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-domination of the partially unseen in my own film, ‘vagabond’
-did I believe that only the buried dimension is sovereign?
-continuously interlacing experiences of solitude and immobility
-minimalist side of mysticism
-nomadic dispositions
-suspended (=the chasm of self-consciousness)
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aesthetic tactility over aesthetic fantasy
where is the cinematic-mystical ritual happening?
profound separation from the networks of social reality
the subjects betrays its own history
interrupting the transmission of the episteme
the result of mystic disjointment
stab-through and un-brace one once was
San'an's mechanistic commitments, he need to first book out of a place in order to write text, or to book himself in again
the San'an's poem's ‘Will'
is this instinct predicting what Attar will write? or explains
the mystic event is predicted by an instinct for abandonment and anonymity,
at the same time it mutates the urban environment in which it stage its runaways line.
the cityscape is cast into the frenetic rush of this disavowal, to the extent that it becomes the equivalent of the desert
what are the indentitarian qualifiers that San'an wants or needs to chain-break?
to be honest, Attar's San'an's poetry, is living by a roaming assemblage of assertions.
-in his Birds epic, he is bringing an instinct coalition that translates all movement into a devouring collectivity
once-mystical and now-postmodern tribalism (?)
(“I” threatens the nomadic workings of the pack event)
self
the exile does not need to exist / the community is desperate to exist (which is why it degenerates into totalitarian declarations
is Attar, in his poetry, obsessed with constructing mythologies of presence (and being represented)? (when he repeatedly tries to synthesize an “authentic” discipleship, ﻣﺮﯾﺪ
(‘Verrat'
going into vicious levels of self-consciousness
between all the lines of statement that Attar constructs, what is being suggested in his music or words?
San'an, taken by otherworldly crafts that signal him to become (gracefully) transfixed
far cry from the mystic's encounter with divinity
disavowal of (an explicit) narrative (trajectory)
is there in postmodernism then an alternative version of mystical experience?
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feeling like a foreign body, until you find a job?! (Attari as a job)
let's jam on this
this story is prior to psychoanalysis (?)
positionality, placements, displacements
a system that doesn't have access to its own knowledge
historical struggle for the definition of the real
I can't keep clean boundaries
rituals (of promise and contract), (things that) must address anxiety
what is the San'an text promising the Other? (like every text does, every utterance)
what it cannot
my childish playful inventiveness and its relationship to weakness.
so I come up week, saying ‘let us do this or that,’ but that is a will to power (?)
we are here to understand the appropriation of meaning.
what does or does not belong to the protocols of reading, etc.
(think in terms of de-appropriation, which entails a form of rigorous hesitation when assuming responsibility for the work or thought of another) is that what I am practicing encountering the work of Attar? as an ally or ancestor or an unknown sidetrack of writing
different modalities of love and loving
I guess what I wanted to ask you is your love
I have been teaching Islam to you?! in a shattered and transgressive way
of course this not teach-according-to-definition
of course every demand is the demand for love
the SM-inserts in San'an story
he is asked to perform some serious Sado-Masochist interactions with nonhuman animals, his favorite book, and Tarsaa as stage-manager
we are left with the task of reading the enigma of something that no longer is. if things ‘were’ we wouldn't need to be thinking, reading, running after them.
(I am reading the enigma of something that no longer is)
precisely Bayazid defines Tasawwuf/Tasavof as something that ‘was’ and had no name and today ‘is not’ and has name.
I am taking in terms of constructions and phantasms
doesn't have an experience to fire aggression
is it possible to be kind in a non-manipulative non-cognitive or non-calculative way?
San'an was booked “elsewhere,” he had a transcendental hearing, he had to take a call
-(eídōlon, “figure, representation”), from εἶδος? (eîdos, “sight”), from εἴδω? (eídō, “I see”)
-a phantom, a ghost or elusive entity (
-‘you still see them'
-eidolon is the image in water, apparition, ‘surat,’ a double / technical. idea comes from the word “to see” in Greek verbs, linked to
-why eidolon has the tendency to become an idol that talks back? (San'an practically encounters an eidolon and converts it to an idol. what Tarsaa asks San'an to worship is the confirmation of what sheikh has already done.)
-what is the secret of the vitality of the image that bewitches San'an? why dream/images, works of
-San'an is first captive of apparition (
-originality of the site is abolished by technological register of the ‘sent,’ (the telephonic cyber-space) of the eidolon