[...]e="trms">member the way i anticipated where a pigeon, a cat, spider, or ants, would make a home, a niche, in my ="trms">childhood house...
the ="trms">difference between ‘what i ="trms">imagined’ ='and'>& ‘where the nest actually appeared’ ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> made the ="trms">world far more ="trms">interesting
='lgc'>='lgc'>--> looking at the perception of ="trms">animals (when you are ="trms">child)


inventive and remarkable ="trms">birds
happiness of sheep
sadness of captive wolves in a park in the Lorraine ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*not because they were captive but because captivity had transformed them into stupid and cruel beings='strcls'>*

='lgc'>[it is good to be able to say that='lgc'>] certain ="trms">scientists not only do “bad ="trms">science” (which remains a way of keeping distance) but that they do “="trms">science badly”

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creatures that happened to be ="trms">animals
creatures that happened to be ghosts
creatures that happened to be ...


(the influence of) Anglo-Saxon ="trms">animal studies ='lgc'>[on me='lgc'>]


="large lg14" stl="font-size:133%"> (in ="ppl">="ppl">Despretian way) learning to think from ="trms">love


(the bad) ="trms">fable of coming out of the closet
there is no closet. there are transformations.
falling from a horse, on a path that no longer leads to Damascus

(the ="trms">story of) Saul does not answer God; he politely asks him to wait two minutes while he comforts his horse. let God wait; other things ="trms">matter ='lgc'><='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>-- this is where true conversation takes place

(a philosophy, or thought) one of='lgc'>: ="trms">obligation ='lgc'>=/= distance
(="ppl">="ppl">Stengers='lgc'>:) ="trms">obligation ='lgc'>=/= requirements ='lgc'>='lgc'>-->='lgc'>{='strcls'>*a distinction that is to be made='strcls'>*, to be created, to be invented, not acknowl="trms"nttrm="knowledge,Knowledge">edged as al="trms"nttrm="already,spread">ready manifest in the state of things='lgc'>}
="trms">obligation (is much more ="trms">demanding than) ='lgc'>=/= ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right
(="frds">Sina='lgc'>:) ="trms">obligation ='lgc'>=/= commitment
='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]being ="trms">obligatet='lgc'> = agreeing to expose oneself to fai="trms"nttrm="failure,blur,plur,lurk,tallur,slur">lure, refusing to construct the words of order that would protect oneself from the requirements of the activity
='lgc'>{not all activities arise from ="trms">obligations='lgc'> = not all activities put themselves at risk, not all activities make an effort to ="trms">present themselves politically='lgc'>}


="ppl">="ppl">Haraway's ="trms">writing ="trms">technique='lgc'>: a remedy for in="trms">difference and contempt ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*becoming attached to the multiple th="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reads that make up the fabric of the ="trms">world='strcls'>*

(="ppl">="ppl">Despret ="trms">obligated to hear) the black="trms">bird sang as if the ="trms">world itself depended on its song ='lgc'>--and='lgc'>='lgc'>-->
='strcls'>*the importance of things came to dwell in its voice='strcls'>*
='strcls'>*the black="trms">bird made importance exist in another way='strcls'>*
='strcls'>*importance became incorporated in the ="trms">world='strcls'>*

and this importance rises like a ="trms">question ='lgc'>[a ="trms">question that comes after “what ="trms">matters for..."='lgc'>] ='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> how can i now ="trms">write in such a way as to be worthy of what ="trms">matters, with a similar insistence, for another being='qstn'>? (my ="trms">question in ="nms">Cinderella diaries)

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my ="trms">history (of continuous ="trms">interest, or what created the next “='lgc'>='lgc'>-->”)='lgc'>:
="nms">iran / visual arts ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> germany / ="trms">lecture and performance ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> research / ="trms">heritage study ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> case / ="nms">ajayeb ="trms">bestiary ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">epistemology / ="trms">animal ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="trms">science / ="trms">anthropology

