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every person is a nexus of com="trms">positional moments
a ="trms">worlding taking place in ="trms">difference
!='heart'>♥ ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart talking about her stepson becoming a homeless
“People like to simplify the ="trms">situation of homelessness as if it is a self-evident process of abject poverty without a safety net or as if it's just a ="trms">matter of personal blame or fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure. But it is also an attunement to a singular ="trms">world's texture and shine. The body has to learn to play itself like a musical ="trms">instrument in this ="trms">world's com="trms">positions.” ='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa, ="frds scrmbld">Sven, ="frds scrmbld">Foad='lgc'>]
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(i lack certain learnings in sensory labor of attuning as a zerang زرنگ person)
(do i also have) the habit of a ="trms">worlding
trying to find the rhythm of a new bodily life
find lines of attachment
='strcls'>***to become describable as a body (by learning how to ="trms">affect and to be ="trms">affected in this ="trms">world such as it is)='strcls'>***
(in ='mywrk'>my work on ="nms">ajayeb i am becoming more and more committed to learn ways of) having ="trms">stories meant to pull me into the sentience of the ="trms">world i am in ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> give it ="trms">density, texture='strcls'>*
="ppl">="ppl">Stewart (2010) is ="trms">writing an ="nms">="nms">ajayebnameh of her mother in cancer, stepson becoming a homeless, and her hometown
______________
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]regionality دهاتی ,داهاتی
="prgrph">-an event that jumps from landscape to bodies and back (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)
='lgc'>--"here"='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{the blue law, the seasons, the color red, place names اسم خیابان ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*the ="trms">past snaps into the ="trms">present with the recognition of the street names='lgc'>], bodily resonances, ="trms">materialities bundled together like a sac of leaves, sharp-="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edged collectivities like race, ethnicity, class, gender, generation and ="trms">religion, ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “one ventures from home”
="prgrph">-a thing hollowed out by its labyrinth of ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges; incessant ="trms">interlinking
="prgrph">-a contact ="trms">aesthetics
="prgrph">-a virtual mapping of things in a state of potential (Thrift)
="prgrph">-a sheer recognition of a sheer recognition='lgc'>: “we are from around here"='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{as ='strcls'>*active survivors of the unexpected encounter and knowing ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">readers of emergent ="trms">situations='strcls'>*='lgc'>} (Roazan)
="prgrph">-turns spaces into animate envelopes that produce ="trms">worlds (Sloterdijk)
="prgrph">-a form of ="trms">worlding='lgc'>--an intimate, com="trms">positional process of dwelling that bears, ="trms">gestures, ="trms">gestates آبستن, ="trms">worlds (="ppl">Heidegger)
="prgrph">-the labored ="trms">viscerality احشايى of being ‘in’ whatever's happening renders choices, ="trms">aesthetics, surfaces and ="trms">materialities ='strcls'>*a part of something='strcls'>* (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart) ='lgc'>~~="nms">apass='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the sentience, of a ="trms">worlding (lightened by soft s="trms">cenes of the human condition ='lgc'>[played out in='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•forms of pleasure ='at'>@="frds">Sina
="lsts lst1">•weakness ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Maarten
="lsts lst1">•fun ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Elen
="lsts lst1">•humor ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Eszter
="lsts lst1">•acquiescence رضايت ,تن در دادن ='at'>@="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo
="lsts lst1">•self-deprecation اظهاربيميلى ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Lili
="lsts lst1">•the intimacy of قبيح دانستن deprecating others ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Xiri
="lsts lst1">•a bad but human habit ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Aela
="lsts lst1">•some wicked little sorcery ='at'>@קݙ
="lsts lst1">•='lgc'>])
="prgrph">-
="prgrph">-an attunement that takes form
="prgrph">-a milieu in which the mouth relaxes into a town accent (نواحی='qstn'>?)
