing that are ="trms">responsive to the moving objects they are trying to trace or highlight or escape, or whatever ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#number of legs in ="nms">ajayeb ='lgc'>{
="lsts lst1">•trying to describe what is happening in little ="trms">animal moments, s="trms">cenes
="lsts lst1">•(the ="trms">writers of ="nms">ajayeb trying to) explore the intensity and plasticity of lived com="trms">positions='lgc'>--proliferating in their ="trms">world
="lsts lst1">•the senses sharpen on the surfaces of things taking form
="lsts lst1">•a lived ="trms">affect ='lgc'>==> pushing a ="trms">present into a com="trms">position, an expressivity (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="nms">ajayeb's body)
="lsts lst1">•(a non-horizontal plane of) incommensurate elements hanging together in a com="trms">positional atmosphere ='lgc'>=/= holding objects in abeyance تعليق in order to evaluate them as good or bad, or, asserting op="trms">positions between ="trms">material and re="trms">presentational things
='lgc'>}

="large lg2" stl="font-size:110%">
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]attunement='lgc'>: a generative, com="trms">positional ="trms">worlding
="prgrph">-particular attunements can become habitual

="prgrph">-(in the atmospheric of my ="nms">ajayeb) what is recognized as worthy and knowable object
="prgrph">-what are the links ='lgc'>[sensory ='and'>& ="trms">affective='lgc'>] between (my) ="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">worlding and other ="trms">worlding

='lgc'>{ migraine ='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> house ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (an acute) sensory attunement (to the atmospherics of the house)
migraine='lgc'>: “black-furred creature beginning to stir”


="frds scrmbld">Foad's atmospheric attunements, ="trms">responses to the environment
(fully sensory, at once abstract and concrete)='strcls'>*
="lsts lst1">•a labor
="lsts lst1">•a sentience to a ="trms">world's work
="lsts lst1">•ways of being in noise and light and space

="large lg1" stl="font-size:129%"> intimacy with a ="trms">world ='lgc'><-='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">world's imperative

='strcls'>*an imperative can='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•catch you up
="lsts lst1">•then deflate
="lsts lst1">•pop
="lsts lst1">•leave you standing, a fish out of water


“the sentience of a ="trms">situation is filled with tracks of labor and attunement='lgc'>--a dwelling in the expressivity of something coming into existence” (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)

we take the ="trms">world for what it's up to

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]atmospheric attunement='lgc'>: actual ="trms">affects of modes of living being brought into being; labor-intensive process that stretches across ="trms">imaginaries
="prgrph">-the lived spaces and temporalities of='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•home
="lsts lst1">•work
="lsts lst1">•school
="lsts lst1">•blame
="lsts lst1">•adventure
="lsts lst1">•illness
="lsts lst1">•rumination
="lsts lst1">•pleasure
="lsts lst1">•down time
="lsts lst1">•release
="lsts lst1">•phantasmatic or unthinkable ="trms">situations
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> rhythms of the ="trms">present /='strcls'>*/='strcls'>*/='strcls'>*/='strcls'>*\


="nms">ajayeb reports of ="trms">world='lgc'>:
="prgrph">-="trms">dense entanglement of ="trms">affect, attention, the senses, and ="trms">matter
(everything depends on these entanglements)

a condition
a pacing
a s="trms">cene of absorption
a dream
a being abandoned by the ="trms">world
a serial immersion in some little ="trms">world you never knew was there until you got cancer
a dog
a ="trms">child
a hankering
the next thing

(='qstn'>?how much ="nms">ajayeb tells the ="trms">stories of) unraveling of states of attending to what might be happening

not being able to sit still
being exhausted
being left behind
being ahead of the curve
being in ="trms">history
being in a predicament مخمصه
being ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready for something='lgc'>--anything


a life's ="trms">trajectories ="trms">traverse the ="trms">materializations of s="trms">cenes or pulsations
='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Foad

atmospheres have='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•gradients
="lsts lst1">•valences
="lsts lst1">•moods
="lsts lst1">•sensations
="lsts lst1">•tempos
="lsts lst1">•lifespans
="lsts lst1">•

an atmospheric fill resonates the ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge between the ="trms">material and the potential

='lgc'>[my recording ="trms">symptom in 2009 was an atmospheric (not ="trms">symptomatic) attunement; constant recording; take on the texture and ="trms">density of a background hum; to produce a felt; barely felt sense of something happening in the house;='lgc'>]
="prgrph">-my father disappearing into violent, abandoning drinking


every person is a nexus of com="trms">positional moments
a ="trms">worlding taking place in ="trms">difference