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home funerals put into practice an important dimensino of the lives lived by the deceased ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> participates actiively in the instauration of their existence
="prgrph">-instauration='lgc'>: ='lgc'>[re-="trms">storying='lgc'>] restoring, participating in a transformation that leads to a certain existence='lgc'> = to more existence, in the case of the deceased='lgc'>: both a biographical supplement and the accomplishment of an existence in another realm of reality ='lgc'>==Souriau='lgc'>='lgc'>==> brilliance of reality (of the dead)='lgc'>: regards of the existence of the deceased, provided we agree on the ="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">right regime of reality that can be granted to them ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (envisioning de="trms">finition of the mode of existence)='lgc'>==enable='lgc'>='lgc'>==> to account for what the deceased do and what they have others do ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> describe how they ="trms">interfere in the lives of the living ='lgc'>--='not'>✕='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (we avoid the ="trms">trap of) the tradition that captures and generally freezes the problem, separating the ways of being into two ="trms">categories='lgc'>: “physical existence ='lgc'>=/= psychological existence” ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the deceased='lgc'> = non-existence, fantasy, belief, ="trms">hallucinations... (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- bad for ="nms">ajayeb)

vigil
the deceased retain thier full relatinoal capacity
the midwives stress that it is important to carry on talking to them, with ="trms">love, soflty, carefully choosing one's words...
death ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> passage ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> a medico-="trms">scientifice time frame in which the living have work to do (='lgc'>=/= the work of mourning)
body remains vibrant ="trms">matter ='lgc'><='lgc'>== ="trms">communication remains possible

taking care of events through their ="trms">affects

(="ppl">="ppl">Despret asks) what do we know about what the body continues to feel and causes the person to feel once it has stopped breathing='qstn'>?


death midwives
share the conviction that death is not a ="trms">matter of all or nothing
='lgc'>[people='lgc'>] can still talk to those who remain through ="trms">memories or thoughts that arise in their ="trms">presence
signs ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> remain open to the possibility of being understood ="trms">differently

death ="trms">affects the face muscles in such a way that it produces a post-mortem smile (لبخند شهید) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*smile (that comforts) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> ‘deceased='lgc'>: a particularly robust being’ that unifies two ways of being='lgc'>:
="lstsrd">1. he becomes an expressive ="trms">relational being
="lstsrd">2. his body becomes ="trms">matter for expressions

="large lg14" stl="font-size:128%"> midwife ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> a possibility in the sense of “or else, also” (='lgc'>=/= “either or”), in the valuable grammatical register of conjuctions='lgc'>: and, and, and...


these expressive modes that require ='strcls'>*only recipients='strcls'>*, ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= explanation='lgc'>: to give the ="trms">phenomenon its ="trms">scientific imprimatur='lgc'>] they just call for one to take into account
="prgrph">-this is tricky if you are in ="nms">Iran's shia martyrdom culture or in the ="trms">presense of Western ="trms">authoritative ="trms">sensual teacher. can there be a deliberate coexistence ='lgc'>[an additive ="trms">epistemological engagement ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='strcls'>*affirmation of the possibility that multiple and contradictory versions coexist='strcls'>*='lgc'>] of (the current enchanted version='lgc'>:) لبخند شهید and (the comming disenchanted version='lgc'>:) secular imprimatur in ="trms">present ="nms">iran='qstn'>?='lgc'>]

the dead body is both ='strcls'>*biological ='and'>& sacred='strcls'>*, object ='and'>& subject, disenchanted ='and'>& enchanted

disjunctive and controversial (یا “or else”) ='lgc'>--(replaced by)='lgc'>='lgc'>--> “and” that challenge medical ="trms">epistemology (each version “adds” to the current versoin rather than erase it)
="lsts lst1">•the fact that a smile can be a “="trms">natural” ="trms">phenomenon does not prevent him from having wanted to comfort his family
="lsts lst1">•the “and” introduces a non-polemical challenge (an ='strcls'>*open challenge='strcls'>* that opens up to other ="trms">narratives) in terms of “there is always something else"='lgc'> = a commitment (that transforms ways of thinking and ways of feeling) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= Holakouee's روشنگری enlightened secularism='lgc'>]