="prgrph">-a disorientation in the face of what lies beyond (="frds scrmbld">Janina)
="prgrph">-a ="trms">love affair with light and color (="frds scrmbld">Foad)
="prgrph">-uncurtained windows (my mother)
="prgrph">-
="prgrph">-
='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{
="lsts lst1">•one recognizable entity with qualities
="lsts lst1">•lived modalities
="lsts lst1">•a ="trms">history of its ="trms">social production and uses
='lgc'>{elements, s="trms">cenes, encounters, ='lgc'>}='lgc'>--they='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{sediment, accrue, circulate, un="trms">fold, go flat, ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{saturate a ="trms">situation, fly under radar, pull into alignment, fall out of ="trms">sync, ='lgc'>}='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “a regional ="trms">aesthetic har="trms">dens into iconic s="trms">cenes of living”
calling to eachother in an intimacy of ="trms">jokes about the things that can happen in their ="trms">world
voice='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•the tone
="lsts lst1">•the timing
="lsts lst1">•the accent
="lsts lst1">•the phrasing
="lsts lst1">•the level of force
="lsts lst1">•the purposefulness of the way that voice lives in light, with trees, in the potentiality of a ="trms">laugh
="lsts lst1">•
consistency of a ="trms">laugh or an ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge
='strcls'>***when the muteness of things ="trms"nttrm="metaph,metamorph,metabol,metal">meta="trms">morphoses into an ="trms">aesthetic ="trms">phenomenon='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> singularities in="trms">cite it
(an actual physical shadow of a state of being)
sing of something amiss='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•depression
="lsts lst1">•withdrawal
="lsts lst1">•in="trms">difference
="lsts lst1">•dysfunction
(my mother in ="nms">Tehran='lgc'>:) a curtained house reduce the ="trms">gestural economy of seeing and being seen to an oc="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluded vision in which objects are dark, shadowy outlines with black cores, like a ="trms">world seen through a ripe cataract آب مروارید ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->(the house video project i did ‘city of domes’ 2008 http://www.sinaseifee.com/Cathedral.html was actually about that kind of attunement in my mother's house. i was committed to the description of ="trms">interiority; my allegiance was inward. watchful consciousness in which one witnesses the procession of inner events of light perception ='lgc'><== a sense of lack. sensous grounding of the inner life)
window='lgc'>: a ="trms">method of ="trms">worlding in itself, a node of lines of ="trms">sociality and mood
curtained house ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> sign of something amiss (depression, withdrawal, in="trms">difference, dysfunction) but “the actual physical shadow of a state of being that broke the circuit of a ='strcls'>*="trms">gestural economy of seeing and being seen='strcls'>*”
in the maner of my mother='lgc'>: you don't warm up to str="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger, you know who you are talking to, you watch what is going on, you help those in the circle
(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart describing how in her town) lamps were strongly favored over overhead lighting, lending texture and ="trms">specifity to the s="trms">cenes
a pause at a window ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to check in with the un="trms">folding and pleating of a ="trms">world pulled in and out through the glass ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- this is not just a practice of looking but a mood='strcls'>*, ruminative or touched, for good or bad
="lsts lst1">•impulse to venture into a place that pulls watchful bodies out of windows
d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">anger
hassle
inordinate distance
='at'>#on getting lost with ="frds scrmbld">Janina='lgc'>: “this is an adventure and I am not alone.” (="trms">anxious ='lgc'>+ hervorheben رهسپار شدن)
(with ="frds scrmbld">Janina ='heart'>♥ we experienced) disorientation, displacement, and the experience of getting lost (are foundational sensory modes of living out regionality)
='strcls'>*="trms">wondering out='lgc'>: palpably unpre="trms">dictable and seductive; a ="trms">specific disorientation
="lsts lst1">•half-deliberate exercise of getting yourself lost
="lsts lst1">•direct link between intention and effect
='strcls'>* dragging ="trms">agency into a منشور prismatic ="trms">affective structure ='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[prismatic='lgc'>: flickering, gathered into lines, angles of light or motion to attune to, ='lgc'>=/= simply ="trms">present and knowable='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•lost in a loop
='strcls'>*run='lgc'>: fueld by (performed) ="trms">anxiety, our trip was peppered with moments of disorientation
="prgrph">-the enactment of disorientation poised on the ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge of the accidental
="prgrph">-with ="frds scrmbld">Janina somehow we found ourselves in an exercise of orientation/disorientation as it is attaching me to place, ="trms">childhood, some buttom line humanity (called Ungeschicktheit) that depends on giving up competence='strcls'>*** (and often finding oursevels orienting with that rainbow caterpillar disoriented on your forehand)
='lgc'>='lgc'>---our shared ‘should-have-been-obvious'es with ="frds scrmbld">Janina
='lgc'>='lgc'>---="frds scrmbld">Janina's misshapen forces='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>--somehow='lgc'>='lgc'>--> reach a plane of expressivity (for me='lgc'>--because i ="trms">love her='qstn'>?)