!='heart'>♥ ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart talking about her stepson becoming a homeless
“People like to simplify the ="trms">situation of homelessness as if it is a self-evident process of abject poverty without a safety net or as if it's just a ="trms">matter of personal blame or fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure. But it is also an attunement to a singular ="trms">world's texture and shine. The body has to learn to play itself like a musical ="trms">instrument in this ="trms">world's com="trms">positions.” ='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa, ="frds scrmbld">Sven, ="frds scrmbld">Foad='lgc'>]

(i lack certain learnings in sensory labor of attuning as a zerang زرنگ person)


(do i also have) the habit of a ="trms">worlding

trying to find the rhythm of a new bodily life

="large lg3" stl="font-size:112%"> find lines of attachment

='strcls'>***to become describable as a body (by learning how to ="trms">affect and to be ="trms">affected in this ="trms">world such as it is)='strcls'>***

(in ='mywrk'>my work on ="nms">ajayeb i am becoming more and more committed to learn ways of) having ="trms">stories meant to pull me into the sentience of the ="trms">world i am in ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> give it ="trms">density, texture='strcls'>*


="large lg4" stl="font-size:112%"> ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart (2010) is ="trms">writing an ="nms">="nms">ajayebnameh of her mother in cancer, stepson becoming a homeless, and her hometown

______________


='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]regionality دهاتی ,داهاتی
="prgrph">-an event that jumps from landscape to bodies and back (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)
='lgc'>--"here"='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{the blue law, the seasons, the color red, place names اسم خیابان ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*the ="trms">past snaps into the ="trms">present with the recognition of the street names='lgc'>], bodily resonances, ="trms">materialities bundled together like a sac of leaves, sharp-="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edged collectivities like race, ethnicity, class, gender, generation and ="trms">religion, ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “one ventures from home”
="prgrph">-a thing hollowed out by its labyrinth of ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges; incessant ="trms">interlinking
="prgrph">-a contact ="trms">aesthetics
="prgrph">-a virtual mapping of things in a state of potential (Thrift)
="prgrph">-a sheer recognition of a sheer recognition='lgc'>: “we are from around here"='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{as ='strcls'>*active survivors of the unexpected encounter and knowing ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readers of emergent ="trms">situations='strcls'>*='lgc'>} (Roazan)
="prgrph">-turns spaces into animate envelopes that produce ="trms">worlds (Sloterdijk)
="prgrph">-a form of ="trms">worlding='lgc'>--an intimate, com="trms">positional process of dwelling that bears, ="trms">gestures, ="trms">gestates آبستن, ="trms">worlds (="ppl">Heidegger)
="prgrph">-the labored ="trms">viscerality احشايى of being ‘in’ whatever's happening renders choices, ="trms">aesthetics, surfaces and ="trms">materialities ='strcls'>*a part of something='strcls'>* (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart) ='lgc'>~~="nms">apass='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the sentience, of a ="trms">worlding (lightened by soft s="trms">cenes of the human condition ='lgc'>[played out in='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•forms of pleasure ='at'>@="frds">Sina
="lsts lst1">•weakness ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Maarten
="lsts lst1">•fun ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Elen
="lsts lst1">•humor ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Eszter
="lsts lst1">•acquiescence رضايت ,تن در دادن ='at'>@="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo
="lsts lst1">•self-deprecation اظهاربيميلى ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Lili
="lsts lst1">•the intimacy of قبيح دانستن deprecating others ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Xiri
="lsts lst1">•a bad but human habit ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Aela
="lsts lst1">•some wicked little sorcery ='at'>@קݙ
="lsts lst1">•='lgc'>])
="prgrph">-
="prgrph">-an attunement that takes form
="prgrph">-a milieu in which the mouth relaxes into a town accent (نواحی='qstn'>?)
="prgrph">-a disorientation in the face of what lies beyond (="frds scrmbld">Janina)
="prgrph">-a ="trms">love affair with light and color (="frds scrmbld">Foad)
="prgrph">-uncurtained windows (my mother)
="prgrph">-
="prgrph">-
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{
="lsts lst1">•one recognizable entity with qualities
="lsts lst1">•lived modalities
="lsts lst1">•a ="trms">history of its ="trms">social production and uses
 ='lgc'>{elements, s="trms">cenes, encounters, ='lgc'>}='lgc'>--they='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{sediment, accrue, circulate, un="trms">fold, go flat, ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{saturate a ="trms">situation, fly under radar, pull into alignment, fall out of ="trms">sync, ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “a regional ="trms">aesthetic har="trms">dens into iconic s="trms">cenes of living”


="large lg5" stl="font-size:164%"> calling to eachother in an intimacy of ="trms">jokes about the things that can happen in their ="trms">world

voice='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•the tone
="lsts lst1">•the timing
="lsts lst1">•the accent
="lsts lst1">•the phrasing
="lsts lst1">•the level of force
="lsts lst1">•the purposefulness of the way that voice live[...]