[...]thod of awkwardly approaching an object by attuning to it as a thing of ='strcls'>*promise and contact='strcls'>* (with ="ppl">Berlant)
="lsts lst1">•

concept='lgc'>: that which attunes itself to things coming into form; is both abstract ='and'>& concrete; actual ='and'>& un="trms">folding

highly fractured stone of a collective intensity (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="nms">Iran, and most other places)

="large lg2" stl="font-size:111%"> ______________


="nms">ajayeb was/is very much committed to the concrete='lgc'>: that means committed to speculation and curiosity (and not the demystification and uncovering truths that support a well-known picture of the ="trms">world) (it was only to a certain degree in support of the middle age islamic picture)

='strcls'>*a something both animated and inhabitable

how to approach a weighted and reeling ='lgc'>[walk as if unable to control one's movements='lgc'>] ="trms">present='qstn'>?
(to name)

(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart > ="ppl">Berlant='lgc'>:) objects and s="trms">cenes of desire hold promise, keeping whole ="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clusters of ="trms">affects magnetized to them
="prgrph">-an individual's abstract yet ="trms">contingent desire to feel like he or she is “in” something or can recognize something ='lgc'>[='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Lili, ="frds scrmbld">Aela='lgc'>]

='strcls'>***promise is always promise to be ="trms">present to the s="trms">cene


i am ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reading in ="nms">ajayeb the actual lines of potential that a something coming together calls to mind an sets in motion

exert palpable pressures

(working with ajayen ="trms">="trms">equip me with recognizing the) immanent نافذ, obtuse پخ, erratic ويلان (='lgc'>=/= “obvious meaning” of semantic message and ="trms">symbolic signification;) to pick up ="trms">density and texture
(in ="nms">tasavof, in ="nms">iranian ="trms">poetry, in ="nms">ajayeb, in my peer's works, )
="prgrph">-asking='lgc'>: what potential modes of knowing, relating, and attending to things are al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready somehow persent in them ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> potentiality ='and'>& resonance


(="trms">according to ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart) ordinary ="trms">affects are more directly compelling than ideologies, as well as more fractious, multiplicitous, and unpre="trms">dictable than ="trms">symbolic meaning='strcls'>*** (in short='lgc'>: canon of “Thinking”) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “bigger” structures and underlying causes obscure the ways in which a reeling ="trms">present is ="trms">composed out of heterogeneous and noncoherent singularities
="prgrph">-="frds scrmbld">Sven's ordinary ="trms">affects and DJings ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> his noncoherent singularity ='lgc'>==> a nonre="trms">presentational theory is needed to address them
asking ="frds scrmbld">Sven='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•what needs attending to (for you)='qstn'>?
="lsts lst1">•what/who are you in conversation with='qstn'>?



='lgc'>[s="trms">cenes and selves='lgc'>]='strcls'>***
="lsts lst1">•layered textures of a s="trms">cene



(paying attention to pressure points of ="nms">ajayeb ='lgc'>==>)
in ="nms">ajayeb, what is
="lsts lst1">•maintained as a prized possession
="lsts lst1">•left to rot
="lsts lst1">•hardened into little mythic kernal
="lsts lst1">•="trms">morphed into a cold dark ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge
="lsts lst1">•hopeful
="lsts lst1">•
="lsts lst1">•
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> things take place as ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]precisions='lgc'>: the pressure points that open ="trms">onto potentialities are taken up as apparitional things (surat صورت) and then sharpened and repeated in com="trms">positions that labor to describe but also flourish on their own terms


my efforts have not been to finally “know” ="nms">ajayeb, ="frds scrmbld">Sven, or ="frds scrmbld">Sana, ='lgc'>[i have been reluctant to collect them into a good enough ="trms">story of what's going on with them,='lgc'>] rather to ="trms">fashion some ="trms">sort of address that is adequate (and ="trms">fabulous) to their form
="prgrph">-does the intensity and texture of my ="trms">routines (talks, ="trms">writings, etc.) make ="nms">ajayeb habitable and animate='qstn'>?
="prgrph">-in the last year in ="nms">apass i have been training myself to become attuned to what a particular s="trms">cene might offer

='at'>#my ="nms">apass ="nms">ajayeb project='lgc'>:
(learning) building an idio="trms">syncratic map of connections between a series of singularities ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> to create a contact zone for analysis ='strcls'>****
='lgc'>[='lgc'>~='qstn'>?-> ="nms">ajayeb.net, pop-up ="trms">book='lgc'>]
='lgc'>[that's why i have been against the popular idea of ="trms">authorlessness in ="nms">apass, i am invested in (our) singularities; identity is a zone of attunement='lgc'>]='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart calls herself “she” to mark the ="trms">difference between her ="trms">writerly identity and the kind of subject that arises as a daydream of simple ="trms">presence
="prgrph">-to touch details that establishes a direct contact

='qstn'>?in our group who
="lsts lst1">•gazes
="lsts lst1">•="trms">imagines
="lsts lst1">•senses
="lsts lst1">•takes on
="lsts lst1">•performs
="lsts lst1">•asserts (not a flat and finished truth)
="lsts lst1">•is in a hot persuit of something de="trms">finitive ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Lili
="lsts lst1">•a point of contract ='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Esta
="lsts lst1">•

watching and waiting for an event to un="trms">fold
the still life that gives a pause ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the ="trms">story of many of us