='lgc'>='lgc'>---the event, its ="trms">affective structure, is familiar from ="trms">childhood and strangely satisfying, like a loop i had to make, ='strcls'>*an emotive-="trms">agentive place i had to check in with='strcls'>* ='lgc'>--='qstn'>?='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Janina ='lgc'>+ ="frds">Sina forms of belonging
(sometimes that place is a fully-invested connection and weighted, like home)
='strcls'>***forms of belonging='lgc'>: tactile ='lgc'>+ full of force ='lgc'>+ tentative ='lgc'>+ risky /='lgc'>--='lgc'>{"='lgc'>+” ='lgc'>: are, and, yet='lgc'>}
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> an ="trms">ecology of paths that ="trms">matter by means of the things that happen in a ="trms">present in which we are ='strcls'>*lost yet attuned='strcls'>*
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> all the ways that people and things venture out into reals ='lgc'>[my mother, ="frds">Sina, ="frds scrmbld">Janina, ...='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]town='lgc'>: currents of ="trms">difference, affiliation, ="trms">history, ordinary dullness and comforts, characters and their ="trms">stories
psyching out ethnicity
(my old attunement='lgc'>:) the fear of cockroaches
the miracle mile of computer ="trms">technology
the elitism of the ="trms">historical ="trms">societies
localness nests in='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•tastes
="lsts lst1">•bodies
="lsts lst1">•neigborhoods
="lsts lst1">•a valley
="lsts lst1">•a state
="lsts lst1">•a geographical region
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“in each s="trms">cene of the production of ="trms">history there are events that are storied or otherwise pulled into play” (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)
="ppl">="ppl">Stewart on salem witch trials
the accusations spiraled through families, catching people up like magnetic strips
“wicked little sorceries” ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{jumpy moments that suddenly lay the charge of a half-known intensity ="trms">onto ordinary people and roads, regionality becomes a wicked little sorcery. a vortex that pulls possible forms into life into a moment's alignment='lgc'>}, ='lgc'>{the adjective ‘wicked’ marking ='strcls'>*="trms">excess='strcls'>* of all kinds='lgc'>}
astrology
fortune-telling
='strcls'>*an attunement to specters='strcls'>*
="prgrph">-a farmer admitted getting into ‘the snare of the devil’ because he had a large family and ‘the ="trms">world went hard with him.’
robustness in cold weather
='lgc'>[title='lgc'>]
making of ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges and s="trms">cenes in ="nms">ajayeb
character or texture of an ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge
(="nms">ajayeb is made of elements that were) a thing sensed with certainty (yet made up of a shifting, edgy com="trms">posite)
='lgc'>[a sentient shadow called jinn, God, darkness of a pit, a cycle, etc.='lgc'>]
='lgc'>--or='lgc'>='lgc'>--> made scenic ='strcls'>*as a site of a ="trms">world's potential='strcls'>* (= ="nms">ajayeb)
='lgc'>--the s="trms">cene of a thing's demise
an edgy irruptive event
rules and ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edges are OK when separate, but together, a bad combination
(="frds scrmbld">Karin ='lgc'>+ ="frds">Sina ='lgc'>+ ="frds scrmbld">Hanno) we were humans together
='lgc'>--we adjust ourselves to the done deal that things happen='lgc'>--
(we find ourselve being) “from here” in a ="trms">world made intimate through forgiveness, denial, detachment flowing in after a surge of something bad='lgc'>--a close call ='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Stewart='lgc'>]
='strcls'>*what are ="nms">ajayeb's turns (and turn backs) to the in="trms">articulate real='qstn'>?
