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‘naaareh’ -
far cry from the mystic's encounter with divinity
disavowal of (an explicit) narrative (trajectory)
is there in postmodernism then an alternative version of mystical experience?
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feeling like a foreign body, until you find a job?! (Attari as a job)
let's jam on this
this story is prior to psychoanalysis (?)
positionality, placements, displacements
a system that doesn't have access to its own knowledge
historical struggle for the definition of the real
I can't keep clean boundaries
rituals (of promise and contract), (things that) must address anxiety
what is the San'an text promising the Other? (like every text does, every utterance)
what it cannot
so I come up week, saying ‘let us do this or that,’ but that is a will to power (?)
we are here to understand the appropriation of meaning.
what does or does not belong to the protocols of reading, etc.
(think in terms of de-appropriation, which entails a form of rigorous hesitation when assuming responsibility for the work or thought of another) is that what I am practicing encountering the work of Attar? as an ally or ancestor or an unknown sidetrack of writing
different modalities of love and loving
I guess what I wanted to ask you is your love
I have been teaching Islam to you?! in a shattered and transgressive way
of course this not teach-according-to-definition
of course every demand is the demand for love
the SM-inserts in San'an story
he is asked to perform some serious Sado-Masochist interactions with nonhuman animals, his favorite book, and Tarsaa as stage-manager
we are left with the task of reading the enigma of something that no longer is. if things ‘were’ we wouldn't need to be thinking, reading, running after them.
(I am reading the enigma of something that no longer is)
precisely Bayazid defines Tasawwuf/Tasavof as something that ‘was’ and had no name and today ‘is not’ and has name.
I am taking in terms of constructions and phantasms
everything that comes at you, which is persecutory, is absorbed. that being able to crucified by the other.
doesn't have an experience to fire aggression
is it possible to be kind in a non-manipulative non-cognitive or non-calculative way?
San'an was booked “elsewhere,” he had a transcendental hearing, he had to take a call
-(eídōlon, “figure, representation”), from εἶδος? (eîdos, “sight”), from εἴδω? (eídō, “I see”)
-a phantom, a ghost or elusive entity (
-‘you still see them'
-eidolon is the image in water, apparition, ‘surat,’ a double / technical. idea comes from the word “to see” in Greek verbs, linked to
-why eidolon has the tendency to become an idol that talks back? (San'an practically encounters an eidolon and converts it to an idol. what Tarsaa asks San'an to worship is the confirmation of what sheikh has already done.)
-what is the secret of the vitality of the image that bewitches San'an? why dream/images, works of
-San'an is first captive of apparition (
-originality of the site is abolished by technological register of the ‘sent,’ (the telephonic cyber-space) of the eidolon
-how is it naive to think that you are dreaming? that what you are seeing and hearing is not ‘real’?
San'an going to Italy (Vatican?)
a mapping is going on
his cognitive defend system is down (
and the question of technology?
how technology breaks up and breaks into all sorts of
San'an is at a primal scene of aggression?
provoking hostility
there is no sweet device that should supposed to suspend hostility, there is no magic flute in San'an story
why am I taking so many detours? whether this is describable at all
discursive formations
the teacher vs. trainer
the teacher that asks for your interiority
Attar, the great and complicated poet
also my own attachments to certain formations
what cognitive back-up system he uses?
and so on
(the students) cannot cognize (San'an's program)
forecloser, foreclosing you
distribution of value, action, and non-action in San'an
we also add on cultural anthropological tracks to see which cultures or groups-psychologies practice San'an's teachings and in the service of what
(does San'an practice the will to obedience and to listening?)
what (the hell) does he want (from Tarsaa, from her Being)?!!!
to let the other go
I am talking about Attar so we can properly lose him (this is not about finding)
I have to exhaust, frustrate, and abuse my own mystic or non-mystic tendencies and preferences in this
this is kind of a
after he dreams...
the event (‘vaghee’
“tafaroj” (
he is walking the walk,
how does he get through the borders!?
was it a ‘Road to Canossa’?
(Humiliation of Canossa, refers to the trek by Emperor Henry IV from Speyer to Canossa Castle in Emilia-Romagna to obtain the revocation of the excommunication imposed on him by the Pope Gregory VII. He was forced to humiliate himself on his knees waiting for three days and three nights before the entrance gate of the castle, while a blizzard raged in January 1077.)
San'an's event could be that he [...]