[...]ld: decay, emergent, atrophy, new identities, crisis in language, confusing boundaries, challenges of life,,,]

(origins of bad feeling -->) looking at:
•damaged bodies
•damaged subjectivities
•damaged communities
•damaged relations ==> Udyr monster
•damaged ecologies
•damaged histories ==> insomnia
•

(@Jassem and Mia) is there (only) death at the end of entropy?
sequence of events from the point of view of plague narrative
extermination + determination, laws of identity, repetition

the material despair of a colonial capital modern condition leading in high speed to the entropy of cultural-individual ethics, under the overwhelming weight of tangible misery --(Jassem and Mia)--> cognize the immediate material urgency of the endangered subjectivity



--faceless--
nonanimal --> nonhuman + nonanimal ==> destabilizing effects
with their flexible plasticity, has an issue with appearance --> subjectivity's disassociation from the world
[in no (or which) calculus of assurance are they moving?]


ruined main body (of the performance)
ruin is (a fictional being) adding additional variety to technical being (frontier technologies) of Norway
-obsolescence (and why not adjustment? =/= extremist position ==> to emerge fanatically from the ruins)--(can we use our imagination not for world scale future speculation, and rather for small adjustment of this space?)
-give expression and meaning to the material culture


--landscape--
using it in the performance: a lens that refuses the abstraction of elements relation in a vacuum (as its optics, not a Blickmaschin)
show us: big stories take their form from seemingly minor contingencies, asymmetrical encounters, and moments of indeterminacy

(with “stranger within” [=? ‘desire within']) are we at the space of complain? <-- dispositions of Beschwerde
a form of protest --> (disenfranchized language of) *mutated rage* --> always innocent ==> agent of delivery
(protest part of) the proud and brutal history of break-out syntax of civic responsibility (=/= adjustment)

rage & ecstasy

ruin --> doom --> rage --> innocence --> delivery: performance


--ruin--
we can and should ***navigate the ruin***
(navigate =/= asset-production)
-capitalist (owning the rhetoric of progress) telling us / teach us to ignore ruins (in the making)
-is there life in ruin? --Tsing--> place of unsettled identities, *in it each of us become ourselves with the help of a less-than ideal collaboration*

bring your curiosity


contaminated diversity [=/= doom: a form of missing that which is contaminated, (an affect typical of Tehran,) one has lost the pulse of the world]
(hard to clasify)
*cultures and species that don't adjust well to disturbance* (<-- we shouldn't lose hope on them)
--> **precarious survival** : in order to live you need help, always subject to the indeterminacy of self and other's transformations (=/= MacGyver selfish gene story) [Sina and Agnes hiking in the need for sticks to walk], ==>? “kinds” and “types” emerge; and you need multiple forms of curiosity


*neoclassical economics (which is today's economic model) (<== modern economy):
•theory of supply and demand
•theory of rational individual choice --> maximize utility and profit (<== methodological individuation: “motivation/action of individual agents ==> causal accounts of social”)
*population genetics (study of evolution from the genetics point of view) (<== evolutionary synthesis + modern biology):
•adaptation
•speciation
•population
•structure
}=={formed in late 19th century and came to power in early 20th century to redefine modern knowledge}==> “survival = fighting for oneself against others” (--> The 100 TV series popular fantasies of survival [~ what does it take to stay alive]) ~= **conquest and expansion** --> selfish gene (theory of individuals not effected by encounters, they use encounters, but not changed by them)
=/= ‘what does it take to stay alive’ could be a *matter of finding livable collaborations* = *working across difference* ~-> we don't know who we are, until we interact across difference at multiple levels --Tsing--> **identities are formed in histories of encounters**

neoclassical economics theories:
•supply and demand
•rational individual choice --> maximize utility and profit (<== methodological individuation: “motivation/action of individual agents ==> causal accounts of social”)
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dreams of modernity: mobilization of a agricultural cooperative movement ==> industrial disengagement + intimacy of family's farm


slow disturbance

mode of inquiry: take small details and ask big questions with them

living in ruins
--Jassem--> maybe is a nightmare story
--Tsing--> maybe is a mushroom story
(capital/genocide/...)
(destroyed by...)

rats, rabbits, and algae seaweed

your abilites to nurture and tell stories --tales--> *life emerging from damaged human comunities* (and blasted landscapes) --> not exactly a story of hope (=/= towards a better sleep, the “less you know better you sleep” kind of story), stories of displacement and losses (due to war and concentration of wealth in our time)
=/= *big narrative of progress* : a single world trajectory and time [=/= *time of surprise*] of which “everybody takes part” (*moving forward together* --> #sci-fi series of transnational crew on a spaceship) ...powerful ways of knowing the world [<==?== renaissance] (--my ajayeb project is about those ways of knowing, stories of what sets the world on motion, such as universalism & cultural relativism)
--> *building communal agenda* ~ (dream of) transculturalism [~ blend communal identities] (<== Jassem and Mia's Norway: humans get richer, more efficient, and more make the natural world work for them), is given to us by “men” (that we don't have to follow)

[*]progress: anthropogentic landscapes haunted by imagined futures

--or--> (you might) leave your home and run into a vast new problem

stability is a privilege

[what is?] the future of your dreams
[what are?] the nunhumans worth noticing

species that signal “i am available”


[capitalist accumulations + insult upon insult upon insult ==>] diversity

diversity: (in Germany, considered archaic and chaotic) collateral damage of improvement, necessory victim of progress


fire, herding, farming,
--> creating niches for hunting and forging
--> messing with (nature)


-the question of how much (of human, neighbor, etc.) disturbance we can live with
-what is to consider other's (species, peasant, etc.) ways of life-making trajectories along ours? [==> world-making (requires this)]


the question of niche-making
-niches interact with one another

[*]alienation: the ability to stand alone (--> Nietzschean ethics =/= niche-making entanglement *always imperfect and continent*)
==> (people, things, and species become) [*]assets: mobiles that can be moved from their lifeworlds to be exchanged elsewhere--everything else is waste (=/= eating others)
}--> progress: search for assets =/= art: unalienated critical work, ***reciprocal capture*** ~~> tumble [=/= transcend one another, or bow down, question of integration]

*niche: adjusted timing & quality, small stories, convexe,
=/= house --> has foundation
=/= your monument
=/= building

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[title]
ecologies of nothingness***

premise of my lecture:
•*all places are polluted and difficult*
•‘abuse of language’ is every time you open your mouth
•the social always always includes nonhuman
•there is no encounter without the contractual

..and i can't tell grave from garden

-perhaps i have been unconsciously working on the question of “why are we here?” or “am i here?”
-cartographies of thinking--&--how i am inscribed in them
(itineraries i am stuck with)
going to a place =/= embrace it as a site
--> always i have a resistance to where i am:
•the ways we lose a sense of place --> displacement
•the ways we experience livability through places
(has to do with my own broken/corrupt/fuba[...]