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="trms">hallucinogenically down-to-earth (="frds scrmbld">Aela)
what are ="nms">ajayeb's state of emergent expressivity ='lgc'>[today='lgc'>]='qstn'>? (that tries to guess and describe ‘what is happening’) ='strcls'>**** things that happen are in="trms">citements to form ='strcls'>****
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> intensities become expressive ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> an خونسرد impassive corporeality ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> intensities pass from body to body ='lgc'>--='lgc'>{
="lsts lst1">•human bodies
="lsts lst1">•="trms">animal bodies
="lsts lst1">•machine bodies
="lsts lst1">•bodies of thought
="lsts lst1">•eco="trms">systems
="lsts lst1">•="trms">visceralities and noumena ='lgc'>[a thing in itself, as distinguished from a ="trms">phenomenon='lgc'>] sp="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read out across a vast atmospheric field
sediments of ="nms">ajayeb='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•obvious
="lsts lst1">•much remarked
="lsts lst1">•cryptic ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> favored
="lsts lst1">•="trms">situationally precise
how ="nms">ajayeb is an improvisatory conceptuality='qstn'>?
does ="nms">ajayeb-="trms">writing takes place in singularity='qstn'>? (because every ="trms">worlding is singular and precise ='lgc'>==> the pleasure of its recognition)
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='at'>#my project in ="nms">apass has been a practice of ="trms">writing that is an experiment in attuning to ="nms">ajayeb's tune
="nms">ajayeb reports of='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">affect that has become native='strcls'>***, attaching to bodies and ="trms">socialities, to an ethos='strcls'>***
with ="nms">ajayeb (with ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart) i am learning='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•to approach the tactile com="trms">positionality of things
="lsts lst1">•de-dramatization of academic thought
="lsts lst1">•to approach the thing that throws itself together ='strcls'>*slowly and enigmatically='strcls'>*='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='at'>#andakhtan, andaze
="lsts lst1">•a descriptive detour (with ="ppl">="ppl">Latour)
="lsts lst1">•a lyrical evocation (with ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)
="lsts lst1">•a ="trms">method of awkwardly approaching an object by attuning to it as a thing of ='strcls'>*promise and contact='strcls'>* (with ="ppl">Berlant)
="lsts lst1">•
concept='lgc'>: that which attunes itself to things coming into form; is both abstract ='and'>& concrete; actual ='and'>& un="trms">folding
highly fractured stone of a collective intensity (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="nms">Iran, and most other places)
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="nms">ajayeb was/is very much committed to the concrete='lgc'>: that means committed to speculation and curiosity (and not the demystification and uncovering truths that support a well-known picture of the ="trms">world) (it was only to a certain degree in support of the middle age islamic picture)
='strcls'>*a something both animated and inhabitable
how to approach a weighted and reeling ='lgc'>[walk as if unable to control one's movements='lgc'>] ="trms">present='qstn'>?
(to name)
(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart > ="ppl">Berlant='lgc'>:) objects and s="trms">cenes of desire hold promise, keeping whole ="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusters of ="trms">affects magnetized to them
="prgrph">-an individual's abstract yet ="trms">contingent desire to feel like he or she is “in” something or can recognize something ='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Lili, ="frds scrmbld">Aela='lgc'>]
='strcls'>***promise is always promise to be ="trms">present to the s="trms">cene
i am ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading in ="nms">ajayeb the actual lines of potential that a something coming together calls to mind an sets in motion
exert palpable pressures
(working with ajayen ="trms">="trms">equip me with recognizing the) immanent نافذ, obtuse پخ, erratic ويلان (='lgc'>=/= “obvious meaning” of semantic message and ="trms">symbolic signification;) to pick up ="trms">density and texture
(in ="nms">tasavof, in ="nms">iranian ="trms">poetry, in ="nms">ajayeb, in my peer's works, )
="prgrph">-asking='lgc'>: what potential modes of knowing, relating, and attending to things are al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready somehow persent in them ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> potentiality ='and'>& resonance
(="trms">according to ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart) ordinary ="trms">affects are more directly compelling than ideologies, as well as more fractious, multiplicitous, and unpre="trms">dictable than ="trms">symbolic meaning='strcls'>*** (in short='lgc'>: canon of “Thinking”) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “bigger” structures and underlying causes obscure the ways in which a reeling ="trms">present is ="trms">composed out of heterogeneous and noncoherent singularities
="prgrph">-="frds scrmbld">Sven's ordinary ="trms">affects and DJings ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> his noncoherent singularity ='lgc'>==> a nonre="trms">presentational theory is needed to address them
asking ="frds scrmbld">Sven='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•what needs attending to (for you)='qstn'>?