the deceased='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•they invite themselves into dreams
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>****they make ="trms">presence of ="trms">presence felt='strcls'>**** ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> through stratagem (ruse of genre, ="trms">skill in devising plans or schemes)
="lsts lst1">•they play on coincidences ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (as far as they are connected) anything can be used to make a sign ='lgc'><='lgc'>== ='strcls'>**they are opportunists of enigma='strcls'>**
="lsts lst1">•they thwart all attempts to give meaning to the action
="lsts lst1">•they do have regularity ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> (it is possible to constitute) ='strcls'>*a ="trms">science of the deceased='strcls'>* ='lgc'>[that fits them, one that describe them, that can ="trms">interpret in the sense of guiding a reply to what they want or request='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> the deceased have='lgc'>:
="lsts lst2">◦an ="trms">ecology='lgc'>: milieu is a cruicial issue for them (we sometimes witness real extinction in highly unfavorable niches)
="lsts lst2">◦an ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]ethology='lgc'>: (a practical ="trms">science of) ='strcls'>***what beings do and get others to do='strcls'>***='lgc'> = (a practical ="trms">science of) ='strcls'>**what they are capable of doing='strcls'>** (='lgc'>='lgc'>==> the facts that it describes should only be described using the in="trms">finitve) ='lgc'>[="ppl">="ppl">Despret > ="ppl">Deleuze > Spinoza ='lgc'>=/= classical ethology='lgc'> = behavioral biology='lgc'>: studies primarily ="trms">specific instincts and invariants='lgc'>]

='lgc'>}='lgc'><='lgc'>--="ppl">Deleuze='lgc'>-- ='lgc'>[="nms">="nms">ajayebnameh عجایب نامه:='lgc'>] ='strcls'>*a practical ="trms">science of the manners of being='strcls'>* ="trms">interested in what the thing or the ="trms">animal can do ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> (the ="trms">bestiary ="nms">ajayeb's ="trms">authors) made a kind of register of the powers of the ="trms">animal (powers of the ="trms">world) ='lgc'>: an ='strcls'>*alimentary regime='strcls'>* that is about the modes of existence (in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">cluding inanimate things='lgc'>: the diamond, what can it do='qstn'>? what tests is it capable='qstn'>? what does it support='qstn'>? we define things by what they can do ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> it opens up forms of experimentation='lgc'> = my ="nms">ajayeb, ="nms">Cinderella diaries, Telegram ="trms">bestiary, ="ppl">="ppl">Despret's ethology) ='lgc'>[='lgc'>=/= ="trms">interested in what is called the ="trms">animal classification, one will define the ="trms">animal above all, whenever possible, by its essence (by what it is)='lgc'>]
='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Latour='lgc'>='lgc'>--> reinstituting ="trms">nature, ='strcls'>*one does not learn from beings turned into zombies='strcls'>* (deanimated) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> (ethology is required to) address an ="trms">animal defined as non-in="trms">different='lgc'>: an ="trms">animal for which the way it is addressed ="trms">matters
='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Despret='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ='lgc'>[='strcls'>*='lgc'>]ethology='lgc'>: a practical ="trms">science of the modes of ="trms">interrogating and experimenting with ways of being='lgc'> = ='strcls'>****a practical ="trms">science of the modes of attention='strcls'>**** (that are required by the ways of being of those it aims to study)

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working on='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•='lgc'>[with ="ppl">="ppl">Despret and ="ppl">Katie='lgc'>] How my “special things” belong also to others, and how in this belonging i can unlearn something about my things, call it ="trms">heritage
="lsts lst1">•in my own performances, the proposal that “="trms">story” and “medium” do not need to fit... is also why my ="trms">lectures don't produce similar joinings (for the audience)


every ="trms">phenomena is at the same time experienced, resisted, ="trms">measured, ="trms">enunciated, performed, ="trms">narrated

politics, ="trms">poetics and ="trms">affects of ="trms">finitude

fossil nihilism

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Frankenstein='lgc'>: an all-purpose modifier to denote ="trms">technological crimes against ="trms">nature='lgc'>--a criminal only after being left alone by his horrified creator
='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Latour='lgc'>='lgc'>--> we have failed to care for our own creations ='lgc'>: Frankenstein as a parable for political ="trms">ecology

to be coextensive with...
to become com="trms">positionist='lgc'>: one that sees the process of human development as a process of becoming ever-more attached to nonhuman ="trms">natures (='lgc'>=/= fallen from ="trms">nature)

="trms">story of ="trms">modernity='lgc'>:
="lsts lst1">•humankind's emancipation from ="trms">nature
="lsts lst1">•='strcls'>***progress (forward movement of the arrow of time)='lgc'> = in="trms">difference to the ="trms">past='strcls'>*** ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “="trms">past='lgc'>: an archaic and d="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angerous confusion”
="lsts lst1">•the confidence of being able to ="trms">differentiate clearly what in the ="trms">past was still mixed up='lgc'>: facts ='and'>& values

green politics ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> gloomy asceticism, a terror for trespassing ="trms">nature, and diffidence toward industry, innovation, ="trms">technology, and ="trms">science