______________


“every achieved ="trms">poem inscribes a perceptual sig="trms">nature in the ="trms">world” (="ppl">="ppl">Stewart > ="ppl">Doty)

="trms">poems have to be achieved (in the ="trms">social-="trms">material ="trms">world)
(achieved ='lgc'>=/= archived)

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">poem='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•etching ='strcls'>*lines of action='strcls'>* and mood across the sensations
="lsts lst1">•com="trms">positions at work


my ="nms">ajayeb's
="lsts lst1">•objects of analysis='lgc'>: “com="trms">positional elements of thrown together ="trms">worlds”
="lsts lst1">•objects of critique='lgc'>: “as="trms">sociative account of the modification and reciprocity of bodies and actions, environs, senses, rhythms, tones, and proprioceptions"='lgc'>[='lgc'>: sense of the ="trms">position of parts of the body, relative to other neighbouring parts of the body='lgc'>]
="lsts lst1">•objects of ="trms">database='lgc'>: “are soicialy, ="trms">poetically, ="trms">materially com="trms">positional”


the ="trms">social, the subject, ="trms">matter and event are comprised of='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•="trms">affects
="lsts lst1">•potentialities
="lsts lst1">•energetics
="lsts lst1">•attunements
="lsts lst1">•orientations
="lsts lst1">•disorientations
="lsts lst1">•atmospheres
='lgc'>=/= finished actualities='strcls'>*


="nms">ajayeb is com="trms">positional, that means something reaches a point of expressivity, something throws itself together as ="trms">matter al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready configured yet enigmatic and provocative
(="ppl">="ppl">Stewart helping me talk ="nms">ajayeb)

(am i working to) bridge between more com="trms">positions (='qstn'>?)


“watching a spider negotiate its unlikely territory”


(useless concentration)


="frds scrmbld">Foad, ="frds">Sina, we were a slipstream of sensations made of all the ways that ="trms">world impressed itself upon us


='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">world='lgc'>: a partial stabilization of practices, capacities, tendencies and affordances in the form of a recursive patterning (Anderson ='lgc'>+ Harrison > ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart)
="lsts lst1">•mixed-media com="trms">positions of ="trms">matter and thought-feeling
="lsts lst1">•the ="trms">world of ="nms">ajayeb magnetizes ="trms">materialities and forms of alertness for me to what's singular and prolific. i am circling through a ="trms">heritage of (="nms">iranian) romanticism and ="trms">pragmatism to arrive (with ="ppl">="ppl">Stewart) at “the precision of a ="trms">worldly com="trms">position's ="trms">mattering forms”
="lsts lst2">◦='strcls'>*="trms">worlding='lgc'>: happens as ="trms">matter ="trms">poems ="trms">composed of sensations, motion, bodies, and objects (='lgc'>--='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Luisa)
="lsts lst1">•an attachment to the forms and forces of emergence and concrescence itself ='lgc'>[...='lgc'>] in the actuality of this and that

learning from my mother by moving in the manner of her

we become ='strcls'>*sentient='strcls'>* in making massages that courses in-between self and ="trms">world

='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">pragmatist (thought)='lgc'>: a moment like the front ="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edge of an advancing wave crest always becoming more than itself

="large lg3" stl="font-size:110%"> ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]="trms">writing='lgc'>: an experiment that can register years of living out the thing that is just then froming up the ="trms">world as “...”


="trms">love folters and blows


="large lg4" stl="font-size:111%"> ="frds scrmbld">Janina, teaching me, being in ="trms">love with the surface of the ="trms">world

='at'>@="frds scrmbld">Elen, she shouts='lgc'>: drive! and see what happens to your senses.


Taussig's “I Swear I saw This” is the stuff of ="nms">ajayeb. he wrote a ="trms">book about a drawing he made in his note="trms">book when he saw what might have been a woman leaning over what looked like a man lying down at the enterence to a freeway tunnel in Medellin in 2006 ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="nms">ajayeb is also about ="trms">writing about what ‘might’ be or have been.

='strcls'>**a mediation on ="trms">writing and drawing in a horrible ="trms">world='strcls'>**

="large lg5" stl="font-size:133%"> ='at'>#my drawings in my note="trms">book/papers in our ="nms">apass meetings
="prgrph">-a hand that draws a scence also draws itself into its corporality, conjuring it in the manner of
="prgrph">-a line records as for what it leads the doodler to see
="prgrph">-“a autobiographical record of a discovery of an event” ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a trace and suspension of a wobbly emergence of alertness (to what my friend might have said) ='lgc'>-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> these are lived abstractions


possible paradigms for the convergence of emergence='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•af="trms">finity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo
="lsts lst1">•complexity ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Eszter
="lsts lst1">•(auto)="trms">poiesis ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Hoda
="lsts lst1">•perception as action ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Elen
="lsts lst1">•speculative realism ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Zoumana
="lsts lst1">•radical virtualization ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld">Aela
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> we are all somehow busy (in ="nms">apass) with reorienting to the creativity of thought-action crossings


life is germinaly جرثومه‌ای ="trms">aesthetic, and the ="trms">aesthetic anywhere is al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready political='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> Kenne[...]