="lsts lst1">•what/who are you in conversation with='qstn'>?
='lgc'>[s="trms">cenes and selves='lgc'>]='strcls'>***
="lsts lst1">•layered textures of a s="trms">cene
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(paying attention to pressure points of ="nms">ajayeb ='lgc'>==>)
in ="nms">ajayeb, what is
="lsts lst1">•maintained as a prized possession
="lsts lst1">•left to rot
="lsts lst1">•hardened into little mythic kernal
="lsts lst1">•="trms">morphed into a cold dark ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge
="lsts lst1">•hopeful
="lsts lst1">•
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> things take place as ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]precisions='lgc'>: the pressure points that open ="trms">onto potentialities are taken up as apparitional things (surat صورت) and then sharpened and repeated in com="trms">positions that labor to describe but also flourish on their own terms
my efforts have not been to finally “know” ="nms">ajayeb, ="frds scrmbld">Sven, or ="frds scrmbld">Sana, ='lgc'>[i have been reluctant to collect them into a good enough ="trms">story of what's going on with them,='lgc'>] rather to ="trms">fashion some ="trms">sort of address that is adequate (and ="trms">fabulous) to their form
="prgrph">-does the intensity and texture of my ="trms">routines (talks, ="trms">writings, etc.) make ="nms">ajayeb habitable and animate='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-in the last year in ="nms">apass i have been training myself to become attuned to what a particular s="trms">cene might offer
='at'>#my ="nms">apass ="nms">ajayeb project='lgc'>:
(learning) building an idio="trms">syncratic map of connections between a series of singularities ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to create a contact zone for analysis ='strcls'>****
='lgc'>[='lgc'>~='qstn'>?-> ="nms">ajayeb.net, pop-up ="trms">book='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[that's why i have been against the popular idea of ="trms">authorlessness in ="nms">apass, i am invested in (our) singularities; identity is a zone of attunement='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart calls herself “she” to mark the ="trms">difference between her ="trms">writerly identity and the kind of subject that arises as a daydream of simple ="trms">presence
="prgrph">-to touch details that establishes a direct contact
='qstn'>?in our group who
="lsts lst1">•gazes
="lsts lst1">•="trms">imagines
="lsts lst1">•senses
="lsts lst1">•takes on
="lsts lst1">•performs
="lsts lst1">•asserts (not a flat and finished truth)
="lsts lst1">•is in a hot persuit of something de="trms">finitive ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Lili
="lsts lst1">•a point of contract ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Esta
="lsts lst1">•
watching and waiting for an event to un="trms">fold
the still life that gives a pause ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">story of many of us
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“every achieved ="trms">poem inscribes a perceptual sig="trms">nature in the ="trms">world” (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart > ="ppl">Doty)
="trms">poems have to be achieved (in the ="trms">social-="trms">material ="trms">world)
(achieved ='lgc'>=/= archived)
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">poem='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•etching ='strcls'>*lines of action='strcls'>* and mood across the sensations
="lsts lst1">•com="trms">positions at work
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my ="nms">ajayeb's
="lsts lst1">•objects of analysis='lgc'>: “com="trms">positional elements of thrown together ="trms">worlds”
="lsts lst1">•objects of critique='lgc'>: “as="trms">sociative account of the modification and reciprocity of bodies and actions, environs, senses, rhythms, tones, and proprioceptions"='lgc'>[='lgc'>: sense of the ="trms">position of parts of the body, relative to other neighbouring parts of the body='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•objects of ="trms">database='lgc'>: “are soicialy, ="trms">poetically, ="trms">materially com="trms">positional”
the ="trms">social, the subject, ="trms">matter and event are comprised of='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">affects
="lsts lst1">•potentialities
="lsts lst1">•energetics
="lsts lst1">•attunements
="lsts lst1">•orientations
="lsts lst1">•disorientations
="lsts lst1">•atmospheres
='lgc'>=/= finished actualities='strcls'>*
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="nms">ajayeb is com="trms">positional, that means something reaches a point of expressivity, something throws itself together as ="trms">matter al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready configured yet enigmatic and provocative
(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart helping me talk ="nms">ajayeb)
(am i working to) bridge between more com="trms">positions (='qstn'>?)
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