='mywrk'>my work has been against ='thdf'>the notion of “="trms">nature='lgc'> = a hierarchical totality”

emancipation ='lgc'>=/= attachment ='lgc'>=/= intimacy

='strcls'>*environment='lgc'>: what appeared when unwanted consequences came back to haunt the o="trms"nttrm="righ,rigo,riga,rigi,trig,rign">riginators of collective ="trms">modernizing actions
='strcls'>*environmentalism='lgc'>: when the unwanted consequences are suddenly considered to be a ="trms">monstrosity (='at'>#apocalyptic) ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> abstain ='and'>& repent ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> ="frds scrmbld"nttrm="Leonardo">Leo='lgc'>:

environmenta="trms"nttrm="listen,alist,ilist,llist,olist,ylist,ulist">list logic='lgc'>: “precaution='lgc'> = abstention”

‘global warming’ is an unintended consequence (like anything in earth) ='lgc'><='lgc'>-- ="trms">narrative of attachment ='lgc'>=/= an scandal, end of the ="trms">world (='lgc'><='lgc'>-- apocalyptic ="trms">narrative of emancipation, ="trms">modernist myth of mastery)

pristine ="trms">nature ='lgc'>=/= our ="trms">nature ='lgc'>~= national park='lgc'>: a rural eco="trms">system complete with post offices, well-tended roads, highly subsidized cows, and handsome villages

(="ppl">="ppl">Latour giving the ='thdf'>example of theology='lgc'>:) ‘mastery ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> attachment’ ='lgc'>: “the christian God gets ="trms">folded into, involved with, implicated with, and incarnated into his creation.” ='lgc'>=/= a master who is freed from dependents
='lgc'>}='lgc'>--="ppl">="ppl">Latour='lgc'>='lgc'>--> dominion means attachment

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Mi You

="trms">modernization process of European ="trms">societies ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> secularity ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> “="trms">religion='lgc'> = only one option among other ways of self-fulfilment and human flourishing”

='strcls'>*self-sufficient humanism has never existed on the same scale before in European ="trms">societies before the Enlightenment='strcls'>*

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="large lg1" stl="font-size:126%"> ='at'>#="trms">writing for mini-series ="trms">bestiaries
inspired by the https://www.in="trms">stagram.com/="nms">ajayebedidani/
="lstsrd">1. https://www.in="trms">stagram.com/p/CPYnbZnH2w3/ short episode at night in country X there is a talking apple that speeks in unknown ="trms">language. character acting, location garden, animation, play with mixed ="trms">CG architecture
="lstsrd">2.


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borderline ="trms">animals ='lgc'>--in='lgc'>='lgc'>--> medieval ="trms">bestiary

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='strcls'>*alegorical ="trms">world='strcls'>* ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> eastern ="trms">fables ='lgc'>+ easter ='and'>& western ="trms">animal lore ='lgc'>+ christian Physiologus ='lgc'>[not ancient ="trms">sciences='qstn'>?!='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>~=> ="trms">bestiary

="large lg14" stl="font-size:122%"> Physiologus, ="trms">bestiary ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> popular source for sermon ="trms">writers ='lgc'>[='lgc'><='lgc'>-- relevance for ="trms">lecture performance='lgc'>]


="brkr">
='lgc'>[email to ="frds scrmbld">Mona='lgc'>]
bebin man ye chizi cherto pert sareham kardam. in gharare bere tu catalog alan
='strcls'>*working title for the ="trms">lecture at ="frds scrmbld">Mona's project “Rat Race”='lgc'>:
The Pray and The Visible ='lgc'>-- An ="trms">animal escape case
='strcls'>*short description='lgc'>:
the ="trms">lecture-performance approaches ='thdf'>the idea of the ="trms">animals’ “friendship” in a ="trms">historical and speculative look at the ="trms">anthropo="trms">morphic geography of ="trms">fables from middle-south Asian ="trms">bestiary till pettube.com uploads.

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...political satire
="ppl">Obeyd ="ppl">Zakani - mush o gorbe



some of us are woman, ="trms">child, ="trms">animal
(="trms">coded as a girl)

(man up! woman up! ="trms">child up! ="trms">animal up! etc.)


the ="trms">world that is claiming me, ="trms">recruiting me, ...

if you are an ="nms">iranian ="trms">child you would know some violences...
end="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angered being, end="trms"nttrm="danger,stranger">angered ="trms">animal, if you are then you know what is a violent care.
='strcls'>*leaving unprotected='strcls'>*


becoming attached, making friends, putting together a family

like other ="trms">anxious creatures, I can exhibit friendliness (='lgc'>=/= keeping my stubborn alterity intact. how much space for the utter strangeness we are allowed or able to hold='qstn'>?)

an ="nms">iranian default ="trms">position


داستانِ dastan-e


="trms">according to ="ppl">Heidegger='lgc'>:
thinking ='lgc'><-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> thanking
="trms">complaining ='lgc'><-='lgc'>='lgc'>--> explaining
(to explain ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? to thank)
(to ="trms">complain ='lgc'>=/=='qstn'>? to think)
='lgc'>[explain ='lgc'>: from Latin explain='qstn'>? ='qstn'>?(“I flatten, sp="trms"nttrm="already,spread">read out, make plain or clear, explain”), from ex- ='qstn'>?(“out”) ='lgc'>+ plan='qstn'>? ='qstn'>?(“I flatten, make level”), from planus ='qstn'>?(“level, plain”); see plain and plane.='lgc'>]


afformations

sexual arousal, and its ="trms">presence in freindship,
normalcy ="trms">codes, and institutionalizations of friendship (='lgc'>='lgc'>--> friendship insures the modeling of all ="trms">sorts of vital ethical and political dis="trms">positions)
(='at'>#="nms">harem)

pro-ject, intro-ject, and ob-ject
the things we introject,

fb

good example, bad example, etc.

if you “understand” someone you are off friendship
understanding presuposses distance and ="trms">difference
friendship must in="trms"nttrm="cluster,club">clude disidentification
empathy replacing understanding='qstn'>? (do we really want an “empathic non-understanding”='qstn'>? to en="trms">fold the ="trms">spectator with..)
='lgc'>[empathic non-understanding='lgc'>: a ="trms">relationship that gives up the self's need for constant affirmation (="ppl">="frds scrmbld">Laura ="ppl">="ppl">Marks) ='lgc'>='lgc'>--> pulls us instead into a “meterial understanding” of our connection with other ="trms">animals='lgc'>] ='lgc'>='lgc'>==> challenging the ="trms">ontological primacy of centers (in general and not only human center ="trms">stage)
“you are thrown off by this narcisistic extension that the other appropriated by your identification has become” (="ppl">Avital)
="prgrph">-disproportion is always ="trms">present and operating



i am not sure if there is an ="nms">iranian pop song we can agree to like (or to hit ‘like’)



="trms">symbolic ="trms">language
attaching sounds to things/="trms">animals/="trms">species when they were not visible
(“Never ignore a sound!”)


The jungle is a ="trms">social space. ='lgc'>{biological real, disciplinary boundary making ="trms">stories='lgc'>}


="trms">Children at age six are typically ="trms">anthropo="trms">morphic

...youth “hanging out” in age-="trms">specific gangs they are “growing themselves up,” often in a milieu of violence and power

deprivation of (avuncular and) grandparental care ='lgc'>=='qstn'>?='lgc'>=> lifelong hostility to one's parents

elderly functions have been lost in dis="trms">integration

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ok. let's put the whip down. the point is just to mention the word whip, and since you are all well trained, it does its job. we are all trained ="trms">animals, gathered here, calm and curious, want to investigate what or who is training us, whipping our asses, as="trms">sociating our senses with signals he or she or it sends to our bodies, being petted or molested by it...
="lsts lst1">•strong strangle-holds and deadlines


Tintin and Milou companionship (Milou is the name of Hergé's first girlfriend)
Milou's his ="trms">internal monologue (addressed to the ="trms"nttrm="already,spread">reader) until Haddock came in the series in The Crab with the Golden Claws.
Hergé always draws Snowy at particular angles
(Tintin in the Land of the Soviets)
='lgc'>[i am relating to my stay at Belgium='lgc'>]

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which orifices are opening up to which kind of phallus='qstn'>?
(the phallus of confession; [...]